ting:

*commercial break from hiatus*

exam preparation sucks. it's not like i don't want to study, because surprisingly, i do. i want to sit down and concentrate and lap up all the theory and the on-goings of this semester. i want to actually have enough information in my brain so that this time round, when i head into the exam hall, i won't be sitting in front of the paper twiddling thumbs and watching the clock tick by, wondering what to write. but somehow, for the weirdest of weird reasons, my concentration span seems to be limited to only half an hour a day. and after that half hour, everything goes downhill.

i think i know but at the same time, i don't think i know. then again, all brand managers know that recognition is so much easier than recall. to look and recognise the notes you made is so much easier than drawing them out from the depths of your memory.

prayers please.

darn, i didn't mean for this post to be an avalanche of pre-exam whinings.

was bloghopping the other day and i came upon this blog entry of someone who's halfway across the world.

"MONDAY, APRIL 25, 2005
Faith to be Broken
Luke 7:36-50 "37 When a woman who had lived a sinful life in that town learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee's house, she brought an alabaster jar of perfume, 38 and as she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them...44 Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, "Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46 You did not pour oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven--for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little"...50. Jesus said to the woman, "Your faith has saved you; go in peace."

Whenever I think about having faith to believe for something in my life, I think of receiving something beneficial. Faith for healing, faith for financial needs to be met, faith for direction in life. Rarely do I think of having the faith to be broken.

After all, I want God to restore the things in my life that are broken, not to come in and break the things that are already there.

It takes great faith to desire brokenness--just ask the woman who wept at Jesus' feet. When I read Luke's account, I find myself wondering what that moment must have been like for her. Did her mind whirl with thoughts of self-doubt as she tread the dusty streets leading to Simon's house? Did she know the scornful eyes and biting thoughts that awaited her? Did her heart beat painfully fast as all eyes in the room turned to look upon her at her entrance?

Did she wonder what his response would be?

She poured out her life before him with all its shame, and pain, and rejection, and as she washed his feet with her tears and anointed His feet with perfume she carried in the alabaster vial (Luke 7:36-37), her life became "the sweet aroma of the knowledge of Him" in that place (2 Cor. 2:15). She was moved by something far greater than the fear of man's response. She was moved by a faith that brought her to a place that the respected host refused to be--broken at Jesus' feet.

What most would have regarded as a position of shame became a moment of destiny for her. Great was her love and even greater was His as her place of brokenness became a place of blessing (Luke 7:50).

It's much easier to desire the faith to be blessed than to desire the faith to be broken. But we find real, deep blessings in our brokenness. For only when we are brought face down on our knees are we emptied of ourselves and poured out before him. And it is only then that we find true restoration.

Bottom line: Restoration comes through brokenness."

a very very powerful entry.

which also led me to think of something i've been pondering on ever since the start of this year. why is it we often place faith, hope and trust in man, when we know man is bound to fail us, when we know there aren't guarantees? so often do we open up to man, only to find ourselves disappointed again and again, but when it comes to God, when it comes to the one whom we know will not fail us, we hold back?

am in the midst of compiling my prayer list for all having exams/assignments. so please do let me know when your exam dates are (if you haven't already done so) so i can pray for you. :)

chin up all!

alrights. back to international trade and the weirdest models people who apparently had too much time on their hands designed.

*end of commercial break, back on hiatus*

Hui:

woots. went to eat delicious wanton mee at joo chiat road yesterday! a bit ulu.. but lucky keong managed to borrow car from his dad and drive augus and me there! i shall figure out how to go there by bus, then can u all there next time =)

as keong had to meet his friend at SMU, augus and i went window shopping in orchard area first b4 we all meet together again for movie at lido 1. been ages since e last time i went tere for a movie. esp lido 1. e huge theatre. e last time i watched a movie in that theatre was "The Others". anyway.. e moive that we watched was pirates of the caribbean. nice show! pity i din watch the 1st and e 2nd one. will buy the dvd/vcd and watch. i love that little monkey in e show. he's so smart and cute!

last stop was to the roti prata house along thomsom road. yum yum. good food!!

