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+ 31 Aug 1987
+ Virgo
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+ pessimistic
+ things are never easy alone
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♥ Sunday, May 30, 2010

numbers don't prove anything


don't remember the initial passion for getting twined
numbers, sure, it's growing, never ever stopped
looks good on the outside but tearing the inner me

photos to remind us of us? no longer exisiting
stopped at the instance you decided to hide behind that camera, clicking the button instead
memories came to a standstill

please make me recall why am i still doing all these?
youth is precious
don't make me look like a fool looking for love when i'm alrd a hag

i've had enough
you never felt anything was wrong
so i kept mum
are you too lazy to feel or are you blind?

feels like stranger alrd.


`utmostpersonal

10:37 PM

♥ Thursday, May 27, 2010

the world outside


recent years, i felt that i was forced to grow up
facing the changes in my surroundings are adaptable but tough
i'm packaged in a way that fears oftenly took the better of me
people always see me as the big-sized girl but with little guts
i admit it and of course i'm hurt


the girl you see before you, pushed through the odds to be standing right here
i was made to grow
became independent, believing that loneliless might not be that bad afterall
always been confused as to why my peers own close knitted family bonds
making me look like a clown yearning for comfort
slowly, i stopped comparing and moved on with life


so much so being independent
have always thought independency is my value
but i've been shot against


kept having thoughts running through my mind
is there such thing as growing up too soon, too fast?
i've never heard of the Snow White story in full
it was picked up bits and pieces while growing up
i never knew how to sang "Blah Blah Black Sheep"
found it weird how the lyrics can easily come out of one's mouth, like a bible.


i'm not complaining
i love my parents and am thankful that i grew up with them
no buts
i will still peserve my way no matter how low the pit may fall
my principles will still be firm
i will do it my way


`utmostpersonal

11:06 PM

♥ Saturday, March 27, 2010

the tabasco role


since secondary school days, i've had the habit of venting anger on fire


whenever i have the chance
i'll shake that bottle vigorously
so i have a generous portion of tabasco on whatever i'm eating


today
i'm having a foul mood
that fire can't seem to subside long after
so i decided to use the same old method


ANGER VS FIRE


leave me alone!



`utmostpersonal

5:57 PM

♥ Wednesday, March 24, 2010

dear friends


the morning was a bad startup
first, i was late for work.
also, i saw my email
next, my kindness was returned in a awful way.
thus, i shouted at my colleague.


i took quite some courage before drafting this post
this has been bothering me quite sometime
but i found nowhere to throw my burden


before i stepped into the society to work
i had everything
wonder friends in school, bf that i can rely on
soon, everything changed


maybe its the environment that changed me or the ppl around
i realise, my social life beyond my bf, are my friends
things have took a 360degrees change


i felt that i'm no longer in the league
topics differ, i understand
but what i don't accept is the initiative


i strongly believe friendships need 2 palms to clap
but all along, i felt, i'm the only palm
other than celebrations, we are all quiet


recently, i only took in out on being attitude
sometimes, a simple sms won't kill
i've thought long enough, what would happen after this post has been published
it will either make or break


attention seeker or childish, whatever
am just trying to solve problem rather than make the friendship go down the drain
drafting this post means i still value


would you even imagine i've cried myself to sleep countless times
just so you know



`utmostpersonal

9:39 AM

♥ Sunday, March 21, 2010

shivers


over the weekend, i was VERY disappointed with myself
not going into details, only BF knew


still in the process of making myself feel better
am searching...
if not, shall just adjust my mindset and fit into the current
since school's starting
but STILL, you know... its a dream!


what are my passions?
Japanese, Music, Singing, Shopping!
what else?
i think i'm just bonkers right now
no idea what all these words would lead me to


something's been bothering me
maybe i'm
maybe i'm not
whatever it maybe, just tell me the truth if that's what you have been hiding all these years
i'm old enough to decide
hahs! maybe i'm not that pathetic, afterall
at least i've a shelter over my head all these years
thank you! =)


*left*



`utmostpersonal

7:51 PM