I and PQT

I am an engineer. I am an engineer NOW. The latter will be more appropriate than the former. I am a computer engineer it seems. That’s what Anna University says in its course certificate. I finished (ufff...) my engineering course in crescent engineering college, a very well known college in Chennai.

We, the Anna university engineering students have 6 to 9 subjects for every semester and we have 8 semesters totally. Among the subjects we studied (lol); there are few subjects which passes fast like a cloud. Some subjects stick with us like clay. This is because, engineering students love few subjects and on the other hand, some sujects love engineering students. Cloud is the former and the latter is the clay.

Since the subject loves the student very much, it wont leave them at all and wants to stay with them through out their life (college life at least). PQT is one among them.
Probability and queuing theory (random process for some) is the paper which loved almost all the engineering students.

Every time when the exam time table comes, students get keen about the date for PQT. Pupil cancels all their dates and get ready for pqt date. Every time when we write the exam, it becomes like we are filing a case to divorce pqt from our life. But luckily PQT wins the case and stays with us for one more semester.

I had PQT in my 4th semester and I stayed till my end of the college life. I wrote it for 5 times and still it stayed with me since it had a crush on me. The last semester came and I was carrying PQT yet. We were put into high pressure and tension. We have to give out our best shot and hit it away. It was like a do or better die situation. I searched for some one who can help me in preparing the subject. No one was ready. I have got a very good friend of mine, called Naveed. He is a born genius I would say. Even he carried the paper and suggested me for a combined night study. I was very happy that Naveed was ready to help me out.

We stayed in one of our friend’s house. He was actually getting ready to prepare on that night. I suggested him for a nap. He had no other go and so accepted. We didn't have a nap but deep sleep. When we woke up it was 10.30 am the next day.

Our night study got screwed because of my suggestion. We were running back to our homes as we had pqt the next day. The question paper was completely confusing as usual. Since we had one more exam in the afternoon, we were not even able to celebrate our sadness that we didn't do well PQT.

All the exams got over and we were in our last vacation in our life. One fine Friday morning the result got released. I was not able to access net and so asked few of my friends to check my result. When I heard the word "result released", my mind instantly thought about "what would happen for PQT?" I dint think about any other subject’s results.

I had a deal with my friends that, if I had cleared all the papers, they can call me. Otherwise they should not. I will understand that I screwed my life. I was waiting for the results and I was able to feel that my body's temperature was rising. The phone rang, and it was my friend. I attended the call. He asked with a low voice, "Macha what is MA1252 da?" I understood. But to give answer to his million dollar question, I said, "PQT macha". "Macha you didn't clear PQT da", he replied.

THAT'S IT.

I felt as if I was thrown into hell fire. Not only me but most of my friends got arrear in PQT. PQT alone, in fact. I didn't do anything. Simply sitting for the whole day regretting for the mistakes which I have done from childhood.

I have applied for re-evaluation with no hope. When I went back to college, I felt as if I was entering nude. Some how I applied for re-val. Some people advised, I advised my juniors, some people gave hope. All these got over that day.

I came to my native for a business project. I started thinking about alternatives for bread and butter since I lost hope in BE. I cannot be a BE any more. This is what filled my mind. Luckily the business project gave me a shift to my mind and I slowly started forgetting PQT. One fine evening I got a sms that re-val results have come.
Again I asked same friends, same deal. One of my friends who applied for re-val checked his results and he didn't cleared. He studies better than me. I lost hope and was damn sure that I screwed my own a**. After a while, my mobile rang. My friend was on call and said, "Macha congrats, you are an engineer now. You have cleared PQT".

Sujatha...