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went to the jurong bird park today. brought lili there.. cos her sch holiday starts liao. so good sia.. got sch holiday.. next time when i start sch.. damn sian lor. no work holiday, no sch holiday. haiz.

random: unsw sg closed down.. lucky i din sign up for that sch. =P

took lots of pics today. all on birds. a bit boring la.. but there are some nice/cute ones. will post them up when i have the pics. my hdd space onli got 1.75gb left! so pathetic. need to get one hdd during pc show next week.

ting:

assignments over.

now for exams.

bleurghhhh. but i guess it could be worse.

hiatus for now.

till my version of hell freezes over, please continue to keep me in prayer. :)

Hui:

ok, so i finally changed my age on the left-hand side. but pls note that im still a slacker, and my wishlist is still $$$. =P tt's if its something tangible. hehe

went to orchard to collect e 2 phones which i sent for servicing, and to buy fengyi's bday present. e whole gang (abt 8-9ppl) chipped in for e present. got a kenzo fragrance. =)

v v sian leh. tml got meeting. 1hr!! with e big bloody (new) team. sian!! going back to e team where i tried soooooooo hard to get out from. i think my current team will jus be a sub-team within that team. (my team = config mgmt, that team = pmo) so technically speaking, im not supposed to be pmo work. wahahah =P e agenda for tml's meeting is to tok abt e re-org and our tasks. i shall see how will be e new org structure like.

my haitstyle is so auntie now. arghh

ting:

because no one does a better job summing it up than neela.....:

"once the assignments are done, i've got exams. when exactly do these brilliant academics think we're going to get the time to study for their exams when we're all rushing to submit assignments? mind you, its generally the case in the exam that you can't write about the topic you did for your assignment. isn't that great?" (neela, 2007).

one more assignment to go before hell is unleashed in full force.

**edited**

i feel the exact same way i felt before a-levels. how is this possible???

everything about me is screwed up - the volatility in my moods (i can be experiencing blind panic one second, then total calmness the next), the extreme-ness of my appetite (one day, food makes me wanna throw my guts out. the next, i can eat three full meals a day and crave for more), the frustration of my sleeping habits (insommia's back after a relatively peaceful weekend. wasted 4 whole hours last night rolling around on my bed in an attempt to force myself to sleep).

relieved some stress while washing the dinner plates (i hope none cracked), then dragged toh sin and jo out to freddos, pouring all my stress and frustrations out onto them. sorry!! :( i know you guys have enough on your plate without needing to listen to me rant too! :( but thanks heaps for everything. :)

and you know something is really wrong with you when it's freezing cold and you crave ice cream, braving the winds (and not feeling a thing) to get it. sigh.

dear God, why can't You give me a 72-hour day?? (if anyone does a daniel and say "that's why God gave you three days", i swear i'll smack you.)

Hui:

ass man.. they wanna combine my small pathetic team with 2 other teams. i seriously need a damn org chart for my team. an org chart with a new supervisor and new manager, together with the 4 interns who will all be leaving end july. raaa... i have sooo much work to do and i dunno which intern can i ask to help. most of e time i'll jus do it myself.. cos . a lot of the tasks require background and knowledge. the time used to explain e bg is enuff to get tons of work done. haiz... they all say they dun learn anything (related to their field of study). true aso la.. but im sure there are loads of soft skills to pick up.

that stupid lego got a guy intern from EEE to do admin work. asshole man. i pity that intern.. stupid lego aso got another intern to write macros. F man. go so many macros to write meh?? ooo on a sidenote, HE HAS QUIT!! not on e project anymore!!! not in e company anymore! hahhaha.. dunno whether to be happy or sad leh. happy cos no one to irritate me anymore. sad cos no more jokes abt him and no one for me to scold.

