hui:

pack me!! (pls pack me with a nice companion) poke holes!! i wanna breathe!! i wan to be rubbish collector!! i wanna be fat! i'm e fat hobbit!

lolz.. i'm insane~

Hui:



visited Adel's site and went to the handwriting test link. it's damn true can?! it says almost all (ok la, most la, like 75-80%) of e things abt me, though most of it are e bad ones. haha.. anyways


******* The Analysis Starts Here *******





For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Jiehui has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Jiehui fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Jiehui has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Jiehui is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Jiehui is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.





Jiehui is selective when picking friends. She does not trust everyone. She has a select group of people that are truly close to her, usually two or three. She is careful when choosing her inner circle of friends.





Jiehui has difficulty trusting anyone. In fact, she trusts no one completely. This is a result of her trust being betrayed in the past. She has closed up, thus ceasing to allow close friendships. Jiehui truly wants close friends and desires physical relationships, but she fears she will get hurt, again. She is lonely, yet has a crying need for close friends. This trait can cause much unhappiness. However, it can be changed.




Jiehui has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.





Jiehui is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.





Jiehui is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Jiehui basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.





In reference to Jiehui's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Jiehui slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Jiehui can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.





Jiehui is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.





Jiehui will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Jiehui believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.





Jiehui has difficulty making decisions. Her mind changes constantly. She lives in an emotional tug of war. Jiehui could be described like a thermometer. Today warm and friendly, yet tomorrow she may be distant and cold, not wanting to be close to anyone. Some research indicates that people with a severe variety in the slant of their handwriting have an inability to tolerate sugar and are suffering the side-effects of too much sugar in their diet. If moods swings are a reoccurring issue, investigate the diet. If Jiehui encounters a situation she cannot handle she frequently pulls into herself. She feels her emotions are secure if she is withdrawn. When she has solved the problem she can be very outgoing and again need other people's companionship. Some see Jiehui as very moody, but it it would be more accurate to say she has two complete personalities that she chooses depending on the circumstance. This type of person is often hard to understand because no one knows what personality she is exhibiting today. She may not be bothered by something one minute, then the next minute become upset at the same thing. It is very difficult to pin down Jiehui's emotional expressiveness.





People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Jiehui doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

ting:

i ought to be deliriously happy now but somehow, am not. instead, am feeling quite frustrated. and depressed. slightly. i'll miss a lot of people. a lot. oh gosh. am highly resistant to change. saying goodbye is tough. wish i could just pack everyone who's close to me up in a huge cardboard box and take them with me.

but people will have to change and move on with their lives. i know it would be the best for me. and my parents. in the very very long run. so i gotta do it. let's hope after the initial stage, i'd start wondering why i ever felt this way.

hui:

haha long time nv update blog liao. but i've got nothing to update. maybe i'm jus lazy. lazy to write abt my christmas. basically i think i had a very enjoyable christmas! cos i'm able to spend it with Ting AND Tim!!! very nice though we did nothing actually. hai. it wun be e same next year. i got to wait for a few more years.

let's see.. 2months. quite short actually. seems like time is running out. haha.. what will i become in 2 months' time? lolz.. ok la, dun say until so far. let's tok abt few days later. new year's eve. this year seems to pass so fast. very fast. DAMN fast. really leh. y? is it a sign of old age? haha..

dunno where to go and what to do on new year's eve. maybe e beach bah. i wan to take picture! lots of pictures!!

nothing to update liao. byeeee!!

ting:

why is everyone not blogging nowadays?? sheez.

important news: MERRY CHRISTMAS!! there are 12 days of christmas so it's not belated. :)

second not so important news: results are out! i can safely say to hell with programming!! woohoo!! thanks gor. i owe you one. :) oh, and i can say to hell with accounting too. this is great. :D cos i seriously thought i was a goner. heh.
thank you God.

