Hui:

wah.. super broke this month. gotta really save up when i get my dec pay liao.. though i think it's impossible cos i'll be going on a trip b4 i get my jan pay. sad sia.. =( y super broke this month? cos i bought a hp for my sis.. and all e xmas gifts exchange.. buying a hp for my sis as a xmas and bday present =) i dun wan her to think that i cannot give her better stuffs than wad her friends and our cousins have. and i dun wan her to always use my "second hand" stuffs.. and stuffs that i dun use anymore. this is aso to motivate her to study harder and to make her feel loved. tt's y i decided that even if im going to survive on bread everyday i would still wan to buy a hp for her. anyway it has been a long time since i have bought her a really decent present.. as in something she really really like and really really want. am so glad that she loves e phone =)

as for e xmas exchange presents that i've received.. sad to say it was a disappointment for both times. e first gift that i got is a music box. and it's jus purely music box. but of cos with some lights and penguins moving here and there. it's kinda cute though. e second gift is from ben (ting's and jana's cute guy). he gave me a santa hat which i cannot wear.. cos it is freaking small.. even my sis aso cannot wear.. and a book. and wad book is that? a book which teaches u various positions on how to make love. wah lao, all e gifts i got are totally useless. but nvm la.. wadeva.. it's e season of giving.

met up with da ge yesterday. toked a bit abt his very recent ex.. and of cos some gossips lah.. wahaha.. it was good seeing him after so long.. like 2+ months. after that dd came to pick me in a cab =)

wah liao.. keep raining and raining nowadays. my feet and shoes are soaked whenever i stepped out of buidlings.. so er xin and smelly.. lucky today no rain.. as in there's no rain whenever i step out of sheltered areas.

wheehehe, 1.5days more to holidays!! and slacking at work next week! woo!

ting:

life is a whole lot simplier in melbourne sometimes. especially when you throw arguments and family politics out of the way.

troubled over a lot of things. please pray.

everything electronic is also giving up on me. my camera screwed up ages ago (still waiting for the nikon service centre to get back to me with the quotation), my laptop just crashed the other day (hence, am going on a msn and blogging hiatus after this post till christmas is over i suppose. assuming my laptop gets fixed by then.) and now, my mp3 player is starting to act cranky (or it possibly might be just the headphones).

wishlist for this christmas? that everything would be ok in the end.

would this rain ever let up?

ting:

daniel's coming down on saturday!!! *jumps around in glee* but that stupid fella gave me such short notice.. i don't even know where to bring him to. orchard road? i think they overdid it on the christmas decorations this year. was commenting to adel that there're too much gold lights involved. it looks like a woman wearing too much gold jewellery, in my opinion.

and pei fei had to dash all hopes by telling me their plans for coming down to singapore are cancelled. grrrrrrrrrrrr. wei kee! don't you want a birthday present!??? oh well, it'll probably mean less shopping (and racking of brains) for me. but still. *sulks*

adel brought me to vivo city today. hmmmm. i must admit, i was a tad disappointed. though i don't quite know what i was expecting... something more glamourous maybe? guess all that i've heard about vivo city raised my expectations skyhigh. ended up going all the way back to good old orchard road for the fried mars bars. tasted that in sydney, but singapore's version served ice cream with it. i thought the fried mars bar in sydney tasted like nutella on toast. i think singapore's version tastes like nutella and ice cream on toast. not fantastic, but at least it's a hell lot cheaper than what sydney has to offer.

standing along the boardwalk overlooking the sea/sentosa today, i still think singapore bears a very strong resemblance to sydney. pity no one agrees with me. :(

ting:

back on home ground! and boy, does it feel good.

for the first time in my life, i ain't gonna complain about singapore's weather. especially not after i've survived temperatures of 37 degrees in melbourne. acks. so, humid or not, i'm gonna grin and bear it. plus there's all the aircon buildings to hide in. :D

pei fei's making me immensely excited. he says they might be coming down to singapore for christmas/wei kee's birthday! yay!!! though things aren't confirmed as yet, let's hope our plans can materialise. *cross fingers*

and i successfully bullied nick into treating me to haggen dazs/ben's and jerry's and buying me stuff back from hongkong. i think he went offline to avoid more requests from me. hehe.

