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Monday, March 30, 2009
Wild horses run unbridled.
Saturday,
Work, for the coming month, i'm gonna have my Saturdays burnt. Tell me it's not gonna be a dreadful month when April comes. Anyhow, i would hope for work to take a turn after suffering badly in sales for the current month. I've made good progress on this Saturday, they just keep coming in. I had Art Of The Devil loaded and i stayed tuned til i finished the flick, finally left work at 11pm.
Sunday,
I was a lil agitated in the midst of my half asleep state in the morning, everyone at home was getting ready except me and no one bothered to wake me up. Just because no one told me to do so by a certain time, even though sister said she told me a few days ago which i couldn't recall a single bit of it. Anyways, not gonna make it a bummer day because it's sister's sweet 16th! Happy 16th birthday to you! What's the benefit of being 16? I can barely think of much except the ticket to watch NC16 movies, and well, she's no longer a minor. Myself, i'm getting the golden key in no time, although mom said that i stole it long before. So this year, it isn't much of a difference for me, i'm just officially independent and adult, by law.
International seafood brunch at East Coast with family and dad's brother's. Just a few bites from the first few dishes got me full. I whipped out the hidden surprise present from my pink bag, no one expected it though. Now she got herself a pink girly mirror for her desk, a chocolate bar comb and magnectic ear studs for her yet to be pierced lobes. Getting her something is a tough task, despite bringing her shopping, she was practically picky about everything from top to toe. I just figured out it would be a good idea to get her those, a bigger mirror for her to pop her zits.
Since it was still early, took a ride back home to cut Bakerzin's Oreo Cheesecake. It was definitely very sinful and cheesy.
Early date with Chris and Rina for some foxing and more sinful indulges at The Coffee Connoiseur. Sadly, it was the last class of our Argentine Tango, and our ending pose look a tad much better than the previous.
Korean dinner afterwards and i therefore declare that i've indulged myself too much with good food for this day alone. They always say, food gives you the endorphins to make you happy, but instead, i felt tired and not extremely happy. Was it because i have not been laughing a lot lately?
I didn't even feel better even after a nap before i turn on the computer.
Monday,
This morning, i woke up constantly for a few times since 8am, and eventually, i had this dreading feeling inside me. I certainly am not sure if my body knows it's Monday today and it's starting to bring in the blues to my day. Just an ultimate gloomy day, so much that i feel like gorging myself with food. I thought maybe a cuppa coffee might perk me up a lil, and some tapioca chips to get me started. So far, i'm still as blue as it has been since morning.
Alright, maybe i should stare more at the bright colour top i'm wearing today to brighten up the mood. My ankle has not been recovering from the constant pain, i must've injured the tendon. On a side note, i'm starting to see my biceps developing, i should put a stop to further biceps training. Why isn't my triceps coming out!
Mood as of 1.54pm.
At about 4pm, i managed to squeeze that first smile of the day, i had someone did a mohawk for me, unfortunetly, it's only a temporary thing. But hey, it comes with that sexy goatee!
A full moon is waiting in the twillight, maybe soon you will come to be my light.
Saturday,
Work, for the coming month, i'm gonna have my Saturdays burnt. Tell me it's not gonna be a dreadful month when April comes. Anyhow, i would hope for work to take a turn after suffering badly in sales for the current month. I've made good progress on this Saturday, they just keep coming in. I had Art Of The Devil loaded and i stayed tuned til i finished the flick, finally left work at 11pm.
Sunday,
I was a lil agitated in the midst of my half asleep state in the morning, everyone at home was getting ready except me and no one bothered to wake me up. Just because no one told me to do so by a certain time, even though sister said she told me a few days ago which i couldn't recall a single bit of it. Anyways, not gonna make it a bummer day because it's sister's sweet 16th! Happy 16th birthday to you! What's the benefit of being 16? I can barely think of much except the ticket to watch NC16 movies, and well, she's no longer a minor. Myself, i'm getting the golden key in no time, although mom said that i stole it long before. So this year, it isn't much of a difference for me, i'm just officially independent and adult, by law.
International seafood brunch at East Coast with family and dad's brother's. Just a few bites from the first few dishes got me full. I whipped out the hidden surprise present from my pink bag, no one expected it though. Now she got herself a pink girly mirror for her desk, a chocolate bar comb and magnectic ear studs for her yet to be pierced lobes. Getting her something is a tough task, despite bringing her shopping, she was practically picky about everything from top to toe. I just figured out it would be a good idea to get her those, a bigger mirror for her to pop her zits.
Since it was still early, took a ride back home to cut Bakerzin's Oreo Cheesecake. It was definitely very sinful and cheesy.
