New Year resolution 31

First thing, serene, sry for nt tellin u i'm going out. but tot i told you i wanted to go out on 30 nt 29? Nevermind, anyway, I'm sorry.
Second thing, Karen, thanks for changing my blog layout. Really thank you. But, I prefer the previous layout cos the entries clearer. Sorry... but hope you won't mind or anything, rite? And cos the music is gone... no offence. But it's cute and all just that I feel the entries not very clear like that... ya. Thanks for ur effort. :)
Third thing, year 2004 is coming to an end le. Just...2 more days to a brand new year le... just hope nxt yr will be a better year than this year. Time to reflect on this year. (i've gt this habit of reflectin on myself after everything I've done)
This yr has been a great year spent with all my frens and dear family. Especially the time I spent in school surrounded by all my precious frens of 2/5. This has been especially enjoyable and exciting. Everyday just leads to more fun and more new things. Yup. I used to dread going to school but everything changed when I entered 2/5. Everyday is an exciting day. Alrite, I felt my presence known in the class, which was something that I've never felt before. It's somewhat undescribably happy. Ya... so nostalgic yet enjoyable... The class united like never before. although we all had downs and depressed times, with the great amt of happiness, it's all worth it... I believe everyone will agree with me. =) At choir, it was never so fun n enjoyable in sec one. But now, everyone seems to b able to mingle around and have fun together. It's such a great feeling.. ya... Thanks to everyone for making this yr so enjoyable... sincerely, thank you.

My new year resolution...
Just wish the new year to be totally cool, fun, exciting n endlessly happy for everyone around the world!
1. Change my attitude towards things. In other words, be nicer to everyone.
2. Cherish everyone around me. Everything around me oso...
3. Be less forgetful. Try to improve my memory. haha.
4. Try to not get agitated over little things.
5. Dun tink too much.
6. Try to control my temper more. hahahahaha.
7. Eat more, slp more, grow fatter.
8. Grow taller.
9. Sms lesser.
10.Spend less.
11.Be more filial.
12.Treat my parents better.
13.Keep the room cleaner.
14.Love choir more.
15.Love Ayumi more.
16.Love Inuyasha more.
17.Love Fruit Basket more.
18.Love 3/8 more... try la.
19.Smile more.
20.Cry less.
21.Be smarter.
22.Be more hardworking.
23.Be more alert.
24.Be less deaf.
25.Be less blind.
26.Try not to anger anyone.
27.Love everyone more.
28.Stop thinking about him.
29.Be braver.
30.Be softer.
31.Be myself.

Everything I'll be doing each day, tat's y there are 31 of them. now, listening to Inuyasha ending song. 'My will' by Dream. ROX!!! haha. Love Ayumi n Inuyasha n Fruit basket n my frens n my family n my belongings n Fushigi Yuugi n Boa n namie n every little thing n do as infinity n so on...


inuyasha!!!

Ayumi!!!

Fruit basket! the guy in orange hair is Kyou!!!

ok, tt's all for now. Good luck for the coming year and best wishes!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lingxi n Huiming!!!

Alrite, sorry for not bloggin until now. hehe. Anyway, currently listening to Ayumi's Theme of A-nation 2003(for Avex Trax). Very nice leh. Very cheena. haha. Anyway, countdown 5 days to sch reopen. SIANZZZZ... dun wan to go to sch leh. very sian... Plus, the first day still got rapport building activities. Sianner rite? haiz... Anyway, on Mon, 27, went to Causeway point with Lingxi and Huiming. Yup. Missed them soooo much, ya noe? haha. So on that day, I was like hurrying out of the door when Huiming called me and guess what? my right slipper's thingy came off! and I was like halfway between my home and Yew Tee MRT station. For heaven's sake, how unlucky can I get? So i just dragged my feet there lo. Den huiming was like, alighted at Yew Tee especially to help me check around to see if there's any cheap slippers around the area. Love her, man. And she looked around, asked around, and realized we'll be late. So, we called Lingxi and told her we'll be late. At first, she even wanted to alight at Yew Tee also to help us one. But we told her not to. Save money. Anyway, we met at Causeway point and saw Lingxi's bro. 5 yrs old this yr. Very cute!!! He was like kept on saying 'Mo li hua jie jie!!! Mo li hua jie jie!!! (it means jasmine flower sister)' I was like laughing at him. Cos he's adorable. Anyway, we went in and walked around to search for slippers and ended up at Hang Ten and bought a pair of turqoise slippers. $6. I was heartbroken. $6 just flew away like this.
After that, we went to eat. We bought 2 hotplates of garlic chicken and beancurd and mushroom. Very nice!!! But still felt pretty hungry after that, so we shared a fried carrot cake and talked about our own schs. haha. After that, we shared a red ruby. Very delicious. =) After that, we went around and Huiming forced us to take neoprints. Lingxi was very against it and I was against it as well cos my wallet's empty. but haiyo, just gave in ba. So we took and turn out very very hilarious! hahahaha... After that, we just walked around den got bored and went to library and talked and talked non stop about sch, ghost stories in their schs blah blah.. after that, we went to KFC to eat. AGAIN. haha. Den we chatted about our pri sch frens and they were saying some of our ex-classmates became very bimbo. Like low waistband, low socks, mini skirts. haiyo.. and they liked to mingle with the popular crowd and when they go out, they wear spaghetti striped, mini skirt blah blah... some of our frens just remained the same. and Jane Quek, our third in sch for PSLE, topped in Maths in the whole level of Nanyang. What the!!! She's so smart, I can give anything for half of her intelligence. Siao!! And Doris, Andris dey all oso very very smart lor! Lingxi oso hor, but she's very humble, never even remind us of her being the top scholar in Rulang, with agg of 281, hor, Lingxi? she is the second or third in class in RGS. and with percentage of 78++++? siao lor! Even in Nan Hua I oso can't get that high. Why are you guys so smart?
Huiming oso, dun deny le... all so smart one.. in Nanyang and RGS lor... haiz. Me very shi bai leh. Anyway, when we left, we saw ANDRIS!! AND FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE, SHE LOOKED BEAUTIFUL!!!! I mean it. Really chio lor!!!!! So much prettier than last time! OMG, Andris, you rox! She's smart, she's VERY chio, she's nice, WHAT IS THE WORLD BECOMING TO??!!!
Anyway, we left after that.
Actually, Lingxi rules oso. I mean, she's very pretty lor, compared to me, and her long hair's very nice. She's extremely nice. I mean it. Very humble one. Even if top our sch, with agg 281, she still hangs out with ppl stupider than her, like me... :'( She's really nice gurl... really nice. She's so smart oso lor... go IP programme.
Huiming oso lor, with agg 26plus, she chose not to take IP only. Den she's very very nice de leh. Loyal, frenly, blah blah. And learns Judo! very qiang. haha. ok
Jasmine arh... nothing lor. hahahaha.

Miss you guys... Looking forward to the next outing~!

The wonderful Christmas party!!!

Can't wait to get hold of the com to write about what happened yesterday, Christmas Eve. Let me tell you smthg, it ROX totally k? Totally. Everyone was so enthu, cheerful, high, happy. The mood was just PERFECT. haha. Ok, i'll start from the beginning.
At first, I was so damn busy making Serene's Christmas present, wrapping the xchange present, cleaning my room, helping out with the food n drinks stuff. Worried the whole day about what would happen later on. Will we fight? Will it be damn sian? I was EXTREMELY worried. But nvm la, just let nature take its course. =) After that, at around 0430, went down to the busstop to meet Si Aun. Then we walked up together den talked for a while den went down again to find Serene there. Then Serene and I commented on Si Aun's orange n red shirt. hahaha. Very bright lor. Den we went up to put the presents and came down to wait for Sharine, Yi hang n Jun Liang. haha. We were like playing with Serene's phone. Jun Liang grew taller again! Haiyo, boy arh, can dun grow so fast? haha. Then they started teasing Serene nonstop about eating cement and so on. hahahahaha. Very funny. Den we went up together and put all the presents together. then we went down again and walked around and walked to the playground. Si Aun, Jun Liang and Yi Hang were playing with shoes den kenna scolded by the woman. hahaha. You guys arh.. haiyo. Den we walked and talked and played and laughed all the way den Sharine, Serene and me tricked the boys into walking forwards den we ran up the stairs without them knowing. We ran and Jun Liang was the first to discover we were gone. then they ran after us. We were like so chuan den running very fast den in the end the boys outrun us den we were like wan to die le. Breathless. haha. Den we ended up at 711 den bought Slurpee. haha. Very nice. Si Aun paid for them. haha. We walked back and talked somemore and went to the other playground and saw a pretty big-sized girl playing with two big-sized boys. haha. Den they started teasing Serene again. hahaha. After that, we went back and exchanged presents! hahaha. We drew lots and took the presents. in the end...
Me-Serene's mini christmas tree
Serene-Yi Hang's dark choclates
Sharine-my blusher and eyeshadow
Si Aun-Sharine's rings
Jun Liang-Si Aun's $2 note.
Yi Hang-Jun Liang's dove choclates
hahahahahaha. nice. I mean, sorry leh Sharine, didn't want you to have the present one.. so sorry. It was meant for the guys one. haha. Anyway, thanks Serene. =) Well, after that, we played UNO and it was soooo funny! I mean, the game was normal until when Jun Liang was caught not saying 'UNO' and he had to take the whole deck! hahaha. We all laughed. Den yihang oso cheated den the whole deck his. Den until Si Aun there, he had to draw 28! hahaha. So funny lor. Den heart attack oso lyk tt. Discuss first den play one. so siao lor us. hahaha. Anyway, my uncle and auntie n 2 cousins turned up too. haha. very nice~ =)sorry for nt entertaining you guys. cos i've got a bunch of mad ppl to handle.. hahaha
After that, we went to eat the BBQ le. Went outside and took beehoon n otah n a giant bottle of green tea and the 6 of us shared. we sat at the staircase there together den eat and talked and laughed. Den there was a dog. A cute dog. Si Aun n Sharine went crazy over the dog den kept playing with it. Very tamed. cute~. Den me, junliang, sharine, si aun take turn pet the dog. Yihang n Serene dun dare. Very nice n soft leh. very cute. Den somehow we started discussing 'Inuyasha' and me and Junliang n Si Aun kept discussing about it den very engrossed. Den mentioned Priestess Kaede den say wat sag sag den wat cheese wat milk (dirty jokes la) den we all laugh until stomachache. haha. very very funny lor! everyone was luffing very loudly. hahaha. Yihang luff until spit out all the water den he had to go downstairs cos he severe stomachache le. hahaha. see him oso very funny lor. den everyone started luffin again. hahahaha. after tat, we took photos together usin my sis's fren's camera. haha. and very funny ones. =P. den we went downstairs to walk in the dark. Very scary but still very funny. Keep teasing each other ma.. so fun. =D And we sat at the playground and talked about many things le. and junliang n sharine n yihang had to go soon. so we went upstairs and played blackjack n the loser must put blusher on the face! hahaha. very thrilling and very fun! In the end,
I lost twice.
Jun Liang lost thrice.
Sharine lost once.
Si Aun lost once.
hahaha. den face very very pink lor. all thnx to the blusher la. haha. n den, jl, yh n sharine had to go le. so we walked them to yew tee n bought junk fd and went back. den we played dai di n serene won. haha. den sa had to go n we went to the bus stop wif him n the bus came and he went home le. den me and serene went back to my rm n started talking a lot of things and listened to recordings n called them to say merry christmas at around 12 lyk tt. very funny one. haha. den we continued talkin n sa called n we chatted until very late. den me n serene talked again until around 4 den slept for a while den woke up n talked and slept lyk tt lor. Dun wan elaborate too much. very long. tis entry. haha. den woke up n watched tv n ate n changed n went to Lot 1 with sa. den walked n ate mac. den went back n slack until now. den slept for a while. haha. nt much la. now very sian...
Nice christmas eve la. bad christmas day lor.. haiz. SIAN!!!

