Hui:

jus came back from a late dinner with kelen at mac. super full.. feel like sleeping.. but i can't head straight to bed cos i'm too full to sleep. "went home" with my IC today.. haha.. nothing much la, jus that he went Rob Ctr after lunch and forgot to bring his laptop adapter. so met him after work to pass him and took the same train home. talking abt train, damn it man today. dunno what e hell was wrong with e mrt, it kept stopping at every now and then, esp jus b4 reaching each station. i could have reached on time de lor. -_- i tot it was only that train that i am taking is like that.. who knows during lunchtime, my IC asked me if i experienced problem with e train this morning. wahaha.. i'm not alone! now, one thing leads to another. justin asked me out for lunch.. and actually with some HR ppl.. who take care of us contractors. i think there was some miscommunication, in e end e whole team went lunch with 2 of the HR personnel and justin. haha.. it was an enjoyable lunch.

i find that my patience with paul is running thin. each time i talk to him, i feel like blowing and tend to tok to him in a arrogant/unfriendly manner. ahh, i mus try to cultivate patience with him.. but sometimes i really buay tahan him. i can jus die any minute toking to him. he does't understand me, and i dun understand him. wth.. i always tell him something, he said he understand, and then when someone else ask him, he says another. if not, he always do e wrong stuffs. y am i so pissed that he does e wrong stuffs? cos he gonna take over all my routine stuffs like giving access rights and generating logs. my manager wants me to concentrate on MS SharePoint improvements rather that doing these opertational stuffs and neglecting my intended job scope of maintaining and making improvements. haiz.. how sia.. everytime tell him nv listen de leh. and actually he's not really good with comp also.. i noe its not his fault.. if u ask me to do some business management theory stuffs i'll die.. but.. haiz.. let me share with u 2 examples which doesnt involve IT knowledge..

Scene 1 -
Colleague A: hey, i've change e meeting room for that time slot, cos e room that u boss wants is not available.
him: ok
*few mins later*
Boss: hey paul, where's e meeting room?
him: oh, Colleague A has changed e time. cos there are no rooms for that time.
Colleague A shouts across e office: no~ i meant i changed e room, not e time.
him: oh izzit? i tot u said u change e time..
Boss: can u all pls communicate properly? sigh..
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sigh ah..
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Scene 2 - toking thru skype
him: hey cheryl, can we use the template to generate the log?
me: the format of e template and e log is not e same. if u wan to do it, we will have to change e template to fit the log.
him: oh i see. so we mus change e log to fit e template?
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enuff is enuff. this is skype!! i have written it so clearly, sayign that we mus change e template. y he still say change e log? omg~
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how.. hai.. still, i mus be patient with him.. mus remember sometimes i'm also as blur (if not worse) and as hopeless as him. therefore, i am very amazed by my IC's patience with me. i think he's very nice.. seeing that he still has patience and keep offering help despite all e stupid and careless mistakes i've made.


we have project update (cos we are entering a new phase) + social event at Rouge tml.. have no idea where it is.. but surely its some pub or some sort like that. its above Alley Bar (have no idea where it is). heard tt its at e Peranakan Place (dunno where also). haha.. found out tt its actually beside centerpoint.. mei said de.. and my IC says so. that shall be it. but still dunno the exact location. i no need to worry abt that though.. as my team and i will go together, and surely someone noes how to go lar.. haha =x jus wanna find out cos dun wan to follow blindly. somemore cannot let them noe i'm club/pub idiot.

hmm.. beside centerpoint ah.. very near orchard OG wor. ok, that's not e point here.. attendance for project update as written in e mail is mandatory.. and if everyone follows e instruction, it would mean that he will be going.. and i may have e chance to see him.. i can't imagine that.. i wouldn't know what to do if our eyes met. i dunno.. sometimes when i see his name while doing work or hear ppl mentioning him all of a sudden, i jus feel so shocked and heartache. sigh ah.. dim suen ah? maybe i'm jus worrying abt e unnecessary..

