whirlwind, round and round, thrashed left and right, and i lost all stability. static hands, unchanging colours, everything holds no meaning now. blind, reckless actions, pure unfeeling happiness tucked safely in the comfort of ignorance. predicted, yet slightly apprehensive. is this right?

days spent on fulfilling my own desires, desires locked up for the past 2 years, unleashed passion and now everything's turning slightly sour. 18, and not yet 18. happy meals, job hunting, log cutting, chipmunk and chipettes, refreshing menus, zombie blasting, happy mansion-ing, beach strolling, wheels turning, dark cherry overload, unexpected caffeine surprise, chocolate chocolate chocolate, gorgeous eyes, yum yums, crazy morning breakfast, togi spammage, fourth kind, watching the sky light up with each shouts of BANG BANG BANG, 2010, and yet not 2010, life's all blur and undefined. the lack of sharpness and definition scares me, but it's so hard to let go.

너무 당황스럽다~

on the bright side, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE SLEEPOVER TOMORROW!!! tequila, gin&tonic, zombie blasting, and just bitchbitchbitching.. OMGGGG!! ^^*

okay, before i go to bed, i've decided to pen down a little confession here..

I HAVE A NEW FOUND ORGASM FOR 장우영~!! <333333

okay done, off to bed! XD

just spammed HSM 1 and 2 in a night on impulse simply because i watched 17again with cindy on saturday and suddenly i was craving for some zac effron. okay, before you roll your eyes at me, i do not think he is handsome and he is not up to my standard of 'cute' but i do think that he has a pair of amazing eyes~ like REALLY, they suck you in, or used to. i remember watching 17again and i was like, wow, he has powerful eyes. it was the same thing with HSM 1 BUT after HSM 2, he kind of looked like a crocodile to me. and then i thought he looked like jeremy sumpter. yeah, the peter pan guy. >.< maybe that's why people say too much of a good thing may not be, well, good. HAHAHAH. XD

it's 5.30 plus plus now and everyone's going to wake up soon in about half an hours' time because SCHOOL IS STARTING. oh wait, what's SCHOOL? :D

had an amazing week and weekend, happy 2010 to everyone, happy birthday to myself and the wise one, farewells and impending goodbyes. man, it's going to be a total rollercoaster ride.

먼전 저 한테는: 자기야 생일축해!!!!

솔직히 오늘 내 생일이였지만 난 행복했지않아.
오늘 촘 부담스럽다~
아무 스페셜 일이 도 안했다고 그냥 편법한 일이 는 했어.
오늘 도 그냥 메일메일생활을 같은데 내 생일날이 도 안같은뎅.
촘 실망했어?
사실은 그런 마음을 없고.
저 도 오늘 아무 스페셜 느낌 없음 땜에.
특별일이 안했어
케이크 도 안 먹었다고
선물 한번도 안 받았다고..

오늘 정말 내 생일이 맞이?

Life has been so busy and fulfilling that I haven't had time to update on my life. Life's been good, everything seems to revolve around computer, tv and just hanging out with friends and just having a wonderful time. This IS the life I've been dreamig about before I wet into hiatus mode three months ago. Wonderful wonderful life~

last week I was a busy woman and 메일메일 도 바빠용~! Spent a day at orchard with Julien and joyin, explored the entire 313 and ion. We wet nuts, and I bought several Christmas gifts for my family. Ion and 313 was fun and I ended up suffering from over-exhausted legs. Haven't been using my legs for a while, you see. Hahahaha.

Julien's leaving on the 10th of Jan. It's coming way too soon! I haven't even spent enough crazy times with her yet!