plans for going to batam have to be put on hold, thanks to eny who "lost" her passport and is too lazy to go make a police report/make a new one. grrrrrr. eny! stop being such a bum. go do it!

forgot how much i've missed hui and ber, as well as the rest of the gang. dinner at eny's last night was entertaining, to say the least. and since she claims to be keen on whichever guy i'm interested in, i hereby declare that bernard is the guy i really really want. so eny, you don't have a choice. if you want the guy i want and i want ber, you have to go for him too. :) shouldn't be much of a problem really, seeing you already stole a kiss from him. :D (ok i sense i'm gonna get killed here)and here's a huge THANK YOU to hui for the wonderful presents. especially the pen and the chocolate with the very interesting packaging. photos up after i get my hands on my dad's camera (which bears a scary resemblance to khai's camera. it's impossible to master all its functions).

satisfied cravings such as roti prata and karaoke. sigh. my voice feels rusty. i can't sing properly anymore. not to mention how ber and hui constantly cracks me up while i was trying to sing something serious. bleh.

going roller blading on thursday. i sense i'm gonna be covered with bruises and scrapes by the end of the day.

Hui:

went to eny's brother's restaurant on wed with guo an, tsz shan, ber (and his partner), mei, hong, kelen and zihao. haiz.. shouldn't have went lor.. i had soo much stuffs to rush and i left at only 9pm. and they left at 10pm. when i reached, guo an had to leave -_- and eny was not there! they were saying like they wan to surprise her so no one called to ask if she's there. -_-

ahh... wed's the bollywood night. oh man.. dunno what to wear!! was asking daphne and fengyi what will they be wearing.. and they say some dinner dresses.. and actually they dun mind wearing sari if there are ppl wearing it. atcually me too la.. but it's expensive, and i'll most probably wear only once. anyway we have decided that we shall go tekka mall on sunday afternoon to take a look at the sari there. daphne says it's much cheaper. if not, we'll jus wear some normal dresses and go with some indian accessories. =)

my broadband's termination is on 27th. hmm.. need to go and sign up for starhub soon liao. else i have no internet connection! actually.. i dun use e comp that much liao..

project shutdown week faster come leh.. then i can SLACK!!! my profession!! dun think there'll be much to do. workload will be at it's minimum. =D my boss was saying that e project site might be locked up and we (the contractors) may have to go to raffles city tower. hmm.. whatever la.. can slack can liao. the time-table for that week is planned =P
9 - 10.30: breakfast
10.30 - 12.30: tok kok sing song play mahjong session 1
12.30 - 2.30: highlight of the day 1 - lunch
2.30 - 4.30: tok kok sing song play mahjong session 2
4.30 - 5.30: highlight of the day 2 - teabreak!
5.30 - 6: tok kok sing song play mahjong de-brief
woohoo!!
shit man, if my boss see this time-table i die sia..

am now in love with the hk drama: 冲上云霄(Triumph in the Skies). yes i noe it's an old show.. damn nice man.. heard that the ending is quite sucky. ahh.. still a nice show lah =P going to steal it from ting when she comes back! then i no need to "chase" the show until so jialat. every weekday 10-11pm. but if i steal e show from her, no need to chase and e show will be in cantonese! going to grab other shows aso. haha..

bth liao. going to sleep soon..

ting:

sigh. i'm just about going through the worst night of my life. to know or not to know. that's the huge issue.

a lot of false heart attacks. a lot of times i gathered up enough nerve to make the plunge, only to find out it was for nothing. ditched kester and jon so i could worry in peace, then fell asleep for 3 hours and even in sleep, i wasn't spared.

i have dreamt about at least 3 different sets of results. and as the dreams progressed, my results got worst. only woke up and dragged myself outta bed because i didn't want to dream about the possibility of getting only 30 marks in my next dream. let's hope it wouldn't become reality.

