ting:

came back from lugging FOUR THICK textbooks from the library. yikes! my arms hurt.

had a blast yesterday, as the photos would tell. we went to this safari wild range park, whereby you can get upclose and personal with all the animals. it has a reputation of being "africa in australia", or so they claim.

it was a pretty long distance away from the city. we had to take a train ride to werribee which took 48 minutes, then take another bus into the park itself. while in the train, we went pass many suburban areas and to mag's disappointment, we didn't spot any humping cows. that girl has a fascination with animals (especially cows) humping. yeah... don't ask me why.

the bus driver took us on this extended bus ride which was pretty redundant. he was OUTSIDE the park already... and for some weird reason only known to him, he refused to let us get off and insisted we make a HUGE loop before he consented to driving us in. jeez. went past many lettuce farms and really nice houses.

after what seemed like eternity, he finally pulled up in front of the park and waved for us to get off. before doing so, he reminded us that the last bus departs at 5pm. we shouted our thanks and got off. the park is pretty huge, but i think we got there too late. only had half an hour to walk along the walking trails before our guided tour started so it was kind of a rush. the weather was perfect though and the place gorgeous. i was certainly feeling very happy at that point in time!

the guided tour was awesome! i'll let the photos speak for themselves.

it was dangerously close to 5pm after the tour so we decided to make our way to the bus stop. i swear we got there at 5pm SHARP because i checked my watch about a million times. there was this group of people waiting there and they obviously got there before us so we took comfort in the fact that chances are we didn't miss the bus. noticed some nice spots to take pictures and i told mag to pose with a rock. she did a thinker's pose and erfana was telling her it was all wrong. EVERYONE was laughing at them, including the strangers sitting around. but mag's brave and she went ahead anyway. i was laughing so hard it's amazing the shot turned out well.

i realised my camera has superb zooming ability. i'm really happy with the way a lot of the photos came out. :D

anyways, we lingered around waiting yet some more. the minutes ticked by and we kinda got impatient. started wondering if there was any way we did miss it after all, seeing it was 5.30 and the bus was officially half an hour late. for some weird reason, i wasn't scared or anything and the thought that i may have to camp along the road the entire night didn't bother me that much. finally, some people couldn't take it anymore and wandered off. they came back after a short while and said the park's main gate was locked.

by then, it was 5.45pm and it would be getting dark. i told mag that seeing we wanted to do bushwalking and mountaineering which had to wait, we might as well start our own trekking adventure there and then. also decided we would climb over the gate when we get to it so the five of us just walked off. after a while, we turned and noticed that the rest of the group was following us behind.

we got to the gate and noticed there was no fence. as in, there was a HUGE gap between the gate and the wall so we could easily walk right through! died laughing... the people who told us it was locked and who saw us walk through must have felt so incredibly stupid. it seemed like the rest of the group contacted the park ranger, who called for a special bus to be sent to pick us up. after hearing it cost a bloody 60 bucks, mag and i were adamant about sticking to our original plan.

judging by the way they looked at us when we calmly announced our intentions, the rest of the group must have thought we were insane. got directions and started out. it really was a very nice walk as we were strolling along at our own pace, stopping to take photos along the way (see all the gorgeous sunset photos) and making stupid remarks.

got out onto the main road and that was where the walking became a tad tougher. the ground was so uneven we had to scrutinize it before putting our foot down. mag didn't let us walk on the road which would be easier because she was afraid cars might drive too dangerously close and that would be the end of us.

we were walking on the left side of the road when i realised the sunset was bright red and gorgeous! i was exclaiming loudly and reaching for my camera when i heard LOUD barks and suba saying "oh shit". my blood froze when i turned and saw, across the road, this HUGE, UNLEASHED ROTTWEILER growling at us. this is the first time in 19 years of my life i was struck by such deep, intense fear at the sight of a dog. the only time i took my eyes off it was to judge how far we had to run to safety. mag said, "don't move" and instantly, all my muscles obeyed. i stood so still you'd have mistook me for a statue.

mag told us to walk slowly and not run, to take our eyes off the dog and not look back as we walked. i was thinking, "are you joking! walk? never!" when suba started moving really slowly, time stopped for a second... i then realised her walking didn't make the dog charge towards us so i followed her lead. it took a hell lot of willpower not to run away screaming. i finally know how characters in books/movies feel when they're confronted by such a giant being.

i have no idea how far we walked before we started breathing normally once again. it then stuck me that the sunset happened to be blood red and my overactive imagination started wondering if it was a sign. but thankfully, God was with us and i still have my limbs attached to me so no harm's done. it seems pretty funny now when i relate it but trust me... it wasn't funny at that point of time.