Early date with Chris and Rina for some foxing and more sinful indulges at The Coffee Connoiseur. Sadly, it was the last class of our Argentine Tango, and our ending pose look a tad much better than the previous.
Korean dinner afterwards and i therefore declare that i've indulged myself too much with good food for this day alone. They always say, food gives you the endorphins to make you happy, but instead, i felt tired and not extremely happy. Was it because i have not been laughing a lot lately?
I didn't even feel better even after a nap before i turn on the computer.
Monday,
This morning, i woke up constantly for a few times since 8am, and eventually, i had this dreading feeling inside me. I certainly am not sure if my body knows it's Monday today and it's starting to bring in the blues to my day. Just an ultimate gloomy day, so much that i feel like gorging myself with food. I thought maybe a cuppa coffee might perk me up a lil, and some tapioca chips to get me started. So far, i'm still as blue as it has been since morning.
Alright, maybe i should stare more at the bright colour top i'm wearing today to brighten up the mood. My ankle has not been recovering from the constant pain, i must've injured the tendon. On a side note, i'm starting to see my biceps developing, i should put a stop to further biceps training. Why isn't my triceps coming out!
Mood as of 1.54pm.
At about 4pm, i managed to squeeze that first smile of the day, i had someone did a mohawk for me, unfortunetly, it's only a temporary thing. But hey, it comes with that sexy goatee!
A full moon is waiting in the twillight, maybe soon you will come to be my light.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Think i'm invincible, i see.
Monday,
Work and gym-ed.
Speaking of tattoos and piercings, i've been under peer pressure and some kinda influence. And as planned and i have no turning backs, it's said i will be getting eyebrow, nose and belly done. As for the tattoo, it's pending as due to the number of considerations i'm taking in. It would definitely be strategically placed in a unique position and with unique design, i do not want to be seen with someone with an exact similar one. However, all these would only be followed up when my relocation is successful. Thinking of all these taking places, it gives me the creeps of how much pain i have to endure, especially when i have low pain tolerance. Even an ear piercing itself makes me jerk. Ever since that agenda came up, i kept pinching myself really hard at those spots, to get the first hand feeling of how it's gonna be like. Needles going through my sensitive skin, simply just freaks me out. Nonetheless with the end products with the span of years doing them, i would look awesome. Don't you think so?
Tuesday,
Work and gym-ed.
Wednesday,
Work.
On the way to work, i came across this monkey business and immediately, i knew i had to snap a shot of it for this fan of monkey.
A sudden change in my schedule, always impromptu and it somehow affects my mood.
Anyhow, muffin got himself a new job deal, seeing that much of zeros they'll be getting after work is submitted, it's also taking away much more attention and skype-ing off me. Not like it's something new to me though, i just kept reminding myself, it's worth the wait. Regardless of whatsoever, deserve a pat on the back from me, good job on clinching that deal.
At about 4.34am, in the midst of skype-ing, i heard loud screeching and skidding, and lastly, CRASH! For a moment, i had this chilling feeling down my spine, something bad must've happened. But i could not pluck up any courage to check it out.
Thursday,
Work and gym-ed.
Despite being put in that crappy place to work, i made it to gym for a third time of the week. I'm getting my ass back on the track after slacking for the week before. Oh well, i wasn't really slacking, was more of not feeling well enough, remember i caught a terrible cold? So, it was today, i pushed myself really hard on the treadmill, i almost felt like i would blackout any moment.
Back home, i was intending to just catch a few hours of nap before waking up to my usual, but apparently i slept through the night.
Friday,
Next thing i know, i jolted up at 9.30am, and i was just laying on bed, thinking if i got up last night. And apparently not, i even missed my dinner, my long awaiting dinner that i was so much anticipating for.
Skype for awhile before i head for another 2 hours nap, and now i'm teaching this guai lo how to speak Cantonese. He's gonna graduate speaking good Cantonese like any guai lo, it'll be a secret code language between us.
I'm heading to work now people, do miss me!
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me, super human heart beats in me.
Monday,
Work and gym-ed.
Speaking of tattoos and piercings, i've been under peer pressure and some kinda influence. And as planned and i have no turning backs, it's said i will be getting eyebrow, nose and belly done. As for the tattoo, it's pending as due to the number of considerations i'm taking in. It would definitely be strategically placed in a unique position and with unique design, i do not want to be seen with someone with an exact similar one. However, all these would only be followed up when my relocation is successful. Thinking of all these taking places, it gives me the creeps of how much pain i have to endure, especially when i have low pain tolerance. Even an ear piercing itself makes me jerk. Ever since that agenda came up, i kept pinching myself really hard at those spots, to get the first hand feeling of how it's gonna be like. Needles going through my sensitive skin, simply just freaks me out. Nonetheless with the end products with the span of years doing them, i would look awesome. Don't you think so?