*ponders* new zealand, australia or the united states???

hui:

ting!! u have not been blogging!! raa!!

impt news update : tried to mix with my new classmates and so far so good. i mean.. not bad lor.. except they usually dun JOKE abt something. wth.. i dun mind lame jokes in this situation. got joke is good liao. mai hiam right?! haha.. they usually TOK abt something. and e "something" is clothes/accessroies. oh man.. it's not my forte. haha..

came back from mei's sister and brother's birthday party in her house. ting, jol and eny were there too. simon, mei's suitor went.. and he was kinda like finding "excuses" to tok to her. so when e 4 of us were sitting at one coner toking, he came and linger around, hoping that one of us would take e initiative to tok to him. haha.. to his disappointment, none of us did what he hoped we would do. so he came up with a Plan B. he said to mei "hey.. nv introduce ah". actually he saw my pic b4.. cos i sent him my pic for e DBS Roadshow thingie.. he was e one who recommanded mei and me for e job. that time i introed myself as Cheryl thru msn. but hey! i cut hair and changed style remember?! so i said i'm Jiehui. and he din recognise me. haha..

eny wanted to sabo mei by matchmaking her and simon. but ting, jol and i din have e heart to do it. so i did e reverse. i said very loudy, stuffs like "hey eny~ dun be shy, go tok to him!!" and "eny!! say byebye to simon la!" lol.. that was fun~

here comes e a bit malu-cum-omg part. when we were leaving, we said bye to mei's mum mah, and guess what?! she asked mei "how come jiehui nv come?" OMG!!!! I WAS STANDING INFRONT OF HER LEH!! OMG OMG OMG!! so i waved frantically "auntie!! i'm here!" *wave wave* and the other 3 were like laffing madly. -.- -.- -.- and wad was more OMG is that.... she said "really meh?! u're jiehui meh?! dun bluff me!" OMG -.- T_T OMG -.- T_T OMG -.- T_T OMG -.- T_T OMG -.- T_T OMG -.- T_T OMG -.- T_T OMG -.- T_T LOL.. i think that was really funny. maybe i should go do illegal stuffs, change my style totally and get away with it. muahaha!!

in other news, zhen xian is back from brunei. he said he lost 4kg. i think that was lucky of him liao. cos he went there for survivor course for 10days and some training. lolz...

brother jana happened to sms me when i woke up this morning. she said her lesson ended and was wondering where i am. lolz.. she had break till 1pm leh. and she sufferes e same fate as me. so i told her to go home. better mah, can rest for at least 2hrs leh. hehe =)

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::Chorus::
I don't wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be
Right here with you
I don't wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you

hui:

1st day of sch sux. no friends. ok la, got ppl i noe la, but nothing to tok abt lor. not keen in toking to them either. haha.. :x well, i'm anti-social outside e group. wanted to change class but too late le. sian. i went in e afternoon, 2 of e modules has no vaccancy liao. then a lot of problems lor. in e end i found one person who is willing to change class with me. so we went to find e lecturer and he said he dun have e time. what he did for me jus now in e afternoon was jus a favour and already waste a lot of time liao. then bo bian lor. stay in this sucking class bah. hopefully e situation will be better. actually e thing i'm worried abt is during break time leh. nothing to tok abt at all. haiz. dun say le. it's so terrible not to tok and not to say lame things or lame jokes. raa!! during break time somemore lor. haha.. haiz.. train my mouth's endurance sia. too sad le.. type another day bah. haha..

hui:

nooooo!! how can u do this to meeeee...........?! haiz... i'm alone in e class. gifford is not going to be in e same class as me anymore. he sms me jus now and said that he has night class on mondays. this would mean that he's in e same class as weetat and ckc lor. hai.. i'm alone! how? i dun think i can survive all e practical lessons and tutorial alone. somemore got communication skills lor. all e interview and presentations.. have to tok to one big bunch of ppl whom i dunno. plus my anti-social pattern surely no friends de. hai.. what i'm more worried is project. what if i have to do in pairs? urgh! i hope i can transfer. but xinzhi said we're grouped according to our elective module. then that means i cannot change lor. cos i have a module that is different from e other 2 classes. raa!! i dun mind changing~ haha.. cos they have a free day on tuesday! hai hai hai. die le lah.

ting:

yay hui!!! this skin ROCKS!!! DON'T YOU DARE CHANGE IT!!! wahahahahhaha!! ooohh...this makes me wanna remain at our blog forever.

ok, the verdict is out. it's not chicken pox (thank God!!). it's some sort of viral rash/infection and it'll take one week to subside. meanwhile, i gotta stay out of the sun for a week and refrain from eating oily fried stuff, chicken, eggs, nuts... oh help. there's nothing left to eat. but anyway, with luck, i'll be up and about just in time for christmas. so let's party man!! i've been home and ill for far too long. my whole holiday is wasted.

and yes hui, the bottomline is, despite the fact that "the journey has ended", lotr still rocks. =) i love them all so much (except for frodo - still can't get myself to like him - and faramir's crazy father who should just do middle earth a favour and burn earlier). wonder if they will reuse the cast for the hobbit, if they even film it in the first place. hmmm....

