Wednesday, September 26, 2007

it's been..about 5 months.. too many things have happened, i'm sure most of u already know what has been happening in my life, and really, there's just too many. I'm finally jaded. Yes, jaded by the world.

I hate it, when people lie. More so, if theyre supposed to be the closest to me. (But sorry, the moment i found out you all lied, the word 'closest' ceased to exist.) Life has only gotten worse for me these few months. I don't even look forward to my birthday, or look at what might lie ahead.

Life's a vacuum.
lost ~no angel~ at 2:20 PM

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

okeez...i know i know...i said i update soon, i know my soon was really long...sorry guys...been busy preparing for the NTU open, and my graduating recital...was kinda hard during that week...cos the shooting open was on a wednesday, and the recital was on saturday...n cos i had a previous wrist injury, i had to watch my training, just in case i overtrained...n risk injuring my wrist...cos if i did injure my wrist, i'd have problems playing the piano...anyway, i survived that week...and the recital, though playing wasn't perfect that night, i guess that the few of us got closer through all the rehearsals and dinners...well, i know i had fun during the dinner after the concert...=) ...now i have to prepare for the post ACC dinner @ my place!!!...27th march, k people?...don't forget...i'll send out the invites to ur emails!!!...alritey...if u guys have any dislikes n likes re food, do let me know k...can't wait to see u guys during dinner!...matt, sorry abt that day k?...pls pls pls come for the dinner!!!...*hugzZ*
lost ~no angel~ at 3:17 AM

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Wednesday, December 06, 2006

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

sth's wrong with my tagboard!....n i dunno what to do abt it...lol...i'll figure it out when i have the time, right now, i'm busy preparing for the big presentation on friday, n of cos, my report...haha...i still have a long way to go for the report, but i guess if i really sit down n do it, i should be able to complete it quickly...lol...i guess i'm just procrastinating....n that is NOT good...lol...guess i gotta write up my report now...oh wells...if anyone knows what to do abt my tagboard, do tell me via email or msn yea?...lol...tata!
lost ~no angel~ at 1:16 AM

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Sunday, October 08, 2006

lol...i'm so happy...i managed to track down someone...lol...
lost ~no angel~ at 1:56 AM

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Friday, October 06, 2006

yes yes, i AM back from camp!!!!!...ok...here's what happened...

well, i was a litle reluctant to go initially...but i guess when i got there, it wasn't all that bad actually...ok, i admit i freaked out a little when i realised that we had to get into a small little boat that would rock like crazy if it wasn't balanced properly...and having a spolit lifejacket didn't quite help securing my insecurities...lol...but then,the campsite was gorgeous, it was just pure nature around...

DAY 1: had to set up our own beds in the longhouse...boys on one side, girls on the other...it was fun...haha...i'm just thankful my bed didn't collapse in the middle of the night...although that thought DID cross my mind when i attempted to turn to lie on my side and the bed creaked...lol...anyway, my grp went for the Swampforest Walk...i learnt so many things!...saw the traps that the Orang Asli used for hunting, and learnt loads about Limitation, Adaptation & Innovation...like the leaves that we could chew n put them on wounds...interesting huh?...and then it decided to rain on us...and smart vanessa hee DID NOT bring her windbreaker along, so i literally walked in the rain, but i enjoyed it loads!...(i mean, how often can u do that?) ...then walked much further into the forest, ate some plants,like the Lema yok (i dunno if i spelt it right), well supposedly, most herbevious can't resist it...it tasted like salad and guava to me...haha...

learnt abt the trees in the forest, like the panther tree...it's supposed to have posionous sap, but the panther is kinda immune to it...so it likes to perch on the lowest branch and ambush animals...oh yea, saw some wild boar tracks too!...n yes, not forgetting, the endless times i got stuck in the mud...alrite, it wasn't like endless times, but many times though...thankfully i managed to get myself out...once i did, i helped the others!...haha...n it didn't help that the instructor (AB) was taking pictures of us getting stuck...haha...

but i had great fun during the walk...after we came out from the swampforest, i kinda felt like this is what life should be about...i mean, nature's just simply beautiful, but i guess not many of us really do take time out to appreciate it this way...many of us city people don't like getting dirty, much less getting stuck in mud, but hey, that's what nature is all about!...

hiked back to the campsite,n queued up to wash my shoes...they were flithy!...haha...took my time to do so...with someone always 'borrowing' my water...afterwhich he would just stand next to me without saying a thing if he needed water...haha...n not forgetting, after i had washed my shoes,....n while i was washing my hands...that same guy came along, used my tap and poured the dirty water onto my shoes!!!...luckily it wasn't THAT dirty, but it still got my shoes dirty again...grrrr...at least he apologised upon realisation...haha...

then it time for wash up...ok, the toilets?...small, yes...n u get to watch a 'live' nature show while showering...cos u're accompanied by the spiders, the huge red ants, mosquitoes etc...lol...showering after the sun goes down or before the sun rises, is a BIG NO-NO...cos...u can barely see a thing!...lol...

dinner was great...but u have to wash all ur utensils first of cos...then came the firefly cruise...it was my first time...and they are sooooo beautiful...for me, it was just enough to sit in the boat, listen to the sounds of nature, watch the moon, the stars and the forest in the night...it was just simply....beautiful...at that point in time, i wished time would just stop there,the night, was just perfect...

supper n lights out!...

