because everything feels so familiar. that comfort zone.

u know what. i really really desperately need my esap and isorg to get 60 and above. SIGH! and am praying really really really hard tt miracles do happen sometimes. im damn sick of the "there but not quite there" results for my whole academic life. i need, for once, things to be right.

from the portal signs... results seem like its gonna be out real soon.

in e midst of applying for jobs, ive had weird tasks to do. which include doing online english proficiency tests, online assessment centre test (this took me almost an hour!) and the latest i have is to paraphrase a whole long article.

and i'm guessing the results will be out on the 31st aug.

now this old n rotting blog is back in action. i guess now im really free. ive got nth to do maybe i can post stupid things. but.... i still need a job quite desperately for the money. roars!

kinda had a hectic week nights with tues n thur night dedicated to bowling, wed night to celebrate a fren's bdae, fri night to celebrate another frens bdae. and sat night to celebrate another fren's bdae. WOW. pretty broke now...

then again. wed, fri and sat nights were kind of fun.

sometimes life can be such an irony when there's sth u really want but the actions prove otherwise. why does this happens? mind over body? body over mind? or am i playing a prank on myself?

no time to blog but lets summarise everything in point form!
- sorta almost gave up studying mm for my other subjs like esap and isorg which have higher chances of getting 60
- knocked my left knee weeks back and its giving me probs now! shucks. cant really stretch my leg straight. ROARS
- and e left side of e back still hurts! probably becuz of my twisted slpin positiong. which means i cant sit down n study for long b4 my back hurts again. double roars!
- managed to chiong and understand esap section D with in depth studies/questions on leadership and gender, (except for section B on attitude change)as well as isorg DM, DMM, e-commerce and TCM. SAY YAYS! finally!
- more questions to be done for esap and isorg and mm!
- apparently the 1st paper falls on this fri (7th may) which is supposed to feel like a bundle of nerves but somehow, i think i might have really give up hopes on it such tt i juz want to get it over and done with instead. WAHAHAHS!
- growing fat at the same time as i study. becuz i will tend to eat food in btwn the many many breaks!

random things of my life:
- wants to go clubbing!
- emo-ism still prevails
- getting sick of studying altho i haven really started
- wants to get out of sg to somewhere that i can chill

haven been studying. and this is real bad. sigh. i think i started studying wayyy earlier last year.

thru interactions with humans over the past 1 year, ive seen thru the colours of some. some are nice, some are horrible. and ive learnt from my mistakes for treating the horrible ones way too nicely. some people just dont deserve ur help, because at the end of the day they'll take advantage of it. and they fail to realise that being pretentious does not equate to being nice and accomodating to others.

and random people who read this and happen to randomly feel guilty abt it, gd for u then.

woke up with body aching all over and a swollen and pain thumb (esp at the 2nd joint). from the arms to the thighs to the butts. aching everywhere. goes to show how long since ive last bowled. could even feel the legs wobbling as i was walking to the foul line for every throw starting frm the 6th game onwards. how super unfit and weak. sigh

that said, yestd was horrendous bowling, coupled with many many "brush past but didnt hit" spares. ROARS. getting increasingly pekcek/frustrated/emo abt my abilities for bowling. ROARS times 2.

ok!, my ferraris are starting their engines soon! whee! bye