my new supervisor is trying to learn her new role. and e new manager simply cannot make it. i shant go into details on how lousy he is. haiz.. they wanna merge 3 teams together right?? so y onli keong, esther and i are the onli ppl who are working like hll? the new manager din even bother to ask what we are going. and e other 2 members, wah kaoz. they can leave at 6+pm one lor.. -_- esther and i worked till 10+pm on wed. my team and old boss worked till 12+mn on thurs and friday. -_- sian to the max! i will give e manager till first week of june to show his capability on how he will manage e team. if not i'll kp to him liao. the mgmt is getting out of hand! shit keeps coming in and onli 3 (out of 6, excluding interns) ppl are doing it.

okay, i think this blog has become a ranting place for me. perhaps u all are v sian liao. but i still wanna rant somemore!! :P

sian man. esther's contract is ending, and i dun think she is extending. actually i aso advised her not to extend la. cos she really really dun like e job scope. but she's e onli one who has e bg and information on all e processes in all 15 bloody teams. and 1 of e 3 ppl in e team who noes how to use e software by IBM. so guess wad. i think e person who'll be taking over her is me lor, if they are not getting another person. wah seh, if like tt i'll leave aso =P raaa.. see how la. maybe i'll jus tahan till november.

ASS MAN. wad kind of management is this????

bought a dress on e net. free size. duno whether fitting or not man. lucky its not tt ex..

i think im losing contact with ppl.. no social life.. my blog posts are lacking of pics.. but full of rants abt work. not tt i have nothing to talk abt other than work. i jus feel it difficult to type out in words wad is really going on in my mind. ok.. maybe its time to be and learn to be more expressive.

soooooooo tired......

ting:

to my darling zuhairah...

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*hugs and kisses from down under*

and with regards to your thousand flowers, chocolates and teddy bears.. just wait and see. haha. if no postman arrives at your doorstep on monday, then come hunt me down. =p

and apologies for being such an idiot and thinking that today is the 18th. ughhh i still can't believe myself.

but yes! hope you have a great great great one, amidst your countless assignments, presentations and tests (and all the best for them as well!)!!!

rock on babes, and stop ignoring me on msn!! (you wait... i have message history as proof i msned you and you didn't reply!!)

ting:

insommia. is it a blessing or a curse?

it was blessings plentiful last night, when i was scrambling to get my unusually slow brain to churn up paragraphs for my assignment... i was still so incredibly awake at 5am.

it's a curse now, when i want to sleep and recover from my almost non-existent night yesterday and can't. i fell asleep at 8+pm in front of my case study, then woke up naturally without the alarm and here i am. wide eyed in front of my laptop screen once again.

this has been going on for weeks and it's getting on my nerves. why can't i sleep? stress? i doubt it. if anything, i'm probably more stressed up over the fact i am not getting enough rest. chalking up an average of only 4-5hours of sleep every night is worrying me.

and wei kee, your method isn't working! i stayed awake the whole entire night for how many nights and i still can't sleep! ughhhhhhh.

ting:

i'm beyond bored.

and i'm so sick of apple and its soon-to-be-released iphone (it'll be released in asia pacific next year). coming out with a marketing plan for something you are not entirely convinced of makes me feel pretty hypocritical. but it's something i ought to get used to.. considering it'll be my job after graduation.

and because i absolutely refuse to whine about the approach of exams and how i haven't done nuts because i still have 3 assignments to get through (one of which is due tomorrow), here's something stolen from pei's blog.

