imba

recently the bitchy boss drive me crazy!!!
 she able to influence and convince a person to listen to her
she able to make people feel so imbalances with their emotional !!!
geng!!

the most crazier part is .....
you better don't mess with her , she will make sure you working life terrible ~ how lunatic she is
ARGH!!!! just forget about the BITCH!

After one month I no need to see her and listen her the most annoyed voice come out from her bitchy mouth!
=) relieve ... fiu!

Air Asia having promotion again~
everyone is booking the air ticket to travel for next year ^^
and...they ask me where I book
i just answer hmmm~~~ nope, so far I still got extra money for travel with my high commitment life now!
I hate it!!!

this is the thing that trouble me all this time~ I don't like commitment that I committing right now but...
what to do? this is so call LIFE

so struggling

ok~~ I should be happy ^^ yeay!!!! gonna end of this month !!! yeay!!! June is coming soon! yeay!!!! 2013 is coming soon =P

hehe~~~ everyone said am look older that my actual age...
what the....
sob sob saddest thing ever =(
thought am petite will be look more younger than my actual age but it's not!

shit I need to take care of my skin and my eye the most important
siuh~~ wrinkle eye bag dark circle just stay away from me!!
=P

good night ~ am hungry now~ oh shit!!! I better go sleep now~
XOXO =* IMYSM

time been freezing

everyone must be have someone deserve for you to put your life on hold for someone that you love =..)

Falling in love with someone that you love so much is the greatest part in your life caused at least you have love before as in you feel it and experience it through your life ~

I feel so pathetic for those who don't falling in love with someone in their whole life...
does it make sense if there is someone who don't falling in love?
It's fate. Sometimes I just felt that the feeling is not under your control.

And~ define fall in love??

I wish I will stop putting my life on hold for someone who don't deserve at all~
=../
It's just like emotionally frozen in my heart.
I can't freeze the time
I can't freeze in the past

hold on to hope and love
so hold on stronger to me and you
someday soon, I'll find you and I'll know you

Life is precious and I don't want to waste it even a minute.

Friday again ~
suddenly few company called me to interview

They check out my resume from Jobstreet and I was surprise on that...
when they will be so urge to recruit employees with this way =.=!

My dear Arashi ask me ~
Everyday after work is it I always stay room alone...
I said yes~

She ask me will I feel emo when home alone?
I said of cause ~

then suddenly she said girls always need to talk one hor~
if no one to talk for one whole day then they will not feel better and will depress whole day and think a lot of unnecessary stuffs ~ ^.^
then I was like ~
yea huh ~~ she was so right~
hahahaha =D

moody

no idea why today am kinda moody and not happy =/
maybe I was too happy to spend the amazing moments with my family for 4 days so now a little not use to it

I just keep wondering and wondering...
why others can let go so easily and I can not?

I hate myself so much
I hate myself why I'm so weak
I hate myself why I just can't let go of it
I hate myself why I always think too much
I hate myself why I'm still waiting even though I'm hate feeling of waiting for something hopeless
I hate to put myself with a hope
=...(

Why I'm so struggling about my currents job now?
should I satisfy with my current job now?
Will I think too much  and create some unnecessary issues for myself?

I just hate myself with that kind of thinking likes narrow minded and pessimistic minded
I should be more cheerful and happy with my current life but...
Why people always not gonna satisfy with what they have?

how to cheer myself up?
what to make myself be more optimistic?
when only it will be end?
where it gonna be?
What wrong with me?
who will be the one who cheer my life up? family? friends?

I hate to post those sad and emo stuff in my blog
Last time, I'm not like that when I'm start to blog @ Multiply blog
I read back what I post last time compare to present
I hate my current journals now!