Tuesday,
Work and gym-ed.
Wednesday,
Work.
On the way to work, i came across this monkey business and immediately, i knew i had to snap a shot of it for this fan of monkey.
A sudden change in my schedule, always impromptu and it somehow affects my mood.
Anyhow, muffin got himself a new job deal, seeing that much of zeros they'll be getting after work is submitted, it's also taking away much more attention and skype-ing off me. Not like it's something new to me though, i just kept reminding myself, it's worth the wait. Regardless of whatsoever, deserve a pat on the back from me, good job on clinching that deal.
At about 4.34am, in the midst of skype-ing, i heard loud screeching and skidding, and lastly, CRASH! For a moment, i had this chilling feeling down my spine, something bad must've happened. But i could not pluck up any courage to check it out.
Thursday,
Work and gym-ed.
Despite being put in that crappy place to work, i made it to gym for a third time of the week. I'm getting my ass back on the track after slacking for the week before. Oh well, i wasn't really slacking, was more of not feeling well enough, remember i caught a terrible cold? So, it was today, i pushed myself really hard on the treadmill, i almost felt like i would blackout any moment.
Back home, i was intending to just catch a few hours of nap before waking up to my usual, but apparently i slept through the night.
Friday,
Next thing i know, i jolted up at 9.30am, and i was just laying on bed, thinking if i got up last night. And apparently not, i even missed my dinner, my long awaiting dinner that i was so much anticipating for.
Skype for awhile before i head for another 2 hours nap, and now i'm teaching this guai lo how to speak Cantonese. He's gonna graduate speaking good Cantonese like any guai lo, it'll be a secret code language between us.
I'm heading to work now people, do miss me!
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me, super human heart beats in me.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
And i crinkle my nose.
Wednesday,
Work and gym-ed.
Thursday,
Work.
Kalai dropped by whilst at work, fun with ties and potato chips.
Friday,
Work.
Saturday,
It's been pretty recent that the usual timings have been getting later and so much that i fall asleep in front of my monitor. Now, the only thing would be for me to be supportive of the working assignments that comes along. I just ask for me to be involve in every single room of that house. I don't have to be of any help, just knowing that my presence would be of great help would be favourable and appreciative. I'm just the silent one, morally and mentally.
Vegetarian dinner at Quality Hotel for gramps' birthday. After dinner programme was just a short trip of shopping with sister, Cherlynn and Kalai.
After supper, what happened really got people worried and suspense was aroused. It all boils down to basic responsibility to inform about the whereabouts. There are times, when i think i would not stop the actions because i believe in self awareness and sensibility to know what's wrong and what's right, we shall call it a part of initiative. Somehow, if any mishap were to take place, i would be the culprit responsible for your actions, taking the blame for your moment of folly. For the sake of the bond, i went out all the way to take care almost every aspect, i guess no one would be as magnanimous as i am. My intention is simply to give my two cents worth of advice, i've walked this path, i'm hoping no one will take after mine. But nonetheless, you have to fall down at least once. It's time to learn how to be independent, i will be there to help you, nothing is impossible.
Sunday,
Tango lesson 7, as the lesson approaches to the end, the gaps closes up and i have to hold my breath to not inhale any bad breath. Xin Wang for dinner, 2 hours of chatter about ghost and supernaturals. Chris and Rina couldn't stop freaking me out about scars, cancers and stitches.
It's almost like a series of non stop events happening, i have a pretty interesting month of March by far. No matter what's been happening, i take it as a new thing learnt in my book of life. The only thing i'm very aware of is this thing that it going on, it's not for nothing, it's not just a simple thing, it's not just something. It's an indescribable feeling that's more than just special. And no, i'm not good in verbal words, and the best way to test this all would be my perseverance and actions of sincerity and how much it means to me if i don't have another day of everyday i'm having now. I am not paranoid, but it just simply creates that sinking feeling if i knew of the absence. In short, i seek what is present in front of me, not those around me despite the similar traits, if there is any. This metaphor might be quite difficult to decipher though.
Nonetheless, i always reflect back on my actions and words. It just finally dawn on me and makes sense, i long for the security and sense of belonging that only comes about with your views on violence which i pretty much don't agree totally that it solves everything. But it's just that term, violence, that might be just that one thing you might resort to, to protect the one you love, to fight for pride and dignity, to get justice. How you go hard on situations i might see and feel it differently, but all i know is, there is a compromise solution for anything. And that's what i find i'm attracted to in that personality, regardless of my views on violence, your own way of standing up for the one you love, standing up for your nation. I admire this courage that no one is willing to take this extraordinary step to make a difference. It takes opposites to attracts, not everything gotta go in the same direction to make things work. After all, you just need a violent person and one calm and sensible in thoughts to make it one whole piece.