HOWEVER, e tot of having a chance to see how e dimple-guy look like does cheer me up a bit. i hope mandy is going (she say she wanna escape wor) tml as i would need her to point out that guy to me! i dun wish to noe him la, seriously. jus wanna see how he look. wah imagine those si wei bai lei style.. long sleeve + tie + spects + dimples + styled hair. wah, e kind of guy i would fall for wor. ok la, i exaggerated.. but something like that la.. sounds appealing to me. dunno y i have a feeling that when i see how he looks like i'll be a little disappointed.. maybe my imagination is too good and i keep thinking that he is very good-looking. hahaa..

btw, was supposed to go out with patrick on sunday but it was called off last minute. haha.. cos he asked me thru sms wad i think of him.. and my ans disappointed him. he was looking at something else la.. think he wasnted me to say i like him or something. -_- -_- pls la, we met onli once, expect me to like him? anyway after my ans to him, he say dun meet liao. haha then anything la. dun meet lor, im fine with it. no contact since then. guys are assholes. when they cannot get what they want, they dun give u a damn. -_-

ok.. enuff of this long entry of guys.. move on to something else..

jol's bday is round e corner.. have yet to get her e present. she has a chalet too.. invited e gang on sat.. but she asked if i can stay on fri as well.. die la.. i told her should be ok.. but then.. now have a feeling tt i cannot make it. usually nowadays i stay in the office till 6+ 7+ (considered early already). by e time i back take my stuffs and head down to e chalet dunno wad time liao. and mus stay thru e night leh.. where got such energy.. gotta save my energy in sabotaging her on sat one mah.. like throwing water bombs at her de mah..

it has been a long time since we had an entry with pics. here it is~ *credits to jol..* she finally finally uploaded e pics.. i had to pester her ah.. anyway, pics!


- half of the gals in 4/8. look at e 2nd lady from e left and right (top row). chio right?! =D


- my da ge and me~ dear ah gor~ e one who really treats me like a sister =)


- the 4 unite! at ckc's house during CNY


- wonder 4 + ckc and joe! look at joe's eyes.. spotlight sia..


- ktv @ orchard partyworld. sang this first song for the day with ting. title? Shuang Shi Qing Ren Jie by Twins. ge yan right...


- eve of ting's departure @ esplanade =(


- from left: Guo An, Eny, Mei, Ting, Jol. where's Hui?! taking this photo la..


- oh man, whose butt is mei touching?! er xin lor... molester.. and to think ting laff until like tt.. dun wan to save e helpless gal who's being molested by mei. sigh ah..

Hui:

hav been sleeping for 5-6 hours everyday since my first working day after CNY. damn damn tired. i don't feel tired/sleepy while working cos am simply too busy to feel sleepy. brain is always working and thinking. its when until i decided to take a mini break like going to the pantry that i feel extremely exhausted. when i reach home at night, i dun feel like sleeping. simply jus feel that i have dedicated so little time for myself. and what happens? i go online and chat with friends. =P

i started 2 wars between my company and my (company's) client indirectly. i wasn't e cause... but i guess i'm involved more or less. it's regarding information and access rights on the potral that i'm managing. not that i wanna push the blame to others, but i really dunno what are the dos and don'ts. shit man this time. my client wanted me to go find out something abt one of the portals from my big shots. so i emailed them and cc my client. and e next thing i noe, war started in e email. the email was being cc to other big shots (both from client and my company). i was in the crossfire ah. one look at e recepients and all are big shots, except me. THEN, there were issues abt acess rights as to who should have information to what.. then my client wrote an email to me saying i can't grant access to who as i like blah blah.. and cc to my manager. and then!! another war started. pls pls dun get me involved in ur war. i'm jus a soldier obeying to commands. =|

met up with arthur yesterday. had lots to tok abt. am very affected by his hk accent. i hear that accent almost everyday. i'm afraid that my english will get worse. not onli cos of e hk accent that i'm listening to almost everyday, but also cos of e fact that Ben is back! haha ting!! dun kill me, i have no control over him. Ben Lucking's back in sg. he has a 2 months contract with us b4 flying back to london and start work officially in our London office. met him for lunch yesterday, as he came to RCT to get himself rolled on and doing all e admin stuffs. he's stationed in Rob Ctr. hmm... talking abt Rob Ctr.. i went there on wed. saw him there as well. but we didn't talk. anyway, my bosses there seem to miss me. cos they actually talked to me in a very friendly way. wah, feel honoured. =D