Hanging out with yingloo was equally awesome as well. Yingloo and I are like, the craziest combination ever! We tend to do crazy stuff everytime we are together, which is definitely not a bad thing. I loved being crazy and just bursting out of the regulated and proper lifestyle I had to endure for the past 2 years. We went to bugis (I haven't been there in like, forever) bought a nice skirt and some other nice presents, and then we spent an entire day at the beach, which was very impromptu. XD it all started with yingloo wanting to cycle and then bam, the next time we know, we gt home only at 9. Wasted our life away at the beach but it was enjoyable though. I always love spending time with yingloo becase we always we always have those talks which allows us to understand each other better which straining our relationship. Even though our opinions might differ from time to time, things never ended in an awkward manner. Really appreciate yingloo for always being there! ^0^

oh, went with yingloo to her interview and the salary was like 9bucks per hour? That is like dreams comig true yo. Hahaha. Anyways, the greatest 收获 on that day was that we met vicky ong!!! I was soooo shocked when I sAw her!! It was like, I was reading my fic, listening to my iPod while waiting for yingloo to come back (she took more than 1 hour *faints*) and then all of a sudden my iPod batt went flat which mans no fic and music and I looked up for the first time wondering what I could do with my life now and then suddenly a woman came out at that exact timing and I thought she looked kind of familar and I just kept staring. That woman glanced at me for a while before moving on and I thought my eyes must be playing tricks on me but then suddenly, vicky's head just popped in around the corner and I was so stunned!! What are the chances that I could meet her, someone I haven't seen in two years, at the place where yingloo is interviewing??? Like really. Anyways, went to talk with her for a while before meeting yingloo shortly after and we had a mini reunion. Hahaha. Sometimes, life is jut so unexpected. :D

at home, it's just been mahjong and macs breakfast and tv and mahjong again. Now, this is THE life~! Kekes. I've always watched all of mucore's performance and some of 2pm's stuff. Need to clear thing soon because both my harddisk and laptop is running out of space!!!! Gahhhhh!!!!

Had an awesome christmas party and mummy gave me this ultra nice pencil case with my name embroidered on it, and this ice maker which makes ice in the shape of guitar and musical notes. Awesome right? Hees. Oh!! and my contacts are here already!!!! Wheee~~

Oh, mummy say she's willing to buy a Burberry wallet for me!! Can't wait to get it, wheee!!

다 괜찮을 것 같아. 난 지금 도 믿어요. 오빠들이 파이팅!! 포기 하지마용~!

i am officially behind time for my chionging of forums. spent the whole evening watching GDA and that was what made me abandon my original forum chionging timetable today. not regretting it though, 2pm was awesome and i can very say this very proudly: they definitely brought on the best stage tonight.

i don't whether to be happy or sad, but my player lagged for the entire performance of soshi BUT yuri's solo part in GEE. LOLLLS. i guess i should be happy, right. kekes.

2pm was damn jjang. really. watch their stage and you'll know. surprises and passion overtook the stage as they ruled the entire ceremony. i just know he's watching somewhere in seattle. still waiting for your return~~

just realised that at exactly one month ago, i was merely 4 hours away from my second paper. omg, time really fries yo. sometimes, i'm so scared of time passing so quickly i'd have to face my judgement day sooner or later, which i really dread. life is bad...

mummy told me she would let me go to korea for an ENTIRE month with her colleague if her colleague succeeded in claiming the position. OMG.

sometimes, it's really hard for two biased people to communicate. mature as you may be, sometimes it's just not enough.

i NEED to get back on track with my forum chionging SOON.

yeah, i know i know, i'm being TOO active on my blog recently. it's not that i don't have other things to do, i DO, and you can verify with anyone out who has been in touch with me, but that just recently i feel like i could use this place for a meaningful purpose instead of letting it rot, and the fact that my this place has become sooo pretty (to me) just fuels my desire even more.

forum-ing hasn't been a pretty experience. what with all the depressing possibilities, bashings and lack of understanding, the conflicts are taking a toil on me and i find it really hard to leave with a happy mind. but i'll continue anyways because i know and believe that things are going to get better. whatever it is, i choose to BELIEVE. wherever they are, whatever they are, they are still the same people i fell in love with before all these mess started.