No qualms and doubts, one fine day, you will know why you're unlike any others who carries the same distinguishing feature, why you stand out from the many, why i want this so badly in that once broken heart. Because, i'm the nurse in sexy outfit, with bandages and antiseptic, always there to mend any flaws to make it a part and parcel of life. I should bring a smile to that face right now.
Reminder to self, gym routine to start tomorrow before my PT decides to put me in the naughty girl category.
I always know that you make me smile, please stay for awhile and take your time wherever you go.
Wednesday,
Work and gym-ed.
Thursday,
Work.
Kalai dropped by whilst at work, fun with ties and potato chips.
Friday,
Work.
Saturday,
It's been pretty recent that the usual timings have been getting later and so much that i fall asleep in front of my monitor. Now, the only thing would be for me to be supportive of the working assignments that comes along. I just ask for me to be involve in every single room of that house. I don't have to be of any help, just knowing that my presence would be of great help would be favourable and appreciative. I'm just the silent one, morally and mentally.
Vegetarian dinner at Quality Hotel for gramps' birthday. After dinner programme was just a short trip of shopping with sister, Cherlynn and Kalai.
After supper, what happened really got people worried and suspense was aroused. It all boils down to basic responsibility to inform about the whereabouts. There are times, when i think i would not stop the actions because i believe in self awareness and sensibility to know what's wrong and what's right, we shall call it a part of initiative. Somehow, if any mishap were to take place, i would be the culprit responsible for your actions, taking the blame for your moment of folly. For the sake of the bond, i went out all the way to take care almost every aspect, i guess no one would be as magnanimous as i am. My intention is simply to give my two cents worth of advice, i've walked this path, i'm hoping no one will take after mine. But nonetheless, you have to fall down at least once. It's time to learn how to be independent, i will be there to help you, nothing is impossible.
Sunday,
Tango lesson 7, as the lesson approaches to the end, the gaps closes up and i have to hold my breath to not inhale any bad breath. Xin Wang for dinner, 2 hours of chatter about ghost and supernaturals. Chris and Rina couldn't stop freaking me out about scars, cancers and stitches.
It's almost like a series of non stop events happening, i have a pretty interesting month of March by far. No matter what's been happening, i take it as a new thing learnt in my book of life. The only thing i'm very aware of is this thing that it going on, it's not for nothing, it's not just a simple thing, it's not just something. It's an indescribable feeling that's more than just special. And no, i'm not good in verbal words, and the best way to test this all would be my perseverance and actions of sincerity and how much it means to me if i don't have another day of everyday i'm having now. I am not paranoid, but it just simply creates that sinking feeling if i knew of the absence. In short, i seek what is present in front of me, not those around me despite the similar traits, if there is any. This metaphor might be quite difficult to decipher though.
Nonetheless, i always reflect back on my actions and words. It just finally dawn on me and makes sense, i long for the security and sense of belonging that only comes about with your views on violence which i pretty much don't agree totally that it solves everything. But it's just that term, violence, that might be just that one thing you might resort to, to protect the one you love, to fight for pride and dignity, to get justice. How you go hard on situations i might see and feel it differently, but all i know is, there is a compromise solution for anything. And that's what i find i'm attracted to in that personality, regardless of my views on violence, your own way of standing up for the one you love, standing up for your nation. I admire this courage that no one is willing to take this extraordinary step to make a difference. It takes opposites to attracts, not everything gotta go in the same direction to make things work. After all, you just need a violent person and one calm and sensible in thoughts to make it one whole piece.
No qualms and doubts, one fine day, you will know why you're unlike any others who carries the same distinguishing feature, why you stand out from the many, why i want this so badly in that once broken heart. Because, i'm the nurse in sexy outfit, with bandages and antiseptic, always there to mend any flaws to make it a part and parcel of life. I should bring a smile to that face right now.
Reminder to self, gym routine to start tomorrow before my PT decides to put me in the naughty girl category.
I always know that you make me smile, please stay for awhile and take your time wherever you go.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Pull a trigger.
Sunday,
Unproductive day, the feeling of being stood up just annoys me, even for the fact it wasn't the first time. I just had a surge of emotions going through me, that's when i started whining and moaning. No one really treasures my presence, until they see how much i've been there for them, as much as they would never. It doesn't matter i suppose, all matter's that i'm still there for them when the need arrives. That's what best friends forever are for, they throw shit at you, you pick them up because no one would. Doing it for the right reasons of course, i'm no pushover though.