didn't have any encounters with any other dangerous animals (humans included) after that so was incredibly thankful. it took us about one and the half hours to walk all the way from the park to the train station. quite an achievement huh? i bet all those people who took the special bus are wondering if we're still alive.

took the train back to the city where we went to crown for dinner and a movie. yay!! i finally managed to watch constantine!! keanu reeves is soooo hot! hmmmm! was hoping he and rachel wiez (is that how her name is spelt?) would end up together coz i was losing enough faith in love as it is. and if even a movie couldn't have a fairy tale ending, then the rest of us are seriously screwed. but sigh. damn the author of this story. grrrrr!!!

took a cab back to college square (it was 1+am then). we got this chatty and friendly cab driver whose name happened to be (would you believe it???) constantine. i thought he was joking when he said that but i peered at his cab license and it was true. what a weird coincidence!

yeah, that sort of wrapped up the day... i had such a good time! if it wasn't for the fact i have two bloody papers to write before the end of this week, i bet i'll be out right now partying. grrr!

took this when the driver took us on that extended bus ride. nice scenery isn't it? looks so peaceful... it's really different from the city.

i love this picture... stupid bus window was obstructing my view though. grrrr...

the safari's walking trail... someone's bottle got into my shot!!

some african mud tribe thingy...

this looks like the little guy is kissing the other monkey doesn't it? :) it's so cute! in actual fact, he was stealing food from the other fella.

i love all this wood cravings.

meerkat! it's acting as a look out for predators. cool huh? it certainly is doing it's job well!

the king of the jungle!

suba and myself... standing in front of dead trees

another "dead" tree

i loooove this shot!

on the guided tour where we get to see animals up close and personal

emu feather

emu egg... pretty huge huh.

this hippo was so aggressive! looks certainly are deceiving.

observe the huge jaws, it can tear a human to shreds!

antelopes! aren't they pretty creatures?

this is an antelop's antler. it's real long!

ostrich egg

this rhino is 2 and a half years old. it looks pretty small in comparison to it's mother...

the baby is 4 months old! ain't it sweet?

for some weird reason, the giraffe comes across as looking real sleepy to me.

i LOVE this photo! they're so cute!

another shot, now from the front

gorgeous scenery isn't it? i wonder if africa looks like that...

more scenery!

zebra skin. in actual fact, they aren't black and white. they're just different shades of brown. check it out!

some greenery is good for the eyes. :)

this photo amused me because it reminded me of fellowship of the ring, when frodo and sam were cutting through the cornfield.

carol loves the rock!

more photos of the walking trail...

from another angle

i love their seemingly wooden architecture

this is mag's thinker pose. i laughed so hard taking this it's a wonder it came out straight!

the five of us, posing along the road and waiting for the bus which never came...

still waiting for the bus... and hence we used the time for more photo taking opportunities.

mag took this. i wanted to claim credit for such a gorgeous shot but nah...

one of the many photos we took while walking. beautiful sunset!

more scenery! i think the reason we took so long to get to civilisation was because i kept holding the group up!

i just adore the skyline!

nice plants. we were coming real close to meeting the stupid dog.

THE blood red sunset. of course, i only took this AFTER we scrambled to safety!

standing along a highway... it looked too nice to miss!

ting:

ok, so i just realised what a complete dork i was. daylight saving was for summer, though i have absolutely no idea why. there are so many hours of sunlight during the day! jeez... so now. the sun rises at 6 plus am and sets at 6pm. gosh. that is so sad. especially when i've gotten used to it setting at like... 8.30pm?

i'm so incredibly tired i could just die. brain is simply not functioning, hence i apologise in advance for any spelling mistakes or grammatical errors you spot in this entry. i stayed up the whole night! nope... not to study (sorry for that disappointing piece of news). we partied the whole night and was it a blast! advantages of being in australia and getting a whole week off just because it is easter! :D

went to mag's place (it has been officially dubbed as our partying venue) for easter dinner and dvd marathon. oh boy, is carol a good cook! all of us were sitting around uselessly in the living room while she was alone in the kitchen cooking up a storm! we were all hovering around her initially, asking, "you sure you don't need help of any sort?" seeing all our offers to help went unappreciated, we eventually gave up and left her to her own devices. which was probably a very good thing because with someone like me around, the dinner would probably have turned out a mess.