enough lotr talk! medicine is making me drowsy. need more sleep. good night kiddos and enjoy the blogskin!! =) =) =)

hui:

yoz~ finally got my timetable yesterday. it sux. dun have night class!! which means i wun have one of e weekdays off. hai.. my timetable sux not becos it doesnt have night class. this is my schedule:

monday - 9 to 5pm
tuesday - 9 to 3pm
wed - 10 to 3pm
thurs - 8 to 6pm
friday - 8 to 4pm

kinda packed right? i think thursday i'll start sch at 10am instead of 8am.. as e first 2 lessons are self-study. (which i will use it for sleeping session at home) guess what? on friday, ALL my lessons (except for e 1st hour) will be taught by my project supervisor. lolz.. i wonder y.. cos it's e same module. i tihnk i'll have an overdose of that on every friday. ckc has night class on monday, not bad. off on tuesday. hmm.. ckc and weetat are gonna be in e same class. we'll still meet each other in lectures. fat, weetat and giff are back in thier trio again! lol.. (hey, that does not mean that ckc and me partner with each other k..) =P

watched Return of The King EXTENDED version with ting on wednesday. i didn't cry! woot! maybe cos i was busy toking to focus fully on e show. haha.. i love gimli! he's sosososo cute. and i suddenly find legolas very attractive. its like suddenly he becomes so much more handsome than he was when i watched ROTK e other 3 times in e theatre. haha.. and yes! gandalf!! woot! "Run Shawdow Fax, show us e meaning of haste" so cool. i liked merry more than e last time i watched. ewoyn too! and i farimir is so hot! i mean, last time when i watched i onli tot of him as very good-looking. haha.. i din hate frodo as much, and i din think sam was that fat. haha.. but gollum is still small and with a big head. oh yes and aragorn! still love him. muahaha.. neutral towards e ghosts, except that i think they should haven made fun of gimli and made him blow more and harder. i dun care abt e orcs. arwen is very "white". yay!! i love it so much. will be meeting da ge later to get e VCD he bought for me and i shall have a marathon. though it'll take over 12hours. haha..

badminton session with shan, jol and eny. my butt hurts and right hand a bit of muscle ache. nothing interesting to add on. after playing badminton we went to eat, then jol got stomach cramp. i could see she was really in pain. then brought her to see e doctor, randy paid for e medical fees and sent her home while eny and me went to shan's house to create havoc again. hehe..

ting:

the main purpose of this entry is to whine (what's new?). but hey... for once, i'm entitled. *takes a deep breath and wails at top of lungs* i don't believe this!!! chicken pox!!!!!!!!! one week before christmas!!!!!!!! what the hell!? this week has been the worst ever in my life. you won't believe the chain of illnesses i've been having. first up was this nasty ear infection which hurt like hell. and the day my infection subsided was also the day the fever came...along with cough, flu, sore throat and the likes. just yesterday, my left eye got infected and it swelled so bad i looked like a goldfish. (probably also because i spent 4 over hours watching return of the king but...nevermind. shhhhh!!! and it made the other illnesses better! so that vcd marathon thing was justified.) now today. an hour ago to be exact. i noticed *drum rolls* red spots on my arms and legs!!! they look more like mosquito bites or something but my mum thinks it's chicken pox. and seeing i'm probably the most unobservable person in the entire world...seeing the doctor will have to be left till tomorrow. so. one night full of uncertainty and paranoia.

please please please. don't let it be chicken pox!!! i've been meaning to go get the vaccine ever since forever. but being caught up in the hustle and bustle of life and all, what makes you think i'll remember something as trivial as a chicken pox vaccine injection?? shoot. if it really is chicken pox, i'll spent the rest of this two weeks kicking myself. ugh! i have an extremely low resistance to itch. it'll just kill me. i'd much rather take pain, thank you very much. sigh. this christmas is gonna be the worst ever.

am wishing that the doctor will take one look and laugh all my fears away. am hoping it's some sort of freak allergy or something. though judging by the alarming rate at which it's spreading...probably not. and i have been steering clear of seafood!! and unless the antibiotics contain sulphur, chances of this being an allergy is very slim. bleh. i feel like the world's most pathetic idiot. my nose has it the worst. one would think i stuck it deep into an ant hill.

guess christmas this year would be spent at home. in front of the tv watching all those stupid shows channel 5 has to offer. if they decide to show jurassic park again, i'll flip. i'll throw the tv out of the window. seriously. can't they start buying more shows instead of finding it necessary to repeat movies every single year? obviously not. sigh.