boooo. i wan to see how Eugene look like! my colleague (Mandy) told me that she thinks he is good-looking. i was like "who is Eugene??" she told me "Eugene Lee". paused to think, and remembered processing his ID and getting him rolled on to this project and accessing our web portal. exchanged a few emails and he seems nice la. but i dunno how he look like. mandy then said he's located at DBS tower 1, but would be popping by our place to collect some stuffs. i tot i would have e chance to see him. sadly no. cos i went washroom. and tt's how i missed him. raa.. i wouldn't have reacted this way if i didn't know that he had dimples. when mandy told me he came, i was cool abt it. ok, nv see nv see lor. but when she said he has dimples, i went "OMG!!! i missed e chance to see a good-looking dimple guy". i asked her if he will drop by again, she said maybe. then ok lor. that was e afternoon when i went to Rob Ctr. he came again. boo!!! sian la. no fate to see how he look like. but was imagining how would he look like. sure got "si wen bai lei" face, long sleeve (with tie perhaps) and dimple! haha.. heard that's young. nvm la, not interested in knowing him, jus wan to meet a guy with dimples. haha

received a mail broadcasted to all ppl on personnel on this project that we'll be having project updates, social event and monthly bday celebrations (for e march babies) on e 1st at Rouge. pub or something ah. hmm, mus learn some social skills liao. if not everytime i'll jus sit there, stick with my team or onli ppl that i know and then wait for ppl to tok to me. look so dao.. hopefully there'll be chance for Mandy to point out to me who's that dimple guy. wahaha

indifference is what i wanna feel towards u. am stil working on it. but i guess i wouldnt reach that stage w/o feeling hatred for u. but then again... 若不爱你，为何恨你？ it doesn't really help having a busy mind at work when someone signs in and e pic is of him and u. or when i scroll thru the list of IDs/IP address/access rights and see ur name. or when ppl suddenly talk abt u. hmm.. am working on it ah. give me ur support!

it does feel better after crying.

ting ah ting.. with u around, i can be alone and yet not feeling alone.. now that u're back, suddenly feel so lonely. haha.. dunno how to say.. am getting more and more bad in exprssing myself.

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君虽是总无情，妾却是永珍惜。
纵然情人在眼前，缘分却是仍远天边。
他人笑我痴情怜，我却心意已成巅。

credits to Eny aka KKJJ!!
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a quote taken from one of jackie chan's movie.. a quote that both da ge and i like a lot.

“想念一个人有得治吗？”
“有。见到你想见的人。”
“如果见不到呢？”
“如果见不到，就会随着时间消失，慢慢变成回忆。”

ultimate grey sia..
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dunno dun care dun bother.

thinking where to go and what to do later.. its weekend! i no need to face MS SharePont.

time for lunch. see ya!

ting:

less than 24 hours in melbourne and already, i am:

1. fried to a crisp. for the first time in my life, i can safely say singapore's weather beats melbourne's hands down. temperature was 36 degrees today and it was absolutely sweltering. i wanted to just lie down on the pavement and die. doesn't help that this is unlike singapore, where air-conditioned rooms are abundant. sigh. in pei fei's place now, leeching his wireless internet and having the fan blow full blast at me. with luck, tomorrow's temperature would dip slightly.

2. exhausted. only slept for 2 hours (didn't manage to sleep at all on the plane) the whole of today. plus there is so much to do i don't know where to start. three months worth of dust to clean is pure disgusting. throw in the heat and you just wanna take the next plane back to singapore.

3. slightly homesick. think i'm over it now, the feeling was definitely stronger during the day. had to make the conscious effort that smses and calls were no longer free, that my family and closest friends are now miles away from me and that jolynn is gonna have a chalet WITHOUT ME! *sniffs* i know she won't read this, so someone, tell her i haven't forgiven her for that yet.

4. slightly panicky. checked my overflowing mailbox today and discovered my water bill was due on the 22nd. tried to pay it online but the server would be down till monday. ughhh! i hope they don't cut my water supply before that! otherwise (especially in this heat), i'm doomed.

5. amazed. got back to college square today to find a huge and immensely heavy box blocking my doorway. i thought it was carol's, as her stuff was still in my place. it was until she came to collect her things that i realised it wasn't hers. opened it up to discover a 51cm coloured tv PLUS a dvd player! ira and i were speculating how the hell it ended up in my place.. then only discovered college square is now giving their residents television sets in all apartments. wheeeeeeee!!

alright, it's to bed i suppose. my biological clock is so screwed i'm starting to get worried.