i ate way too much! all mag's fault! her philosophy is that it's always better to have more of something than less of something. and this applies to food as well. there were HEAPS on the table! all our jaws just dropped when we saw it. and she doesn't believe in having leftovers as well so we were all forced to finish up every single morsel before we could leave the table. how not to get fat here??

after dinner, we had this easter egg eating ceremony whereby we passed around this "giant" egg mag bought. -_- it was kinda anti-climax for me as mag messaged me to tell me a couple of days back she bought this GIANT egg and we were all to go over to her place and share it. i was anticipating something like...i dunno. an egg which is waist level? i HAVE SEEN such huge eggs around and they certainly quantify as GIANT. was extremely disappointed when i went over and found out it was TINY! well, definitely bigger than your ordinary easter egg but still! even her cadbury hazel nut chocolate weighed more than that "super egg"!

but there was no denying it was good. :) hmmm! it was hollow though! cheaters!

it was midnight when we shifted the couches and got ready for our dvd marathon. suba and i loaned 3 dvds from the library the other day - johnny depp's dead man, the brotherhood of the wolf and cate blanchett's the gift. told jennifer to pick a movie and she picked dead man because of johnny depp. so ok, all of us settled down and started to watch.

jeez. it was the first movie and it nearly put us all to sleep. let's check out the reasons why. 1) it's in black and white. johnny depp was wearing this hideous orange tweed suit (how did we know it was orange? thanks to my very creative imagination.) and had on really dorky specs. it didn't help mag was making comments about how weird he looked the entire time. 2) there wasn't much dialouge. seriously. what is it...a mime?? 3) the pace of the show is soooo slow!!! 4) we had absolutely no idea what was going on.

tanu fell asleep after 20 minutes and i was coming close to wandering around in dreamland when mag asked if any of us were interested in watching it further. i think jennifer was pretty interested to see what would happen next but the poor girl was outvoted, 6-1. so we decided to switch to something more exciting and i chose brotherhood of the wolf. sigh. which is a french show so basically had two hours of listening to them gabble in french. kind of cool really, but i didn't understand a single thing that was going on. you know how french movies are like.

paused to walk tanu home and went back to remove my contact lenses after that show. dragged erfana and suba along as i didn't particularly wanted to go prowling around in the dark, ALONE. not especially after a wolf show, thank you very much. to our surprise, my flatmate was up and STUDYING when i opened my apartment door. ugh! screw her! didn't want to hang around too long in case i started feeling guilty so grabbed my specs and fled.

the gift was really good. you know what the ironic thing was? brotherhood of the wolf was supposed to be a horror show, yet none of us were really freaked. the gift was supposed to be this thriller/suspense thing and ALL of us were terrified! we were hiding under blankets and all. lucky for me, i was snuggled inbetween suba and carol and throughout the whole show, i was just leaning closer and closer to suba and going "ugghhhhhh!!!" yeah. me. the girl who doesn't bat an eyelid watching horror movies. the girl who didn't scream when she walked through a haunted house. guess i just have this very low level of tolerance towards scary stuff in australia.

lingered til 7.15am, and all of us were like dying ducks. decided to scoot and let poor mag get some sleep so here i am, typing away and so dead tired i probably don't know what i'm saying half the time. stomach feels like a washing machine. you try drinking vanilla coke and eating potato chips at 4.30am in the morning.

guess what? when i opened the door to my apartment, my flatmate was still sitting at her table typing away. both of us stayed up the whole night, but for entirely different reasons. i was doing what... wasting my life probably. she was STUDYING! shit man, i'm so screwed. and i have TWO papers to write and do research on BEFORE easter break is over! sigh. plus i'm going to some safari thing tomorrow. HELP!!

broke my rule. gave my blog address to mag but stated specifically i didn't want her to link my blog to hers. don't want to risk any medical faculty people stumbling upon this blog. it may be a blessing in disguise but i'm not prepared to risk it now. mag... if you're reading this... SEND ME THE PHOTOS WE TOOK!!!

brain's shutting down, i had so better go get some shut eye. probably be another unproductive day today. sigh. gosh, i hate myself!!