I wish something will change to better and great!
I wish myself don't be so idiot to continue live in that way

finger cross
good luck to me and I wish faster reach 2013 Chinese New Year~
that will be my new cheerful year for me!!!!
I hope so

XOXO night

I wish to have some relax moment with gang of friends or love one some where near
such as???
 Serendah Glass house @ rawang?

yea~ I heard about this Sekeping Serendah resort the middle of jungle which is located in Rawang long time ago but there is no chance for me to visit.

How nice if I able to take a break with my lovely family, friends or with the love one ^.^


Drenched By Wanting

<3 <3 <3 in love with the song come with the awesome lyrics deeply !!! <3 <3 <3

Her voice such a beautiful same as the person

 When minutes become hours
When days become years
And I don't know where you are
Color seems so dull without you

Have we lost our minds?
What have we done?
But it all doesn't seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street, I kissed you back
You held me in your arms, I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes
I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
I'm drenched in your love
I'm no longer able to hold it back

Is it too late to ask for love?
Is it wrong to feel right?
When the world is winding down
Thoughts of you linger around

Have we lost our minds?
What have we done?
But it all doesn't seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street, I kissed you back
You held me in your arms, I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes
I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
I'm drenched in your love
I'm no longer able to hold it back

I still miss you like the old time =...)

4282012

Today is a memorable day for Malaysian 428....
BERSIH

hmm~~ Now only I know there is so powerful when people come together.
How amazing and glorious the event happen today =)

this is the video that shoot by the public in SOGO @ KL

Can you see what is happening there?
omg!Gold bless them the right people.

words cut more than swords

Yesterday after I had accident my mood just SUCK!

depress to the MAX!

 

This morning my moron boss and stupid agent make me even felt deeply awful and affected my mood for the whole day!!!

That was a cut at me!!! argh~~~

stupid BOSS I ever had!!! 

fml!

   this morning when I'm photocopy some documents and I cut my finger with the A4 paper=..(

Augh!!!!it's pain and bleeding!

Now I have to complete my review report tonight without Microsoft word and Excel on my laptop!!! 

so how???

How am suppose to complete my job without Microsoft  words and Excel?

damn it!!! argh!!~~~ 

argh!!~~~~

stupid !!!!!!

I had an extremely unpleasant things has happened for these few days  

 argh!!!!!!!

I come back to KL from Klang after my works today and it's heavy raining until I can't see anything on the road.

There was a loud crash of thunder and large drops of rain start falling. 

I was freak out and scare with the sudden lightning when I'm drive alone in the highway.=..(

sob sob

I need someone to cheer me up =.../

I need him to comfort me =..(

I need someone to hug me now =...(

I miss you

I love the sky and air after raining 

here it is~

 

After raining the view from top is clearer and beautiful.

^.^

If lucky you may see a beautiful rainbow across the sky.

somebody

somebody that I used to know 

is not the one I know from the past
=...)

[Gotye:]

Now and then I think of when we were together

Like when you said you felt so happy you could die

Told myself that you were right for me

But felt so lonely in your company

But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness

Like resignation to the end, always the end

So when we found that we could not make sense

Well you said that we would still be friends

But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off

Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing

And I don't even need your love

But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough

No you didn't have to stoop so low

Have your friends collect your records and then change your number

I guess that I don't need that though

Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over

Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done

But I don't wanna live that way

Reading into every word you say

You said that you could let it go

And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

=.../

what everyone wants

做我的男朋友，辛苦吗？[B]

做我男朋友不需要很有钱,够用就好了;
出手用不着很大方,肯为我花钱就好了;

不需要你多会说甜言蜜语,在我最无助的时候,可以给肩膀靠就好了;
不需要有多浪漫,晚上陪我到处走走逛逛聊聊天就足够了;

如果我们会走在一起,证明我们是相爱的.
我的要求不是很高,去逛街的时候,你会拉着我的手,看到熟人,能够和对方介绍"这是我女朋友"
当我们不在一起的时候,会常打电话,发信息给我.证明你有在想我,讲电话的时候,要多说话,我喜欢听到你讲,那样感觉你就在我身边,不许先挂我电话,我讨厌听到"嘟'嘟" 声.