got so sick of it all i went to check both my email and the website again. nopes, still nothing. and so, we continue waiting.

not too sure how much my heart can take.

dear God, please. all i want is to have cleared everything.

ting:

if i tell you just how much i love you, would you not leave me?

don't leave!!!

like love is reason enough to not want to let a person go.

can't quite remember where i read this.. sometimes, no matter how much you want to keep a person by your side, you also have to realise it's time to take a step back and say goodbye.

i'm looking forward to saying hello. but i'm also reluctant to say goodbye.

to those who've been so much a part of my life, i'll be missing you.

till the next time we meet again, goodbye.

ting:

because we decided the world is a depressing place and we should brighten it up by thinking happy thoughts (actually, it was more because i was bored and, having been inspired by the graffiti on the toilet doors in melbourne uni's library, i talked adel and hui into doing this with me) and listing down the things which would make a person happy.

so... hold your horses. welcome to the joy ride.

1) for us to get a good deal for thailand!
2) for you to come back! (haha i can't help it if i'm so missed)
3) for it to snow in singapore
4) the waves of relief, whilst walking out of the exam hall after a last paper
5) all mosquitoes around us to die! (adel is in a murderous mood)
6) cuddling in a warm bed
7) waking up in the middle of the night, then realising there are a couple more hours to go before you have to get out of bed altogether (wei kee should be able to guess who came up with this. hehe.)
8) waking up in the middle of the night and hearing your favourite song being played on the radio
9) finally managing to get that stupid seed out of your back teeth
10) catching up with friends whom you haven't seen in ages
11) rock climbing!!!
12) getting a tanned! i'm so fair.. i look like .......... a fish! (definitely not written by me, especially after enduring a sunburn)
13) standing on the weighing scale and realising you shed a couple of kilos
14) planning for a holiday you know WILL materialise
15) Christmas decorations!
16) curling up in bed on a rainy day with a good book in hand
17) getting ting drunk (sorry adel, but you won't be able to get this satisfaction. *evil guffaws*)
18) seeing zuhairah again (it's time that girl come back from mars. or venus. or whichever planet she's on this time)(see zu! you're missed!)
19) every 28th of the month (it's payday for hui)
20) acquiring a little harry potter magic and make my belongings pack by themselves
21) finally getting to pee (courtesy of adel)
22) realising you passed a subject you didn't expect to
23) able to jump out of bed when my alarm rings.. no snoozing! (hui's weird.)
24) being able to snooze! (this is to counter hui's joy)
25) having a very nice sweet dream
26) sky dive
27) finding out the title of the song that you heard on the radio
28) coming home after a very hot day and peeling off the very top that is soaked in perspiration
29) covering myself up in a blanket and looking for a meeting room to sleep in after lunch
30) stealing ting's harry potter wand to help me in doing excel functions (huh, i don't even have that wand yet)
31) satisfying your cravings!! (mine is chicken rice for now..)
32) touch
33) not having to pack
34) seeing that the exam questions are what you predicted
35) chocolate
36) stoning (sometimes)
37) an unexpected compliment
38) having the person whom you don't want to msn you not msn you (no prizes for guessing who wrote this?)
39) having the person you want to msn you msn you (to balance up the above)
40) worshipping God (i get immensely happy when i'm in church)
41) having adel say the most unexpected absurd thing (eg. in response to me telling her that the hotel package includes a half day city tour, she said "is it just a once off thing, or every day we are there we need to go on a half day city tour?")
42) ting is an ass (thanks adel. -_-)
43) getting enough sleep
44) not having to say goodbye
45) having the person you fancy actually ask to get to know you
46) not being in love and having your heart to yourself for a change
47) getting an email from someone
48) grooving to a song. whether in the privacy of your house or in the club.
49) seeing a nice photo of yourself. who cares about the other people in the photo?
50) remembering what you wanted to say after forgetting it
51) watching the sun rise/set (minus the glare of the sun)
52) and watching the stars
53) being with the person you love (so much for not wanting to be in love)
54) finally getting over someone
55) having the ability to cook nice dishes
56) walking out of a plane after a long flight
57) having a good laugh with the family
58) taking my dog out for a walk and seeing his ass waggle in front of me
59) finally getting your computer to reconnect to the internet
60) watching a nice tv show with a nice theme song to go along with it
61) having a better laptop/desktop
62) bitching
63) diamond ring (tsk. hui's greedy.)
64) being able to wear your diamond ring out? (after adel said there's no joy in having a diamond ring if you can't wear it out)
65) witnessing a happy event, eg. proposal, an incredibly fun wedding
66) finally going to bed after a very long and tiring day
67) a shower on a hot day
68) getting unlimited wishes
69) getting a kick out of creating nicknames for people
70) writing a song
71) writing a song that rhymes
72) singing along to a very catchy song
73) facing your fears
74) having adel entertain me
75) having people laugh at your jokes
76) chatting with people on msn
77) singing
78) calculating a very long maths questions and when you check your answer.. it is CORRECT! HOORAY!
79) holidaysssssssssssssssssssssssssss
80) being able to take notes (hui is happy to be taking notes in the office? hmmm.)
81) being able to decide on the best part time course to take
82) a really good camera
83) photography knowledge
84) good photoshop skills
85) getting adel back into e chat window (after her constant disconnectings from the internet)
86) having MSN not discrimintate you
87) having more brain cells
88) praise
89) unconditional love
90) finding the perfect outfit to wear
91) having heads turn (for good reason!) when you walk past
92) having an unexpected surprise on your birthday
93) receiving a totally unexpected gift
94) spontatenous acts like going out for supper last minute
95) getting nice clothes and accessories
96) finally shitting after constipation (thanks adel for going into too much detail)
97) winning a friendly argument
98) enjoying good photos
99) ending this list?
100) having you go through the 100 joys in life