Special thanks to: Serene! for ur darling photobook! hahaha. you rox, and love ya!!!
everyone who turned up at the party (my sis's frens, my dear frens, my uncle n auntie n sheryl n melissa n my family!!!) u guys rox totally k. Without u guys, christmas eve wont be so fun anymre. really. hahaha. hope nxt yr will be better than tis yr's!
Mum n Dad: You guys rox the most to hold tis party. I love love love you!!! Thank you sooo much!!! *hugs very titely*

Lastly, myself!!! for doing nthg much. hahaha.

!~Merry Christmas n Happy New Year~!

*MeRry ChrIsTmaS!!*

*^~MeRrY ChRiStMaS everyone!!!!! ~^*
Silent night, holy night
All is calm, all is bright
Round young virgin mother and child
Holy infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace, sleep in heavenly peace.

Silent night, holy night
Shepards quarke at the sight
Glories stream from heaven afar
(paiseh forgot the nxt phrase)
Christ the saviour is born, Christ the saviour is born!

Ok, well, just wanna wish everyone a merry christmas and a happy new year! Feliz Navidad!

I am MAD!

Alrite, Karen has been pestering me to update my blog, so I'm finally here to do it. Sorry for being totally insentimental as in saying fluffy stuff such as 'oh my god, i missed blogspot sooo much!' ok, lame. Anyway, today went out with Karen n Raphael to Jurong Point. The billionth time le. I'm NOT exaggerating, by the way. And I was late, so sorry Karen. =P and we went to buy clay for christmas present. what a creative me, eh? lolx in caps. anyway, we bought and walked around and met Raphael at the entrance. We were so. So blue, ok? 3 of us walkin in a row clad in blue. A wonderful sight to see. what a sarcastic me. Anyway, we went to LJS to eat lunch and bought this waffle fries in salsa cheese sauce. Fancy name but a plain fries anyway. We dug in and throughout the whole time, we were totally ticklish. Laughed and laughed. Karen nearly choked on her food. Gurl, be careful nxt time cos no lifeguard nearby. How funny. Duh in caps. After that we walked around I'll cut all these cos there's simply nothing to say about that, except we went to the following. Petshop, Puzzle shop, Giftland, Kopitiam(2x), Popular. End of story. K. We were seldom seen so quiet but there was nothing to talk about. Expected. So, we sat down and wasted time staring at each other and finally, we talked! For Pete's sake, WE TALKED! about sch, camp, ahem n so on. Yea, a boring day with an element of fun n laugter. Nvm, next time, we'll talk a few words more. Improvements are crucial to success of conversing without pause. What's into me today? I talk so differently. I'm wondering about that TOO.
tomorrow is Christmas eve. *celebrates*. I am. And I hope tomorrow will be fun. Dun,dun,DUN, break into a fight cos the line'll probably be jammed and I cant call the cops. Ha ha ha, what a humorous me. *coldness* My dad's on his way struggling to carry the bbq pit home. Poor him. Love you, dad. I do. Sealed with kisses and hugs. Errrrr....... fluffy.
Anyway, cut all the stuff about yesterday at Grandma's birthday party. Guess what? I never knew you could stick a candle into your hair but not yet burnt. I never knew until yesterday. My dear cousin looked at the candle so intently, his hair was touching the fire. Nothing happened. We were shocked. Hey, did you have a coat of non-flamming stuff over your hair. ha ha ha. what a miracle. they prepared a fire extinguisher nearby just in case. Neh, just kidding.
Yesterday yesterday went to Serene's house. Yup. This is one torturous experience cos my hair was totally, totally abused! Serene can be a hairstylist when she grows up. haha. Really. She is pro at hair stuff. Way to go, Serine! (tt's wat i call her, sounds cool)I loved sugarcane drink so much, i drank too! Woohoo. Way to go, Jasmine! Alrite, stop crapping. And we played the com. Looked at her baby photos. Oh my gosh, she looked soooo adorable! I mean it, k? hahaha. Serene, u rox as a toddler. Woohoo! Way to go, baby Serine! No kiddin, man. and we played with her hamsters (cant rmb the name. too long. haha) Her hamsters rox too. Oh my, they luv the toilet roll so much, hahahahaha. they kept climbing into it. woohoo, way to go, Hamsters!!! *stop it Jas!* my inner voices calling me! Alrite, sorry arh. Anyway, Serine gave me this real adorable music box thingy. Oh man, Luv ya man, Serine. Boy, you rox big time. Hahaha.

Diagnosis for Jasmine: Split personality, incurable lameness, undetectable bug in her brain, affecting her thinking.
Cause: Ayumi being criticized too much. she cant get over it YET.
Conclusion: She'll be alright tomorrow when she use the blogspot.

Signed off,
Dr I-am-smarter-than-you!!!

Just playing around

paiseh arh, just playin around with this thing. Anyway, AYUMI ROX ROX ROX!!!

Happy Dong Zhi

Hehe. This morning woke up to help my mum make gluttinous rice ball(dunno how to spell)aka tang yuan? haha, cos today is 'dong zhi' ma. haha. Happy dong zhi everyone! anyway, as I was saying,I was helping my mum make. Very fun leh. The dough is made already by my mum and I just need to help knead the dough and make into little balls. Wee, so cute leh. (dun xiang wai wai). anyway, the dough is pink. Serene will love it when she sees it. haha. And sorry leh Karen, no blue dough. lol. Anw, after that, I cleaned up and went to use the com lor. Anyway, yesterday went to many places with Serene. Here it goes...
I met Serene at CCK and we took the MRT to City Hall. Serene wore this very pretty skirt and her very pretty top. haha. so equals to very pretty Serene. ;) We reached Citylink and walked around. Cos mostly are businessmen and women, seldom see young ppl like us, so felt a little awkward. haha. And we decided to go to Suntec City and on the way, there was this giving out of fruit juices free. I was very curious and me and Serene went to take 2 bottles. And it tastes GREAT! haha. Love them man. And after that, we reached Suntec and went to eat lunch cos I haven't eat lunch ma. Both of us shared a signature fish and chips. Very big and cost $5. haha. and serene finished the whole saucer of tomato sauce and I finished the whole of mayonnaise tatar sauce, cos serene wans the ketchup ma. haha. And it tastes very nice leh. And we went to walk around and talked and talked and talked and talked non stop about many things. Then we took the MRT back to JE and went to IMM. haha, very qiang. Then we went to Mac to eat ice cream cones and continued talking. haha. Then we went Daiso to buy present for the exchange on 24th Dec. haha. We bought unbelivable things for them. hahahahahaha. wont disclose what. hahaha. later die arh. :P. then we went to take neoprint. haha. Got e 2 boys very naughty leh. kept running around. Anyway, very irritating but we took the neoprint le. (can see at Serene's blog). Then after that we went home lo. Had to cross stupid roads. And Very scary leh. haha. The car like gonna hit us like that. So got pretty frightened. Ok fine, laugh all u wan. haha. den we took MRt home lo. Den when I reached home, bathed and ate dinner. Watched TV and until 9, we went to Yew Tee to collect specs from my uncle. (he's the optician). Tried on my specs. And funnily, my mum's specs had a bit of prob and both of us swapped specs, I can see very clearly with her specs too. haha. hers is frameless one and mine was rectangle silver coloured. very stylish one. haha. Then we went to the night market there and bought sugarcane drink and shark's fin soup. haha. just bought cos very hungry. den we walked home and ate with my sis and dad and watched TV. haha.
Now come to think of it, I startin to dislyk my specs le. haha. k la. gotta stop here. later going to Serene's house. haha. k. see ya.

!~Happy Dong Zhi and Merry Christmas in advance everyone~!

Piano

These days feeling pretty tensed yet relaxed. ok, i'm talkin crap again. U see, there's less than 2 weeks away to sch reopen! sian diao. haiz... Then I'll be meeting new classmates, new teachers.. so sian... haiz. Then workload will increase, tests increase, stress increases... thinking of this makes me even more sian and worried. haiz. Time really flies leh, it seems lyk only yesterday when we just left school crying. Anyway, next year is going to be tough for me. Hopefully can still cope ba. And SYF coming as well. More stress. Less time to enjoy. :(. Audition coming also. Haiz... hope that MDA can all enter SYF. hopefully... yesterday theory was really bad. I didn't really understand... anyone out there, can tell me what are all the rules to Perfect, imperfect, plagal and interrupted cadences? 6-7, 4-3, 6-5? raise leading note to what? where? when? HAIZ. and at first tot 2/1 can relax at home before going to sch the next day, but guess what? Theory make up lesson is on 2/1 lor! !!!!!!! haiz... mayb, i say mayb, I'll be quitting theory. it's too difficult le. But practical definitely continue or my mum'll hack me into pieces. so will my dad. 4 yrs to go to finishing piano! Gambate man!

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Not gonna write another essay already. Today sux. Urgh. Played the darn 'La Capella' (dunno how to spell) in front of another girl who came in front of me. Haiz. Sux la. Den just anyhow and the scales SUX!!! GEtting real frustrated over it. Now trying to calm myself down by listening to 'Winding Road' of Ayumi. Haiz... Sickening day all n all...and the stupid 'Le Tarantella' (duno how to spell) SUX! SO DAMN FAST LOR!! All quavers and the metronome speed is lyk 'Dotted crotchet=160' SIAN n SIAO! haiz... and tomorrow. Theory. For God's sake, I havent finish the damn homework given. I can't even remember. Sickening la!!! URGH!!! later i'm just gonna rot and jus now came home finding my room in a mess (just came to my senses) n looked lyk it's just ransacked. What the.... and the darn blogspot rots lor! and the whole com... URGH! Forget it, I'm just being frustrated... shit lor, now playin the darn Humming 7/4, which I dislyked... Sigh.. nvm about that, I'll deal with the com later. Just smash it into pieces. URGH! sai la...

Sick. Physically and mentally.