And somehow, it brings me back to memories, a reminder that friends come and go, the real and truthful ones stay, that's me. However, i appreciate very much for the listening ear to my incessant whines. I need a hug, or rather like you would say, a cuddle.
Monday,
Work.
Another day that adds on to getting on my nerves, my only source of entertainment at work decides to boycott me too. The inconsistent connection, god damn it.
Having some thoughts that ran through, i chose to be optimistic towards the rough times i'm facing. Have i not had enough? Frowning, does not only affect me alone, but the one whom i whine to. Although i'm not so much owned, i thought at my own accord, it would be just the wiser thing to do by not adding to further aggravation. If i think i'm having a tough life, think twice again, this is nothing compared to the worst i've never experienced. So why not, i put on a smile, be the optimistic half. Otherwise, who would light up this road, who would guide the way to where we're heading together? Let me be the Asian angel, you just walk, i'll be beside you.
Another day, i need a cuddle badly.
Tuesday,
Work.
For no reason, i started sneezing in the afternoon, no one was there to bless me. It got worst, my nostrils were totally blocked and i had to breathe through my mouth for the rest of the day. Not to mention, the heat in me is making me feel even weaker.
Even if i'm not okay, i have to be. Yet another day, i need the cuddle.
I'm just awaiting for sunshine after rain.
You should know when it gets too cold, you're not alone, i'll melt the snow.
Sunday,
Unproductive day, the feeling of being stood up just annoys me, even for the fact it wasn't the first time. I just had a surge of emotions going through me, that's when i started whining and moaning. No one really treasures my presence, until they see how much i've been there for them, as much as they would never. It doesn't matter i suppose, all matter's that i'm still there for them when the need arrives. That's what best friends forever are for, they throw shit at you, you pick them up because no one would. Doing it for the right reasons of course, i'm no pushover though.
And somehow, it brings me back to memories, a reminder that friends come and go, the real and truthful ones stay, that's me. However, i appreciate very much for the listening ear to my incessant whines. I need a hug, or rather like you would say, a cuddle.
Monday,
Work.
Another day that adds on to getting on my nerves, my only source of entertainment at work decides to boycott me too. The inconsistent connection, god damn it.
Having some thoughts that ran through, i chose to be optimistic towards the rough times i'm facing. Have i not had enough? Frowning, does not only affect me alone, but the one whom i whine to. Although i'm not so much owned, i thought at my own accord, it would be just the wiser thing to do by not adding to further aggravation. If i think i'm having a tough life, think twice again, this is nothing compared to the worst i've never experienced. So why not, i put on a smile, be the optimistic half. Otherwise, who would light up this road, who would guide the way to where we're heading together? Let me be the Asian angel, you just walk, i'll be beside you.
Another day, i need a cuddle badly.
Tuesday,
Work.
For no reason, i started sneezing in the afternoon, no one was there to bless me. It got worst, my nostrils were totally blocked and i had to breathe through my mouth for the rest of the day. Not to mention, the heat in me is making me feel even weaker.
Even if i'm not okay, i have to be. Yet another day, i need the cuddle.
I'm just awaiting for sunshine after rain.
You should know when it gets too cold, you're not alone, i'll melt the snow.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Ain't no doubt, so strung out.
Wednesday,
Work and gym-ed.
Thursday,
Work.
Friday,
Anticipated Friday the 13th, pampered day with Rina. Our hair appointment was booked at 1.30pm, only finally got out of the place 4 hours or so later. Having so much fun with our DS, mario karting while the old aunties there were ripping our heads off with sharp nails scratching. I love the feeling of those goosebumps sent down my spine when i was having my hair wash. Satisfied our growling stomachs with half a chicken and making sure it gets digested after.
I pretty much like my new hair, almost felt like leopard prints. Unfortunately, you'll only get the better view in real. But as soon as i wash my hair everyday, it's gonna start washing off, that's the thing with bright and fresh colours.
Tell me you love my hair too!
Saturday,
People, you should seriously watch the clip on Singaporean Singlish. And afterwards, James started sending me clips on prank calls to Asians. Tell me how can you not laugh while rolling on the floor? 3 cocks for the price of one, you have small cock, medium cock and BIG cock!
Gym-ed, i managed to do a full routine after so long. Dinner-ed with Kalai at Xin Wang.
Cause i already know how this thing go, you'll never find nobody better than me. Talking talking talking talk, baby let's just knock it off.
Wednesday,
Work and gym-ed.
Thursday,
Work.
