I decided to blog in the middle of the night (time check: 0130), because something is really bothering me and I couldn't sleep just like that. A Major called me to tell me that I'm now PES A and need to report to BMTC next week. He sounded serious but I suspected it to be a flop. I was thinking/analysing the possibilities of it being factual. I even called back home to ask if there's letter from Mindef sending to me. But when all facts sum up, it's still 50-50. Not that I like being a clerk and stay this way, but I'm sure I'm no PES A calibre. Simply because I can't complete 2.4 klick within 10 mins, best I got was 15mins 50sec. Then I was actually thinking of if I manage to pass out from the training, I might get a chance to fulfil my goal as an officer. But on the flip side of the token, things aren't that simple, calculating the facts again, it's most likely a flop than a fact. So I just hope 0800 comes, the Major calls up and tell me he got it wrong. So that, I can at least have a ease of mind regarding this matter. But when worst situation surfaces, I need to "da-bao" all my things and say "bye-bye" to OCS, and "hello" to Tekong.
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When the sight of me can be deceiving
That my words were not so believing
Hope ended so dream started leaving
Left without doing any form of paving
How much I'd wished I can live longer
So that I could get better and stronger
Facts and flops mixed into a thick blur
I cannot tell you dying is bad for sure
Pretend that my life is just as simple
Mix in the crowd of thousand people
At least you'll die after teaching pupil
Before I'd became immortal's sample