DAY 2: woke up at 5.51am...no thanx to licia's alarm clock, which only i heard n had to poke her in the back to wake her...met two of my other classmates on the way to the toilet...saw many stars...n i wished i could just lie down on the grass, and just stare at them...i've nvr seen that many together...and it was just like a dream come true...lol...

anyway, got my other two classmates to accompany us to the toilet cos it was so darnit dark n creepy...so they stayed with us,provided us with light and waited for us to finish washing up...thanx guys!...had breakfast at 7, n got ready for Gunung Arong...took us abt an hour or so to the resort, where we had one last toilet break n water refill before setting off for Gunung Arong...*phew*...to be honest, the initial ascend made me a little breatheless, but i managed to pace myself well...and i had to help look after some of my classmates...n ended up as last girl...lol...but i didn't mind it...what matters most is that my classmate made it up!...of cos,i had the annoying instructor (ok, he's not THAT annoying, it was quite entertaining though...)behind me...cos he had to carry my classmate's haversack...n i nearly knocked myself many times while talking to him...haha...but the conversation was fun...lol...but i kinda regretted telling him that i liked to depend on myself more...haha...cos he said he would help me, but i just said i liked to try to do it on my own...n he just simply said...'good good'...haha...and yes, his endless reminder that his motivation to the summit is lunch, of which i told him lunch wasn't my motivation...haha...and he asked me to humor him...so i asked him to ask me again, so i could answer what he wanted to hear...haha...

the view from the summit....beautiful...had lunch there, took loads of pictures...chatted with my friends...and then we begun the descend...this time, i was technically still the last girl...haha...just that one of my classmates was behind me this time...n two of the other guys in my class were ahead of me...haha...it was kinda weird...cos we were supposed to be spread out in the grp...haha...but it was fun being behind...i got to see more things, cos when i had to wait for my turn to cross the harder obstacles, i had time to look at the trees, the leaves...and spiderwebs...lol...

i had great laughs with my classmates too...yes, one of them talked till he didn't see the tree branch above his head n walked right into it...i'm sure it hurt bad...saw huge trees...Bronze sth...alamak...then took some pictures by request of licia...and then continued on with the walk...descend was generally easy...except for the few leaps n climbs over some rocks n trunks...of which the annoying instructor wouldn't give me his hand to help me!...lol...after the person in front of me had crossed the obstacle, he'd keep his hand...n i would say, 'eh....help me lehz...'...haha...

till later on, i said he was bias...cos everytime it came to me, he'd wouldn't help!...(n he said it was only me he be this way to! haha...)...n he said i always scare him cos i always jump (which i DID NOT)...lol...but he'd still give me his hand n offer me help anyway...haha...but it was fun...after the descend, we walked to a pristine beach, and i took some photos of my frens n i, the islands ard the beach, and sat on the sand with my frens...i had great fun there...n my classmates n i were thinking of ways to dry a shirt on the beach...haha...afterwhich, we decided to hang it on a branch stuck into the sand...haha...

then walked down the coastal beach...climbed many huge rocks...and while i was thinking abt how bad an idea it was to slip n fall, my classmate slipped, but she ddn't suffer any cute watsoever...lucky her...i scratched myself against a broken bark and i get 4 red lines on my thigh...grrr...

then came to this point where we had to remove our shoes and walk in the water...walked at the edge of the sea barefooted...n it was great fun...it provided great comfort to my toes (which were aching) and my blister too...the entire area was jsut huge!...only the trees, the sky, the beach and the sea...n me walking by the sea...

then went back to the resort, had a niccceeee, refreshing drink...then went back onto the bus and took a nice nap...=D...

then washed up and had dinner!!!...campfire and we put up our skit...(which i found out from one of the instructors today that it was funnieee...ahhaha)...

DAY 3: went for the asli water obstacle...i was really good at the monkey bars!...haha...did it twice...lol...n i fell like twice on the balancing beam...darnit...haha...i hada perfect swing at the Berok Swing!...(at least Lisa says that)...washed up, helped to pack up the canvas beds...had lunch...great chilli...n then cleaned up the area and time to go!...
lost ~no angel~ at 11:17 PM

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Monday, October 02, 2006

it's been some time since i last wrote sth...haha...been busy lately...n really tired...oh well, time flies, and the holidays are ending soon...the new term's starting...n i feel like i haven't had any rest!...oh wells...the congress is finally over, but i admit i did have fun at the congress, mainly cos of the food...aha...and being treated like royalty...(maybe cos i get to simply leave my empty cups n plates anyway, and having someone to clear them for me, and having someone greet u 'Good morning' when u come up the escalator even though u're late...haha)...

