4D images kind of scare me.

Today I had an appointment with a specialist. I didn't want to tell anyone really because I was not sure my self what was going on. A good family friend (Sister Debra Larsen) went with me and I am so grateful that she did. We went in and the ultrasound tech did her thing. She looked at the baby multiple times from multiple angles and we watched it flip and jump all over the place. As she was doing this she asked if I wanted to know her educated guess on what our baby was. I instantly told her "NO". She asked why and I had to tell her that was something special for me and Derek to experience together once her gets home at the end of the summer. She then took pictures of my cysts....yes two of them in my right ovary which was the whole reason I was at this appointment. She then left and the Doctor came in a couple of minutes later. The doctor told me right away that my cysts were fine and that my baby and the large cyst could co-exist during the pregnancy. Isn't that sweet, it has already made a friend!  Then the doctor said they got a new program with 4D imaging. I am not going to lie. I did not want to get 3D imaging done with our baby because it kind of scares me, but 4D man that is just weird. Honestly the tech kept telling me how they are the only clinic in Arizona with it and they installed it yesterday and how cool it is. I thought my baby looked like it was in some kind of claymation movie. The doctor then asked me if I would like her educated guess at what the gender is of our baby and I had to explain again why I didn't. I am not going to analyze the ultrasound too much because I still feel it is too early to know. We will just have to wait and see! The first picture is of the "black hole" my cyst and baby's best friend. Second is of the beautiful profile, then frog legs, and last some scary 4D claymation images! 

Excited...

This week finally brings some excitement to my summer. First on Monday I have my second doctors appointment. I am pretty excited to go see how much this little one has grown. Then on Saturday I get to have my parents here with me the whole week. I was also able to get 4 days off, that will be really nice. Then on Saturday the 7th when my parents leave Derek gets here for a short but well needed visit. I am just super excited for these next two weeks!

Not much for blogging right now.

I am not going to lie....life is pretty depressing right now! I love that I have friends to keep me sane during this time, but I have come to realize life is not life without Derek. I miss that man more then ever and even though I get to talk to him on the phone every night it just isn't the same. You know my one fear in having a child is that Derek and I will not be Derek and I any more. It will be Derek, I, and a baby. Which I know will be ok once it happens and we will love this baby more then all of the free time we had, but we have had 4 years of free time and I will be the first to say I have become a very selfish girl when it comes to my husband. You know 4 years without a child is much longer then most LDS couple have together. I often would worry that we were doing something wrong or what are people thinking of us because we had not had a child yet. Now that we are having a child I am so grateful and feel so blessed that i had 4 years to get to know my husband and that we could become best friends! I love him...Love Him....LOVE HIM... and I just can't wait to have him back home with me. Last year we were apart for 7 weeks which seemed like forever. Well if he would have only been gone 7 weeks this year he would be getting home this week. Not this year though. This year he will be gone 16 weeks so we aren't even half way through! I just have to stay busy and keep my mind on other things and everything will hopefully go by very quickly! Like I said before i an so grateful for the friends we have here to invite me over and take care of me, but I just want my husband back.

Also among all of this depression from not having Derek around I am finally starting to feel sick. No food sounds good, I hate eating, I have not thrown up yet but I feel terrible. Welcome first trimester it only took you 10 weeks to get here and hopefully in a few weeks you will leave! I also think it has something to do with it being over 100 degrees everyday. I could seriously live off of fruit smoothies right now! All I have to say is first trimester it is good to see you, but you better leave by week 14!

Our Baby

It is facebook official. Since it is facebook official it can be blog official too. WE ARE HAVING A BABY! Just a little story....Derek and I found out right before Derek left for California. Literally the day before he left. That day was very special to Derek and I both. We had planned a day of going out and having fun together before he left to California. Well then on top of our already planned date we decided to stop by Target and check out the baby isles for the first time as "parents". I loved that moment. We then told all of our families on Mother's Day and just announced it on facebook yesterday. We are so super excited! I am already getting impatient though. I want to be 18 weeks so bad for two reasons. One: Derek will be home by then & Two: we can find out the gender of the baby! Seriously I can't wait to get things going. Also exciting news I haven't been on a beach vacation in years. Since the baby is due late Dec./ early Jan. I asked my mom if we could go on vacation in Oct. since I won't get to use my vacation during the holidays. So in Oct Derek and I will be going to California to the beach and my mom said that we will also have a California baby shower while I am out there. I am seriously so excited! I can't wait till October!

4 year Anniversary....

This year Derek is in Fresno, Ca and I am in Mesa, Az. I got up in the morning and talked to Derek on the phone. I asked him if he wanted to go out to dinner with me. He was a little confused and I said to him "Let's both go to In 'N' Out tonight for dinner".  He thought that was a good idea. We both went to work and wile at work I got the most beautiful flowers delivered! Seriously I love my husband. It could be because I miss him, or that I am emotional, or because I am pregnant, but there I was in the Costco photo lab just crying because of some flowers! Seriously they made me so happy but so sad. Then after work I came home, changed and drove over to In 'N' Out. Derek and I ate dinner and talked the whole time just like we normally do when is here. Yes, now thinking about it I probably looked like a lonely bum sitting in a booth by myself talking on the phone and eating but I didn't care! The night before our anniversary I asked Derek what was his favorite moment of our last year together of marriage. I had already picked mine out and wanted to see what his was. He said it was the Dodgers tryout that he had. I told him that was mine too! I just love my husband more and more every year. We just recently found out we are pregnant and the one think that worries me about having a baby is that Derek and I have had all the time in the world to do whatever we want and that will all shortly change! We are super excited to start this new phase in our lives together. It will be a fun ride I am sure!