Sick... This morning woke up with diarrhoea(dunno how to spell). Now still on going... Sigh. Every few minutes go toilet. My legs also getting jelly le. Sigh.. Mum said probably I ate something wrong. So sian lor. Can't go anywhere and do anything.. Lunch also dunno eat wat. :(. Actually wanted to ask Serene go out one but now cannot le. Haiz. Sian lo, stuck at home whole day, nowhere to go. Later Dad coming home early to check on me and if get worse he'll be bringing me to the doctor. Haiz. Must be that stupid potato chips I ate and that Slurpee I drank yesterday which made me until like this condition. Booz. Now waiting to go to toilet. Actually, I should just move into the toilet and stay there permanently. Haiz... No kidding. Ever since the chalet, something just changed in me that I have to at least sleep 10 hours before I can wake up. And I'll wake up with a terrible headache and dizziness. Last night slept for approximately 12 hours already. I tink soon I'll go into coma.
Yesterday night was finishing the Christmas card for serene. Sux lor... haiz. It's really awful, considering my art hardly ever got an A. Sorry leh, serene, but it's gonna be pretty bad. Although I spent much time on it. :'(. Maybe redoing. Haiz. Yesterday Karen came over and at first, I discussed something with Serene and Si Aun. Dun tink I should say in case... u noe. Den after that my sis came home and we rushed out of the room and acted innocent. Den we went to my room and listened to tapes. haha. Found the Serene, Joyce and me one. Listened to it many times. very funny leh. =D. Then heard the Karen and me one. and Serene and me. Myself. Me and pri sch frens one. hahaha. Love my old radio. hehe. Den we went to 711 to buy things to eat cos Karen starving. Just came back from toilet. Again. =(. Den ya, as I was saying, we went to buy potato chips and Slurpee cos Karen wan. haiyo, that pig. =P. haha. Then we went back and ate and talked and I showed her the letters and cards she sent me last time. HAHAHAHA! Her english was like 'Can you promised me somethings?' and 'I wished you would be prettier every month' and 'I'm so sorry house come to you so many talks' and 'I hoped you would like me'.. very comical. haha. Last time young ma.. lolx. Mine's no better. I kept a diary when I was very very very young. and one entry was like 'I have a sister name Jessica and I hate her because I want to die already'. haha. Kinda crazy. But that's me. Anwyay, we talked and went to eat dinner and Karen left at 8 and I walked her to MRT station. Her dad let her. But got angry. But cos her birthday mah... haha. That's all. Dun wan talk too much. Think I need the toilet soon. HAIZ!!!
Currently listening to Ayumi's Trust.

Choir Chalet 2004

Hmm... currently eating 'Twisties'. heehee. =P. Felt pretty hungry and tired now, cos just came back not long from Choir Chalet. Woohoo! Choir chalet rox rox rox!!! Hahaha.. had soooo much fun den almost caused my worries to go away. So nice lor. Ok, this entry's gonna be quite long. Cos gonna describe the chalet experience inside out. haha. So here it goes...
First, when I heard Yuntian won't be going with us cos she felt feverish, felt quite bummed. Cos she's gonna miss the once-in-a-yr chalet lor, and wat's more, she's our dear Choir vice-chair lor. Hey gurl, must set good example one ya noe? haha. Anyway, I met Serene at Fajar and went to wait for her dad's car. On the way was talking about all sorts of crap. haha. Crappish but fun. =). When we reached, Claressa and Claudia came to fetch us and we went together. It was like so big lor! oh my gosh, the bedroom looked damn cozy and nice lor. It's a bungalow and 2 storey high. Love it man. Haha. Anyway, we unpacked our things and had to send Ferrarina off cos she had another chalet to attend to. Yupz. Then Serene, Claudia, Claressa, Aileen, Marcus and I went to the bowling alley to play bowling! Woohoo! haha. I had the third highest score and Serene got the highest score. *applause*. She was like so pro lor, first time already got a strike. Gave me quite a large amount of stress. Haha. Anyway, had quite a lot of fun. Pauline joined us in the bowling alley and we continued our game. Haha. Then we walked to the beach. Guess what, we actually saw a black snake slither past us lor! oh my gosh. we were all so freaked out and didn't really dare to walk barefooted. Haha. Then we walked in the muddy grass and ran to the beach and took off our slippers and started splashing sea water at one another. Sooooo fun!!! Hahaha. It was damn cooling and very fun! We attacked Claudia together den attacked Claressa. hahaha. Very funny. Then we started to get serious and collected seashells. Damn pretty. haha. den caught a few hermit crabs. haha. And claudia went around taking photos. haha. Anyway, we walked our way to another sandy part of the sea. The sand was sooo soft, it was like walking on carpet. Very nice! and i drew one 'Serene' thingy on the sand. Very nice. And we went back, although got a lot of seaweeds on the way. Love the sea...
After that, we went back to chalet and bathed and I convinced my parents to let me stay overnight. Woohoo. Love you, Mummy n Daddy! Anyway, had to convince until I go mad. She was quite pissed off, though. =P. After that, we went to barbeque and watch tv. Fun. haha. After that, went to eat and sat in a row. Marcus was so nice lor, served us food and drinks. hehe. bu kui is Claudia's bro. haha. Aileen had to leave and we sent her off... Pretty sad. Wanted her to stay one.. haiz. but nvm, gurl. After eating, very full and went for a walk around and played at the playground. hehe. Den walked to the arcade and played some games. Marcus so nice, gave us tokens. FREE. haha. And we played many games and Serene n I went crazy over the toy machine thingy. And we managed to get a yellow coloured Carebear of love. and we named it Lovely. Love it, cos the first toy i ever got from that darn cheating machine. Haha. Den we went back to the chalet and went upstairs to the room and played Taboo. Very fun lor. and we made a lot of noises. haha. oh ya, Mervyn and Bingying and Cheryl joined us and 9 of us were playing. Laugh until we stomachache cos very funny. Kept playing and laughing. Had so much fun and it's really cozy and comfy together on the bed joined together, playing. Den Claressa said got prisoner escape from Changi prison.. we were so freaked out and got scared. Cos the chalet is at Changi. Marcus bluffed us lor. But actually dun haf. hahaha... Den we played Heart Attack and went mad cos very very fast! and we played UNO and they called Lovely 'Chucky'. Haiyo... haha. Den we went down to watch 'White chicks'. Was very funny and some of them wanted to sleep le. So slept cos very sick. Headache lor.. haiz. Woke up and slept. Woke up and slept. Set alarm 5.15 ring cos go see sunrise. Den in the end we went and was very sian... Very dark and scary. Kept together and was damn sian there. Waited n waited.. played the number game and got more sian. Went back to chalet and slept. I slept for a while and woke up. Serene n I woke up earliest n went down to get something to eat and drink. Den went to playground there and ended up playing UNO at the staircase there. hahaha. Pathetic. 8.30 went to wake them up and we went down and quite tired and sian and sleepy. So we went to the cafeteria there and ate bao. haiz.. nothing else. Everyone very sian like dat cos nt enough sleep. Den we went to rent bikes and sent Cheryl and Pauline off. Great and loyal choir members. haha. The bikes was the only part I regretted... I actually rented the bike!!! And we cycled non-stop from Changi to Marine Parade there. lyk east coast. What the. Me and serene almost dropped dead. Very siao and tiring. Felt like dying lor... honest. anw, went back and ate char siew rice. Nice~ and watched Sesame Street. haha. After that went to bathe and return the bikes. Then went back and played Dai Di. Mervyn very funny lor. hahaha, after '2' still put one '7'. haha. and after that went to take the shuttle bus to tanah merah mrt station and ended up here. haha. Very tired! Just yawned and sneezed. haha. and lastly,

CHOIR CHALET ROX ROX ROX ROX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dreams don't come true...

Oh man, I just love my sister. First, she spoilt the com. Next, she repaired it. How nice of her. Haiz. anyway, for the time being, can't go on MSN anymore. Something bad happened to it. Dunno why not being able to access MSN messenger. What the... Anyway, later on will be going to Fajar to meet Serene and we'll be going to Tanah Merah mrt station to meet yuntian. Den we'll be going to the choir chalet together. Yay. haha. Anyway, these days a little moody... Currently listening to Ayumi's 'My name's WOMEN'. One of my favs in her new album. Rox. Anyway, my sis successfully downloaded the entire album. Heard every single song. Really gonna recommand 'My name's WOMEN', 'Walking proud', 'Replace', 'Catcher in the light', 'Game', 'Inspire', 'Moments', 'Carols', 'Liar', 'Honey'. The rest can't really recall. Hehehe. Anyway, I really dislike 'Humming 7/4'. Quite sucky. Very irritating also. Anyway, her album is very rocky. Cos her songs all sound about the same. Rock one. Then 2 songs 'Wonderland' n 'Kaleidoscope' is instrumental one. No one singing. But 'Wonderland' rox. Got children laughter. Sounds like those funfair kind of song. But in the end there got quite scary...cos got many ppl laugh in an evil way. sounds like clowns laughing... Dunno how to describe. But really let you think a lot... Just got this feeling.
Anyway, just wondering why am I moody. Cos there's this rumor spreading around that 'My story' will be ayumi's last album... Which means she'll be leaving the music industry... Made me really worried... And sounds quite true, esp when she announced that she won't be going to anymore award ceremonies, after one award ceremony when she cried really bitterly while singing 'No way to say'. And she say she won't be going on many interviews and all. Sounds like she's about to leave... Really. If she leaves, I dunno what am I gonna do. Sounds quite ridiculous, but I might even be temporarily depressed. It seems like forever when I started to idolize her but suddenly she leaves like this, it feels like losing one part of yourself... Kinda sad... Hope it's just a rumor. Please...
Really, nt exaggerating, but this news really hit me as if I failed my exam. Haiz. Anyway, these days I became quite weird. dunno how to describe,but I'm starting to get weird dreams about my friends whom I have lost contact with... Dun understand why. But gt one dream I remember quite clearly. Didn't wan to say at first but jus share... Ayumi was performing on stage. 'Walking proud' was playing. I was the only audience and sitting on a chair like the one I sat on in the Nafa Acadamy Theatre when I went with Serene, Clarissa and Aileen to the choir xmas concert. I was in front and she sang until she cried. I went upstage and hugged her very tightly and started crying. She sang until the end of the song and said 'sayonara' to me and smiled and disappeared... I was left alone on stage with her band still playing 'walkin proud' and I woke up and found myself crying... Oh man, seems so true... haiz. Shldn't think too much. But one weird thing was...

I didn't hear 'Walking Proud' before. but I dreamt of the tune of the song. When I heard the song, I was absolutely sure it matched with that in the dream... scary... yet sad...

Just having liked you, just having shared happiness with you, even if you had to leave, it's all worth it...