Hui:

am taking a chance to be killed by my boss. am blogging right in e office. and e reason? for ting. =D

i miss u!! take care! i'll rush to e airport later. wait for me!!

PS: and jus in case i'll miss u (both literally and illiterally), i'll miss u nonetheless. =P

- i hope im making sense.

ting:

my flight is later today.

last night in singapore was a complete fiasco. i couldn't sleep a wink. started messaging ira at 5+am singapore time. sigh. with luck, i'll be exhausted enough to conk out the whole 7.5 hours.

bye all and take care. i'll miss you guys like crazy. :(

ting:

was rereading tuesdays with morrie the other day, and i really really love this part.

"have i told you about the tension of opposites?" he says.
the tension of opposites?
"life is a series of pulls back and forth. you want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. you take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
"a tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. and most of us live somewhere in the middle."
sounds like a wrestling match, i say.
"a wrestling match." he laughs. "yes, you could describe life that way."
so which side wins, i ask?
"which side wins?"
he smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
"love wins. love always wins."

i love it so so much. because it describes what i'm going through now.

it's as though life wants me to realise what i'm missing out on by not being in singapore. spent the weekend at alex's place, celebrating jol's 21st birthday with a BBQ. it was tons of fun, from eny trying to roast fluffy marshmellows to us all ganging up and sabotaging her so she loses without her even realising it when we played games. from laughing at alex's attempts to scare us with his ghost stories (he'll never make it as a story teller. mei and i kept laughing when he told us a ghost story. we only had to look at him to crack up.) to being really scared when eny shared her horror experiences with us. (realised too late i would be flying back to melbourne soon AND staying alone! damn.)

went out with pei and adel today. only realised today that i've never really seen the singapore river from esplanade during the day. it looks so different from all the pretty lights in the night. anyway, i managed to drag both adel and pei for karaoke. this is the FIRST time both of them actually step into the place and SING! was so proud of my persuasion skills... pei actually grabbed the mike and sang into it!! but i was close to losing my voice in the end, cos i chose mostly difficult songs and because pei and adel refused to insert their songs!! you try yelling at the top of your lungs for 4 songs straight. *pants*

so. 2 more days before i head back to melbourne. damn. now i don't wanna go back. eny has very kindly extended her porter-ing services and offered to help me lug all my stuff to the airport on thursday. awww! how sweet!

Hui:

feeling grey. was making a call to the CIO Helpdesk (yet again) and was being put on hold. stared at my laptop screen, and one of my colleagues signed in msn. saw capricon guy in my colleagu's display pic. i was stunned. i din noe they knew each other to e extend where they would take a pic together wor. tot they dun have much connection, as my colleague is kinda new to e project and is stationed in DBS Tower, while capricon guy is stationed in Rob. listened to my mp3 on my way home and e first song that was playing is "U're Beautiful". super grey.

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Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah
I don't wanna live this life
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do
How did I fall in love with you

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed we never knew

How did I fall in love with you
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grey is e color for today..

Hui:

so many stuffs to be completed within such a short period of time. how to finish? how to please everyone? yes i noe i can't please everyone. but then... how abt pleasing both my ex-manager and manager? i want to help both ah. anyway, i'm doomed liao. manila server will be down from 7am to 5pm tml. which means that i have onli now till tml 7am to do my work, which includes a desktop page design and generation of access matrix for all the users who have access to all the links on my portal. and mind u, there are 200 over fucking links in e portal. i have to click inside every single link and extract the access rights from there. and how nice, i have to do website backup b4 the server is brought down, jus in case we lose any important information b4 its down for maintainece. sigh.

and to all e ppl out who are sitting high up there (in terms of rank), it isnt my fault that u do not get the necessary access rights to get ur hands on the information u want. it IS UR fault. cos u didnt indicate clearly which are e access rights u need in e first place. or when ur subordinates dun have enough rights to do something, it is not my fucking problem too. it is UR FAULT as well cos again, u didnt indicate which are e areas they require access to. so please dun send in all ur fucking request telling me u need access and wan me to give it to u immediately. of cos there are certains times where i'm really at fault, with all my stupid careless mistakes. but i'm sure that i have been working hard (maybe not working smart) and i noe i'm not slacking lor. sigh.