ps: i have been hanging out with way too many medical/vet science/dentistry people. i'm starting to feel slightly more intellectual! :D

hui:

went out with mei, alex, kelen, jinhong (& his shared galfriend?? =X). was rather surprised that the gal is free on a weekend. o_O anyway, e "purpose" is to farewell alex~ for his NS trip to taiwan. haha.. i was terribly late. sick. -_- i met up with alex and kelen first, to bugis. alex wanted to go there to buy pouch and take neoprint. after these 2 things are done, hong and his galfriend came. his gf is not friendly at all. i din talk to her at all. we then went to mac to have some bite, and to wait for mei in e meanwhile. she finally came, and tt gal left shortly after tt. use ass also noe where she is going la... still say "i have something on, gtg" -_- still have e cheek to kiss hong infront of us!! -_- -_- -_-

actually kelen and mei wanted to play pool eating.. but i wasn't really keen on it, and i would rather go shopping and walk around with mei. so being e mean me, i said i wan to go shopping~ so mei accompanied me. hehe.. thus we "parted" and e 3 guys went to a LAN shop to play CounterStrike. *so bad*

i was thinking of buying a dress.. cos i have none. haha.. maybe something not too formal, so tt i can still wear it often. in e end din take fancy on any. actually its becos i wasn't really focusing on dresses la. jus wan something nice.. tops.. or skirts doesn't matter.. as long as i look nice in it and its affordable. mei and i walked past one shop, and tot that e clothes aren't too bad. so we kinded "u-turn" and took at look. mei picked one top and asked me to try. e design is nice~ so i took another colour of e same design. i picked another top and asked mei for her opinion. response was good. so i headed for e fitting room. then, she took another grey de for me. all 3 were nice, but i prefer e other 2 (not e grey one). i had a hard time choosing which one to buy, cos i din have enough $$$. and i like both!! it all came to an end when mei said "buy both la. i help u pay one of it and treat it as a birthday present from me" wooot~ i din expect her to say tt. so i said "really?" and accepted e offer. hehe.. so i got 2 tops!! whee~ one yellow-lime colour and e other is white. though they're both of e same price, i'll take it as mei bought me e yellow-lime de. cos she chose tt for me. thanks mei!! for e early bday pressie. i like it! =D we then continued to walk around, and mei tried on some tops. but she din buy them in e end. she look nice in them, but not THAT nice until u really wanna buy it tt kind. understand? paiseh la, my english sux. lazy to think. =X

after tt, we both thought tt it was abt time and e guys would be done with their game. i called kelen, and he said "a LITTLE while more". and mei said kelen's "little" while is very long. well, i have not experienced it. and its true. it was abt 20-25mins -_-
moral of e story --- Never trust a guy's A WHILE when he's having fun

anyway, while waiting for e guys, tim and i were having sms session. he PMS la. make me so pissed. so i went over to boon lay and had a good talk with him. finally settled e stuffs. but i had to apologise to mei and e guys.. cos becos of me they din go play pool. and all of them went home. but hey, i did make up a little hor.. i accompanied them by taking e long way mrt route to boon lay. ie, from bugis -> city hall -> raffles place -> amk (say byebye to them) -> jurong east -> boon lay. song bo?! song la. haha..

i kinda feel out of place yesterday. dunno how come no mood to suan alex. *opps* maybe cos i feeling sick bah. and my kahki in suaning alex was late (mei) and e other one is in aust!! wahaha u noe who u are =P read alex's blog and was extremely amused that alex actually wanted me to make fun of him. if not he dun feel shuang. hahaha.. i'm not kidding!! here~ let me quote from alex's blog

"in the end, i wasn't very happy with today :/ the mood just isn't there. maybe is becoz dajie was sick, so no one entertain me and come di siao me."

ahh.. stomach hurts again. -_-

ting:

daylight saving has begun... which means the entire australia (with the exception of western australia) turns their clocks back an hour. :) how cool is that? my friends and i thought it was rather weird... isn't daylight saving supposed to be during winter? it's only three weeks into autumn now for heaven's sake. but anyway, it was really cool to stand in a circle and turn our watches and handphones back an hour. being the ridiculous me, i can't help feeling really happy that i'm gaining an extra hour! wheee! :D yeah, so now, the time difference between singapore and melbourne is reduced to two hours. that's nice ain't it?

invited mag and carol to my place for dinner tonight as i thought my flatmate would be out for dinner and won't come back that early. imagine my shock when i opened the door and saw her standing at the counter eating her vegetables and fruits. too late, i couldn't possibly shove mag and carol out the door and run out screaming myself so had to grin and bear it.

like i said earlier, everytime i bring friends back, another personality of hers emerges. she becomes this sugary sweet being whom everybody loves. she was awfully nice the entire time mag and carol were here. she even TALKED to me! which was quite an achievement seeing we spent the past week ignoring each other and not even muttering a word. but it made me feel really uncomfortable and hypocritical. because i know (she probably does as well) that this is NOTHING but an act. come on! you don't see her behaving like that when we're alone! she spent quite a lot of time on the phone as well but tonight, there were no tears, no screams, no yells. only perfect behaviour. i think carol is starting to doubt me. she probably thinks i'm weird or something.