maybe i should stop doing nonsense stuff and go back to my advertising assignment.
i love the feeling of waking up in the middle of the night to my favourite song playing on the radio, then realising there is still a couple more hours to go before i gotta drag myself outta bed.
i don't understand why professors deem it necessary to put us through hell stage one (ie. assignments) even right up to the last day of the semester when we have hell stage two (ie. exams) to worry about.
i lose sleep frequent enough these days (and for reasons i don't know).
people say i am the epitome of impromptu-ness (i know there isn't such a word but.. whatever).
love is what makes the world a better place.
when i like someone i'll consider him/her as my friend.
somewhere someone knows the recipe for the best chicken rice/wanton mee in the whole wide world.
i will always succumb to anything fun-related.
'forever' is not a substitute for eternity.
i never want to say goodbye, though it's inevitable.
i think the current US president is not worth commenting about.
i will never get why my brain leaks on too regular a basis.
my past is a vital part of my memories.
my greatest fear is not doing enough.
i get annoyed when some people try too hard.
my dog has yet to come.
kisses are the best in the form of hershey's (chocolate! yum!).
tomorrow is when my assignment is due.
i really want more motivation, added focus and heaps of determination.
i have low tolerance for group members who don't pull their weight.

ting:

this post is dedicated to all the mums in the world:

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

my pastor was giving a sermon today (which i missed, incidentally, because i was on ushering duty and busy behind the scenes counting the offering money) on how great women are. caught only his wrapping up speech, which went along the lines of women being great warriors (to those who were in church listening: ehh, correct ah?) and fantastic human beings who have immense capacity to worship and convert anger into righteous anger (ie. prayer). =D so see women? you are God's very very very wonderful creation (and DON'T let the men tell you otherwise!)!!

and to my very own mum:

thank you for the wonderful mother you are. for all the love, grace and forgiveness poured upon me in my growing up years. for your patience, understanding and never-ending support. as a child, i used to draw spastic kiddish pictures of you winning the "best mother" contests and though i don't know how other mothers are like, as far as i'm concerned, you are still totally deserving of that title.

i love love love love love you!! =D

Hui:

hmm. we have in total 5 interns in my (and that lego's team) now. i dun understand y do they need to hire so many interns. seriously. 1 was already with my team since oct last year. so tt one's ok.. he noes a lot of stuffs already. e other 4 came in last wed and monday. 1 to help with some admin work, 1 to write macros (not sure if wad macros are there to write), 1 to help with ReqPro updates, and 1 to take over duties of someone going on maternity leave. i do not have a thing against interns, but i dun think e value added is a lot. most of e stuffs needs time to really understand and to be transitioned. now tell me abt it. they'll (e 4 new ones) onli be here till end july. by the time they understand e whole process/tasks, they'll be leaving already. and while we (ok la, i din teach much. =P) spend time teaching them, we still have tasks on hand and urgent deadlines to meet. and this results in working late and work piling up. haiz. oh wells, they are here to learn. but then again, im not sure how much will they get to learn.

wah, and i tell u. e interns nowadays are so damn rude. they think v highly of themselves. one of them jus pissed e shit out of one of my colleagues today. let's name my colleague V. my colleagues and i have never seen V flared up b4. not even when she is so fed up with lego. i was glad tt i missed e "flare-up" session. cos i left my seat to do some stuffs. according to my colleagues, V was teaching and briefing tt intern on a task, and that intern jus stood up and went to e washroom w/o having e decency to excuse himself. and b4 that, tension was already building up cos tt intern kept critising V's work and asking who (e ppl walking around e office) are. obviously V wouldnt know everyone. so she said dunno. and e intern said "y u dunno who is tt person? how can u not noe?" wtf lah, there are over 200 ppl on e project. how to match names with face?? so anyway, V flared up, turned to another colleague and said "look! wad kind of attitude is that!" who noes tt intern turned back and retorted "u were chatting away on meebo while teaching me wad" wah seh, power. wah lao, V was damn pissed man. and guess wad. 2 of my colleagues who are in-charged of e other 2 interns gave them a lunch treat. they din thank them. -_- CMI man.

