Wednesday, April 30, 2008; 10:04 PM

amidst all those horrible things yesterday,
it was my blog's FIRST BIRTHDAY! ((:

in this 1 year, i posted 360 posts. which means, i blogged nearly once everyday. O.O don't ask me how i did it. i'm wondering too. it's amazing how i never get sick of blogging. lol.

anyway, today was a terrible day. my mom didn't want me to leave the house coz she wanted me to be at home if/when those people come. she'd prefer them NOT to break into the house. omg i can't describe how terrified i was the entire day. i didn't even study in my room coz i always listen to my ipod when i study. so i studied in the hall, just in case i miss the doorbell and people come breaking in. terrified when i went downstairs for a while to transfer money to somebody. terrified when i went to bathe. as of now, i am still terrified. this is horrible. ROAR.

thanks people for offering your houses and stuff.

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lijun` yes. exams are going to be OVER. hohoho.

van` yah. coz your story got emoticons!

amber` EH. same as me. HAHAHAHA. i always end up not listening to him sing de. =x

alice` i think it's written in thai bah. then translate to english?

dommi` yes we all are supposed to go together! eh yeah i think i did.

shu` we'll go soon! i hope. haha.

ace` soon! when my exams end! can record soon!

amber` okay ahma. if you suddenly hear your doorbell in the middle of the night, you know it's me okay.

van` yeah it's going to be okay. i hope.

amanda` eh yah. very sad. we hardly talk le. nevermind. after my exams and during your holidays unnie bring you out okay? we still haven't go and sing k-box yet. hahaha. thanks mehmeh. dead mehmeh!

wenting` yes unnie. i'm still umm studying (very hard?) amidst all these. though it's really difficult. roar. i don't want to stay at home but i have to! ughh.

jac` okay ahma! thank you ahma! ((:

alice` thank you!

ziping` thanks girlfriend! you're missed greatly! i will see you on friday! finally.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008; 9:19 PM

i am really not happy.

not anymore.

today is officially the worst day of my life.

LSM paper. doesn't make a difference if i studied or not. i read and did NOT understand the paper at all. throughout the whole 60 questions, i just shaded whatever i felt like shading. do you know how horrible that was? do you know how terrified i felt while doing the paper? i really wanted to break down and cry. wanted to leave halfway. because i felt that there is no difference if i do the paper or not. people don't believe when i say i honestly am going to fail. they think i'm just being me. fuck this please. do you honestly think i'm joking when i walk out of the damn MPSH looking like the whole world just came to an end? fine, don't believe me. whatever.

to make things worst...

whenn i opened the front door of my house, there was letter slid under the door. low and behold, it's another lawyer's letter! how exciting. 2nd letter of the week. but this time is no warning letter. the letter bluntly stated 'seizure of things from debtor's address', 'according to whatever fucking rule, they have the write to break entry into the address'. yes, anything and everything that is movable is indeed going to be seized by the creditors.

the thought of me studying one day and people suddenly barging to my house and taking every single thing away just scares me to death. i'm terrified. i don't want to be at home tomorrow or any day until this thing is solved. but can this ever be solved? my mom warned me that this was going to happen 1/2 months ago. and it hasn't been solved at all.

just thinking of it now scares me. even if i weren't at home when they take things away, the other thought of me coming back to a house where everything is seized is just terrifying.

nobody can help. nobody at all.

i want to run away. run away before all this happens.

well, if you don't see me online for a very long time, you know that they took my laptop away.

fuck this.

Sunday, April 27, 2008; 11:45 PM

baka just read a very STUPID story.

Jim went to the market to buy chicken but the market didn't have any more chicken! This is because the chicken in Malaysia are sick. So no one in Malaysia can send chicken over to Singapore to sell. Jim really wants to eat chicken! So on Monday morning, he goes to Malaysia with his parents. Over there, he eats chicken every day! Come Wednesday night, he returns to Singapore. But he feels sick!

WTF. baka said this was from a past year thai paper. O.O

EXAMS ARE COMING! whoo.

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amber` yeah. i will be careful de! haha.

alice` yes i am very happy!

eve` eh well, i died in j1. survived j2. HAHA.

van` yay! i'm excited. hahahah.

2nd uncle` okay uncle! it's now 8 DAYS TO FREEDOM for me! hahahaha. i know you have econs on the 7th. right?

shuting` OKAY. after exams, we make the rainbow. HAHA.

; 12:22 AM

I AM VERY HAPPY.