met 2 "new" colleagues from my ex-manager's team. gotta work with them for e desktop page design actually. they added me to msn and they're quite cute, funny and informal la. its jus so weird that we are discussing abt work in such an informal way, with all the singlish and everything else. e first line i got from one of them is "finally see u online here! muahahaha" ---> super duper informal right? or "can u find out which link actually provides that information? can boh, princess sharepoint?" that's for one of them. as for e other one, he has A LOT of stupid icons. every sentence has icons one lor. kinda irritating la. and i prefer to be in a more formal mood when we're toking abt work. so i asked him to add me to skype instead. haha.. one thing is that la.. e other thing is i dun wan others to walk pass me and think tt i'm chatting instead of working.

i really miss u! u're e onli one who can "protect" me and guide me. please come back fast! i have another 5 days to endure. i need u man... haiz

met up my agent with mei and jol. mei had something on after meeting e agent so left jol and me. went to her house and had a long chat. sigh. Eric = John. wahaha.. dun ask me which is better.. cos both are bad.

sometimes living on with a lie makes one feels better. but i'm too sane to do that. i so wanted to believe every word u said, so that i'll feel better. but my IQ isn't that low. i'm standing on the line of seperation between self-denial and e truth. i don't know why thinking of u makes me hurt so much. u suck.

raaa, am still worried abt e amt of work tt i have. ahh.. die liao this time.

ting:

"and ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation." -- kahlil gibran, the prophet

isn't it ironic how you have to say goodbye in order to say hello?

feeling the stirrings of inertia set in again.

ting:

stupid mosquitoes are eating me alive.

random question. should i pierce my ears again before going back to melbourne or should i only do it when i come back to singapore at the end of this year? i can't decide. ughhhh. on one hand, i want to give my ears more time to recover from the infection. but on the other, i've this insane fear that my earrings will oxidise. plus the fact that my antiseptic lotion is expiring in december this year, so i have to find some reason to finish it!

but if i decide to pierce my ears, won't i have to dye my hair first?

sigh. decisions, decisions. i wish i had another month or so in singapore. realised there is still so much i have yet to do. and inertia is setting in once again... am now reluctant to leave singapore. the 7.5 hour flight puts me off.

tim swung by my place unannounced just now and gave my family and me flowers. the entire situation was so weird. i was watching tv when someone knocked at the door. seeing both my parents and i were at home, i thought it was some salesperson or someone knocking on the wrong door. so i ignored the knocking and continued watching tv. the knocking came once again and after some hesitation, i decided to continue ignoring it and hope whoever it is will just go away. then it came again a third time and i went to look through the viewfinder. there was no one there! i thought it was either a ghost, or i was hearing things. my dad then went to look through the window and he turned to me with an astonished look and said it was tim. he then descended upon us with two bouquets of flowers.

gosh. i wonder how much he paid for them, especially seeing the prices sky-rocket on valentine's day.

i gotta admit though.. they're really pretty. nice wrapping, fantastic arrangement. but i rather he give us chocolates, because i don't know what to do with the flowers. i guess i should put them in a vase, but firstly, i don't have a vase and secondly, i don't have the heart to remove the wrappings and disturb the arrangement. so for now, they're sitting on the table staring at me.

ting:

eny is making me really confused.

anyway, here's a note to ira: ughhhh! guitar is killing me. i don't think i'll be bringing my guitar (or should i say, my cousin's guitar) back to melbourne. i can't master the damn thing! i still prefer the keyboard. and i've no idea if the music shops do sell guitar books.. am not an expert in anything to do with string instruments. sorry babe!

this week went by too fast. but i enjoyed myself thoroughly.. wished it could have been a little longer. spent most of the time cooped up at home watching armed reaction 4 (i polished off all 40 episodes in 6 days! why am i not blind yet?) and lazing around. heaven!