Ayumi Hamasaki

Today is a day of emptiness... Anyway, this morning, I was watching tv, as usual. Den mum told me I've to go and visit my grandma with her. I was like, ok lor, anyway, gt nothing better to do. After watchin finish 'Angel Song', 'Greatful days', 'Because of you', 'Ourselves' PV on the TV (thnx to 'Memorial Address'), went to change clothes to go there. So we took the MRT and reached. Saw my cousin, Qian Ru, and started talking and chatting about sch life for her. She was like pretty relaxed about it and her favourite way to kill time in school was to beat up guys. Hahaha... Anyway, she was using the com and we were lyk browsing through her ayumi's pictures. Kewl leh. Got some I dun haf. haha. She promised to send them to me. Anyway, we're both Ayumi freaks, so does her brother, Bryan. haha. And after that, she was like playing this com game and her bro just came home. Then 3 of us were lyk squeezing in front of the com and she started killing the creatures. Seemed quite realistic. Anyway, had fun. Then Tiffany came when I've got to go. Duh. So I left with my mum to Causeway Point to look for this Christmas tree my mum wanted. U noe, those that have lights? Very nice one. In the end can't find. So I went home and mum went to work. Haiz.. poor her.. sometimes do feel bad about it that she works so hard and I work so hard to spend away her money.. sigh.
Anyway, now here I am staring at the com lyk an idiot, typing away. Very sian lor... But just came across this ayumi page about an interview. Read before for lyk... 100th time. Not exaggerating. Was about how Ayu feels about her career and discuss about her albums. Anyway, for the ppl who dun really noe about her, she's raised by a single mother. No dad. Yeap. She has four dogs—two Chihuahuas, Crea and Melon, a Yorkie named Ringo (Apple), and Marron [the dachshund]. Crea is the one who looks just like Ayumi. Haha. And so, her pen name is 'Crea'. Lyk when u see the music composed by 'Crea', yeap, that's her.
Anyway, after reading the interview, can get to noe Ayumi deeper. And realized that she's really a woman worth respecting...
http://www.ayumi-hamasaki.org/ayumibb/viewtopic.php?t=179
Worth reading. Haha... Anyway, later gonna go to this christmas choir concert with serene and other choir girls. haha. Gonna wear a skirt again. Sigh... That's bad news. Anyway, these days not bad la. More of good news than bad. Everything's running smoothly... What I always wished for. =). Anyway, darn it. I can't go MSN cos there's some prob again. AGAIN. haiz...

For u guys' info, the background music currently is changed to 'LOVE~Destiny' by Ayumi Hamasaki. Hehehe. What a capricious me! Anyway, 'LOVE~Destiny' was the song which changed my mind about Ayumi. And this was the song which led me to be so AYUMI crazy. haha. Enjoy this music. But a pity is tt it's the karaoke version. Booz. Anyway, the credit goes to... *drumroll* Karen! haha. Thanks, gurl. =)

LOVE ~Destiny~
Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki
Composer: Tsunku
Arranger: Shingo Kobayashi, Yasuaki Maejima


Eternity really doesn't exist.
I wonder when I first realized that.
But I'm prouder than anyone else that
the days we spent together weren't lies.

I've lived up to now. Although the length of time is a little different.

Just having met you, just having loved you,
even if we can't share our thoughts, La La La La... I won't forget you.

Why, even though it hurts so much,
can't I think of anyone but you and I want to be with you?
But I'm used to how I think of even small
things as happy memories.

Even cliches and meaningless words, if they're said between us,
have meaning.

Just having met you, just having loved you,
just having shared our thoughts... from now until forever...

I should think of you as proof that I live without taking my eyes off of truth and reality.

Just having met you, just having loved you,
even if I can never see you again, La La La La... I won't forget.

My Story...

FINALLY!!! I can finally use the com plus go blogspot le... *celebrates*. Haha... anyway, planned on smthg but things are not turning out the way it should. It's driving me crazy now. Who? What? When? Where? URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry... just feeling very frustrated about it. Anyway, these days many many many things happened but jus dun even feel like going into detail. Actually, honestly, dun even feel like saying anything... Just that yesterday went with Serene to Orchard to watch movie. 'The incredibles' cos I asked her out early to help me choose present for Joyce. Haha... so in return must accompany her watch movie.. haha.. It's not bad really. The show. Very funny and nice. After that, we went around Heeren to look for 'A' necklace. But can't find. Startin to think my sis trick me one leh... Anyway, looked at many things and went to THIS fashion twice. hahaha.. and bought KFC to smuggle into cinema. U noe e cinema? We were lyk waiting lyk idiots den realized the theatre is at the 6th level. Haha. Serene realized it. She's so smart. hahaha... Anyway, just got to know that poor Karen gt LOTS of gb prac.. really LOTS. Haiz... even on her birthday.. Poor girl, cheer up. Can still go out one rite? :)Anyway, Tiffany's birthday is oso comin le. 12/12. Gonna give her a present. Won't say what. Haha. in case she reads this. =P. Anyway, wish her a happy birthday in advance. lolx. 14 le leh, my dear cousin. Haha...
Choir finally ended and real glad, although G.R.R threatened to chase ppl out of choir room nxt time. Siao. And audition coming le... Afraid can't get in. Den can say sayonara to my CCA points le... haiz.
This morning watched 'S.O.S'. Very nice and touching lor. Haha. I especially lyked the last sentence the guy said. EVERY TIME. 'Dakara kimino koto wasurenai yo'. Sooo damn touching lor... Fukada Kyoko and Tackey (gosh. forgot his fullname le. haha. anyway, jus need to noe he damn handsome can le). Anyway, Ayu's new album is coming out! Very excited. My sis say she'll b buying. Shld b anyway. haha..
by the way, gt hold of 'Fruit Basket bk 15'!!!! YIPEEE!!! hahaha. Read it. Totally perfect! Although in front very sad about yuki's past. stupid Akito la.. Den they got this Cinderella performance after their EOY exam and they used drawing lots to decide the character. In the end,

Cinderella-Hanajima (Tohru's fren? The black hair with power one?)
Prince- Kyou (hehehe. this arrangement rox. love kyou!!!)
Step-sister- Tohru (dun fit, rite?)
Step mum-Mu xia nan. (the yuki fan club gurl)
Fairy godmother- Yuki (hahahahahahaha...)

the play was damn funny lor! I was like laughing every few minutes cos it's too funny! And all the costumes were made by Ayame! haha. Tohru looked damn pretty and Kyou damn handsome. anyway, quite abvious now that Tohru lyks Kyou. Really. Cos Kyou hold her hand her whole face turns red and blushes. But when Yuki holds her hand, her face no expression. Den she waited especially for Kyou after sch and played with Kyou at home cos Kyou stole Tohru's script den dun wan return her. hahaha.. Very cute. Cant wait for Book 16!!!
Sorry guys, kept blabberin about Fruit basket. hehe. Got overexcited. But kyou really rox, especially cos he gettin more mature in the book n more handsome and sensitive to other's feelings, esp Tohru. He's really caring towards her. Which the anime dun show.. so bad.
Well, noe listenin to Ayumi's 'Close to you'. Very nice... And anyway, Ayu's new album is called 'My story'. Is 2 yrs after the last album 'Rainbow' le, excluding 'Memorial Address' since 'Memorial Address' is only a mini compilation. The new album rox k? And the cover's damn cool. The album consists 17 songs. First time so many. Haha. Go on rocking, Ayu!

Album title: My story
01. Catcher In The Light
02. About You (just heard. ROX COMPLETELY!!!)
03. GAME (This is a great song, worth listening!)
04. my name's WOMEN (Heard a little. Not bad. Sounds lyk 'Inspire')
05. WONDERLAND
06. Liar
07. HOPE or PAIN
08. HAPPY ENDING
09. Moments (Heard this for the 100th time. Very nice and touching song)
10. walking proud
11. CAROLS (This is a nice sad song. ya noe e music u hear now is this song?)
12. Kaleidoscope
13. INSPIRE (of cos gt hear b4. Love the PV for this. :))
14. HONEY
15. Replace
16. winding road
17. Humming 7/4

yupz. Anyway, tt's all now. Bye and take care everyone. =)

Everything...

Heng today blogspot more ting hua or i might get rash and dump the com out of the window. Serious. Stupid blogspot. Always dun let me update one. And stupid com. haiz...
And sorry serene, can't tag u. Cant see ur blog... dunno why. See? Stupid com again... haiz.
These days so many things happened liao. But very sian to say everything. Just that Singapore Idol was a disappointment. Tot Sly might win but turn out Taufik. But read Newpaper today. They say Sly's music career will be more concrete and Fik's will me quite rocky. Haiz... Oh yah, talking about yesterday. A bad day overall. Went out with my frens to send off my fren who's imigrating to San Francisco.. Haiz.. leaving one by one... Nothing much to say about it. Just that b4 we entered the house, we promised one another we won't shed a tear. And we succeeded. All we did there was to eat and watch Xmen 2. Sian rite? Haiz... Won't go into detail.
Came back in the evening and watched S'pore Idol. Had a severe headache and felt like vomiting. Dunno why. Den when the results was released, I almost threw up. Felt soooo bad lor. My head was spinning den very painful. Felt like dying. Mum sais probably cos I too nervous. But... nervous about what? Piano? Oh ya, piano. Guess what. My teacher threatened me lor. She said if nxt lesson dun play properly, she'll ask the teachers to come and listen to me play. !!!!!!!!!!!!!! What the lor! Felt so sick.. haiz.
Reached home and watched TV. Last time recorded one. Haiz... Sian mah. Dunno who keep hacking into my account. Sian lor. Den that person blocked many people. Dunno who.. and Karen said she saw me online when I'm not even online lor! And when I came online just now, the person blocked the ppl again... Siao lor.
Haiz.. Anyway, now, the background music is 'Carols' by Ayumi. Cool rite? Thanks to my dear dear dear dear best fren, Karen!!! Hahaha...

To Karen:
Alrite, gotta repeat what I told u here. ok, gurl, first, u must noe that I'll never never never leave u in the lurch. I say it and I mean it. We've been best fren for 8-9 yrs already. U noe me well enough inside out and I noe u well like I noe myself... It's really a long way we've come, and there's still a long way to go... We've been through our bad times, when we quarreled almost everyday. Remember? But we overcame it and got even closer... The great times we've had.. I'll forever remember. U must too, ok? Remember what I told u? Even if everyone leaves u, I'll never ever leave u... ok? I mean what I say...
So do take care of urself ok? Dun make me worry le. =D. Friends till eternity.

Now, let me share 'Carols' lyrics. The lyrics of the backgrnd music...

CAROLS



Do you remember the first day we met even now?
You looked abashed, hanging your head
And turning your eyes away

I wonder when such a manner became so dear to me
It makes me feel a little nostalgic
Don't you feel so?

Many seasons have passed by
With quick steps since then

(*) When the white snow colors the city
Let me stay by your side
Though I may bother you
Again and again

We talked overnight about our future and the moments
I felt they were so dazzling
And precious

Tears welled up in my eyes
When I thought it would be nice
That I could forgive my past some day

(**) When the white snow melts
And the city becomes vivid and colorful
I like to keep you closest
To my heart

The days we couldn't understand each other and parted
The days of tears, the days of smiling faces
Whatever may happen and whatever mood you may be in
I'll always accept you

(*) repeat

(**) repeat

The Wedding night...