sigh. i guess it doesn't really matter if people don't trust me. what i'm afraid of is that they'll think i'm jealous of her... after all, she's pretty goodlooking and attracts a reasonable number of guys. maybe they think i'm out to spite her or something like that. and that feeling sucks. i guess it doesn't really matter. but this whole act thing... it's making me feel like thrash.

so yeah. guess for now, the only outlet to vent is through this blog. at least it helps to know you guys are on my side and believe me(hopefully). i swear that from now on, i will try not to bitch about her to anybody else in melbourne. i'm so sick and tired of this. what's the point when they'll stop believing me the minute they meet my flatmate? and for fear that she/someone else who knows her will stumble onto this blog and read everything i write, there's no way in hell i'm gonna disclose the address to anyone else in australia. so suba and joann, please don't tell anyone else my blog address. i appreciate it tons.

well, it's easter! i shouldn't be so gloomy and bring everyone down with me. HAPPY EASTER GUYS!!! eat more chocolates!

hui:

history may repeat itself, but for e other reasons. is it so difficult to go for a movie once in a while or to spend time with each other outside once or twice in a month? is it too much to ask? u left me with no choice and now u wanna put e blame on me. can't u see that its not that i LIKE to go out, but is i wan to go out WITH u? jus onli e 2 of us? -_-

hui:

was sick. had cough for over a week and stomach pain like hell yesterday. was supposed to go look for Timmy Tim Tim but din. so he came instead. accompanied to go to e doctor's. when we went to e clinc, it was closed. -_- at night open at 7pm again. so i had to go back home and wait. so pain~ i wanted to rip out my stomach sia. then had a slight fever. finally it was 7pm and i went to e clinic again. e doctor said it was stomach flu. -_- he asked if i had taken dinner i said no. i onli ate breakfast. cos in e morning my stomach was already feeling unwell. but a bit nia. so i had macdonald's breakfast in sch. gradually it became more painful and i couldn't eat during lunch. dunno i was full or hungry. hmm, actually i think i had e stomach flu since last friday le. cos i ate too full and i vomited and i cough. -_-

e nurse gave me pills. OMG, and i can't swallow pills. so Tim helped me to break them into small pieces and i melted it. drank them after eating my half bowl plain porridge with soya sauce. it was damn damn bitter. for e first time, plain water taste sweet to me. i went to sleep and and i felt much better. then a few hours later, at abt 1+am, my stomach hurts again. so i woke up, made some milo and ate a piece of bread. after that took my "dissolved" pill solution. some din really dissolve mah. so got small pieces. i tried to swallow them. for one second, i tot i succeeded. cos it went down my throat. e next second, i vomit everything out. my milo and bread. -_- so today i dun dare to eat e pills le. i onli drink e cough syrup. anyway not pain also le mah.

hai, so suay. exams coming then sick. but quite heng also la. at least i fell sick b4 e exams. and not during. am chatting with ting now. abt LOTR. woot~ dun think aragorn is gay la. cannot be!! better not be! wahaha

ting:

my flatmate is driving me nuts. she really really is! i cannot take it anymore... i'm going crazy! be prepared for this MAJOR bitching session about her! ughhhhh! it's gotten to the point i want to strangle her everytime i see her. she gets on my nerves so badly! quick! restrain me! remind me it's not worth going to jail over that bimbotic wuss. yeah, weird combination of words to use i know. then again, NOTHING about her is normal.

let's see. i strongly suspect she has a sleeping disorder. what kind of freak goes to bed at 12am and wake up at 5am the next morning? she does that ALL THE TIME!! okok, so i go to bed much much later...2am at the latest maybe? but i sleep in! and i take very lengthy afternoon naps which can last for up to 5 hours! she doesn't sleep AT ALL. and she keep complaining she's tired. duh. if you think you can survive on 5 hours of sleep every night, there seriously is a problem with you.

i have been consuming blocks and blocks and blocks of chocolates ever since i came over. for some weird reason, australia kickstarts this deep intense craving for chocolate. plus the fact i eat unhealthy food all the time. pizza. pasta. instant noodles. sweetened cereal. ice cream. fried rice. that's pretty normal. do you know what she EATS(do you even consider that eating???)? for breakfast: non fat cereal. some disgusting looking bran grains. it's supposedly VERY healthy. for lunch (according to mag): grapes. for dinner: vegetables, fruits and in the very rare occasion, BOILED FISH!!! who the hell eats boiled fish may i ask? god. i can't take it. and she's in the freaking medicine faculty for heaven's sake. surely she'd know WHAT is good for health and what is not? she was telling me the importance of having balance the other day. who is she to talk about balance? feh.