in other news, one of e 4 interns is a female. same age as me. not bad looking la. and e ppl keep toking abt her. and of cos, she became part of our chatting topic when my colleagues and i went for dinner jus now. =P we like to gossip. went arcade after that. played that basketball game and mario kart! its something like daytona. so fun man. thought i came in last for that basketball game. =P

sian sian. so fast mid may liao. y is time passing so fast!! i need more time. but i think i need money more =P

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小時候常常望著窗外的天空
幻想長大以後
能實現從前作過的美夢

長大後發現世界真的不同
不知該要往哪走
還是停在原地一動也不動

我無力再逃脫　眼看著時間溜走
想回到小時候
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i still wan to sing.

ting:

ok this is so weird.

some of you might call it retribution. or maybe justice? i know tim would, he got incredibly worked up over it for me last night. remember my sucky group who refused to pull their weight? well, our second (and final, thank God) assignment is due today and once again, no prizes for guessing who did all the work.

so now i'm attempting to submit our assignment online but for some strange reason, i can't add my groupmates into the group i created. the system keeps telling me the maximum number of members have been reached.

jo and toh sin were laughing their heads off when i asked them. ummmmm.

so how now?

and sigh i'm totally exhausted. only slept a grand total of 2.5 hours, no thanks to this. i'll probably conk out during spiderman 3 tonight.

ting:

dear God, what should i do now???? :(

Hui:

and so! with e arrival of 2 managers, there'll be a major re-org for my team and another team. ahh.. please let me do config mgmt! i dun wan to count seats man.. and plsss make sure my new boss is e kind who will protect her ppl. else die man..

that idiot dumbass lego will be gone in 1 week's time! woohoo! time to throw a party. not farewell party, but jus, erm u noe, celebration =D he pissed e shit out of me today. blardee hell sent me a meeting invite (to introduce his new boss) with attendees ALL from his team. dunno wad is he up to. trying to tell ppl im from his team -_- and apparently, he has been going around telling ppl that -_- mus suan + whack him one (last?) time jialat jialat b4 he go man. next time no common enemy for my other colleagues and myself liao.

ahh.. i still have stuffs to blog but im tired.....

=(

ting:

it's about time. i was wondering when the stress and panic would kick in and exactly one month before exams, with 4 assignments and 3 weekly reports still to go, it has hit in full force. plus the bombshell peyli dropped on me today, which made me go into full panic mode. i won't fight God, but i just hope (and pray) i'm up to doing His will. tim and jo are being immensely supportive, and of coz i have peyli (for one more month at least) and rohan there as well, so it should be fine. ughhh. *stressed*

and this stupid bout of insommia is screwing up my biological clock. i can't sleep when it's time to sleep and i can't wake up when it's time to. i slept through all my alarms this morning, it was only tim knocking persistantly on my door that woke me up. ugh.

now, i don't mind the incredibly spaced out exam timetable. thank you God for not listening to me when i was asking for a jampacked crazy 4-days-in-a-row one. i need all the time i have left.

when reality hits, it has to hit in the hardest possible way.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh! exams, would you go away!!!!!???????

Hui:

watched spiderman 3 with augus and colleagues yesterday. not bad! went for e 1015pm show and took a cab home.. cos e show is abt 2.5hours.. no public transport except for cabs liao.

i'll be having a new boss soon! next week. and!! lego sago is leaving! a bit sad la.. cos no one to gossip abt and no more jokes already. his last day will be one e 16th. when another new manager comes in (e one he's supposed to report to if he stays). actually he's quite ke lian la. not sure who will have a farewell for him.. maybe onli his team mates bah, which there are onli 3 other ppl. well, i think each and everyone will remember him for what he has done, and for all the laughter he has brought us =P

from next week onwards i gonna act guai kia at work. reach and leave ON TIME. LOL... mus set expectations for my new boss and not let her think that i will stay and do OT (though i do this all e time). so tt its easier for me to sneak off at 6pm next time =P hope she is a nice lady! else jialat...