Friday,
Anticipated Friday the 13th, pampered day with Rina. Our hair appointment was booked at 1.30pm, only finally got out of the place 4 hours or so later. Having so much fun with our DS, mario karting while the old aunties there were ripping our heads off with sharp nails scratching. I love the feeling of those goosebumps sent down my spine when i was having my hair wash. Satisfied our growling stomachs with half a chicken and making sure it gets digested after.
I pretty much like my new hair, almost felt like leopard prints. Unfortunately, you'll only get the better view in real. But as soon as i wash my hair everyday, it's gonna start washing off, that's the thing with bright and fresh colours.
Tell me you love my hair too!
Saturday,
People, you should seriously watch the clip on Singaporean Singlish. And afterwards, James started sending me clips on prank calls to Asians. Tell me how can you not laugh while rolling on the floor? 3 cocks for the price of one, you have small cock, medium cock and BIG cock!
Gym-ed, i managed to do a full routine after so long. Dinner-ed with Kalai at Xin Wang.
Cause i already know how this thing go, you'll never find nobody better than me. Talking talking talking talk, baby let's just knock it off.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Can't nobody do it better.
Tuesday,
Work, crappy place, and thus crappy mood. It must be pre menstrual syndrome too. I was near to closing my eyes, that's when i decided to go down to grab a cuppa coffee. Caffeine really do wonders, i was perked up immediately after sipping the hot brewing coffee.
Last night, while muffin was working on Mr. President's project, i watched a second telecast of 4bia. It was as predicted, seat jerking and lung breaking screams. The loud sudden sound effects with my headphones sticking close to my ears, inevitably made me gave a piercing shriek, even muffin laughed at the sight of how terrified i was.
Speaking of which, i have a really aching neck out of a sudden, it's not the normal aching but something really uncomfortable, don't remind me of Shutters please. I'm trying extremely hard to get a good positioning of my head, it doesn't sound good to me at all.
*Minutes later.. (as time creeps into Wednesday)
I was looking for the muscle relaxing plaster or spray, the next thing i know, i have this strong urge to throw up. Soon after, my dinner ended up in the toilet bowl, i also notice some ingredients from lunch. They didn't even have the chance to digest. What is wrong with me? I should tuck in now since muffin is already in dreamland, i'm coming!
My heart, i wanna save it for you, don't want it broken into pieces, i need myself to be whole.
Tuesday,
Work, crappy place, and thus crappy mood. It must be pre menstrual syndrome too. I was near to closing my eyes, that's when i decided to go down to grab a cuppa coffee. Caffeine really do wonders, i was perked up immediately after sipping the hot brewing coffee.
Last night, while muffin was working on Mr. President's project, i watched a second telecast of 4bia. It was as predicted, seat jerking and lung breaking screams. The loud sudden sound effects with my headphones sticking close to my ears, inevitably made me gave a piercing shriek, even muffin laughed at the sight of how terrified i was.
Speaking of which, i have a really aching neck out of a sudden, it's not the normal aching but something really uncomfortable, don't remind me of Shutters please. I'm trying extremely hard to get a good positioning of my head, it doesn't sound good to me at all.
*Minutes later.. (as time creeps into Wednesday)
I was looking for the muscle relaxing plaster or spray, the next thing i know, i have this strong urge to throw up. Soon after, my dinner ended up in the toilet bowl, i also notice some ingredients from lunch. They didn't even have the chance to digest. What is wrong with me? I should tuck in now since muffin is already in dreamland, i'm coming!
My heart, i wanna save it for you, don't want it broken into pieces, i need myself to be whole.
Monday, March 09, 2009
Turning minutes into hours.
Saturday,
Since the day before, i decided to start my inspiration on sketch book and pencil. I might start introducing more passions and interests in my life, i foresee more goals in life to be fulfilled. I got into a pissy mood because someone thinks i'm living off them, this issue has been going on and off so much that it frustrates me every now and then.
A 2 hour nap, i was granted a free pass to give gym a miss if i were too lazy. However, i managed to squeeze a 40mins session at night, off to meet Kalai for dinner. Settled for Pastamania with fantasies and ketchup.
Sunday,
Lesson 6, our tango is getting more seductive with the leg movements. Before class, i was running around checking prices of multivitamins and fish oils. I didn't have time for myself to slow down and take a look at mannequins displayed at the windows. Thai Express-ed to satisfy our hunger pangs. After a fulfilling meal, Rina and i carried the weight, supporting the arching back, it certainly looks like the real deal, beautiful mummies.
My mission of the day was to get the Cod Liver Oil by hook or by crook, otherwise, my PT would not be happy, mission accomplished after wrecking 4 shops.
Monday,
Work.