Haiz. Not again. Positively sure that blogspot hates me lor. Tried tons of times to update my blog but can't. So irritating. and Karen helped me changed my layout cos she say that layout cannot display. dunno what's wrong. Haiz... Anyway, thanks to Karen again. =). Anyway, yesterday was the big night. My cousin's wedding dinner. You read frm my previous entry that I had a hard time preparing for last night, rite? haha. Last night was a wonderful night. Nice hotel, nice food, nice atmosphere. Haha. I'll start from last morning. I woke up, ate breakfast, watched Mandarin Top 20. Very sian lor, always the same song. Was watching out for Jay but his ranking dropped down to 10. Good luck to him then. Anyway, after that, practised piano till I almost went mad. That stupid Czerny and Sonatina and Serenade and piano pieces but worst of all, the SCALES! Sux man. Anyway, prac really hard and went for piano. Ok la, teacher nvr scold me and taught me new songs. Sian lor, cos the next
piano lesson brought forward to Thurs. Sux rite? Fewer days to prac... Haiz. Sure die this time. Anyway, after piano, rushed home cos need to get ready for the wedding dinner. Took MRT and practically flew home. Lolx.. haha. Once stepped in the house, my mum cooked scrambled eggs for me to eat in case later dinner start later
than expected. She knows I get hungry easily. Hehehe. =P. So after eating, went to bathe and dress up. Skip the part about dressing up. So congrats to me, I lost the necklace I bought that day with Serene and Zoumei. So sad lor. Was searching all over but can't find. Was so frustrated lor. In the end gave up and borrowed from sis a sparkling heart shaped one. She wore the DIAMOND NECKLACE her boyfren gave her. Anyway, I was so envy of her. It's GORGEOUS!!!! A diamond flower and the chain is DAMN nice lor. Dazzling. My eyes almost went blind by the necklace. Whoa seh lor. Anyway, wore the heels I spent so much time choosing and went down to flag a cab. Had a tough time balancing on the heels but ok la. My sis looked damn sexy and beautiful in her strapless black gown with layered opening(is that what u call that?). She carried a black shawl with her and her hair shone lor. Brown hair and her white hair looked copper and it looks like highlight lor. Hahaha. She wore this sophiscated heels and her eye shadow is blue. Damn classy lor! And her lips were glossy. SOOO NICE! My dad wore this black tie. Hahaha.. looks weird cos seldom see him in tie. Anyway, we sat on the cab there and I was like smsing Serene
all the way there. My dad was like nagging but nvm la. REached there. The cab fare is $20+ mad rite? Got traffic jam and the carpark is full. Well, nvm about all these.

We walked into the lobby. VERY HIGH CLASS LOR. everyone there's either in gown or tuxedo. So stressed man. Walked towards the ballroom and saw all my relatives there sipping cocktail. High class. They dress so elegantly so, so nice lor. Then I must like keep smiling at them and answering their questions about school. Whatever. Went in and sat with my cousins and my uncle and auntie. Ok la. Den dey were saying how pretty my sister and I were. I was like, DUH. Anyway, they were only being polite. Boos. After that, we chatted and the wedding gifts we receieved were special. Not what choc or cakes. But two miniature teddy bear dressed in pink and black. One female one male. Cool arh? Lol. Den was our first course. Ok, name u all the courses we had.
1. Cold plate (Jellyfish, roasted duck, mini octopus, yam roll, and others unknown)
2. Sharks fin (tis rox)
3. Clam and spring roll with mango (weird taste but still ok)
4. Marinated chicken. (dun really like this. Quite yucky. But ok la, can eat can le)
5. Fish (Should be, can't really remember the order. This rox the most. Esp the sauce, ROX)
6. Sea cucumber, veg and mushroom. (this tastes great too! Love it!)
7. Fried rice (nice nice~ But too full le)
8. Dessert, consisting choc tarts, french cuisines, crossaint, strawberry shortcake. (Yummy! it was served in buffet style. Cool eh? Love this)
The coolest part is that there's this band there playing live. Nice lor. Rox, the music. They sang 'Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps', 'what a wonderful world' and other jazzy songs. Cool. It was fun also, the wedding. The groom, Marcus, had to roleplay as the prince to rescue the princess (my cousin, Julia). Haha. Very funny. Think they very rich lor, held in PAN PACIFIC HOTEL. Cool hotel also. This entry very long again. Haha.

Anw, thanks to Si Aun and Serene, who helped me to jie men. Hahahaha. Thanks, u guys!

Today, did nthg except rot in theory class. Teacher taught us, Consecutive 8th and 5th and exposed 5ths and 8ths. DUn quite understand eh? Hahaha. She asked us a few questions. Heng can answer. Haha. Den she was like luffing cos gt one que none of us could answer. Hahaha. =P. Got lots of hw oso. Siao diao. Haiz.Gonna eat dinner le. Hope this blogspot thingy can work when I'm back from dinner. Heehee. Gonna watch tv oso. hahaha. So that's all for today! Yupz. Adios, everyone! *muacks*

Wedding dinner + Sch bus!

Phew. Finally managed to blog. Hooray! hahaz. Cos nowadays sis kept occupying the com and poor me, have to get as far away as possible from the com. *sobz*. Anyway, these days sooooo many things happened! So, this entry's gonna be pretty long. Hahaz. Anyway, I'll be having this wedding dinner this saturday at Pan Pacific hotel. Sounds cool arh? Heard from my sis and dad that it's a five or six star hotel! Wow in caps! Haha lame. So, on Monday, my mum and I went to Causeway Point to shop for wedding clothes. At least presentable. Haha. We went around for hours and hours but nothing suitable was found. It was until when I saw IT. It's this gorgeous peach coloured gown. It's ultra cool and beautiful. I couldn't take my eyes off it. Anyway, it cost a BOMB! If I never remember wrongly, it cost around 100+. Scarrrry. But really, it doesn't fit me at all. Haha. If I were to wear it, it'll probably slip off. U noe what I mean. Anyway, we walked around somemore and my mum plucked out this black and white dress. The strap (whatever u call that, my vocab is limited k?) has to be tied and it looks cute and nice. Whatever. My mum shoved me into the fitting room and I just threw it on. My mum was like, gave me the wow-not-bad look and I was in total shock. A dress??? I'm like. HELLO? WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I WORE A DRRRRESS? My mum said it was pretty and suited me well. What can I say? Poor me... ended up with a dress.
Anyway, after that, we bought a denim skirt and a pink shirt from Dano. Those two were ok, but I was or shld I say, am, still traumitised by the fact I've gotta wear a dress. Anyway, my sis came and we went to search for her clothes. Skip all this boring part about choosing her clothes. She ended up with a black mini dress which looked classy and sssexy! Anyway, we went to shop for heels and couldn't find anything. Nevermind about that.
The next day we had choir and sang Sunset. AGAIN. But this time it was Ms Fu who taught us. She was like attituding (gt such word?) us and I was very sick of the song already. Yun Tian had councillor stuff and so me and serene and zoumei went JEC to eat LJS. Den we went to causeway point and guess what. GUESS WHAT. We met Yi Hang's mother. She works at Metro. And we went there to look at heels. Haiz. Talked to her for a short time. At first didn't even notice she was there. Couldn't remember her. =P. When we reached there, we were looking at heels when she suddenly asked me if I am Jasmine. I was like, huh? Who on earth are you? she told me she's Yi Hang's mother. I was like, OHHHH!!! and had nthg to say. Zou Mei and Serene were like giggling and running away. Until now, I still don't understand how does she know me? Strange...
Well, after that, we looked at necklaces and had great fun. Yesterday, we went around the whole of Northern West part of Singapore. Hahahaha... First, I met Zou Mei and Serene at CCK and planned to go jogging. Haha. But darn it. it was way too warm. We were so hot and made a wrong decision to walk back to CCK interchange. SIGH. We stopped by at Limbang park. Hahaz. Wrong decision again. After playing and walking around, we were half dead. It was soooo warm, I practically melted. Our walking speed was like 0.1km/h. No kidding. And our sport shoes were heavy and we were almost dead. Hot!!! And finally, we reached CCK lot one and we went Mac to eat and drink water. Chatted about prom. We think too much. Lolx. After that, we went to search for heels. AGAIN. but ended up searching for gowns. I was being forced by Zou Mei and Serene to try on this black and classy gown and Serene even took a photo. I was on the verge of puking and vomiting. Eeeks. I looked horrible. Yucks. Then went to buy necklaces. Decided on this DAMN NICE necklace with blur roses on them and blue crystal flower at the tip of the necklace. Nice nice~! Serene bought this necklace with two hearts. Nice leh! Fits serene well. haha. Zoumei chose this cute dolphin necklace. Very adorable! Cos I love dolphins! hahaha... then, we set off to the next destination. Westmall.
When we reached there, went Tom and Stefanie. Fun there. Hahaz. Except the part when Serene stepped on my toe. Ouch! haha.. Serene arh...haha. den Zoumei also stepped on my toes later on. Double OUCH! After that, looked for shoes and saw many nice nice one. Den we met my mother and we went to look at heels. Serene and Zoumei thought the black and white heels with strap was not bad but my mum was against. I was trapped in between. What can I SAY?? I looked around and finally, we all decided on this black heels which made me look 'feminine' as Serene and Zoumei said. No way lor. I think I looked like a pig on heels trying to keep her balance. Honest.
After that, Serene and Zoumei left first cos Serene got theory. Oh ya, speaking of theory, I had to teach Serene theory on intervals. Hahaz. Last time I was the same as Serene. 9 out of 10 wrong. LOLX.
So that's all for today. Nothing much le. Just that tomorrow's timing is changed to 8.30! Help! Can't get up! haha... Oh yah, and Clarisse called last night! Oh, such a big surprise! Love her man. And forever remember her adorable brother Calvin, who likes to interrupt the convo btw me and Clarisse. And of course, stupid Manfred who stinks and Darren! That guy who likes to boast about his rabbits. Heh. After 2 years but still the same. No change. Heard from Clarisse they got more handsome? Ha, hard to blieve. So what if you guys are older? Big deal. *sticks tongue* Anyway, Clarisse said she saw LHY. Lolx. Oh ya, Ryan and Sandra dey all got back their results today! Wonder how they fared? Especially Ryan. Still rmb the 'ur ass is burning' joke we cracked last time? Lolx!!!