another paragraph and alex would be comparing the length of this entry to that of a thesis. so i shall stop getting on the nerves of whoever-is-reading-this and end. before i do so...the bottomline is: i can be safely regarded as the whole's most miserable person right now. visit me during christmas. don't forget the presents!! lotr extended dvd version will make me very very happy so it would be wise to include it in your christmas presents list. *grins* i hope you got the hint!!

hui:

whee.. i'm not alone!! i'm not alone in e class for e next semester!! according to ckc, i'm in e same class as gifford! i sms giff to triple confirm, and he said he's in E3. yay!! but he said he might not be in sch for e first week. hai.. so i'll be kinda alone for e first week. haiz.. hope he comes! though i have nothing much to tok to him, it's better than i'm in e same class with no one i noe.

timetable's not out yet. maybe much later in e day. i wonder how's my timetable like. is it nice? do i have any night class or "off days"? whee hee hee =P

ting:

*blinks at hui* since when did you start liking those two people??

anyway...RETURN OF THE KING VCD IS OUT!!!!!!!!! yay!! after three years, december feels weird without lord of the rings. it doesn't feel like december somehow. but nevermind. now, we can watch all three at one go!!! ooo...i'm a lotr freak. but then, who cares? sue me. *grins* ohhh!! i want the dvd set!! but it's freaking expensive!! and i'm horribly poor. if some kind soul can give me the entire trilogy dvd set, i'll be indebted to that person for life. please please please!!! urgh!! it's in times like these i wish i had a boyfriend whom i can drop a few hints to. wahahahahhaha!!! yeah, i'm evil.

in other news...i'm sick. have been sick for the past three days and don't see myself getting any better. this suck. all my holiday plans are ruined damnit. and i can't talk!! the most i can manage is a few croaks before a coughing fit takes hold of me. sigh. i had better recover in the next day or so... there's badminton on thursday and i want to go! though judging by my condition, i can only go there to pick shuttlecocks.

mind's not very alert as you can see... still feeling horribly sluggish. and had better go shower before it gets too late to.

just in case i'm not in a blogging mood again... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hui:

i'm in a cheery mood now. jus reached home not long. i din watch the Star Awards but as far as i'm concerned, Jeanette Aw and Joanne Peh rox!! Joanne Peh got e Best Newcomer Award. woot! Jeanette got e top 10 most popular. woot! chio bux. i like~! =D

probably cos Tim's dad sent me home. wait. let me finish. of cos with Tim and his mum in e car as well. haha.. we went for dinner at e bird park at 8pm, then went to jurong west somewhere to accompany Tim to e doctor's. lazy boy, went to take MC again. -_- there was a long que at e clinic and there were 3 malay kids (i'm not racist) running abt, shouting here and there. raa.. damn noisy can.. and their parents din give a damn. they din even ask their kids to lower down e volume. all e ppl there were very annoyed. anyways, by e time Tim came out from e clinic it was already 9.45pm. so i said jus drop me at e mrt station lor. his mum said dun wan.. very late liao, get Tim to drive.. but i dun wan. so in e end his dad suggested that he sent me home. as in everyone go amk then go back to jurong west. i wanted to reject. damn paiseh. but both Tim and his dad said nvm. very bu hao yi si can.. kan lai wo shi fei ta bu jia le. hahaha :x

hui:

wow, havent been blogging for almost a week le. no wonder leon keep complaining :x haha.. hey ting! u too! u haven been blogging for more than a week!

tell u all a funny thing. for e first time ever, i lost my way in singaopre. ok la, not really lost la. tim's lesson ends at 3pm.. and i had to go jurong east to get my pay for that telemarketing job. so decided to give him a surprise by going Ngee Ann Poly to "fetch" him.

i boarded bus 97 from jurong east interchange and wanted to alight at some bus stop to change bus no. 154. then at around 2.30pm, Tim called. he said he finish class liao. wth... y he always finish class so early de. what are NP lecturers doing man.. =x ok, back to e story. he asked me where i am. so i said i'm on the bus. then he was like "huh?! y?" i say i wanna go NP. then he laff. -_- i said i'm on AYE, haven pass clementi yet. then ok lor, no need to go NP, go clementi meet him. he told me to alight at clementi sports hall that bus stop.