and there you go! hope you're all cheered up by now (if you were ever down before reading this). or at least, optimistic about life and all it entails. :) hey appreciate it ok? it's 4.30am melbourne time and i stayed up to do this (thereby not engaging in more washing/packing).

any other joys in life to add on to this list? what are YOUR joys in life?

ting:

damnit. exams are over. i'm on holiday. i shouldn't be worrying about this. or anything else for that matter. so why is this affecting me? and it's not even any of my concern!

i thought i could be indifferent. i thought i could not think about it, not care, pretend it isn't true and tada! it would cease to exist. but it's becoming more real, you're pushing too hard. and i don't know what to do about it.

i wanted to lie so badly. and it would be easy. just one simple lie and everything would be taken care of. one simple lie and i can put an end to this once and for all. but i also know i couldn't. how can i tell such a blatant lie like that? christopher backed me up in not lying, and after what he said, i know i did the right thing. just that by not lying, i could be hurting you even more. leading you further down the path of self-destruction.

sigh. why must life be so complicated? why can't there be a role reversal? why can't you take hints!???

though i do know wei kee offered and his offer still stands should i need it. thanks wei kee. :) but i'm hoping i wouldn't have to go to that extent.

the problem with being three hours ahead of the singapore/malaysia time is that you have to stay up till 5am to talk to those back home. it was all worth it.. the talk with chris reminded me of what i've been forgetting. to seek His kingdom first. to pray and listen before doing anything. and to pray instead of worrying. sometimes, you just need that little reminder. wish i had a one-track mind, then perhaps i wouldn't get distracted so easily.

still. it hurts. and i'm hurting for chris, especially after what he told me. after what he had to go through to learn that you shouldn't fight God. sometimes, i don't know who the tears i shed are for.

and it's precisely because i know how much it hurts i don't want to do this to you. stop before you get too deep. i'm begging you.

if you had a knife that would put someone out of their misery sooner should you make the correct cut, would you have the guts, courage and the will to do it?

i'm writing this because i hope you'll see this and realise what i'm trying to tell you.