spent saturday with hui, jol and kelen. couldn't help but wonder if kelen was going all the way out to prove me i'm wrong about singaporean guys.. he insisted on carrying all my shopping stuff and paid for dinner. we ended the day by sitting in front of the merlion and talking about really morbid stuff. all thanks to me commenting the merlion is indeed a disgusting creature. i mean, imagine a real lion's head with a mermaid's tail. yucks! jiehui then kickstarted the whole morbid conversation by asking us if we believe in the existence of mermaids. i promptly said no, kelen countered my argument by insisting we had no idea what lurks in the depths of the ocean. we then started debating over how we think mermaids look like. these are some of the descriptions we came up with: bald, very long hair, gills at the neck which flap open when they swim (because they all protested mermaids didn't have lungs. but i beg to differ), scales, fins (i think this was from kelen) and no eyelids (courtesy of hui). the topic then moved on to the storyline of saw and saw 2. we started discussing whether we'd dig our eyes out in return for our lives or whether we'd sit and wait for death to come (think the first 30 seconds of saw 2). also touched briefly on whether dying in a shipwreck or in a plane crash is better. i don't know about you but i'd choose a plane crash anytime (hope i'm not tempting fate). i wouldn't want to drown, or to float ages in the open sea, not knowing when a shark would attack me or what is swimming below me and bumping my legs. at least in a plane crash, you become powder before the plane even hits the ground.

went for a facial with hui today. i think beauty comes with a lot of pain. and it's ironic that you pay people to torture you. this being my very first facial, i had no idea what to expect. so was enjoying myself initially, with all the cool creams and massages. then, she happily announced she wanted to get all my blackheads out and started scraping my skin with this really sharp instrument which resembles a surgical blade. i was in so much pain i couldn't even scream bloody murder. opened my eyes to see what the hell she was doing, then realised she was waving a needle in front of me. she started jabbing me repeatedly for some unknown reason. i was convinced i was bleeding uncontrollably, and that half the skin from my face was scraped off. it was that bad. so i know now how botox feels like. eeks.

random topic. do you think it's appropriate for a guy to pay for a meal when he asks a girl out on a date or do you think it's more suitable if they went dutch? here are the results from a survey done in singapore... locals and expats, both male and female ranging in age from 19 to 37 were surveyed. out of the 75 people polled, "...59 said it should always be the man, 15 said couples should go dutch, and only one person - a singaporean man - said the woman should foot the bill." (the sunday times, 2006) i'd dearly love to know who the man is, so i'll never ever go out with him.

Hui:

whee~ going to sleep after this post.. gotta work later..

so sian man, there will be so little ppl in my team.. how do i go to those usual meetings with my manager w/o my IC? i feel scared.. haha.. die liao.. think i'm too dependent on him. a lot of stuffs pending on my end.. shit man this time die liao.

today's e "eve" of valentines' day~ no money, no honey, no presents, no dates. going to sing k with eny! so far she's e onli one person confirm la.. chatting with her now, seems like she gonna put my plane. kns.. nvm.. at most i go find my ah gor~~ =P

hmm, going to be 2am liao.. bedtime. ciao!

Hui:

Am still in e office. able to go off now actually.. but feel like blogging. in e meanwhile waiting for someone to reply me on msn. =P

sigh, i gonna miss someone from my a lot for e next 2 weeks. he's very impt to me ah.. someone i cannot live w/o with from mondays to fridays. someone who'll take care of me. haha.. u all should noe who la hor..

feeling damn tired. but will my meeting my poly clique later.. and stay thru e night. shit man. tml still need to go out. sure damn tired.

anyway, met up with mr patrick on wed. he's super gentleman. was telling him (jus b4 i meet up with him) i'm down with flu and he was quite caring. after dinner, he told me that he needs to meet his friend at 930pm. so i ok lor, planned to acc him to walk lucky plaza cos i was heading towards that direction as well. then we passed by paragon, and he asked me to wait for his friend with him. then i ok lor. and he went off at one corner to make some phone calls. very mysterious. and he kinda die die wanted me to wait with him. then i ok lor, dinner on him mah. somemore i was so damn late. 5-10mins later he said he saw his friend and he asked me to follow him, cos he wants to intro his friend to me. i said no need and wanted to walk off. but he insisted. so i followed lor. he brought me to the tax stand, open one of e cab's door and asked me to go in. i was super shocked and scared. i tot he wan to bring me somewhere else to meet his friend. hahaa then i realised he called a cab for me. and then he passed e driver $20. omg, first time i got this kind of treatment sia. b4 e cab drove off, he said to me "go home early and rest if u're sick. btw actually im meeting my friend at lucky plaza at 1130." haha.. shocked man.

have been busy these few weeks. but its good la.. at least i am productive. and my work i do gets recognised (i hope so).

damn sleepy.

ting:

*SCREAMS* stupid ntuc! is it because they are some stupid monopoly in singapore that they deem it appropriate to flaunt their superiority? well, i hope you sit up and take notice when i say this is NO WAY to do business and/or please your customers! no wonder you had to close down one branch. what is this.. i attempted going to your website (which refuses to load and when it finally does, it doesn't give me ANY information i want!) and i tried calling your helpline like.. a ZILLION TIMES! each time i get through, you say all offices are busy at the moment and put me on hold for about 15 minutes before disconnecting my call. #^%&4#*^*%*^$*#^*#)#*@)&$)@ i vaguely remember going through all these shit a couple of years back as well. so it seems like you never learn and never will improve.