there's this news abt a lady who worked for straight 8 hours non-stop and died after that. and everyone's toking abt it now. say dun overwork... after awhile mus move a bit.. blah blah. so i told e perm ppl (actually onli augus and keong la): u should feel lucky that u do not need to wake up at 3.30am everyday. (if this sounds consoling enuff =p) ok, tt's a sidenote. after reading e news, i guess it is hard for others to understand y that lady still hung on to that job despite e stress and long-working hours. i guess she jus wan to do her best, earn more money so that she can bring her mum on a holiday. haiz.. but 2.6k for that kind of job is not worth it. dunno which mnc is that lady from. heard tt its hp. haha

haiz.. lili's maths exam is on monday and she has totally no clue on how to do ALL her maths questions. teach her until i wanna vomit blood liao. as u all noe, i have little patience and im no good in teaching. so i got damn frustrated. dunno how to make her understand man... augus's teaching lili how to do maths in e living room now. and i mus say that he has A LOT more patience than me (and other ppl).

ooo forgot to update abt my kayaking on labour day. it was fun! though my arms are so suan. im waiting for e pics~~ anyway, we went cycling after canoeing. and my legs are aching as well. really din wan to get up and go to work e next day. whole body aching lor.. my back was aching too. i really too long nv exercise liao.

i guess there's nothing much for me to blog abt liao. life's boring without money (esp in sg).

ting:

in the middle of doing my advertising tutorial, my friend msned me and the following conversation ensued:

Mitheran says (7:02 PM):
hey wenting
i need a favour. Its for a friend whos trying to help another friend etc etc
its a complicated chain that has something to do with impressing some girl or something im not too sure lol
Mitheran says (7:05 PM):
do u have a sample "marketing plan"
delusionary preoccupation says (7:14 PM):
huh???
delusionary preoccupation says (7:14 PM):
you want a marketing plan to impress a girl??

hahahaha!!! apologies for actually finding this amusing, but when you have nothing to look forward to except three pieces of tutorial work and the outline of three different assignments to come up with over this weekend (coupled with the distraction of youtube), the slightest bit of things strike you as hilarious.

turned out his friend didn't actually want a strategy to get the girl, his friend wanted a sample of a geniune marketing plan to impress the girl he's after. chey.

but for those who want one...... hehehehe.. check this out: http://www.xanga.com/mileschen/565847696/from-friends-to-more-than-just-friends.html

don't take it as the gospel truth though! (and thanks jo for supplying the link to this site.)

ting:

hmm. things have been pretty intense as of late and everyone's been under pressure of some sort. so rather than focus on that all and cause a downward-spiral effect, allow me to entertain you with yet another traumatising event that happened to me tonight (though i'm no longer traumatised of coz, thanks to a great sermon and the company of my lifegroup members and churchies. :)), which further emphasises the reason why your parents taught you as a kid to "never talk to strangers". seems like i don't learn, do i? especially after last year's erm.. encounter.

so jo, tim and myself were standing at the flinders tram stop, waiting for the 48 or 75 tram which would whisk us away to the haven called Assembly of God. we were talking, because hey, that's what friends do. along came kay, another fellow churchie, so we happily engaged her in conversation. now, when almost a hundred percent of your attention is on something, you don't quite take into account the teeny weeny details which would prove to be all-important (though jo did notice. but that was HER part of the story, which i wasn't aware of at that time). mid-conversation, i saw this black, stick thin guy in yellow lingering around behind kay. it wasn't unusual to meet fellow church-mates at the flinders tram stop, so i happily assumed he was her friend (though according to jo, he only appeared a long while after kay arrived) and also going to church. (lesson number two here is never to assume. i won't go into the cliche sentence of how it makes an "ass out of you and me" but you get my drift.)

