last entry~*

This, being my last entry before mid-yrs, will be random like nobody's business.

Leah Dizon in 'Love Paradox'~*

alright.
Caught your attention now?



Mood:

trying to retain some form of sanity. (that's ayu btw)

Music: Nothing



私は自由でありたいと思う...
[I want to be free...]


and as if I can be.



1.

AJ Interact club initiated this project. :)
And I was on duty together with Pei Rong and Shang yuan.
Shang yuan and I were ringing the bell every 2 mins or so and Pei Rong thought she was going crazy from all
the rings. haha.

Thank you to everyone who donated! (Currypok, your money is safely in there. ;))



2. Yes yes. No school tomorrow!
But no, I'm not feeling a least bit excited about it. =___=
Well, it's because I'll be spending my wonderful holiday together with my Econs resource book!

I don't know, but I think my memory is failing.
Because everything I read from the book just seeps out of my mind.

To think I used to be able to memorize 2 books of History!

ahhh... I'm getting old.



3. My mum bought her new Nokia phone.
And she got really excited about it and kept pestering me to transfer Yamapi's photos into the phone.

Note: And in case you don't know who Yamapi is ...

There. That's him.

I think my mum's a little too old for all these fandom, no? hahaha.
but well, in my opinion, her mindset, appearance (what she wears) is about 20 plus years old.
Nah, I'm not kidding.

Do I sound like I'm kidding? XD



4. NYAA is driving me up the wall.
Alright. Whenever I'm here blogging, I'm definitely using the com because of NYAA.

It's really $%#$()%*(@#ERIO@#$@((!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




5. Really random, but,

if you still think it's still an era in which the good-looking prevails, then you're WRONG!
(in relationships)



6. Ahhh... I'm feeling really drained of energy every day.
My only source of energy is probably the occasional escapades to dreamland.

Yeah. my motivation is to sleep and eat.


I have a sad life.

7. There's no news of Ayu.

Sigh.



8. I FINALLY FINALLY cut my fringe.
After days and days of grousing.

So now, I can finally SEE clearly. :)
(previously, my fringe covered about 50% of my view)




9. I'm still trying very hard to overcome my stage-fright
(when it comes to playing piano in public)

Sigh... even now, the thought of performing in public still makes me want to throw up.


I don't get it.

Why is it that the older you get, the more you care about what other people think of you and hence become increasing aware of every little thing you do and therefore have no confidence to perform in front of others???



Maybe it's just me.




10. I was watching the news about the earthquake in China.

And I was really really affected by the footages...


So here, to all families and friends of the victims, to everyone helping out in one way or another.

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
and you want to just give up,
if you close your eyes,
you can see the world from your heart.

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes


Even on a lonely night, when you wander afraid,
you may be alone now, but
your feet can take you however far you want to go, so
Take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, there's a shining light there.
Yes, I want you to believe in everything.
You can take another look from the other side


Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, if you have the strength to live,
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...


I wish for you to have the strength
to make it through this world,
so open up your mind,
and you'll be able to see...

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

The stars may live for a long time, but that doesn't mean
that the same days will repeat over and over forever.
No one can see into tomorrow.

-'Open up your mind' by MIRAI

11. Alright. To end off,


some random pictures:

CLDDS performance! Look at 'Ah-ma' Peiyun! XD~*

My favourite Interact girls!~*
(that's Weijie's finger btw)

ok, take care everybody! :)


for people taking their exams now or gonna take their exams soon,


がんばって！！！
[Ganbatte!]


私も。
がんばるよ！:D

kokoro-chan~*

TWENTY-TWO!!!~*

(all of us making '22' with our hands. :))

-credit to Cheryl!

~*

At interact session last Wed, 

Kokoro-chan told me something that nearly made me cry.

"I want you to stay with me forever."

"...There'll be a time when I'll be gone"

...

"No. You won't be gone. No matter what, you'll always be here in my heart."

"..."

"And after you die, I hope that you would come down as an angel."

"Why...?"

"So that you can watch over me. You can be my guardian angel. ^_^"

I think we've come a long way.

To think that kokoro-chan used to be the 'most problematic' child there. 

I think she has changed a whole lot.

And has become a really really sweet and hardworking child...

And it makes me feel that, my efforts have really paid off... :)

And it makes me want to try harder, just like how she keeps trying... :)

 

(Fyi: When I said that I might be gone one day, I'm actually talking about stepping down my CCA.

And she thought I was referring to leaving this world. haha.) 

And...

I'll continue this entry the next time I can get hold of the com. =P

last entry before depression!~*

Sandcastle builing @ ECP!

with 22/07----------------------->

picture credit to Cheryl :) !

Talking to myself:

Tml is the day.

I feel sick. Really sick.

I don't dare to look at my results.

I'm afraid I won't have the courage to face the awful truth...

This is a pointless entry, really.