*screams*

any alternatives other than the stupid chalet, anyone?

went to mdm loke's (my ex-chinese teacher/form teacher) place on saturday... she remembers me!! i think that when people see/talk about me, they associate me with the fact that i'm doing my degree overseas. which is sort of annoying in some sense, because i have to explain (repeatedly) why i chose australia over singapore and why i gave up nus for melbourne uni. especially to the more ignorant ones, it is really difficult to make them see things from my point of view, and why i think an australian education would do me more good. and they keep saying i'm more westernised, which is so not true. when we taught peishan how to play bridge for instance, mdm loke commented that after being in australia for a year, even the card games i play are "westernised". hello? i already knew how to play bridge in jc!

am hooked on the game rummikup. it's an amazing beyond amazing game.. got the hang of it within one minute. and despite the fact my entire family plus relatives were helping my cousin, i won the game! yay! it's a little like bridge, in the sense you gotta analyse, stratgise and think your options through. am contemplating getting the travel pack version of the game because no one i know has it (save for my cousin-in-law). but am not sure if it'll cost a bomb. sigh.

went to kok choi's place on saturday night and saw his two very scary dogs. even a dog lover like me got spooked out. joe was all right... he didn't leap at anyone's throat or anything, but rock went ballistic the minute we stepped into kok choi's place. thank god he was locked up, though i wasn't so sure the metal grate wouldn't give way, judging by how he constantly flung himself against it. hui says rock is taller than her, which i'm not inclined to believe but won't disregard either. we had a blackjack tournament that night, were at it for over 5 hours! got seriously sick of the game halfway through...

and surprise surprise! for the first time ever, i crossed paths once again with one of the most annoying people on earth (or at least one who never fails to irritate me) and he didn't get on my nerves (except for maybe the first minute)! imagine us being confined in a small room for 5 over hours and not exchanging a snappy remark. can't help wondering who changed. was even more surprised when we started talking the whole way from hui's place to mine. i was the last girl kok choi sent back, joshua was asleep so i couldn't talk to him, kok choi was concentrating on his driving and i had no idea what zhi nan was up to because he was right in front. so that left us with beng. this must be an all time record, me having a civil conversation with him because i wanted to. life never fails to surprise.

went to nus yesterday to crash yiqin's class. thought it would be a good idea to see what i was missing out on and what it would be like if i was still in nus AND majoring in marketing. gosh, am i glad i'm no longer there. sitting in a class which lasts 3 hours is excruciating. to top it off, i had absolutely no idea what the lecturer was talking about and i was bored out of my mind. the seats were really uncomfortable as well, my back started aching one hour into the class. guess i won't be crashing any nus classes again in a hurry!

had a really nice talk with qin after that... i realise i enjoy intelligent conversation more than pointless crapping. but then again, too much intense talk would make life boring as well, wouldn't it?

in other news, miko (bernard's dog) got run over by a car. i was aghast at the news.. the poor guy was crying when he told me. sigh.. i know how much miko means to ber - more than the whole world put together. it doesn't help that the person ber loves(?) is indirectly responsible for the accident. called mount pleasant animal hospital on his behalf a couple of hours ago and realised miko got cremated this morning. there goes my wish of seeing her for the last time. feel incredibly sad, because i knew her and loved her as well. keep thinking of the time when hui and i taught her to roll over and feign death when we fired an imaginery gun. but life's like that isn't it? life constantly robs you of what you have.