Sujatha, for some this name refers to a singer, for some a (!) wife, for some, someone. For me, the word sujatha gives a sweet memory about two people. One is my favorite writer. Almost 80 percent of Tamil people know about this writer and there are better people to talk about him. He is no more in this world now and we miss him a lot every day.
This article is about the second sujatha of my life. She is actually the first sujatha who crossed in my life. She was a breeze in my life. Let me tell you our story, which has not been revealed ever at any place, any time.
It was a Friday, I still remember. We were getting ready for the week end holidays. I was in my class. Some red saree teacher was teaching some crap and was bugging us to take a note on it. I, as usual made a mistake and I was searching for an eraser, in my friend's bag. He, as usual didn't bring and so I checked my bag. I am no exception. My bag hasn’t carried an eraser in its life.
I was asking my class mates for eraser. No bugger helped me out. At that time, a helping hand came near me. It was sujatha. She gave me the eraser. I used it and said "thanks". She replied with a "no mention". I interpreted the "no mention" as "why thanks and all between hubby and honey?"
I felt thousand sparks deep inside my heart as she replied to me. We (I, actually) became friends after that 27 seconds relationship. The next two days went as if they were two centuries (theory of relativity). For the first time in my life, I was keenly waiting for the Monday to come. Till today that was the only Monday I have waited for it to come.
I have prepared to ask for many things like (can you give me your, this, that etc., heart at last) in the two days. The Monday came; I went so early to class expecting her to come early. I waited for the whole day, she didn't come. I waited for the next day too; the whole week in fact. She never came to class after that. I don't know what happened.
I was not able to meet her at all till this very second. I should have gone to her home the next day itself. I was not able to do because of two reasons. One is I don't know where her home is and the second reason is, no parent will allow their LKG kid to go out alone.

A life is a life is a life

Today, divorce has become “BINGO” word for many couples. The divorce rate keeps on increasing in every part of the world. The first and foremost reasons for divorce are “misunderstanding” and “ego”. No single couple in the world had a life without any misunderstanding. This suits for the first couple Adam and Eve to the couple who are going to come till the end of the world.

What makes some couple to lead a successful life even though they had misunderstanding and others to go for a divorce for silly chilly arguments?

The answer is very simple; it is understanding and adjustments. First of all, we have to believe in a very famous statement, “No one is perfect”. It is very true. No one in the world today is perfect. Everyone have their own merits and demerits. This suits for the couples too. Every bride and groom has some excellence of their own and some pit falls. If one doesn’t like some qualities in a person, let him or her forget the bad qualities and start loving him or her for the good qualities he or she definitely has.

Understand your life partner. If they have anything wrong with them, try to make them understand better about themselves; or if it is useless criticizing them, try to adjust with the good qualities one possesses.

If every couple starts adapting these two ways, then for sure, the divorce rate will decrease across the globe.

I have a friend of mine. He is in fact, one of my best friends; better than the best I would say. He is from Kashmir. He often says that his native is a lost paradise. He is a very energetic guy and one of the very few broad and awesome attitude guys I have ever seen in my quarter century life.

Whenever he talks about Kashmir, his face turns sad and he says only "sad, sadder and saddest" things about Kashmir. Life in Kashmir is miserable; this is what his ultimate statement about Kashmir.

Quite often we tease him like "kashmiri's are jobless; they either protest or go for a bomb blast etc., One day he asked a question to me.

-What will you do if you have a just born baby and the supply of baby food and medicines blocked for more than a month?
-What will you do if your basic needs get blocked?
-What will you do when some one fell sick and goes serious condition and you are not allowed to move out of your home?
-What will you do when everyone in your family is missing when you get up on a fine morning?
-What will you do when your only beloved sister gets gang raped and murdered?
-What will you do when your only child gets shot dead by some one for no reason?

There were many more questions. I was left without answers. The answers for above questions are a part of Kashmiri’s life.

I am answerless; In fact every one of us is. We are shameless too for our answerless state. As of now, to console him, I can only state a verse from Qur'aan, Allah says in the qur'aan like "oh! people, do you think that you can enter paradise so easily withou any tests from God?" I don't know the exact verse, I'll update you as soon as I get it.

Though it is lost, a paradise is always a paradise. Don’t worry Ilyas; at least our grandchildren "may" live in a peaceful Kashmir...

Watch the presentation about Kashmiri’s life... Join hands; raise your voice, let’s spread peace and humanity, at least to our neighbors...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLKiyvu1o3I

Love thy neighbor

In modern world, we don't have time to take care of our own family also. But it is a good culture to have good relationships with the neighbors. As we started missing our cultures and values, this statement may sound weird. The person who cannot able to get good name from his neighbor cannot get good will any where.

The person who gives peace and harmony to his or her neighbor will be among the best person’s crowd in the world. We should maintain relationships with our neighbors such that if some third person sees it, he or she should get a doubt like "Are you going to give a part of your wealth to him in your will?"

More than everything, we should take care and love our neighbors. After hearing this statement, I have tried implementing this. It gave me a good response. I am respected and valued by my neighbors.