our study is this external study and my table happens to be two steps away from the freaking telephone. she is on the phone ALL THE TIME! talking to her mother. to her father. to her boyfriend. she doesn't know the meaning of being considerate. she speaks as loud as she wants to while poor old me try my best NOT to eavesdrop and try to concentrate on my work. what i usually do is listen to music and try to drown out her incredibly whiny voice. but it doesn't really work, because i'm not one to blast music. so it ends up i hear every single word she says. and god. HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *screams* she is so fucking weird. (right now, she's ON THE PHONE AGAIN! WHINING! THROWING A TANTRUM! I WANT TO FUCKING THROW SOMETHING AT HER. EITHER THAT OR TOSS HER OUTTA THE WINDOW!)

tell me. if you were homesick and call your mum to talk to her, how would your attitude be like? chances are you'll be sweet, docile and obedient. she ISN'T like that. she cries. screams. throws a tantrum. kicks the counter (poor counter happens to be beside the phone). yells at her mum. tells her mum to shut the hell up because she doesn't understand her or know what she is going through. i finally understand why her mum decided to send her to australia. if i were the mother, i'd send her somewhere further. to africa maybe and pray she gets eaten up by a lion. ugh!!!!!!!!!! *frustration*

she says she's stressed. she says she is tired all the time. which doesn't surprise me, seeing her sleeping and eating habits are all screwed up. she says she doesn't have time to do anything. how can you expect to achieve anything if you spend half the day on the phone?? ok, i haven't been very disciplined myself...been online way too much. but i KNOW it's my fault and i'm not trying to attribute my low level of productivity to any other external factors. yeah i get it. she's a goddess. we should all fall at her feet and worship her, because she is ALWAYS right and anything bad that happens are attributed to the environment and other people.

like me, she did one semester at nus before deciding she didn't like it and wanted to come over. she fucking wanted college square as well. now that she's here, she spends all the time criticising the university and how college square is no good because they rip us off, everything is so expensive and they don't provide tutorial sessions. sweetheart. YOU wanted it! she's trying to reapply to nus so she can go back to singapore. *prays* nus, please please please accept her! so she can fucking MOVE OUT AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!! UGHHHHHH!!!!

right about now, she's on the phone to her mum telling her how homesick she is and how she can't adapt. and she just said her mum doesn't listen and she says she don't want to ever talk to her mum again. sigghhhhhh. she is a freak. period. she told her mum she wanted to go back to nus. well, if i were her mum, i'd slap her. without a question of doubt. i spent all that money sending you here, you bloody tell me you can't fit in and want to go home? i mean come on. STOP ACTING LIKE SUCH A SPOILT BRAT. one of the many advantages of coming overseas is that you get to LEARN how to be independant and adapt! if you can't fucking adapt, you shouldn't have even THOUGHT of coming. you're torturing yourself. your parents. and me! do you know how affected i get when she gets into one of her moods and throws tantrums? it's like, what the fuck? i want to fucking move out. hand's itching to reach for a knife.

what i simply CANNOT stand is that she keeps saying she's fat. -_- for heaven's sake. FAT? how can someone who live on grapes be fat? she was telling her mum she overate...ate a whole bowl of grapes and she feels sick. and that she exceeded because she counted. EXCEEDED??? EXCEEDED WHAT?? her calorie count for the day? god! i don't believe her.

you can see i'm super pissed can't you? ugh! and wait... there's still more. heard from mag one of the many rumours she spread around about me is that i didn't pay her back for stuff and i use her cutlery. woah hang on there a second. WHAT DID SHE BUY??? dishwashing liquid. and some brush for the toilet. THAT WAS IT. what did i get and not claim from her? i bought two batches of toilet rolls already. hand washing liquid. shower foam. when the light globes in my apartment blew (3 of them), I was the one who told the maintainence people to come change it and I was the one who paid for the freaking thing! sometimes, you can't bloody draw such a clear line between shared things! and what cutlery may i ask? WE bought that TOGETHER because WE wanted to SHARE them! and MY DAD paid for the bloody thing! using YOUR cutlery? i'm so fucking incredulous you won't believe.