I hoped to write something happier before I receive all the bad news tml... but seems like I am too nervous to even write about happy things... T_T

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope to retain a little sanity after tml. T_T

update!!~*

When the rain stops...
(photo taken by yours truly. :D)

Mood: tired.
Music: Talkin 2 myself by Ayumi



If your brain is about to be controlled
By the things reflected in your eyes
Listen to the voice in your heart

-'Talkin 2 myself' by Ayumi


Honestly speaking, I feel really really tired.
Physically and mentally.
Just this afternoon during the trip back from City Hall, I fell DEAD asleep on the train.
And my right's shoulder's aching from the heavy bag I've been carrying around.
Last night, I fell asleep right away. (usually I'll be tossing and turning around for at least 30 mins thinking of the day's events)

well, friday was INTERACT INSTALLATION and this morning's SL PROJECT @ MARINA.

so basically I missed my 10hour long sleep. XD

Friday:

I LOVE THE INTERACT FOOD COM. haha.
Pei Rong, Christine, Yilin (who couldn't be there for the celebration. :() Felicia, Shang Yuan, Rina and Wenyu (though she couldn't be there on the actual day itself) and of cos Weiting (for helping out that evening!) ^^

We had loads of fun preparing the food. haha.
and Christine's mum had been SUPER NICE. ^_^

It's really really enjoyable to work together with such a fun-loving group of girls. (ALL DAYBREAK-ers! <3)>
I think I laughed more than I ever did during Interact. :D

Yilin and Christine should be given the most credit for all the work.
Thanks girls! :D:D:D

Missed the ceremony cos we've got tons to do. ^^;;

Christine served spring rolls, Shang Yuan served fishballs, Weiting served ondeh ondeh, Pei Rong served agar agar and Rina served drinks.

and to my utmost horror, I had to serve BEEHOON. which means I'm the FIRST in the line.
(actually Felicia and I were supposed to share the job. but she had to serve the VIPs. ^_~)

So I was going "Good evening, please enjoy your meal. ^_^" all night. -__-"" haha.

BUT,

it was REALLY REALLY FUN!!

楽しいかたです！！！　=^__^=
















(group photo's with Felicia. ^^;;)

By the time I reached home, it was already 10 plus.
and I was SO TIRED.
But had to wait for my hair to dry (I don't like to use hair-dryer. ^^;;)
so I slept at around 11 plus plus.


Today:

Woke up at an inhuman time of 6 plus 7am. (okok. I mean inhuman on a SATURDAY MORNING)
I was seriously like a zombie.

LOW TENSION です！！！:(

So after fumbling with my things, I journeyed to City Hall.
It was a treacherous journey which includes transferring trains.
SIGH.

Anyway, I had a stomachache early in the morning. which dampens my mood even more.

Then everyone arrived and we walked to somewhere near Marina Square and started making balloons! :D
There could've been at least a thousand people at the HEARTSTRING WALK (including the President and the media and stuff)
So we were stationed there and sold our balloons, cards and notepads.
they're all for the SAVH. ^^

oh and anyone interested in the cards, notepads or beautiful small bottles can approach anyone from 22/07 and place your orders. thanks! ^^


Anyway, just when we're getting really good response, it RAINED.

GREAT.

we were stuck at this shelter with hundreds of people.
So we sat there and waited for the rain to stop. Meanwhile, some of us managed to get the GOODIE BAGS! (LOL) and shared the chips/peanuts/drinks/sweets among us.

and when we got really bored, we started taking pictures (while the kind souls were buying our lunch back for us. :)) Most of the group photos are with CLARRISA.



















the state we were in during the rain. Balloons (and trash) everywhere! :D



















Messing around with Clarrisa's fantastic hat.



Anyway, after that, I left for piano lesson.

and will be having a make up piano lesson on MONDAY.


~~~~~~~~~


So although the day ended with me suffering from shoulder-ache and heavy eyelids, it was pretty fun. :)

Balloon sculpturing IS fun, people. :)


Oh well. and so the happy things end here.

1.
I don't know what exactly happened because I'm not present.
But no matter what, I'll still be holding on to the hope that everything will be alright.
I'm not sure what went wrong, but definitely things will be alright.
Quarrels and fights are just a part and parcel of life.
Love, or even friendship, never runs smooth.
That's what make a friendship stronger. the bond stronger.
when we fight, we understand one another better.

We = 無限大　(infinity) [mugendai]

I've repeated that millions of times, be it in the videos I made or in this blog.
That's what I choose to believe.


2.
Yeah. I guess Karen's right. So is Tiffany.
I'll forever be pessimistic. about everything and anything.
I don't usually display it very often, but I feel it all the time.
That's the one thing that's gonne destroy me one day.

Incompetent. Ugly. Disgusting. Useless. Evil. Mean. Selfish.

is that what I see in myself?




3.
What's scary about human beings is the ability to kill without inflicting any physical harm.


4.
While we try not to be too straightforward to avoid hurting people, we're actually pretty aware of what people will tell us if they were to be straightforward.
that's scary.


5.
An occasional escapade is fine, really.
that's what I tell myself all the time.


So right now, I want to run away for a while.




Random:
I just ate SOBA with MISO SOUP.
what combination is that?!?!


Random 2:
Civics Elective sucks for me cos I suck at Digital Art.
We're supposed to use really bright colours and effects to cover up the original colours of the object.

^^;;

Ruzi's really good at it!! Singhun, Clarrisa, Kah Ying and I are like cavemen finding a computer, if you get what I mean.

Initially, I used this boring picture of a blue bottle. and now...


My result:

















alright. go ahead and laugh. -___-""