okay, now to move on from the depressing thoughts, update on my life after the horrible As:

prom was on monday, but i ponned it with joyin simply because we weren't very excited and interested in it. joyin ponned it because she experienced one during her secondary school days and didnt think it was worthed it. me? i just felt like spending 70 (or was it 90?) merely for the admission fee, then spending A LOT more on the accessories and dress and shoes and make ups and hairdo and all that is just plain off-putting. i just knew i'd be binging during the As because that is what i do and put on a lot of weight. if i were to attend a prom wearing purty expensive dresses looking all beautiful and glamourous, i don't know how i'm going to manage that merely 4 days after As, hence, my decision to skip it altogether. Saw pictures and i am really glad we chose to skip it. decided to leave the rest unsaid.

joyin and i decided to spend a day at starbucks behaving like 'happy people' in the end~ we went for really nice steamboat at parkway parade and boy, was it gooooooddd~ we ate for 2 hours, maybe? but anyways, we crapped a lot and felt really blissful being, quoting joyin, "part of the happy crowd". the last time we went there was what, june? joyin says she remember reading econs after the meal and i remember wearing school uniforms. ahhhh.. the days before happy crowding. those days~~~~ really want to go back to eat it again soon~!!

went to starbucks straight after that to live life the way it should have been led: sipping high class coffee, using laptop. HAHAHA. that is OUR definition of living. we stayed there for quite a while, from 2.30 to 9 plus? long, right? hahahaha. we really just sat there and surfed the day away. i tried clearing my harddisk but, omg, it was such a chore. i'm very sure despite spending 7 hours on it, i'm not even 10% done with the clearing. >.< nvm, will deal with that when the time comes. hahaha.

laptop's constantly screwing up on me, a sure sign that it is time to change it. and i just noticed a bruise on my hand? o.O hmm..

after starbucks we decided to go snack at mos burger. HAHAHA. i know, that was THE LIFE, right? crapped and chatted till about 10 plus before laughing maniacally on the bus due to joyin's laptop. yuri is much love. :D

went out with julien on tuesday~!!! yes, i know my schedule is being a little too packed for someone who wanted to become a 宅女 after As. XD went out for movies with julien!!

wanted to catch 2 movies on that day, actually, gokusen and new moon. however, gokusen has only screentimes in the morning (11am) across the nation and so, being the ambitious people we are, we decided to meet in the morning to catch gokusen at marina square at 11.15 before heading for the lunch, THEN to cathay cineleisure for new moon. we're very free, right? LOLL.

i was really guai and REALLY woke up in time. BUT, i received one msg from julien just after i left the house. she said she just woke up and whether we want to meet later. LOLL. yeah, bottom line is, she was too late (about 40 mins late) for the gokusen movie and we just decided to go for lunch since we were both starving. dined at suki-ya and it was rreeaalllyy niceee!! it's like, suki-yaki buffet and we really devoured all the meat. it was really good~~!! have to bring mummy there sometime. ^0^

what else can we do but crap there, right? after chatting and eating and chatting again, we went off for our new moon!

new moon was.. well.. hmm...... at least they bothered powdering the necks of the actors this time. yes, i'm going to stop here. ^^*

julien was looking for shoes and so we walked around orchard the whole day trying to find nice shoes. went to peninsular centre AND plaze because julien couldnt remember which mall was it and found no nice shoes. then julien, enticed me with yogurt and we decided to drop by tangs for yogurt after the movie and then proceeded to far east because i felt like i was going to take a long time with my yogurt anyways. bad choice, because then i spied a FOOD FAIR at far eat and being the gourmet that i am, i felt like i had to walk through it at least once and julien accompanied me! hahaha.

walked around for shoes with julien and then dropped by the food fair. it was okay, nothing special, but julien and i shared a curry fishball thingie. apparently, it's some snack popular in hongkong and being the frog that i am, i had no idea what it was. julien suggested to try it and so we shared. it was pretty nice, actually. wonder how the real one in hongkong tastes like.

went home all exhausted because, omg, i haven had merely 4 hours of sleep since the last day of school. still hanged on till about 5 in the morning though, simply because i didnt want to sleep early. HAHA.