The mall was cold and ghostly, i had to change my position every now and then to stop myself from dozing off, even spinning bubbles doesn't help. A quick workout at gym after work, i would never underestimate the torture elliptical machines bring again. Now, i'm a sick and sore woman, heat from inside, terribly aching muscles on my legs. Disgusting smelling fish oils makes me queasy. I need tender loving care.
And i dream in shades that only can be, the colours of you and me, i think we both know what that means.
Saturday,
Since the day before, i decided to start my inspiration on sketch book and pencil. I might start introducing more passions and interests in my life, i foresee more goals in life to be fulfilled. I got into a pissy mood because someone thinks i'm living off them, this issue has been going on and off so much that it frustrates me every now and then.
A 2 hour nap, i was granted a free pass to give gym a miss if i were too lazy. However, i managed to squeeze a 40mins session at night, off to meet Kalai for dinner. Settled for Pastamania with fantasies and ketchup.
Sunday,
Lesson 6, our tango is getting more seductive with the leg movements. Before class, i was running around checking prices of multivitamins and fish oils. I didn't have time for myself to slow down and take a look at mannequins displayed at the windows. Thai Express-ed to satisfy our hunger pangs. After a fulfilling meal, Rina and i carried the weight, supporting the arching back, it certainly looks like the real deal, beautiful mummies.
My mission of the day was to get the Cod Liver Oil by hook or by crook, otherwise, my PT would not be happy, mission accomplished after wrecking 4 shops.
Monday,
Work.
The mall was cold and ghostly, i had to change my position every now and then to stop myself from dozing off, even spinning bubbles doesn't help. A quick workout at gym after work, i would never underestimate the torture elliptical machines bring again. Now, i'm a sick and sore woman, heat from inside, terribly aching muscles on my legs. Disgusting smelling fish oils makes me queasy. I need tender loving care.
And i dream in shades that only can be, the colours of you and me, i think we both know what that means.
Friday, March 06, 2009
There's no end in sight.
Monday,
Work.
Tuesday,
Work.
After reading so much articles about working out, my motivation is here once again. Gym-ed after work, and this time i dominated the treadmill for 20minutes. Boy was i aching, but this time round, it took a switch to my left leg instead. I was thinking, maybe i could replace it with the elliptical machine instead since it was said to have the same amount of effect, without causing much hurt to the legs because the feet are placed stationed there. Unfortunately, my PT immediately responded with a big NO. Now i'm in a tiny dilemma.
Wednesday,
Work.
I've been doing well with the time management of waking up, for the fact that i wasn't extremely late as before. Nonetheless, i've also noticed a drop in sales figure which somehow i assumed that it would be the problem of crowd. No doubt, it took some morale away, but tomorrow is always a better day!
Thursday,
Work.
Waking up from the bus ride, i realized the windows were foggy and wet with all the condensation. I had to ring up my sister to save me from the cats and dogs. After which, i got myself into a tissue affair, runny nose.
Friday,
Work, i only got there an hour and fifteen minutes later due to peak period hailing of cab and the congesting traffic.
I have always been someone who's impulse on making certain decisions, taking the plunge and never regret from it. I've got scars that would never heal because they are there to remind me the steps i took that made me someone beautiful today.
Today's bus ride home made my thoughts wandered so much, having to take all possibilities into consideration. With every point of aspects being taken with cautiousness, i slowly became aware of what i'm getting myself into, which somehow derived that i am prepared for what's to come when i embrace what i'm about to take a step in. And so, at some point of time in the midst of these thoughts running through my mind, i had sand in my eyes.
It's not something new for me, yet again, it's a whole new experience i'm gonna face. It's not about the long await but more of the painstaking unforeseen obstacles that will come standing in our way. I will never worry for my part, for i know how determine my will is when my mind is focused. Now that i've got my aim, i will have to take this long period of time to slowly inch towards the target. My decision, would be working towards what i want. If you don't give up, i won't either. To keep me going and motivated, i always turn to youtube, watching the clips i've favourite, i would be proud to be one of them, waiting and lighting that candle at home. Let's just work this together, hand in hand, cause i believe this is where the light is guiding. They have closed doors on us, and as said, to be fair, another door is opened, that is where we should be heading, together as one.
I'm just not your ordinary typical woman, i am Charmaine Lara.
If i fall, if i break, if i lose myself in someone, if i give all i am, it would be with you. It will be worth the wait.
Monday,
Work.
Tuesday,
Work.
After reading so much articles about working out, my motivation is here once again. Gym-ed after work, and this time i dominated the treadmill for 20minutes. Boy was i aching, but this time round, it took a switch to my left leg instead. I was thinking, maybe i could replace it with the elliptical machine instead since it was said to have the same amount of effect, without causing much hurt to the legs because the feet are placed stationed there. Unfortunately, my PT immediately responded with a big NO. Now i'm in a tiny dilemma.