Getting up early...

Getting up early is considered among many youngsters as one of the biggest sins in the world. Some youngsters are very proud that they get up late. People who get up early are called and mocked as "nerds".

Many people don't realize the benefits of getting up early. We can get extra time to do our work. In other words, if youths get up early, they can finish off their stupid bugging jobs soon and can flirt with their so called "close" friends for few more hours making their mobile balance to zero though they have put some additional offers for less cost for out going calls.

In today's polluted world, we can get pure air (45% pure) only during early mornings.
Once the vehicles start its works, air, noise and many more pollutions come into the show. Let us put a full stop to those late night chats and start getting up early and
bring in a new world. It is 1.14 mid night now, Good night.

Perversion...

All my friends call me in their flexible pet names. But most of them get united in a common word called "pervert". Since I think deeply and forced to have sense of humor by Almighty, I am nature to present everything comes out of my thoughts, words in a way that who ever listens to it will likes it. But the thing is they will not accept that they liked it. After I speak, they will say "you pervert bugger, you will never change” a loud laugh will be added with that phrases and still they will be waiting for my next set of conversations.

Let me give you a test to check who is a pervert.

"When I write some set of words like DEAR, FEAR, DEED, FEED, DUCK, people thinks that the next word will be a bad word. Now who is a pervert?"

BLOG...

Times were there people used to register their everyday programs like tensions, screws, happy, shouts, shits, Fs etc in a diary. Almost 80% of the crowd starts their efforts in some "aggression". But soon after 2 days, it will go down since their laziness override them. There are few holy humans in the world that has the hobby of looking at others diaries. So many people were literally scared about writing everything in their diaries. So eventually diary writing, one of the best hobbies in the world (and in the here after) came to a downfall. The time has changed now and the world is upgrading itself to "e". Like in the word "everywhere", the letter "e" replaced much prehistoric stuff in the world. Same way, diaries has become e-diaries, which are blogs now. Everyone who wants to shout or scream at the world that they are some one who are capable of blowing their trumpet, sax, flute or whistling at least can do it through blog. Thanks to the servers which holds terabytes of data which are updated and added everyday.

Some thing about ads

For such a long time, I have been wondering about one of the high impact field in the world, The Advertising industry. It’s not so easy to survive in it since it needs extremely talented creativity and innovativeness. Many a times, I froze after seeing some really awesome Ads. I don't know how they are able to narrate a story, popularize, market a product or service (no wonder, all because of extreme flow of $$$s). Some awesome Ads never let me sleep. Just in few set of frames or just in a single frame shot.

This is one part of it. On the other hand, there exists lot of Ads which exaggerate things. Most of the Tooth pastes, A body spray (yes, that one only) exaggerates to the core. Some of the Ads fool the people like anything.

Recently I saw an Ad. The celebrity who came in the Ad is a Pure Vegetarian. The funniest part was, the Ad was regarding a company which sells Chickens for Eating. I was stunned to see the Ad. Just imagine how much some of the Ad enterprises under estimated people.

I guess soon there will be some celebrity kid will advertise about some tablet which promises "long ***".
Who knows, the ad may go like this, the kid lying on the bed might say, "I use nayagra, complete feel, complete satisfaction and its longer, than our forefathers'... "

Better Living Thoughts...

One of my friend yasir, who is gonna be a future psychologist and philosopher sends me his thoughts quite often. It is a forward sms. But Worth. Here are some...

Sacrifice is often associated with profit. Giving up a beloved thing is always intended to bring back something bigger or better in return. pain is little for those who calculate more of what they gain than what they lose. Think sacrifice, think winning.

Frankness is not necessarily a virtue. the world would be terrible to live in if all were to share whatever they thought about people and things. what we feel others may not be in our control, but how we react to them is certainly in ours. Understand situations, express appropriately.

There is nothing that man doesn't deserve. Every feat, every triumph, every accomplishment was made by those who saw more than what the average could dream of. Unusual challenges were always won using unusual means. Break the defeatist attitude; get started towards the winning habit.


You become what your mind is occupied with most of the time. If problems, gossips, complaints and animosity dominate it, negative energy will encompass you. Marching on proactively towards our goals and learning to accept things on the way creates an impeccable aura of optimism. you cannot control the world but you certainly can what should engage your mind.