stayed home all day today (wednesday) and chionged forums. i am progressing nicely, and am looking forward to job hunting next week. :D

oh yeah, zombieland's poster reminds me of L4D a bit too much. looks awesome, though. might catch it with julien. any other takers? ^0^

whirlwind, round and round, thrashed left and right, and i lost all stability. static hands, unchanging colours, everything holds no meaning now. blind, reckless actions, pure unfeeling happiness tucked safely in the comfort of ignorance. predicted, yet slightly apprehensive. is this right?

days spent on fulfilling my own desires, desires locked up for the past 2 years, unleashed passion and now everything's turning slightly sour. 18, and not yet 18. happy meals, job hunting, log cutting, chipmunk and chipettes, refreshing menus, zombie blasting, happy mansion-ing, beach strolling, wheels turning, dark cherry overload, unexpected caffeine surprise, chocolate chocolate chocolate, gorgeous eyes, yum yums, crazy morning breakfast, togi spammage, fourth kind, watching the sky light up with each shouts of BANG BANG BANG, 2010, and yet not 2010, life's all blur and undefined. the lack of sharpness and definition scares me, but it's so hard to let go.

너무 당황스럽다~

on the bright side, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE SLEEPOVER TOMORROW!!! tequila, gin&tonic, zombie blasting, and just bitchbitchbitching.. OMGGGG!! ^^*

okay, before i go to bed, i've decided to pen down a little confession here..

I HAVE A NEW FOUND ORGASM FOR 장우영~!! <333333

okay done, off to bed! XD

just spammed HSM 1 and 2 in a night on impulse simply because i watched 17again with cindy on saturday and suddenly i was craving for some zac effron. okay, before you roll your eyes at me, i do not think he is handsome and he is not up to my standard of 'cute' but i do think that he has a pair of amazing eyes~ like REALLY, they suck you in, or used to. i remember watching 17again and i was like, wow, he has powerful eyes. it was the same thing with HSM 1 BUT after HSM 2, he kind of looked like a crocodile to me. and then i thought he looked like jeremy sumpter. yeah, the peter pan guy. >.< maybe that's why people say too much of a good thing may not be, well, good. HAHAHAH. XD

it's 5.30 plus plus now and everyone's going to wake up soon in about half an hours' time because SCHOOL IS STARTING. oh wait, what's SCHOOL? :D

had an amazing week and weekend, happy 2010 to everyone, happy birthday to myself and the wise one, farewells and impending goodbyes. man, it's going to be a total rollercoaster ride.

먼전 저 한테는: 자기야 생일축해!!!!

솔직히 오늘 내 생일이였지만 난 행복했지않아.
오늘 촘 부담스럽다~
아무 스페셜 일이 도 안했다고 그냥 편법한 일이 는 했어.
오늘 도 그냥 메일메일생활을 같은데 내 생일날이 도 안같은뎅.
촘 실망했어?
사실은 그런 마음을 없고.
저 도 오늘 아무 스페셜 느낌 없음 땜에.
특별일이 안했어
케이크 도 안 먹었다고
선물 한번도 안 받았다고..

오늘 정말 내 생일이 맞이?

Life has been so busy and fulfilling that I haven't had time to update on my life. Life's been good, everything seems to revolve around computer, tv and just hanging out with friends and just having a wonderful time. This IS the life I've been dreamig about before I wet into hiatus mode three months ago. Wonderful wonderful life~

last week I was a busy woman and 메일메일 도 바빠용~! Spent a day at orchard with Julien and joyin, explored the entire 313 and ion. We wet nuts, and I bought several Christmas gifts for my family. Ion and 313 was fun and I ended up suffering from over-exhausted legs. Haven't been using my legs for a while, you see. Hahahaha.

Julien's leaving on the 10th of Jan. It's coming way too soon! I haven't even spent enough crazy times with her yet!