Wednesday,
Work.
I've been doing well with the time management of waking up, for the fact that i wasn't extremely late as before. Nonetheless, i've also noticed a drop in sales figure which somehow i assumed that it would be the problem of crowd. No doubt, it took some morale away, but tomorrow is always a better day!
Thursday,
Work.
Waking up from the bus ride, i realized the windows were foggy and wet with all the condensation. I had to ring up my sister to save me from the cats and dogs. After which, i got myself into a tissue affair, runny nose.
Friday,
Work, i only got there an hour and fifteen minutes later due to peak period hailing of cab and the congesting traffic.
I have always been someone who's impulse on making certain decisions, taking the plunge and never regret from it. I've got scars that would never heal because they are there to remind me the steps i took that made me someone beautiful today.
Today's bus ride home made my thoughts wandered so much, having to take all possibilities into consideration. With every point of aspects being taken with cautiousness, i slowly became aware of what i'm getting myself into, which somehow derived that i am prepared for what's to come when i embrace what i'm about to take a step in. And so, at some point of time in the midst of these thoughts running through my mind, i had sand in my eyes.
It's not something new for me, yet again, it's a whole new experience i'm gonna face. It's not about the long await but more of the painstaking unforeseen obstacles that will come standing in our way. I will never worry for my part, for i know how determine my will is when my mind is focused. Now that i've got my aim, i will have to take this long period of time to slowly inch towards the target. My decision, would be working towards what i want. If you don't give up, i won't either. To keep me going and motivated, i always turn to youtube, watching the clips i've favourite, i would be proud to be one of them, waiting and lighting that candle at home. Let's just work this together, hand in hand, cause i believe this is where the light is guiding. They have closed doors on us, and as said, to be fair, another door is opened, that is where we should be heading, together as one.
I'm just not your ordinary typical woman, i am Charmaine Lara.
If i fall, if i break, if i lose myself in someone, if i give all i am, it would be with you. It will be worth the wait.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Ready for those flashing lights.
Friday,
Work.
My right leg is hurting, with the strain and the pain from the previous session at gym.
Saturday,
Work.
The weather made me forgo my plans, drenched in heavy pelting rain drops and cooled in freezing air conditioner on the way back home. It calls for a cuddle that i've long forgotten how it was supposed to feel like.
For the first time, muffin sang, not to me though, it's better than nothing.
Sunday,
Coffee with Frank and Prapti, catching up after close to 6months. It has been raining cats and dogs lately, and today was not spared. Our tiny island is somewhat flooded, every step you trod gotta be slow and steady if you wanna keep them dry. However, at the end of the day or rather after 5minutes, my white shoes got soaked and soiled.
On time for dance, i got a lil accustomed to the killer heels, complicated steps learnt. Again, after every lesson, we have to keep emphasizing on how much we don't wanna partner with this guy, breath stinks. Kenny Rogers with Chris and Rina, huge servings that were worth paid for.
There's this annoying and head drilling noise coming from outside my main door, it's the pipes of water producing this vibrating and unbearable low humming noise. I'm just trying to suppress it with loud booming music.
I'll be your girl backstage at your show, velvet ropes and guitar. Promise i'll be kind, but i won't stop until that boy is mine.
Friday,
Work.
My right leg is hurting, with the strain and the pain from the previous session at gym.
Saturday,
Work.
The weather made me forgo my plans, drenched in heavy pelting rain drops and cooled in freezing air conditioner on the way back home. It calls for a cuddle that i've long forgotten how it was supposed to feel like.
For the first time, muffin sang, not to me though, it's better than nothing.
Sunday,
Coffee with Frank and Prapti, catching up after close to 6months. It has been raining cats and dogs lately, and today was not spared. Our tiny island is somewhat flooded, every step you trod gotta be slow and steady if you wanna keep them dry. However, at the end of the day or rather after 5minutes, my white shoes got soaked and soiled.
On time for dance, i got a lil accustomed to the killer heels, complicated steps learnt. Again, after every lesson, we have to keep emphasizing on how much we don't wanna partner with this guy, breath stinks. Kenny Rogers with Chris and Rina, huge servings that were worth paid for.
There's this annoying and head drilling noise coming from outside my main door, it's the pipes of water producing this vibrating and unbearable low humming noise. I'm just trying to suppress it with loud booming music.
I'll be your girl backstage at your show, velvet ropes and guitar. Promise i'll be kind, but i won't stop until that boy is mine.