Starting to miss the sch bus frens. they were such great buddies! Had so much fun.. Miss you guys lots!
Clarisse: The nearest to me. Lolx. Hope you'll do well in ur studies! And take gd care of ur hamsters! Haha. Dun forget to visit me when you can! Love you.
Haiyuan: Oooh, li hai le lar, go RV hor? Smart lor u, win le lor.. haha.. Anyway, still remember you were the one who called me 'Two pile of shit when the other people are only one pile' name.. haha.. u hor. And u and Allen used to play with us in 'Cinderella' and I'm always the narrator. Lolx. And last time we were so obsessed with 'Murderer', rmb? Haha. Had so much fun den... Take care k? And gd luck in ur studies!
Ryan: Clarisse's greatest enemy. Lolx. Still remember? Cats stuck in throat? Flies on head? And the stupid cricket which was lost! And the photos we took together? All couldn't be developed except two on Haiyuan's head! Hahaha.. take good care k? Expected head prefect of Jurong Pri. Lolx...
Allen: Lost contact for oh my gosh, 3 yrs! Haha.. Had so much fun last time. Remember Cinderella? And the stupid party we held on the bus? Whenever I had headaches, you'll bound to cheer me up with GTO's new info... I was such GTO crazy but now I'm Ayu crazy le. And my ghost stories? And I used to beat u up so badly.. so sorry. Hahaha. But it was fun. =P. Take care and gd luck in ur studies in RV k? Saw u on MRT. u saw me too, rite? haha...
Joo Zhi: Yoz gurl, still remember our games we played? And our haircut? Haha.. U were so afraid of my ghost stories then. And I loved to scare you with my ghost stories so much. How mean of me hor? And I enjoyed ganging up with u gurls and finish Allen and Haiyuan off with our waterbottles! hahaha... good luck in wateva u do!
Xiuyun: Wow, 2 yrs already... Miss u lots too! Still have ur birthday present for me, you know? I was so envy of you. Live in such a big terrace house lor.. So good. And U guys kept singing ur sch song. Lol.. and yeeyan, u guys kept mentioning her rite? She's in my class! hahaha... How nice rite? Anyway, do take care of urself k?
Jazreen: Lolx. Still remember this mad and crazy girl. PLayed the mee-mee-mee-ray thingy everyday after sch. Haha. Was so much fun! and the accident, remember? Ur leg was totally scratched... So worried for you. It's ok le rite? 2 yrs sure ok one.. haha. Miss ya lots too! Gd Luck in ur studies in SCGS!
The other ppl I didn't mention, Sandra, Yi Quan, Sandra's brother, Hippo n the rest, miss all of you! Had sooo much fun then. Good luck to all of you and take care~!

Wow, isn't this entry long? Haha... Nice. and well, g2g le. Take care everyone. Ciao!

Moments...

Yupz. Wrote this entry in Notepad. There was smthg wrong with my blog.. haiz. Anyway, yesterday was chased out of the room by my dear sister, as usual... hahaz. That's why I'm gonna write about yesterday. Went to choir and saw the appeal list. Got 2 new guys being transfered into my class. And Bernice's transferred into 3o9 le, as she wished. hahaz... it's bad we can't be in the same class anymre, Bernice... still take care k? Anyway, went to choir. Surprisingly, saw Yuntian wear specs! Wow, the last time I saw her with specs was last year when I sat with her in the hall for choir prac.. lolx. She looked nerdy in specs.. haha.=P. When she went to get Ms Chan to dismiss the choir, she carried many stacks of papers up and resembled a secretary with specs... lolx! Dun kill me, horx.. =P. Anyway, besides that, we learnt 'Sunset'. Nothing much to say about it. Still sux a whole lot, especially the Tamil part of the song. Tabla... Tambura... Vina. haiz. sux la. Unexpectedly, G.R.R didn't attitude us and coached the Sop 1s. Asked us to carry heavy boxes and sang the 'wo men hui jia le' part. siaoz.. so damn heavy lor. At first quite grateful he borrowed mine so no need to carry yet. hahaz. My arms were already aching from the bicycle and now double the pain. HAIZ! Anyway, after that, went eat LJS with serene. She was so hungry, she ate EXTREMELY fast and I was like still at my chicken when she finished. lolx. anyway, after that, went to library cos nthg to do le... Saw LCR. Wow, can't believe my luck. At first didn't notice him until Serene told me. I was like so surprised to see him there... He's more handsome than I thought he was. haha. Grew taller and tanner and of cos, more handsome. lolx. He brought his gf there and I was like kept looking at them cos they sat exactly opp us. Haiz...
can only see mah... sigh. Anyway, after that, kept running into Jessie, Christina and Elaine they all den dey kept saying me and Serene twins. Haiyo, we dun look alike at all leh. Serene rebonded her hair leh.. how to look alike? hahaz. Anyway, after that we went to Westmall and looked at duffel bags at Converse. Maybe gonna bring my mum over to buy it. hahaz. After that went home and saw Si Aun and Xueli tagged my board. Read what they wrote. Haiya, nvm le larh... u guys know me well enough.. It's pretty hard for me to stay unhappy for too long. Unless it's really serious. anyway, friendship is like this, full of ups and downs. Without the unhappiness, how will we ever learn to cherish the happiness, rite? So smile always and all the best for ur studies next yr although we not in the same class anymore... Friends forever. =D

Although this dun really fit in well, but just found these words very meaningful and touching... jus wanna share it with everyone. =)

Moments



Your heart began to be scorched,
and there was a smell of it
It was the end of your dream,
and the start of everything

What you adored looked beautiful to you
It became even brighter because you couldn't reach it

The broken pieces of your dream
Pierce my heart
Leaving the pain
That I should never forget

If my life is transient like a flower
I'll be in full bloom by your side
And after watching your smile
I'll fall alone, quietly

How was the scenery you saw
When you were pushed into an abyss of despair

Your naked heart is wandering
Having nowhere to go
And is setting sharp thorns around
For fear of being touched

If I could flutter like a bird
I would fly to you
And offer my wing
To your wounded back

If my life is transient like a flower
I'll be in full bloom by your side
And after watching your smile
I'll fall alone, quietly


If I could flutter like a bird
I would fly to you
And offer my wing
To your wounded back

If I could flow like the wind
I would reach you
If I could shine like a moon
I would keep shining on you

I'll be anything
If it can stop you from being seized with fear

Emptiness...

Yupz, you should've guessed what this whole entry would be talking about. Chalet. Didn't want to write all these down but decided to face up to reality... When Serene and I went around searching for Downtown East, yes, it was fun. We went around to the arcade to play and just walked around. After that, met Yeeyan, joyce, doris, fiona, jingting, woonting and we decided to go cycling. Fun and refreshing. Relaxing when we rode near the sea and the sea breeze was carressing my cheeks. Nice feeling. Owed serene lotsa money. Paiseh ar... Den after that there was an accident... Haiz... poor joyce was knocked off her bicycle and had some injuries... Cut all the sad part. Hope she get well soon. After that, we went back to chalet and chatted with one another. Yupz, had fun till then. After that, we went to seaside and ate popsicles... Very cooling and breezy. Jun Liang joined us then and we just sat at the edge of the rocks and looked out at the sea. We chatted and laughed. It was fun. Then we went to swimming pool and walked in the water. Attempted to push Jun Liang into the water. In the end we splashed water at him. Poor him, couldn't go back cos his sandals were with us and his specs. Haiz... And we went back and handed the specs to him. Start to feel the atmosphere turn weird. U noe wat I mean. We played mahjongg and of cos, I lost. Nvm about that. Everything was ok. We went to buy things to eat and drink. That was when everything happened. The sad part...

We attempted to help at the BBQ but there was absolutely nthg to do. See that person's expression more sian. We went out more than once to help but there was nothing to help with. Felt unhappy cos we tot since the ppl put in more efforts in the BBQ, den why should we take away their food? Perhaps tt was a negative feeling... That has been what I felt for all my 14 yrs. Even to my parents and relatives. Anyway, so we borrowed bicycles and cycled to Downtown East. Alright, we were wrong not to inform them beforehand. Yes. But what will you feel if you suddenly receive a whole lot of scoldings from a person without even knowing what happened? I was of cos shocked and confused. Anyway, we were already cycling in the gate and this happened. I felt totally against going back. Perhaps I cared too much with what people think of us. There were only 4 of us, there were a whole bunch of them. Felt intimidated. And of course, sad and hurt. We had our reasons for what we did, it was definitely not bcos of what being selfish or trying to bring the class spirit down or whatever. Why would we do that? We were being misunderstood too much... too much... that I really didn't know what to say. I didn't want to go back and we stayed at the basketball court there cos there was nothing to say or to explain anymore. I had mixed emotions. Sad, hurt, confused, surprised, shock.

Finally, we went back. Didn't know what to say when I saw Carine, Xueli, Xinfang and Liza cry. What can I do? I don't even know. We clarified everything with Valencia, Xinfang and Xueli. They understood, it's good and happy to know that people believed in us. Sharine, Doris, Woonting, Yijun, Jew Ee, Eugenia, Eunice, Jing Ting dey all also held no grudges against us and still joked and laughed with us. Didn't even feel like laughing anymore after this incident. Didn't know what to do about Liza. She was extremely upset and cried. Went to comfort her but just felt emptiness... Even if everything seemed ok, I was still empty, even until this present moment. Serene said I think too much. I agree but tt's me. I dunno what to say or to think or to feel anymore. This tingle of guilt still haunts me. I dunno what to do... Complete emptiness.

To u-noe-who: How can u still stay angry till now? Perhaps u dun even plan to forgive us after that BBQ incident. Two yrs of frenship, u wan to jus let it go cos of this? ppl make mistakes. Us too. We're not perfect. We make mistakes too. Dun tell me u don't? Dun tell me you're perfect? People forgive and forget. Dun tell me you dun? Just as Valencia told us, if they dun wan to forgive, they're not you true frens. So now what? U tell me. You didn't even know what happened b4 u confronted me. We listened to ur side of the story, but did u even attempt to listen to our side of story? Look. Xueli, Xinfang and a whole lot of ppl chose to forgave. U chose to stay angry. Dun tell me u dun even treat us as frens? For the two years? Or u jus wan to say that it's over? Everything? I've said all I wanted to say. The rest is up to you to choose...

Friends till eternity...

This entry will be totally dedicated to Serene. Actually, after reading your entry about us, I got this queasy feeling of crying. I dunno why. It seems like I've often neglected your feelings. Actually, I really truly cherish this friendship between us. Really... I'm sorry if I have let you down at times... Sometimes, I know I irritate you lots... bcos of my stupidity and foolishness. Maybe i'm jus not lyk other ppl you know, who express their concern with gifts. Maybe that's me... I'm sorry if that causes you to think that we're not as close as before. But I have no intention of giving up this friendship at all... really. I have faith that we will remain as close friends forever till eternity. Please pardon me for my stupidity and insentivity to the surroundings... Friends Forever and ever and ever and ever...
I'm sorry if I have hurt you before... I've secretly prepared chocolates for you. Really, just as I've promised. But... my sis ate them up. So sorry! hahaz.. hope u wont mind, I'll buy new ones for you. =). That's why u tink I nvr buy anything for u cos I didn't wan to say out. And as for forgettin the things, I didnt actually forget. I dunno how to explain it. Just that I had no mood to go out at all... My aunt was in hospital.. u see? Ya, shld've explained to u but didn't know how. At tt time, my feelings was in a mess. Sorry... really sorry... But noe u'll understand rite? Relax about the chocolates. I'll get them for u, no prob. =)

As time goes by, friends drift away as soon as they come... But you're special, I won't let u go away. Till the day I close my eyes... Friends till death. Death do we part. =D

Total sianess... who can understand?