Hanging out with yingloo was equally awesome as well. Yingloo and I are like, the craziest combination ever! We tend to do crazy stuff everytime we are together, which is definitely not a bad thing. I loved being crazy and just bursting out of the regulated and proper lifestyle I had to endure for the past 2 years. We went to bugis (I haven't been there in like, forever) bought a nice skirt and some other nice presents, and then we spent an entire day at the beach, which was very impromptu. XD it all started with yingloo wanting to cycle and then bam, the next time we know, we gt home only at 9. Wasted our life away at the beach but it was enjoyable though. I always love spending time with yingloo becase we always we always have those talks which allows us to understand each other better which straining our relationship. Even though our opinions might differ from time to time, things never ended in an awkward manner. Really appreciate yingloo for always being there! ^0^

oh, went with yingloo to her interview and the salary was like 9bucks per hour? That is like dreams comig true yo. Hahaha. Anyways, the greatest 收获 on that day was that we met vicky ong!!! I was soooo shocked when I sAw her!! It was like, I was reading my fic, listening to my iPod while waiting for yingloo to come back (she took more than 1 hour *faints*) and then all of a sudden my iPod batt went flat which mans no fic and music and I looked up for the first time wondering what I could do with my life now and then suddenly a woman came out at that exact timing and I thought she looked kind of familar and I just kept staring. That woman glanced at me for a while before moving on and I thought my eyes must be playing tricks on me but then suddenly, vicky's head just popped in around the corner and I was so stunned!! What are the chances that I could meet her, someone I haven't seen in two years, at the place where yingloo is interviewing??? Like really. Anyways, went to talk with her for a while before meeting yingloo shortly after and we had a mini reunion. Hahaha. Sometimes, life is jut so unexpected. :D

at home, it's just been mahjong and macs breakfast and tv and mahjong again. Now, this is THE life~! Kekes. I've always watched all of mucore's performance and some of 2pm's stuff. Need to clear thing soon because both my harddisk and laptop is running out of space!!!! Gahhhhh!!!!

Had an awesome christmas party and mummy gave me this ultra nice pencil case with my name embroidered on it, and this ice maker which makes ice in the shape of guitar and musical notes. Awesome right? Hees. Oh!! and my contacts are here already!!!! Wheee~~

Oh, mummy say she's willing to buy a Burberry wallet for me!! Can't wait to get it, wheee!!

다 괜찮을 것 같아. 난 지금 도 믿어요. 오빠들이 파이팅!! 포기 하지마용~!

i am officially behind time for my chionging of forums. spent the whole evening watching GDA and that was what made me abandon my original forum chionging timetable today. not regretting it though, 2pm was awesome and i can very say this very proudly: they definitely brought on the best stage tonight.

i don't whether to be happy or sad, but my player lagged for the entire performance of soshi BUT yuri's solo part in GEE. LOLLLS. i guess i should be happy, right. kekes.

2pm was damn jjang. really. watch their stage and you'll know. surprises and passion overtook the stage as they ruled the entire ceremony. i just know he's watching somewhere in seattle. still waiting for your return~~

just realised that at exactly one month ago, i was merely 4 hours away from my second paper. omg, time really fries yo. sometimes, i'm so scared of time passing so quickly i'd have to face my judgement day sooner or later, which i really dread. life is bad...

mummy told me she would let me go to korea for an ENTIRE month with her colleague if her colleague succeeded in claiming the position. OMG.

sometimes, it's really hard for two biased people to communicate. mature as you may be, sometimes it's just not enough.

i NEED to get back on track with my forum chionging SOON.

yeah, i know i know, i'm being TOO active on my blog recently. it's not that i don't have other things to do, i DO, and you can verify with anyone out who has been in touch with me, but that just recently i feel like i could use this place for a meaningful purpose instead of letting it rot, and the fact that my this place has become sooo pretty (to me) just fuels my desire even more.

forum-ing hasn't been a pretty experience. what with all the depressing possibilities, bashings and lack of understanding, the conflicts are taking a toil on me and i find it really hard to leave with a happy mind. but i'll continue anyways because i know and believe that things are going to get better. whatever it is, i choose to BELIEVE. wherever they are, whatever they are, they are still the same people i fell in love with before all these mess started.

okay, now to move on from the depressing thoughts, update on my life after the horrible As:

prom was on monday, but i ponned it with joyin simply because we weren't very excited and interested in it. joyin ponned it because she experienced one during her secondary school days and didnt think it was worthed it. me? i just felt like spending 70 (or was it 90?) merely for the admission fee, then spending A LOT more on the accessories and dress and shoes and make ups and hairdo and all that is just plain off-putting. i just knew i'd be binging during the As because that is what i do and put on a lot of weight. if i were to attend a prom wearing purty expensive dresses looking all beautiful and glamourous, i don't know how i'm going to manage that merely 4 days after As, hence, my decision to skip it altogether. Saw pictures and i am really glad we chose to skip it. decided to leave the rest unsaid.

joyin and i decided to spend a day at starbucks behaving like 'happy people' in the end~ we went for really nice steamboat at parkway parade and boy, was it gooooooddd~ we ate for 2 hours, maybe? but anyways, we crapped a lot and felt really blissful being, quoting joyin, "part of the happy crowd". the last time we went there was what, june? joyin says she remember reading econs after the meal and i remember wearing school uniforms. ahhhh.. the days before happy crowding. those days~~~~ really want to go back to eat it again soon~!!

went to starbucks straight after that to live life the way it should have been led: sipping high class coffee, using laptop. HAHAHA. that is OUR definition of living. we stayed there for quite a while, from 2.30 to 9 plus? long, right? hahahaha. we really just sat there and surfed the day away. i tried clearing my harddisk but, omg, it was such a chore. i'm very sure despite spending 7 hours on it, i'm not even 10% done with the clearing. >.< nvm, will deal with that when the time comes. hahaha.

laptop's constantly screwing up on me, a sure sign that it is time to change it. and i just noticed a bruise on my hand? o.O hmm..

after starbucks we decided to go snack at mos burger. HAHAHA. i know, that was THE LIFE, right? crapped and chatted till about 10 plus before laughing maniacally on the bus due to joyin's laptop. yuri is much love. :D

went out with julien on tuesday~!!! yes, i know my schedule is being a little too packed for someone who wanted to become a 宅女 after As. XD went out for movies with julien!!

wanted to catch 2 movies on that day, actually, gokusen and new moon. however, gokusen has only screentimes in the morning (11am) across the nation and so, being the ambitious people we are, we decided to meet in the morning to catch gokusen at marina square at 11.15 before heading for the lunch, THEN to cathay cineleisure for new moon. we're very free, right? LOLL.

i was really guai and REALLY woke up in time. BUT, i received one msg from julien just after i left the house. she said she just woke up and whether we want to meet later. LOLL. yeah, bottom line is, she was too late (about 40 mins late) for the gokusen movie and we just decided to go for lunch since we were both starving. dined at suki-ya and it was rreeaalllyy niceee!! it's like, suki-yaki buffet and we really devoured all the meat. it was really good~~!! have to bring mummy there sometime. ^0^

what else can we do but crap there, right? after chatting and eating and chatting again, we went off for our new moon!

new moon was.. well.. hmm...... at least they bothered powdering the necks of the actors this time. yes, i'm going to stop here. ^^*

julien was looking for shoes and so we walked around orchard the whole day trying to find nice shoes. went to peninsular centre AND plaze because julien couldnt remember which mall was it and found no nice shoes. then julien, enticed me with yogurt and we decided to drop by tangs for yogurt after the movie and then proceeded to far east because i felt like i was going to take a long time with my yogurt anyways. bad choice, because then i spied a FOOD FAIR at far eat and being the gourmet that i am, i felt like i had to walk through it at least once and julien accompanied me! hahaha.

walked around for shoes with julien and then dropped by the food fair. it was okay, nothing special, but julien and i shared a curry fishball thingie. apparently, it's some snack popular in hongkong and being the frog that i am, i had no idea what it was. julien suggested to try it and so we shared. it was pretty nice, actually. wonder how the real one in hongkong tastes like.

went home all exhausted because, omg, i haven had merely 4 hours of sleep since the last day of school. still hanged on till about 5 in the morning though, simply because i didnt want to sleep early. HAHA.

stayed home all day today (wednesday) and chionged forums. i am progressing nicely, and am looking forward to job hunting next week. :D

oh yeah, zombieland's poster reminds me of L4D a bit too much. looks awesome, though. might catch it with julien. any other takers? ^0^