i'm tired. i really am. australia would be perfect if it wasn't for her. aurgh! someone save me!! huili, please go BEG nus to re-accept her and give her a bloody scholarship so she'd be so enticed to go back she can fucking leave me alone. point to note. in the event she graduates and manages to become a doctor, NEVER go consult her if you value your life(and your sanity). she'd probably tell you your way of living is too unhealthy and that you should live on grapes. sigh. i cannot take it any longer!

hui:

there're lots of ppl who are hyprocrites. think they should go fuck themselves with a dynamite and blow themselves to pieces. wahaha. actually, dun u think they deserves pity? they're ppl with extreme low self-esteem. so e onli thing they can do is jus to bitch around and saying untrue stuffs. hais, so poor thing.

i guess i'm e same as ting. when i meet ppl i dun like, there's no way i gonna act like i like u. jus dun understand y some ppl like to wear masks and to put up a false front. some ppl in my class are like that. -_- losers. fakers. -_-

anyway, one of my classmates traded off her samsung handphone for a nokia 6170. e phone i have longed for long b4 it was out in e market. have been waiting for e price to drop since last nov and i think its a good time to buy now. i really like it!! a lot!! and i think e price is reasonable la. Starhub re-contract/new line $228. i want it sooo much!! wanna buy it for myself as birthday present. who wanna sponsor me a bit of $$$ for e phone?? each person $10 will do, i'll top e rest. hahah.. im serious leh. not joking. i mean for those who wan to give me presents, dun buy!! give me $10 each. wahaha *dun wan face*

meeting my cousin for dinner at chomp chomp for dinner later. hai. cannot meet Ting. she's now soooo far away. do u miss me Ting?? miss e food here? => i wanna strike toto!! then i can have money to go melborune to visit ting. it will definitely feel good to meet up with someone i miss so much foreign land. and to have fun too! =( anyway, gtg.. off le..

PS: consider e $10 sponsorship for each head hor.. wahahaha =X

ting:

neela was here! spent the whole of yesterday with her. took her to eat ice cream! :) :) :) she says the ice cream is certainly worth coming down to melbourne for. yay! and pei is coming! in june!! and neela would come down from canberra again! gosh, this rocks. i can't wait for winter! :D:D:D it rocks seeing an old friend in a foreign land. i don't know how to describe that feeling... i mean, i have new found friends here and all but nothing beats seeing someone you've known for ages here. the best thing in life is rediscovering friendship. :) happy!

i feel strangely excluded from my management group. i mean, the cute guy is probably the ONLY nice person there! there's this other australian girl who totally completely ignores me. she only looks at me when i ask her something. i'm serious. and the other australian guy... he doesn't even acknowledge my presence! i'm starting to feel a little transparent here. the cute guy's the only one who includes me in things and make eye contact with me when he talks. and today, when i brought up a very valid point, he was the only one who said, "wow, that's a very good one!" whereas the rest merely wrote it down without even looking up. sigh. guess it's a good thing we're not doing the group assignment.

i need to bitch. about my flatmate. i guess people who know her would probably think i'm nuts, because she comes across as nice enough. well, i LIVE with her. it's freaking different. see, when i bitch to my friends about her, then bring them back to my apartment and they actually get to meet her, they would think i'm nuts for not being able to get along with her. she's friendly, she talks to them, she offers them food/fruits and drinks and all that. the thing is, it's just an act! we don't even talk to each other when it's just the two of us around the apartment. i only talk to her when i need to discuss splitting of bills and such.

what i hate about her is she is not sincere. she may be very nice on the surface, but you've no idea what she is thinking or doing behind your back. it's a good thing i have other friends in the medical faculty who knows her. mag warned me that she was spreading rumours/bithing about me to her friends. was pretty stunned, then realised that it made sense because she's not as simple as she seems. looks are deceiving.

anyway, it happened that friday was her birthday. so she celebrated with her friends till real late. it was roundabout 1am when she came back with ALL OF THEM! i was still up because i was doing my work and they just came streaming in. i was so shocked i just sat and stared. and the thing is (here's what irks me), NONE of them acknowledged my presence. NOT a simple hi, NOT EVEN a glance in my direction. yep, i'm definitely feeling invisible. and they were making a hell lot of noise! please...it's past midnight for heaven's sake. you people are not the only ones walking this planet. be fucking considerate. if you want to make your presence known, you should try doing it another way. i got pretty annoyed. think about this. when my flatmate is doing her work or when she's stressed out about something, i try my best not to disturb her. i listen to songs via earphones because she "ordered" me to. i give in to her most of the time. i don't bring friends back to my apartment late at night because i know she sleeps early and spends a lot of time studying. don't you see the imbalance?