不要说你很忙,那样只是证明我很自私,讨厌那种感觉,
看到靓女的时候瞄几眼就好了,不要流口水~

久别重逢的时候,记得给我一个拥抱,在我耳边说"我好想你......
我知道,我很任性,但既然你选择了和我在一起,你就应该学会包容我,能接受并指出我的不好,

我并不是一个自我为中心的人!
如果你觉得我哪方面不好可以说出来,但不可以忽略我;
我可以忍受你直接说不爱我,但是我讨厌你对我忽冷忽热;

我是人,有感觉,也有脾气,不要说我不喜欢听的话,要是我沉默了,那代表我不想再谈论那个话题,那么请你停止说.

我知道我脾气真的不好,但是要是你受不了,你可以同我说;
如果我选择了你,证明我是真的爱你,所以如果我有不好的地方,你也要说出来.
两个人在一起,就要相互信任,你可以有自己的私人空间,但是不可以欺骗我~

awful night

I had an awful night 

=.../

am cry for nothing again 

omg!!

my tears just cant stop

when only it can be end

when only I won't think of him 

and cry alone over here =...(

sob sob 

IMYSM

xoxo

two people

when two people are chosen to be together, there is always a test in our life and it will test them in any time any where at anyone. that why you can't be passed all the time with only tolerance, consideration, caring, forgiveness...what we need is courage, do we have the courage to accept the test in your life.

Sometimes she might seems very plain but he might dotes on her and her beauty is in the eye of beholder.
When that time you feel she only exist in your heart, it's mean you are fall in love with someone already...=)

There is no guidance, no qualified reference to advise us how to communicate when two people live together
there is no book to teach us how to stay with someone who might spend the rest of their life together

argh~~ I don't know what am talking about
am just Bull Sh*t for today's post.

out of my mind
out of my control

sometimes I really don't feel like to control myself not to think not to do,
 ask my heart not to do something that I wanted to do all this while.
but i know i must control myself if not my life will terrible than the past.

my current life as usual~
wake up in the early morning
drive all the way to my office
first thing i do in my car after start my engine is....
turn on my radio and listen to Hitz.fm morning crew JJ and Ean
=) <3 <3
even am home after my work I always don't like my room sound so quiet so I turn on hitz.fm again

my emotional getting better

Today I got no idea why I felt myself getting better and better with my emotional 

I feel my heart are recovering

In the same times, it's mean I starting to feel something are fading
and understand what is the things happen now.

perhaps after I went back to my family side and they do gave me a lot of support and of cause I have to thanks my lovely friends as well

they do really gave me a lot of vigor to wake me up ^.^
 Sometimes something do remind me of someone but this is past mean past
no matter how he still with his new life with new girl
and I will still move on my life with full of best friends surround me.

I believe I will having a great life with someone in future^.^
give me three more months! I can make it~
I know I can make it !!!

and~~~ I will be one of the girl who are searching her Mr Right after 3 months~
=) I think after three more months I will be ready for my another life with a new me*.^

Of cause I will be a good me and full of confidence me~ =P
my real new life is coming to me right now~
woo hoo ~
How I wish I stay with my family now~ than my heart broken will be recover soonest~ =..)
I love you daddy mummy grandmama and my brothers and sisters~
You all just my everything~
I can't live without you all~
 <3 <3 <3


Love cycle

\What do you think?
this is what I mean =..)
stranger~

Impossible for me to allow someone be my friend after heartbreak 
/=.....)
ILU
IMUSM still~
but everything will be end soon~

What a words

2011 American Idol castoff Chris Medina - the guy who touched everyone's hearts and possibly made us shed a little tear with his heartbreaking love story about his girlfriend who currently suffers from brain injury due to a car accident. 