Currently listening to Ayumi's 'Rainbow'. Very nice. Anyway, today has been an extremely sian day. Once I opened my eyes, I knew right away there was nothing to do... Sigh. Ate my breakfast of toasted bread and fruit juice... yummy! hehez... I was watching Mandarin Top 20. Looked out for Jay's ranking in the chart. He was ranked 5th and they played his 'Wai po' or 'Grandmother' pv. Not bad, I like that song oso. Hahaz... After watching the stupid TV, went to prac piano...Extra sian. After that, my mum went into my room and we started packing and cleaning up my room. UTRA SIAN... dug out a lot of old things.. haha. Found my lost money =P and Karen's letters to me when we were in Pri 2... lolx!!! Anyway, after all that, ate my lunch and went for piano... Sian beyond words. Sigh...
Came back and my sis showed me Ayumi's 'Inspire' and 'Game' pv. Not bad, pretty nice and the 'Inspire' is especially cool. The ending. Unexpected. Very nice. Anyway, msn really went crazy and can't log on... haiz.
HE'S killing me!!! Sigh.. u noe lahz hor?
Tomorrow still got theory... SIAN TO THE EXTREME LE... sigh...
Listening to 'Jie Kou' again... it's nice.. really. and serene arh, no meaning behind this arh, dun tink too much. hahaz...
Hope tomorrow will be a better day for us all. Yupz... but with theory, it can't get any better. Sigh...

Sometimes things are just so cruel...

Now listening to Jay Chou's 'Jie Kou'... very nice and sad too. You know, out of all Jay's songs, my favourite is still 'Gui Ji'... nostalgic... haiz. Maybe one day, just one day, my favourite song will no longer be 'Gui Ji'... you know what I mean. Anyway, feeling really sian cos this is the third time I'm writing this entry cos my com went crazy just now and everything was gone. Kinda sian and annoying... Anyway, just as my entry title , sometimes things are just so cruel... I mean, why can't I choose the life I want to lead? Nevermind... it's fate anyway.
It's just like this morning, or rather, last night when I found out which class I'm going. 3o8... together with Serene, Joyce, Yeeyan, Pei Rong, Valencia, Huang Jian, Waihou, Jun Liang and Yi Hang. Honestly, I'm really pleased and contented with my class... But why must I end up with HIM? WHY HIM??!!! sigh... it's really sickening... and two more years with him... TWO YEARS!....
It's really beyond my control. What can I do? I can only pray here and hope that he can get his senses into his head and use the appeal form. Appeal somewhere else. It's the best for both of us... really... Give me a break...
Anyway, this morning had choir. Yea, all we did was sing SYF song 'Ladybird' accapella... Not bad. Can still remember it was the first song I learnt when I joined Choir. Mr Stead taught us that song. He was the new instructor then and I was really afraid of him and thought he was weird... hahaha.. come to think of it, I was really stupid.
Now listening to 'Ge Qian'... it's so sad...whenever I'm sad enough, when I listen this song, I thought I might cry... However, now things are so bad, I can't even cry anymore... Afterwards will be practising the piano... tomorrow I'm having piano lessons again... Sianz...
Anyway, all thanks to my rotten luck, my next two remaining years of secondary school life's gonna be disaster. One word to describe my current mood 'Empty'.

Hamster day!

Today I had choir. Sigh.. it was boring. REAL boring. All we did was to sing non stop from 8.30 to 1pm.. actually got break, but for... 5 mins? Haiz.. all thanks to our dear Ms Fu who dragged on for another 25 mins.. wat the. Anyway, we received our set piece today. The title is 'Sunset' and it sux, all I can say about it. It contains four languages. First Malay, den Chinese, den Tamil, den mix the three, and finally English... It sux lyk anything lor. Even my instructor, G.R.R, says it's Kanasai. Although I dun really like him, or to be specific, I totally dislike him, I agree with him this time. We worked hard on the song. The beginning was really confusing lo...Dongdang Dongdang sayang etc.. sux la. After that, we revised the song 'Ladybird'. It was taught by Mr Stead to us. And it rox. We did really well at tis song, although the sop 2s were being asked to repeat again and again. That bias G.R.R... nvm. Anyway, after that me and Serene went to eat Mac. (again!) hahaz.. nvm la, anything for frens. And bought hello kitty for her dear brother, who will in turn give to her dear girlfriend... Den we chatted about our sec one days, when we played with paper balls, were crazy over Xmen and so on.. haha.. was so fun!

After chatting, we decided to come to my house. Hehez.. And serene went totally crazy over my sis's hamster, Kami. Haha... Kami is a pearl white breed hamster. Really cute... =) I like to call it 'furball' cos it's so fat and white and adorable, when it sits in a corner, it looks lyk a furball! Awwwww! so cute! =D. And we used the sunflower seeds and food to lure Kami to climb the bars of the cage. Soooo cute! And serene played some music from her phone and Kami will stop what he's doing and listen and look very intently at the phone... hahahaha... SO CUTE!!!

After playing, we did lame things like watch Tom & Jerry.. haha, although it was funny... hehe. Den we used the com and chatted with Karen. Karen so gd lor, got Sims 2... hehe.., wanna go and play oso.. Something unhappy happened, dun wish to mention... Den serene went home le. Hehez.. a very pleasant day and fun and cute day!

Anyway, regarding HIS thing, I dun wish to comment further. Let things be.. forget it. Nothing can be done anyway. Just wish him happiness. Wish to forget all about him... at least I won't have to feel so miserable... and heartaching...

Regarding the other person's thing, I just wan THAT PERSON to leave me alone. Dun really feel like talking about THAT PERSON... it's too sickening... Can't comment too much as well... you noe wat i mean...

Lovesick...

Today I had to be very cheery in front of Serene and karen. Sigh... when I was in the cinema, guess Serene realized I was a little weird. Lyk suddenly very upset and suddenly very happy... It's hard. But that's life. Tried to forget about him but just can't... Forget it. We're not fated. And today accompanied Serene and Karen go and watch Princess Diaries II. Not bad leh.. quite hilarious.. haha. Last time when I was younger, always dreamt to be a princess... lolx.. Anyway, yeap, I bought LJS and smuggled into the cinema and me and serene ate it. Haha.. the queue was too long and serene didn't buy the nachos and popcorn and cheese dog. So shared mine with her, lolx. After the show, we went to eat KFC.. That's when I kept thinking of him... Sigh... Wish to skip this sad part. den me and serene played ice soccer..haha. very fun..haha. Kenna scolded by the cleaner. =P. Karen very funny. her money oways short one den must run here run there to take. lolx...

After eating, we went to buy Serene's hamster's thingy. Bought a very pinkie cage for her hamster and some hamster food and wood shavings. Karen and I helped her carry to the toilet cos she wan to go. Hehe.. den after that, we went home. Today was fun.. but to me it's not.. Very stormy day... Lovesick.

So many probs nowadays. Guinea pig. Classes. HIM... sigh...

to Serene and Karen: real sorry about today. Tink I appeared very lethargic lyk that. Sorry... I just couldn't get my mind off him. Thanks for your advices. You guys really rocks.. And really had fun with you guys. Look forward to our next outing! Kisses and hugs. =D

Dearest...

Have been thinking about HIM for a long time already... Sigh... liking a person is so hard and painful, especially when the person you like does not like you. I tried to change my mind about HIM, change my feelings for HIM, but things does not just happen like that. My heart is already there, I can't get it back anymore... Sigh.. Why must things be like this? Sometimes, I feel so painful and miserable, I can't even cry anymore. I miss HIM so much... he doesn't even know... I dunno how to express this kind of misery, the sharp pain in my heart all the time, when I hear him having many admirers. What can I do? Nothing.. only praying every night for his happiness. Even if he forsakes me one day, even if he doesn't even want to care about me anymore, I will still look after him in the dark. I chose this road to take. I chose to care for him in the shadows. It's painful. But it's the best way...

Later I will be going out with Serene to watch Princess Diaries II. Really wish to put on a smile and be cheery... but... I can't get my mind off him. Especially when I see his new nickname. He has a new love. sorry serene, if I appear more retarded and faraway today. It's just cannot be controlled...

My feelings for him:

Wishing
Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki
Composer: Hideaki Kuwabara
Arranger: Akimitsu Honma


I've never tried to count how long it's been since we met
but I feel like spending more time with you.
In a day that will soon give in to nightfall, you always finally call
"Let's meet over there now," I am saved by those words.
Maybe it's because I've had a lot of experience with this kind of thing.
So much that it's mysterious, I can feel you near me.

I'm sorry for always relying on you, it's just that I can't do anything myself...
More than anyone else, I'm praying that the dream you drew in your heart comes true.
That you can be happy together with that person you love so much.

When the things I've been storing up for so long suddenly come flowing out,
you cried with me by my side, and we lauged.
Countless as the stars, again and again we meet and break up.
At that time I lost more than I gained, but it's different now.