he came around our tight group and stood somewhat behind jo and me. strangers don't usually do that do they? unless they have a hidden agenda of some sort. which further added on to my misconception that he was someone from church. and out of the blue, he asked me, "are you from indonesia?" (i realise that it ALWAYS starts off like that. the last time something like this happened, the fella asked me if i was from thailand.) remember i was still under the happy impression he was harmless, so i turned and teasingly asked him to guess, which was a MAJOR mistake. (all my friends wanted to smack me thereafter. sigh. i do the stupidest things at the most inappropriate times.)

and after my "friendly" (or "flirty", according to jo, if you misinterpret it) response, he latched on to me. he just kept talking and talking and talking (and part of me was still thinking he was from church) and when i tried to delve back into the still ongoing conversation the rest were having, he went as far as to tap me on the arm to get my attention again. -_- how to ignore him like that?

a few minutes into the conversation and a lingering suspicion (and alarm) started wiggling its way into my mind, that maybe he wasn't from church. tram 75 then came and in good time, because it was that exact moment he chose to introduce himself and ask me for my name. (tim was suggesting AFTER that i should have gone along with a guy's name, then tell him i used to be a guy. haha.. good one. i'll keep this in mind but hopefully, i won't ever need to use it.) i was stalling, because i didn't quite want him to know. boarding the tram was the perfect excuse for not answering him but to my utter dismay, he followed us on.

random shoutout but WHY COULDN'T HE BUG SOMEONE ELSE IN OUR GROUP??? GRRRR.

this was probably my most excruciating tram ride in melbourne, because, unlike last year where i could walk away, there was nowhere to go on a tram. he spent the entire time (by then, i was a hundred percent sure he wasn't from church) talking to me which was very painful because firstly, i couldn't understand 80% of what he was saying. secondly, he was asking me questions about my religion and saying things like "God and Jesus aren't the same. you can only believe in one. Jesus is not God." 0_0 if i were as brave as peyli, i'd probably invite him to go along with us to our service and find out for himself. third, he started asking me personal details which i wasn't in any bit inclined to divulge.

was attempting to catch tim's eye as he was diagonally across me. everytime he looked at me, i'd try to send him a non-verbal message to intervene and get me out of this. and what did that stupid fella do?? look at me, then look away and continue his conversation with jo and kay. -_- -_- -_- thanks yeah, tim?

my facial expression probably depicted pain because kay jumped in halfway to talk to me. and i was praying she wouldn't stop, because i didn't want to go back to talking to him. but a lapse in our conversation and he was back demanding my attention. sighhhhhhhhhh.

i got seriously scared when he asked me for my number. there was no way out of this, so i told a blatant lie and said i didn't have a phone. (thank God i didn't take out my phone mid-conversation and pretend to answer a call, because i was seriously toying with that idea.) he then wanted to give me HIS number so i could call him. -_- right. i sure would. he then started lamenting on how he wouldn't be able to talk to me or see me around or how he could linger around the city or richmond area and that if he saw me, he'd come up to say hi. ahhhhh! i started praying then, though my prayer only consisted of two words: God, help! i don't want to think how it'd have been like if i was alone; three friends with me there and i was dying.

and THANK YOU GOD because he got off the tram before we did. the second he got off, everyone (and i mean everyone) turned to me. my three friends, the girl seated next to me, the guy seated next to jo, the girls seated behind tim. they were all like "woahhhhh" and yeah, that was how bad it was (or how visible my agony was). then kay said i handled the situation very well. yeah right, if i did, i probably wouldn't have gotten myself into it in the first place.

it was only after a major meltdown and freaking out session in church where wengyan and peyli bore the burnt of it that i calmed down somewhat. phew... i should master the art of looking immensely unfriendly. the "bug me and i'll bite your head right off" look.

grrrr. because if i didn't look so friendly, maybe jo would have been the centre of his attention (he made eye contact with her first). and since she had the wisdom to realise, right from the start that he probably wasn't from church, she would have done a better job at detaching herself from the situation. haiz. but nevermind. it was a lesson learnt right?

so folks, don't go around talking to strangers. you never know what you might get yourself into.