"Chris Medina-What A Words"

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be where I am

And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close

I think that you're the most awesome guy in the world 

It's should something everyone should learn from and take inspiration on =..)

btw he really had a great voice and great heart on you ^^

all the best to you and your fiancée =D

so called life

I just bought Collista not long ago to aim for better shaping body figure ^^

I hope it's work 

work hard for it

when I went to Klang every Wednesday for visiting my agents, when I pass by Meru this scene just captivate my sight so I just decide to capture down how beautiful the scenery are~ and it's just make me think of my hometown @ SG Kerang, Perak. Aw~~~

it just remind of me when I was young and stay with my parents that sweet feeling comes with happiness memories for our childhood. =)

I'm able manage to capture while am driving back to KL through Meru .

fiuh~ so dangerous but it worth for it ^^

I have to pass by every Monday to Friday early in the morning with the terrible traffic congestion. 

I just feel like to capture down the beautiful shining and brighter morning with my phone ^^

It's perfect with the Hitz.FM morning crews JJ and Ean~

OMG!!! I just love them so much!! 

they just make me laugh every morning with the Gotcha programs. 

=P

New Istana .

It's look grand and with the magnificent design 

build all the fly over just for the purpose of .....

tuuuuuu~~~~ 

snap this picture while am driving again =P

Last week I have dinner with my boss, GM and colleagues in Cheras UE3 had steamboat
I likes their soup so much ~~ yum yum ~
After steamboat we went to one of the pub in Cheras and have some drinks over there^^
This is our very first time to have dinner with GM ^^

The Vow

When I watch love movie in the cinema and I saw a very sweet couple kiss his gf after the love
story end with happy ending.
aw~~~ that so sweet!!!!

This showed that the guy really love his gf with full of his heart and faith..
the guy really showed the love to his gf =..) how lovely is that

So I believe there is always a good guys out there...just not the right time for now ^^
One day I believe I will meet one

How I wish I can watch "the Vow" with the love one with holding hand with the real love. =.)

I just keep waiting now~
I hope my wish come true soonest~
=..)

tonight what he told me and share with me ....
It's freaking hurt until I never felt ever hurt like this time before...

I was crying so hard for tonight
my tears just non stop to shed from my eyes to cheek and shed on the floor
I just wet my floor =...)
I just felt a lot of needles keep stabbing my heart non stop

=.../ sob sob ~
I was so tired to think of someone everyday
I was so tired to miss someone everyday
I was so tired to hold with a hope

No I don't want now
I don't want!!!
=.../ sob sob

take all you want from me~
every single.....
the things you bought for me
the memories you left for me
the feel that you gave me=...)
the love I gain from you
The future you gave to me

take all you want =...D

take all you want~

aching

"you can say sorry a million times,

say I love you as much as you want,

say whatever you want,

whenever you want,

but if you're not going to prove

that the things you say are true,

then please don't say anything at all!!!

Because you can't show it!

your words don't mean a THING!"

P/S: but girls always love to listen those lies from their love one /=..(

痛苦

"太看重感情的人就是这样:容易满足,更容易受伤；总有一种被忽视的感觉；

付出的远远超过得到的；很固执，习惯冷战；

在别人面前笑得很开心，一个人的时候却很漠落；

陌生人前很安静，朋友面前胡闹；坐在电脑前，

不知道做什么，却又不想关掉它；不喜欢等待，

却总是等待；经常不经意的发呆。"