well, some stuff has been happening...am i annoyed?...ya, i guess so...but i dun think it's wrong for me to be annoyed...i don't even think it's my fault...haha...sometimes i even wonder why i have to compromise myself so much even though the other person doesnt seem to care as much...do i say that it's crap? honestly, yea...i think it's crap n unfair to me...but what can i do?...the other party's kinda like a stubborn mule...can u imagine not being able to tell that person his own flaws when he keeps mentioning urs? all just cos u dun want that person to get angry?...kinda feels like he has a plank in his eye, but still picks on the splinter in mine...

i'll try to let it go...(notice i said TRY...) but honestly, when She comes back, i'm NOT going to be a happy person...what am i talking abt, i'm not exactly a happy person now...oh wells...maybe independence is better too...but i guess no one should blame me if it seems like i don't care...
lost ~no angel~ at 6:06 PM

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

You like to be surrounded by four solid walls.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.
What does your handwriting say about YOU?
lost ~no angel~ at 12:43 AM

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Sunday, September 03, 2006

argh, i'm so sick and tired of reality...haha...but then again, i'm a little tad lazy to write...lol...kinda lazy cos i have to go back to NUH for a wk's attachment...n reporting time is like 0830 hrs?!?...that means i have to be up by 0645 hrs and out by 0715 hours...(-_-")...judging by my sleeping pattern, it's going to be one long week for me...hahaha...oh wells...tata
lost ~no angel~ at 1:32 AM

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Thursday, August 31, 2006

well, i've thought abt it...n seriously, i mean why do i have to try to like everyone when there are some people that i really don't have to like?...i mean, it's hypocritical to do so,rite?...ok, that's crudely putting it...to put it nicely, it's being tactful...haha...oh wells, it's the holidays now..n i'm so bored!...but i'll be having a one wk attachment soon...so...oh wells...i guess by that time,i'll be complaining that i have to wake up so early...hahaha...anywayz...shall stop here..tata....
lost ~no angel~ at 2:49 PM

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Saturday, August 19, 2006

today's paper was........argh...do-able i guess...though when i first flipped it open, i was like 'WHAT?!?'...but then as i really thought through it, i slowly understood it...i guess the best news delivered to me was from my class rep, cos he told me i passed my class test...cos i was soooo convinced i was going to fail it, and to hear him tell me i passed, was a day brightener...n well, i got back my tutorials and stuff, all of which i did quite well...so i'm quite happy...for now, i shan't think abt my gen/pro - teomics paper...cos it's over...it's time to focus on my other papers...can't wait till the week is finally over...n if anyone has any spare brain cells, mind loaning me?...cos i seriously am in need of some...ahha...alritey...time for me to open my notes...tata
lost ~no angel~ at 12:08 AM

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

i know even if i write this here, the person who it's meant for, won't read this cos she doesn't know it exists...

it's just really weird how come some people who are shallow themselves dare to be judgemental and call others shallow and superficial...and dare to act as if they're some perfect gift from above...this world seriously needs a reality check...don't want to sound judgemental, but seriously, these people need to look in the mirrors and into their hearts, and stop trying to act perfect and criticise others just because u're popular...everyone's entitled to an opinion, my opinion? stop trying to be perfect, cos honestly, nothing's perfect and seriously, stop trying to be someone u're not cos it's obvious and NOT natural...n don't ever think that if u're popular, people like you cos to be honest, people will only like u cos they stand to gain from ur popularity and sometimes, they don't like u cos of u, they like u only cos u're popular, once it's gone, u'll be left with no friends...trust me on that...
lost ~no angel~ at 4:43 PM

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

ok, i'm here to update because someone has been bugging me on MSN to update...cos according to her, it's like some tv drama serial which is suddenly taken off air, without an ending...(-_-")...a little dramatic for me...but anyway,been busy in school lately...with the final yr project, and lectures, and studying...well, common test is just round the corner, and i really feel like i need to study so much harder...i dunno...well, i'll just try my best then...=) ...at least my FYP is out of the way...

been feeling very much independent these past few weeks...which is good i suppose, but bad to a certain extent too...cos it's a bit hard sometimes...but oh wells...shall not disclose much here...haha...but i guess i'm kinda happy with independence...speaking of which, i got my licence!...1st attempt...haha...n i'm going to get my own car!...=) ...no preying on my car ars...if u want a ride, n if it's NOT on my way, pay for petrol!...anyway...feeling kinda tired...been sleeping past 2 everyday now...n i'm looking like a little panda bear...so i better start re-adjusting my body clock, or i'd be stoned on the morning of the paper...so...here's the update, n i'm going off to bed...haha...
lost ~no angel~ at 2:37 AM

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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

ok, here's a question to the people in my class that read this...remember the order of draw? BD's order of draw states that blue comes before gold...but hopsital SOP is gold then blue...so in the test, what's the right answer?
lost ~no angel~ at 11:16 PM

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Friday, March 24, 2006

ok...got my results...lucky me...my results are pretty alrite...mostly on par with my classmates...*phew*...haha...but looks like i gotta study hard...cannot repeat the same mistakes again the next time round...moreover, it's my final yr...might as well be done n over with it...=) ...
lost ~no angel~ at 6:42 PM

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