Updates~*

Stuff that people have been telling me lately:

1. I'm dyingggggg soon..... 

2. Year 4 sucks; it's INSANE.

3. How to finish so many readings?!?!?!

4. Week 3 feels like Week 8.

5. How to compete with all these SUPER ZAI people?!?! *directs eye gaze at several people in class*

6. Are you going to attend any career/grad studies talk?

7. When are you going to start job-searching?

8. Prof MIA! (AGAIN)

9. Jas, your hair is really very long!!

*A BIG BIG SIGH* 

Let me vent some frustrations that have been long suppressed within me, alright?

In summary, I'm completely overwhelmed by the demands and expectations of being an Honours student...

Well, I should have anticipated it (being a defensive pessimist) but well... it turned out to be more exhausting and taxing than I had imagined. 

And not to mention my ongoing struggles with thesis... 

Is it because of self-imposed expectations...?

or, is my inferiority complex acting up now...?

Or, maybe I'm just worrying about too many things simultaneously.

While I really really want to try to have a more positive outlook towards life, 

(I pushed all the novels that have rather depressing and dark themes into a corner of my desk - yes, that includes my new novel of short stories selection by Murakami Haruki (thanks tako!))

it's really not easy. 

So... when the going gets tough, 

you know it'll probably get tougher.

But at least I know I have a group of awesome psych mates whom I can rely on for the much needed support and encouragement. 

We're all in this together and we'll all make it through. 

Somehow.

Hang in there!

On a sidenote, 

my hair is really very long (the back of my hair touches my waist). 

and who knows, I might be dyeing it. (an attempt to try and look younger)

anyway, I'm reading lots of novels by Banana Yoshimoto and they are simply very heartfelt...

If Murakami Haruki portrays the dark side of human nature, then perhaps, Yoshimoto portrays the positive side.  

She uses simple words, simple storylines... but nevertheless, she crafts such exquisite stories that well, really makes you feel a whole mixture of emotions deep inside. 

You know, the warm fuzzy feeling when you curl up in your bed in a cold rainy morning?

I don't know, but she lets me feel human again.


There are just so many things about myself that I really want to change...
but first, I need to change that bloody mindset of mine.


One of my favourite songs that I always listen to when I feel that I'm about to snap...
I can't be 100% sure what this song is about (given my extremely limited understanding of Japanese), but piecing words together from here and there kind of give me a rough idea.

"I may be weak, but I will not admit defeat"