 很怕有一天会在街边遇到他与她牵着手，/=..(

每当我经过哪些我们曾经去过的地方，

会让我想起那些我们曾经的日子，

 那些有对我说过的谎言。

=（ 

想念

很痛苦

我有好多问题

我还在乎

我还介意

我还生气

我需要多久的时间才学会放下

 我好痛苦

我讨厌那样的生活

我恨他把我生活搞得一塌糊涂

我恨死他！！！

女人就是那样矛盾
很好奇想知道它到底有没有背叛你
但又怕知道了后你接受不到
所以最后还是选了逃避。。。
女人好傻哦！



当你看到你他和“别人”在一起
我心还是会很痛很痛 /=..(

当他对别人的好
心还是酸酸的
痛痛的
刺刺的



我眼泪还是会不停的掉


你的承若和感情全都是骗人的！！！！


感情说放下就放下吗？

我好笨！

我好蠢！

我好傻！

我不要！！！！！

我不要每天多在房间一个人掉泪
我不要
有时我很想放声大哭！！！！
俄~~俄~~俄~~ /=...0

just like a tattoo

Falling in love with someone just like you getting a tattoo

When very the beginning you have to been through all the ache and soreness

and take times to get a nice tattoo provided that you get an expert and good tattooist.

you might get a bad tattooist which recommended from friends or ads 

and might end up left a bad tattoo forever and it WON'T leave your body forever.

If you get a nice tattoo you have to maintain it well 

and taking care of it all the times in order to own a nice tattoo.

Once you own a tattoo it won't leave you forever and it will stay forever in your body.

If you get a nice tattoo then you try to bear with it

What if you get a bad one?

you prefer it left forever in your body or remove it by laser and pay more than you get a tattoo?

Once you choose to remove it forever by laser and it will make you even more suffering than before 

Besides, it will leave you a big scar on that particulars part FOREVER!

Is that worth it?

Yea I know the bad tattoo can replace by a new one 

where the scar can be go?

but don't you think you worth it to bear all this pain alone?

you will felt sudden pang of regret

you will bemoaned with what you been through all this pain

P/s: the scar will stay forever , 

I felt my heart is throbbing when I see something that I don't wish to see

heart ached for this love

old memories

 hahaha =D this is my very first to enter the blog world (Multiply) as per link below:-
my life my mind my soul
2008 I was so slim on that time!!! argh!44KG that time. Now?
48KG!!!!! wow!!!Now I fat till ah ma dou hmm ying dak!

I also don't have the idea how the hell I can write so much of words on that times.
After I read back with what I had blog , now only I realise the stories is all about love~
oh my gosh!Majorities is sad stories ...hmm~ I think I should blog more about my happy stuff and not the sad stories~

Now only I know how serious and so much I treat my relationship from last time till now~
Now only I realise why my life only had sadness and suffering from love and it seem like I never happy for my love before. Am I think too much?

hmmm~ I think am too many complaints and never share the sweet stuff with you guys^^
but eh~ read probably I did post one of the sweetest stuff in Multiply blog when celebrating Christmas for my first one /=)

I miss that moment so much when I stay at 23rd floor with my lovely and nice housemate for two years ^^  Ai Wen, Eunice Wong, Arashi Wong, Charlotte Kong, Hui Ying, Jocelyn Lai, Kam Fong, Kelvin and Wilfred.

We used to watching TV together, Pillow talks, watch movie, study, doing face mask, cooking, party, and swimming together. I really miss those times=)

How it would be so nice If I still can find a house with full of this lovely housemate and nice home feeling like 23rd floor ^^

Recently I felt so proud of my driving skill hehe! =P when you sit beside me and you will know how my driving so geng! =P

After I taking over Elise agents now I know even more places that I never been there before~I need drive all the way to klang now~ =( so tired hot and sleepy

I wanted to change my jobs now~
Let's see when is the right times I change to more high pay jobs and read probably yea is JOB but not CAREER ^^
I need to earn more and more money now ~ and achieving my dreams -one for my family and the other one is for myself =)
argh!!! gampateh! work hard and should stop spend so hard =P

I decide to stay for one more year and I wish everything will be fine soon.

I really don't know why I felt so sleepy and tired recently ...
Is it symptom of laziness ???? oh shit!! It shouldn't be on that way!

stop!!!! I need start to do exercise now! my tummy getting bigger and bigger. My friends thought I'm pregnant pulak ! ish!  I need some motivation and money!!!! wuahaha~MONEY is on my second top list now ~ no more LOVE on my second top list ! yes I can do it!