MEL IS VERY HAPPY.

hahahahahaha. omg. i seriously have never felt so happy in my entire life. i keep smiling to myself the entire day. =.=;;

anyway, i may be going hong kong this may! whoots~ my dad suggested it coz we haven't been on a trip together for AGES. yay. my mom has to go back and check her schedule first. OMG. HAPPINESS.

i can't study anymore. SO MANY DISTRACTIONS.

BAKA, IT'S 30% POSSIBILITY NOW! yay. ((:

okay, it's back to online shopping! people, go to http://i-glam.blogspot.com. i think the stuff there are pretty nice. i'm buying A LOT from that place. omg.

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xingyi` as you can see, I'M NOT DEPRESSED ANYMORE! hahahaha.

kurogane` okay. ALL!

van` i think we've all been slacking. O.O

2nd uncle` *patpat* stop stressing. omg. you are a serious case. STOP DREAMING OF SUCH WEIRD THINGS. omg. kelian de. it's going to be over soon! you can do this uncle!

van` I'M SURE YOU KILLED IT!

shuting` i use pink magic!

alice` EH. gackt ah. uhhh. OOPS?

ziping` yah. everyone's thinking of playing already. haha.

esther` EH. HIROKI DOESN'T LIKE YOU. BLEAGH.

Saturday, April 26, 2008; 1:22 AM

JANGJANGJANGJANGJANG!

MEL IS EXCITED!
D?


An Cafe?


Kagrra,?


Jinkaku Radio?


heidi.?


The GazettE?


better still, ALL? ((:

wahahahahaha.

Friday, April 25, 2008; 11:49 PM

ugh i give up trying to upload pictures. blogger is not cooperating. it hasn't been cooperating lately. roar. SUE BLOGGER! lol.

anyway, i have been staying at home the whole week. NO INTERACTION WITH MY BELOVED FRIENDS. omg. i honestly think i'm going into depression. i need people to distract me from thinking too much. HAHAHAHA.

i always wish for things that will NEVER come true. )):

roar. mich's exams start tomorrow! many lucks dajie!

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xingyi` OKAY! i will remember that. haha.

shuting` O.O conquer the world? when you're 1000 years old?! hahahaha. i think you'll be crawling. too old already.

van` i'm okay! I'M OKAY! hehehe.

ziping` eh coz i miss you! haha.

mich` yes you did! you did A LOT!

alice` you cannot go? )):

amber` OKAY. EXCITING.

esther` eh coz you weren't online. haha. go kope the pictures bah!

van` amber's students de concert.

Thursday, April 24, 2008; 12:27 AM

i honestly can't concentrate on studying. ROAR.

things happened. makes everything sucks to to core. i seriously don't need stuff like this to happen now. not when i'm having exams next week. what the hell. *&^%$#@!

anyway, thanks mich for accompanying me the entire day. ((:

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van` THE ENTIRE SONG IS LOVE. hahaha. i listen to it at least 20 times a day. omg.

alice` stare at my husbands! HAHAHA.

2nd uncle` trust me. you're not the only one. i hate studying to the core! how am i supposed to save you uncle? i can't even save myself. AND YOU HAVE BEEN MISSING. haha. come online and entertain me! ugh.

xingyi` wahahaha. ((:

amber` yes ahma. thank you ahma!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008; 2:25 AM

i took one hour to take screencaps of BIRTH last night. at around the same time as now. =.=;; haha. i couldn't help it. i was taking them as fast as hiroki's drumming was. baka claims that i have bionic fingers. i managed to take a few pictures of scenes that came out for only 0.01seconds. HAHA. anyway, i took 893 screencaps before cutting down to 88. HAHA.

so, those who want the screencaps, HERE THEY ARE! yes baka, go and kope them. haha. of course, i didn't post all 88 of them. i'd kill myself first. hahaha. i posted those that i think are pretty! ((: pictures are posted according to the sequence of the song.

okay, i shall stop talking. PICTURE TIME! enjoy people! ((:



































this was one of the 0.01second pictures. lol.













doesn't this make you want to watch the PV? ((:

and i couldn't help but post tons of pictures with hide-zou and ruiza leaning against each other. hehehe. those pictures are priceless. ((:

as you have noticed, there aren't many ruiza pictures. oops. that's coz the camera didn't show much of him. or rather, the camera just kept showing him FACING DOWN. i want to see ruiza's pretty face! booooo. oh wells.

okay, i honestly think it's time for me to sleep. lol.

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alice` i miss you loads too!

amber` yah lor. unnie siao already! hahaha. i'm good at analyzing PVs! i dont want to analyze my reports! hahaha. okay after exams show me!

ace` hiroki is mentally sick in the mind. LOL. asagi is really pretty here!

alice` YES MDM!

wenting` i agree with ahma! =x

2nd uncle` yes uncle. *nods a million times* you too! ((: