Happy Independent day + Raya

Today accompany my bro go to Penang have a walk with his friends.

We went to Hard Rock Hotel and I really felt so comfortable and relax when i look at the sea

i felt so calm when i listen to the sea.

I'm having holiday now

I'm felt so boring meaningless without you

without money 

my life will much more boring 

without friends my life meaningless

without family i will die

=..(

I don't know what to do now.

I try so hard to control my emotion

I try so hard not to think

I try so hard not to cry

=..(

Can I make a wish on Independent day?

I wish my dream come true

god bless

XOXO

almost end of the year

how fast the time past 

going to reach end of the year

I also past my probation 

I was thought everything will be stable after that 

but it's not.

i having Raya holiday now

I had 9 days holidays 

do nothing 

and it had some changed on my plan 

so i will going back to my warmest nest tomorrow.

thanks all my friends who accompany me this few days.

thank you so much

if not i really don't know how am going to past the time right now

i still can't let go 

i still suffering 

i still miss-ing

I still crying

my dad never called me more than 5 times in a days

I never see my dad so worried about me 

I never let him know what is going here.

I know dad want me to come back to him

even he said to me " if nothing then no need to come back Tpg la"

he keep saying the same words to me today for more than 4 times.

I really won't let them worried about me.

I will never and won't do that.

I <3 you dad

thanks for everything that u gave me until now

 thank you

drunken to love you

am watching this drama lately.

this stories made me cried most all the times.

I can feel how main actress felt
my tears will shed automatically when I watching this drama

i love the guy in epi 2 said " this is because in her eye only see the shit(suck) guy from last time that why she can't realise someone who so nice and kind was around her. "

love is ridiculous
falling in love with this kind of person and cant let go are much more absurd.

sometimes the people can dramatically change to a totally different person in a next second
how scary a person are.

different person really will have different kind of life different kind of behavior and heart

perhaps i still young and think irrationally on this part

I'm just too stupid to live on that way

take it for granted 

and it is a very big lesson that i ever attend

sometimes how much u sacrifice and paid it won't be turn out a good thing to you

when u feel can let it go means can let it go 

the times will come to me

sometimes what you wish and want it wont give to you easily

guys are always like that

once they know you wont leave him no matter how

they will do something over the bottom limit to hurt his so called love one

yea~this is life

everyone also got their part of stories

JAM

Every jam jam jam 

go to work 

back from office

sigh!

frustrated with the traffic over here

today's traffic drive me crazy

now only I know how tired to drive on the road for whole day 

today I went to Jln Ipoh 老妈子 having lunch with boss and agents

I have to paid for the RM 170++ / 5 person on lunch today 

but it can claim from company for entertainment afterward

This month am totally broke 

my pocket got a very big hole on this month

petrol already cost me few hundred

argh~

Today's my boss and big boss (guys) topic is all about pretty Chicks from China , Thailand, Vietnam and Indonesia.

-.-!

I only sit there and listen to them with my smile face on for almost 1 hours over there.

my face almost cramp cause I smile too long

oh my god!

all the topic is talk about the rich guys how to play the chicks with money around.

today just made me think of those guys are so bad and naughty

they are extremely rich and they are married and own children but the guys still go out and play around with those China Thailand Vietnam chicks.

they will compare Malaysian girls with China,Thailand Vietnam and Indonesia girls

they will said Malaysian seldom will see a very pretty and beautiful girls around 

but those countries can simply saw one in everywhere.

-.-!

Source: google images

pretty and big boobs so hot and high demand on the market nowadays for those young, old man?

they willing to pay for the value of those chicks

hmmm~

speechless

one of the agent said guys are naughty but girls are much more naughty than guys.

the above statement is that true?

speechless~

sigh~

my view on this world will become even more gray and more onto darkness and soon o later i will totally lost my faith and trust on GUYS

will I?

sigh~

happy mood

It was so fast~~

it going to reach end of the year already~

wuahahaha xD

coming SOON

Now my job was sooooooo free

do nothing 

everyday drive here and there 

and "chui sui" (chit chatting) with people only.

argh~~ Raya holiday is around the corner

planning planning ~~~

sigh~

9 days holiday 

where should I go?travel?

Bangkok?

Hong kong?

Taiwan?

Vietnam?

Cambodia?

Cameron?

Penang?

Traffic Jam Jam and Jam

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Taiping^^

yeah~

of cause I will go back to my sweeeet home FOR SURE

hmm~

I should get back my healthy life back

Jogging 

swimming

yoga-ing

hiking

cycling

badminton

and so son

I need 

It's a MUST!

Argh!!!

I checked back my 2009 's picture and 2011's picture

 2009

43KG

 

2011

48KG

gosh!!!!

I was FAT like a big fat pig!

oh my gooooooshhhh~~~

my weight can't reach 50 KG

argh~~

driving tanning sick-ing

This is my first day to be an external marketing.

It 's not easy that I think before.

First thing first 

for sure my skin will turn into extremely tan after work for few months.

second, I will continue with me hectic life on the road with all those traffic jam everyday

Third, I put my risk on the road everyday.

this is the most scary part I suffering now.

Everyday I back to office I must feel dizzying after i suffering hot and cold , in the building and out of the building condition.

I'm so sick of it.

hmmm~

what to do, I have to get use to it and be part of my life now.

sometimes I was thinking...

what for is about all this thing.

money?

life?

commitment?

part of our life?

sigh~

no direction

no point

no meaning

no life

no happy

no up 

no down 

no left 

no right

-.-!

married to rich guy is the most easier and no need to worry about money issues.

no wonder everyone was so desperate to married a rich guy and to become more reality in the world.

I'm starting to sick of my life.

Bored 

meaningless

routine

nothing excited 

what and how am suppose to do?

to make my life be more interesting  and excited

 I want the life like this

when only I can travel again?

$$$???

no $$$

sigh~