Hui:

can never understand how can some ppl be so thick-skinned to crash at someone's bday dinner. fancy a 25-year-old guy doing this. visiting can be done ANYTIME right? do u have to really do it on that day and at that time? its not that i don't let u do visiting, but is there a need in e first place? what is e purpose? AND, i am not e least touched by what u did. instead i DESPISE u. do u have do make such a scene infront of all my relatives? dun u feel embarassed at all?? i dun understand y do u have e guts to do it in e first place. u said u are a matured man now. i would say u are still e same childish u. if not, mentality is even worse. u have embarassed me infront of so many ppl. dun blame me for taking revenge. anyway, i wasn't even planning a revenge. my reaction/response towards u is jus so natural.

please DON'T ever do things that doesn't add any value at e end of e day. esp when it invloves ppl who are dear to me. y do u always have to shoot urself? u wan to be friends, fine with me. i tried to re-evaluate u (as a friend) and started to make a bit of casual chats with u on msn once in a blue moon. u blew it by doing something which really gets me on my nerves e day b4 i would be meeting u (as a group). WAKE UP UR IDEA of wanting to be friends again. i won't be friends with someone who can't even think with their brains. who destroys all e chances i've given. who have no shame. there are so many things that i so wanted to say each time u make a comment. but i didn't. cos i can't be bothered. maybe u won't even understand wad i'm saying. i really appreciate wad ur parents did. i liked them, and i still do. but i wont do silly things like u. at least i wun be so bloody thick-skinned. i still have shame.

DO NOT apologise for wad u have done. if u noe u'll be sorry abt it, then don't do it. cos i'll make sure u feel sorry abt it. i really don't see what is e point of doing all these stuffs. u may say u dun mean anything. if u dun mean anything, then don't do it! its jus simply pointless. u will be despised by me.

ting:

today (well, it was yesterday if you want to get technical about it) was my last day at work. last days are supposed to be good aren't they? mine felt more like an emotional rollercoaster ride. i was happy in the earlier part of the day, brimming with the knowledge of not needing to drag myself out of bed at some unearthly hour. the bliss turned to panic when they started swamping me with work. work which i HAD to complete by the end of the working day. as i was about to have a cardiac arrest, my supervisor surprised me by giving me a farewell gift - a diary with chinese wordings on the cover (i nearly had a heart attack when i saw those chinese words.. i thought they gave me a chinese novel to read!) and a card with blessings from all the staff. i was really really touched. when 6pm arrived, i found myself lingering around longer than necessary. stood around talking to my colleagues, refusing to step out of the door. isn't it weird how, after a mere 6 weeks, bonds can be forged? after tons of well-wishes and promises to bring them around melbourne should they visit me, i couldn't take it any longer. why go through the excruciating pain of prolonging the inevitable? steeled myself, took a deep breath and said the final goodbye.

at least there is still msn. and the email. it's in times like these i adore technology.

i was so upset i didn't realise i was waiting at the wrong platform till the train came. bah. why can't goodbyes be easier?

in a weak attempt to cheer myself up, i went on an express shopping spree. covered the whole of suntec under one and the half hours. had to get back home in record time, because tim wanted to pop over to my place for a chat. ira called me when i was in the fitting room and it was kinda funny, cause i was asking her for her opinion on which top i should get when she couldn't even see me!

am in the midst of planning a chalet retreat.. it's been ages since my secondary school clique got together. while thinking about it, i had a brainwave of the century! one which i'm not gonna risk blogging about, just in case it spoils the surprise. :) but i'm really looking forward to planning this, with the help of my trusty assistant, alex lim.

have a secondary school class gathering tomorrow and i've absolutely nothing to wear. double bah. guo an is insane.. he wants to meet at 10am! my first day of not working and he won't even let me sleep in??

ting:

i think i'm courting death because i'm actually blogging in the office. but it was either this or risk falling asleep. i've nothing to do. you'd think they'd take the opportunity to drown me in work to make up for me leaving. instead, am stuck monitoring this major print job which doesn't involve much except waiting for the printer to spew out paper. i think i'm a tree murderer. so much for wanting to be environmentally friendly.

thoughts are really broken cos the stupid printer keeps jamming.

my supervisor and finance manager were pestering me to extend my contract and work for them till the day i leave singapore. don't quite know whether to be immensely flattered or incredibly horrified. feel guilty of course, for not being able to give them what they want. but i think i'll feel worse if i get myself burned out and screw up next sem's finals. besides, i simply gotta salvage what's left of my holidays!

why isn't the stupid printer printing!??????

gotta go seek help from the sole IT personnel in this whole entire office.