I'm always relying on you but, this time I'll do it myself.
You're really not that strong, and I know I can't be alone.
I hope that you can laugh together with that person you love so much.


~~~ Wish you happiness with the person you love so much ~~~

To be...

My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Which Ayumi Hamasaki song are you most like?, is To Be

Today's unbearably warm.. sigh. Anyway, this morning went for piano, was panicking cos never practice.
My teacher was like giving me the same face she gives me all the time. A hopeless look. Anyway, she recorded one
of my songs which I played, 'Sonatina Op.33 No.6'... Haiz.. it sux like anything. Whatever... anyway, I'm really
getting addicted to Ayumi's Arena Tour 2004. Watched it for a record of 20 times lor.. and can memorize what she
said in the concert.. lolx. anyway, now still on my search for Ayumi's 'A' necklace... Yesterday went JP with
karen and serene and searched for 'A' necklace in 77th Street.. sigh. nowhere to be seen.
Anyway, yesterday met karen at JP at 11 and in the end saw serene. haha.. i called her home to check on her and
her mum told everything to me about serene going JP. It was meant to be a surprise but unfortunately, I found out
before I was surprised. haha.. but Karen was surprised.. hehe. And we went to This Fashion to check out the
clothes. Helped serene pick out the clothes. Was quite unhappy cos Karen and serene can buy but i go there only
extra to see the clothes.. felt so rotten. Nevermind la.. anyway, after buying clothes we went to shop and shop.
serene very funny leh.. she go and change clothes in the toilet and suggested wearing the clothes over the old
one.. and she looked so..haha.. Anyway, i really lyk her new clothes. fit her very well. And after that, we went
eat Mac.. poor me and karen, hafta eat MAC (AGAIN FOR ME). haha.. but was hungry so finished everything in my tray.
Karen couldnt eat and serene oso. Nevermind la, finished everything for them. They were lyk staring at me.. haha..
can't help it. =P.
After that, we went to take Neoprint. So funny, I was squeezed out of the picture.. den looked lyk SAI lyk that..
so ugly.. anyway, after that, we went to buy shuttlecocks and serene was mesmerized by the Archie comics and the
Princess diaries book. haha.. she arh.. den Karen was like searching for the shuttlecocks (planned to write
'cocks' for short. but too crude. lolx). was $3.15. Felt quite bad for her to pay for that... sigh..
Anyway, after that, we went to Karen's house and played with her hamsters. Haha.. serene scared until she lyk
keep screaming. And I was laughing and holding her hamster, Anora. She bit me many times lor.. my hand. haha.. nt
as painful as when Hackie bit me for the first time. Nevermind... talk about him makes me sad. We went down for
badminton. Haha.. very fun.
After that, went home and became sian all over again... sianz... Anyway, now gonna search the net about guinea
pig and hamster (for serene =D) .. Buaiz!


~Love Hackie and Kami and Whitey and Brownie~

Whatever...

Sometimes I ask myself this question "What is the real me?" I realized that I don't even have the ability to answer this question... It's really weird, how it can be that you've lived for so long and yet can't answer this question. People can be evil, especially when it comes to love. Why must people use negative means for such a wonderful thing called love? Haiz... living is wonderfully miserable. Life is misery with a little happiness.
People can be wonderful, when it comes to certain things. Why do people have both sides of a face? It's really puzzling... but yet logical. I never wanted to be anyone's thing or object. But circumstances force us into it. I want to walk out on my own, but things just dun allow us to do so. I hate myself sometimes. Why must I be so-and-so, why I cant be so-and-so. How many 'me' do I have? I don't know. People only know how to envy others, but not cherish their own.
Whatever... things are like this. When you least expected it, they come. And when you least expected it, they leave...
No one really knows the real you. They only know the 'you' you show. As for me, there are so many sides of 'me', I don't really know who am I already... Ourselves...

My mood:

Ourselves
Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki
Performed by: Ayumi Hamasaki

* I hold you tight
I get touched
I get discouraged
I hold you tight again
I pull myself together
I get prim
You know many faces of mine

This road looks endless
But surely has the end
Only for once
I like to stop on the way
I prepare a way to escape
But it means nothing to me to do so alone
Because you know?
There is nothing but love
That is truly valuable

** So
I show myself
Only to you
Which no one in the world knows
But
I may still have
Some secret sides
You have never seen
Which no one in the world knows

There are so many choices
That I can't make any guess
Where I like to find my way at last
But as we walk side by side
Expecting the same future
I feel nothing is so true as your profile
Because you know?
There is nothing but love
That is valuable in the end

So
Even if no one in the world knows me
I wish you alone
To know me
Yes
Even if no one in the world knows us
We know each other
So well

** repeat
* repeat x 4

Alrite, enough of crapping.. The thing is that I don't even know why I'm writing all these... Perhaps they are something I kept for so long in my heart. Anyway, tomorrow actually I was supposed to go out with Serene and Karen, but Serene became ill.. =(.. poor gurl, hope she can get well soon. hehe.. And as for Karen, maybe tomorrow I'll be going out with Karen, cos really nthg to do at home... Somemore must face... *ahem*.. and the stupid phone. Anyway, next friday will be the releasing of classes we will be going... Sigh... *pray hard*. Anyway, really hope to fully enjoy the holidays and stop thinking of all the crap. Yup, hope that will be useful to me... or rather... OURSELVES... you noe wat I mean.

Nothing to do...

Today really sian... Later I still have choir. 3-5pm. It's like hell to me. But I'm really glad that today is not G.R.R who will be teaching us, but the new teacher Ms Fu. She's okok lar... but rather lame at times. Anyway, I was talking to Serene on MSN. We discussed about the outings during the holidays... haiz. But it's lyk she dun allow... nvm. Anyway, this morning did nothing. Sort of wasted the whole day away. Watched 'La Bi Xiao Xin' for the whole morning, cos was really sian. Now using com and was searching for Ayumi's wallpapers. Saved quite a few, hehe... Tried to download something but to no avail. Sigh... Anyway, now listening to Ayumi's songs. My ingenious sister got them from the com into the CD, just in time before the whole computer crashed. Thank God for that, or i'll weep to death. Now listening to Carols, Ayu's newest single. It's not bad, pretty sad also. But the video for this song sux lyk anything. It only pictures Ayu walking here and there and on this horse thingy.. sigh.
Anyway, yesterday went to Ngee Ann Poly and listened to people talk non stop. Ngee Ann poly is really terrific, cos when you step into the place, the lobby (or whatever it is) looks just like that of a hotel. The auditorium rox oso... extremely huge.. haha. Felt lyk sleeping when I was sitting in that comfortable chair, lyk in a cinema lyk tt. Den watched this magic show, listened to many people talk. Jew Ee, Eugenia and I very sian and sleepy in the audi. And my favourite part was the refreshments. I was really hungry and took a lot to eat. Den me, je and eug discussed about something. Really scary...
By the way, I'm now listening to Ayumi's 'UNITE!'. Very nice song. It seems to represent 2o5. Really lyk tis song. So will provide the lyrics. Hope you lyk it too!

UNITE!
Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki
Composer: CREA
Arranger: HAL


I'm going to try not to go astray anymore...

There is something I want to tell you.
I could spend the fun times with anyone,
but when I'm sad, yeah,
no one else can take your place.

Even just in your dreams,
even in troubled times,
I don't want you to forget me.

Chorus:
Freedom in the right hand, Love in the left
We'll walk on, embracing both, and stumbling from time to time.

The coming of another, same morning is depressing.
Suddenly, the square sky seems very empty.

There have been days
when suddenly I shed
tears at daybreak.
I told you while crying:

People are short-lived, but they are strong.

I have you, who will protect me.
Freedom in the right hand, Love in the left
We'll walk on, embracing both, and stumbling from time to time.
wow wow wow

Dedicated to 2o5... with love

Neverending 2o5...

Yesterday was an extremely sad day. Nothing turned out well, perhaps is because of the thing that i dreaded most has finally arrived... separation. I was really sad yesterday. After the whole day of games and talking, I finally had to face reality. When we went down to lunch, I did something with Serene and Joyce which was not really nice... Whatever... We had to do IT eventually. It resulted in pretty much amount of tears... Anyway, after we returned to class, I had to use a tissue to cover my nose. Haiz... Then I collected my year book and looked through it. Very funny lor... cos got a lot of Serene and Waihou's photos.. haha. Noe smthg? Serene's pretty photogenic leh.. (Serene, dun kill me arh =P) My favourite section was the class photo. Our class photo rox lo.. although I sux in it. There are many choir photos also... hahaz. Got the soprano photo, the alto photo with Mr Stead and Mr Samuel... Starting to miss Mr Stead again... He's a great guy.. a real great friend and instructor, unlike G.R.R. Booz... I really wish to see Mr stead again. Tt's y me, Serene, Yun Tian, Zou Mei set up tis group called M.D.A. (Malicious Dark Angels)who go against G.R.R... haha.
Anyway, I was really sad yesterday, when I saw all my friends cry. We sang 'Re Dai Yu Ling' together in unison and I already had the urge to cry. Then I sang with Serene quite loudly. haha... den after that, stupid Mr Peh said many sad things about 2/5 in yr 2004 no longer exists... haiz... den after all that, we cheered for 2/5 and many girls started crying. Xueli, xinfang, eunice, eugenia, liza, yi jun... then I can't hold back my tears anymore, after seeing serene's eyes turning red. I went around hugging all my precious friends... really hate to separate... but it has to come sooner or later. Now that I think of it, I still have a strong feeling to cry and don't let go... One person leave after another. Mr Stead, Mr Samuel, my precious friends of 2/5... Why must we separate? It's cruel... it hurts a lot...
After all the crying, people start to leave. Even the sky was raining heavily. It was a sad moment for us all... Lookin forward to chalet now...

2o5 UNITE!

Seelek.Sharine.Xueli.Liza.Yini.Jingting.Doris.Beeling.Serene.Jasmine.
Wanyi.Joyce.Yeeyan.Yingxian.Biying.Jewee.Eugenia.Eunice.Xinfang.Peirong.
Carine.Woonting.Yijun.Zhunen.Yanling.Fiona.Huiqi.Valencia.Yiwen.Yibo.
Siaun.Kaimun.Dennis.Huangjian.Waihou.Junliang.Tanli.Peiliang.Yihang.Valentino...

Let us soar high up into the sky above.
Forever 2o5 '04.
Forever Friends.
Neverending 2o5...

A Sian day...

Today was really sian... I practically wasted the day away by doing nothing other than rot. Felt really drowsy today cos I only slept for two hours last time. Poor me, suffering from insomnia... :( When I came out of the house, I had to drag my feet to school. Really tired. But forced my heavy eyelids open. When I returned to class, more sian, cos the post exam activities really sux.. all we did was that stupid college (duno how to spell)and attend this super lame+boring landscape drawing class. I wonder how some people can survive through that without sleeping.. hahaz... And after that, it was more sian.. cos nothing to do. Den me, serene and joyce were lyk sufferin from severe depression due to boredom. Hahaz... Den I played UNO and Cheat and Murderer wif Sharine, Doris, WT, SL, JT, YY, Serene, Joyce.. haha, quite fun oso. After playing for quite a long time, we packed up to go home. But darn it, I still had Choir. Felt EXTRA sian lor, cos the new instructor really sux. But today the instructor changed to a female, Ms Foo, a temporary choir teacher. she's really pretty and nice, much better than G.R.R... haha. But whoever it is, Mr Stead is still and will forever be the best! Serene and I were lyk discussing about hamsters during Choir prac. She's plannin to buy a hamster.. haha, sounds exciting to me. I'll try to help her as much as I can la.. cant really promise her, later kill her hamster worse.. haha. Well, I also wish to buy a guinea pig... dunno le... Haiz. I can still remember Hackie...

No matter what happens, I'll forever remember Hackie...

Flunked...

Sigh... real depressed today, after knowing that I flunked my Internal Theory Examinations. I doubt I can do well in the actual exam next Saturday at International Plaza. It'll be a miracle if I can pass.. and the passing mark is 66... Haiz. Tomorrow I'll be going to Karen's house with Serene and Waihou. Really excited about it.=) Now listening to Kevin Kern's CD. His music really rocks. I especially like 'Beyond the sundial'and 'Where paths meet'. If you have the chance, do try and listen to his music. Have been quite depressed for the past few days... Not really sure why, perhaps is because we'll be separating soon? Next yr, all my friends will be in different classes. Very sad leh... I'm surely gonna miss them all. Looking forward to Tuesday when I can see all my friends again. I don't want the time to pass so quickly. I'm especially dreading next Friday, the last time we'll b seeing one another... :'(.. alrite, gotta go le. Take care everyone!

205 will remain in my heart till eternity...

Sickening day

This is a totally sickening day... nothing to look forward to. Sianz... Anyway, I just spent a whole night last night to create this blog, with the help of Karen, my really cool and smashing fren! =) hahaz, later gotta go for piano lessons. And it's like I didn't even touch my piano at all lor. Bet that I'll get a real good chiding from my piano teacher. Who cares anyway... And tomorrow there's still theory lesson. Speaking about theory, my theory lesson is coming soon. Probably gonna flunk it, just like I did for my internal examination. I dun have any music gene in me. Haiz. There are just too many things for me to worry about. Why can't friends trust one another? If YOU r reading this, tell YOUrself that YOU are not a bad person. I never lied to YOU at all...