i told them (and i wasn't even rude!) to try keep it down. you could see all their expressions turn hostile. well, even if it was for myself, i was also thinking about the rest of the people living on my floor! you know how sound travels at night... everyone's gonna hear the racket you morons are making.

anyway, was in mag's apartment today and she told me that during the fieldtrip the medical faculty had over the weekend, my dear sweet blessed flatmate and her friends were bitching about me. it's nice to know i'm such a common topic of conversation. aren't they sweet?? *drips sarcasm* they were telling everyone within earshot and who would be interested in listening to what they have to say that i was a cold, unfriendly bitch who just sat and stared at them while they all came in making that huge din at past midnight. ok they didn't say bitch. neither did they mention the second part of the sentence (duh). or maybe they did but mag didn't tell me. still, i guess it came pretty close. mag got defensive and countered, "you guys didn't say hi or introduce yourselves in the first place did you?" -silence- then, "oh by the way, it so happens that wenting is a good friend of mine." -dead silence- no one dared utter a single word after that.

i appreciate what mag did for me but really. it wasn't all that necessary. told her not to argue with them about it. i mean, i won't even see them (hopefully) all that often, unless they come as an uninvited guest to my place. (then again, i keep trying to remind myself that she has the right to bring friends back because the apartment is half hers) whereas for mag, she has to spend the next six years facing those people. and seriously, i don't give a shit what those people think. you wanna believe what you hear about me, by all means, go ahead. i don't like all you people that much as well. if you are gonna be people who like my flatmate and believe every single word she says, then sorry, i'm never gonna be friends with you people. no big loss right?

it used to be that i was really concerned/bothered about what people think of me. not now. i don't give a fuck (pardon the language. feeling pissed). all i want in life is for people whom i care about and my real friends to understand the real me. and i don't believe in concealing what you feel. if i don't like you, there's no way i'd act like it and hang out with you. unlike my darling flatmate.

*highly irritated*

to get rid of all those poisonous words... let's view the photos neela and i took yesterday!

the pizza we had for lunch :)

ICE CREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

neela tasting her first spoonful and is halfway going hmmmmm! guess i snapped the picture too fast...

neela looking very happy after she's eaten up every single bit of the best ice cream in the whole wide world!

we were standing in front of this really nice park with fabulous scenery!

ting:

huili wants me to focus a teeny weeny bit on the bad side of university life in melbourne instead of always talking about "how much fun i'm having". guess she wants to prove a point...that all universities are the same. so to fulfill her request, here goes.

my accounting textbook is so fuckingly redundant. i swear. and i paid a bloody $103.46 for it. ugh! the organisation in it is terrible. and the lecture notes don't tell us which chapter to read. thanks so much... how am i gonna know what my reading for the week is? trying to do accounting tutorial and accounting assignment now and am having this major headache. it doesn't help that BOTH are due on monday and my assignment happens to be worth 10% of my final grade. i desperately want a high distinction (in singapore context, A+) for this subject but it's so difficult. sigh.

econs is ok. but i'm having this major overdose of it...result of doing three chapters of readings at one go, then attempting the tutorial. i spent the whole of thursday night dreaming of supply and demand curves! sigh.

have not touched quantitative methods (in other words, statistics) so i can't comment too much on that.

my management prof has a very shrill voice. and her notes are crap. heard from my friend the management text is crap as well. ah well...

see huili? i'm suffering here too!

hui:

ppl are getting insane nowadays. -_- kie siao, always get pissed for e slightest reasons -_-

i wan a social life!! a one like Ting's~ so cool. but i cant.. cos i'm anti-social towards ppl i dunno well =P i really dunno how to open myself up, its jus my "style". its funny how and what my classmates "define" me as. they think i'm e 2nd most gentle gal in my class, soft-spoken, not kpo, easy-going, not evil, quiet, not good at bitching/gossiping and many more. oh yah, they thought i dun eat spicy food. hahaha.. am i too pro in diguising myself or are they too dumb to realise? opps~ *cannot say ppl dumb* =P

am chatting with Ting now and finding songs for her. her songs are always sooo difficult to find. anyway, lunch time now! gotta eat!! see ya!!

ting:

i give up. there will be a certain point in time whereby you become so resigned you just accept things the way they are without question.

went out today. hence more photos.

they were having some anti-war/anti-terror demonstration along the street. my friend was pretty fascinated by it.

for some weird reason, i like this photo. hehe...