ok, so i wait. and wait. dun have lor. i din see e bus pass by there. then all e way expressway.. until alexandra road. wah liao. so i told him, and i took e other bus back, told him e bus number plate and he board e bus one stop away from e sports hall bus stop. when he got on e bus, i asked him where is e sports hall, i din see. he said was e bus stop before the one he board e bus. wth?! that one is stadium lor! where got sports hall? that time i went that clementi sports hall i din see any stadium. raa.. nvm~ i feel so noob suddenly. hahaha.. i mus go NP one day and surprise him again!! haha :x

jus now went "dinner" with Mei at around 815pm and Shan accidentaly sent me a msg.. toking abt e lord one la. so i forwarded it to alex. wanted to make fun of him mah. and his reply was "WTF?! WTF da jie?! what are u doing?! u went mad?" hahahha.. damn funny, mei and i laff till peng. so i replied "yes di.. i converted." and all e shit la. he kinda believed. so i called him, and ask if he wanna go church with me tml. he said where and who going. i said mei will be coming with me.. and i'll be going to e redhill one. then he was like "wah liao. u wanna go Shan's church izzit? is this a trap?" haha.. and he sounded quite serious abt going leh. he asked me meet where and wat time.. go there for what got what thing to do.. this kinda stuffs. haha.. so i said "di, i'm serious. i'm really serious" then he "wah liao. really serious ah?" i replied "yes di, i;m serious. very serious abt this joke." LOL.. then somehow he cant understand what i said and i cant hear what he say. and he said there's something wrong with my ear, and i said there's something wrong with his mouth. then somehow mei said something, and he said there's something wrong with her brain. haha.. so there's something abt us in this family that is not right, except for ting. so we said we have to think something for her. haha :x

ok la, i wanna go chat and listen to songs liao. see ya!

hui:

i jus feel like posting but i dunno what to write abt. i'm jus feeling funny. ok, weird shall be e word. early in e morning 4am nothing better to do lor, so went thru what happened a few days and a few hours ago and suddenly feel pissed. hahaha... ok la, i noe i'm lame. i dun care.

if u wanna tok good abt someone, jus bloody go ahead and do it! u dun have to include me in ur quotes!! dun have to compare me either. raa! if gals are bitches, guys are farkers. if u wanna shift ur attention on me to someone u're chatting with, scram!! i dun need u to give me one word replies to entertain me. i rather u not reply me at all. if u dun have e intention of telling me what happened, tell me so. i dun need u to say "we'll talk abt it when we meet". becos u noe u wun be free. dun tell me u miss me when we both noe u dun. u also dun have to "greet" me if u dun feel like it. dun do it becos u feel that u should tok to me when u see me. if u think i have an attitude problem, u're WRONG. u have a perception problem. if u think i'm refering to u (or if u have someone in mind to whom i may be refering to), u're thinking too much. lastly, dun ask me who this person is, go eBay and buy a clue. it may help.

raaa!!

PS: all i can tell u is that the person is not Tim. haha... dun ask me liao, faster go eBay buy clue.

hui:

everything i say to u is a lie.

It is obvious that i cannot be telling the truth. since if i'm not telling the truth, i must be lying. but, if i'm lying when i said "everything I say to you is a lie", then in reality, at least something (not everything) that i tell u will be the truth.

bottomline : i do not always tell e truth. muahhaha!

PS: i think ting, mei and jana would noe what i really really mean. haha :x

ting:

what do you do when you have a second chance of fulfilling your dream? something that you want oh so desperately? they say opportunity doesn't knock twice and you should grab it. but what if there is a great price to pay for the fulfilment of that dream? would you still go ahead with it...and risk losing everything? or would you rather choose to forgo it a second time and live with yourself and that decision you made? and continue being miserable? and basically, risk having a door slam shut in your face?

i know this is it. once i've made my decision, i cannot look back. and i know this would be the last time i have such an opportunity. but i don't know what to do. for the life of me, i really don't know. to follow my heart or to spare a thought for the ones i love. to be really happy at the cost of others or to just continue putting up with my act.

i may manage to act nonchalant. but inside me is a mess. i wish when wounds heal, they can never be opened up again. but sadly, that's not the case. i wish things were easier. i wish i wasn't given a choice. i wish God would just tell me what to do and which path to follow instead of making me deal with such a huge decision all on my own.

it's time to face up to what i've been trying to avoid. i hate myself for always running. i hate myself for my reluctance to even think about the possibilties. then again, it's self defense isn't it? trying to keep from being hurt. but what's the point of it all when i'm hurting like crazy now?