Sometimes..

God really does send us miracles..Last night, I was talking to my mom and just basically broke down. I was just sobbing. Like, unable to catch my breath crying.  I'm not able to be 100% serious w/DH when he calls, because I don't want him to get *too* concerned about whats going on at home..By money-wise, we are struggling until I get paid next Friday, and last night, just all my concerned came tumbling out. About how he will be when he gets back, will they completely break him? Will I loose my husband? Will he be this "machine?" How much can 1 person take? I know I couldn't take being demeaned for 5 months..I just, I'm worried. And I don't talk to him about this on the phone. I kind of talked about it when he was home..But, like I said, I don't want to stress him. But anyway, I told my mom that money is my biggest worry right now. I paid down quite a few bills completely forgetting that TOMORROW is October 1st..Ugh. So things are tight. So I said all that to say this. My dad came into the office today (mind you, my mom and dad live about 25 minutes away from my work.) So I asked him what he was doing on that side of town and he said he was just out and about and wanted to bring me my mail. So I thanked him, and we talked, and he gave me a pep talk, and he left. As I was checking my mail at home, I came across a blank envelope..that had $400 in it!! OMG. I thought he had given me the wrong stuff. So I called him and asked about it and he told me that he didn't want me stressing out his granddaughter. That my mom had called him last night and told him she was worried about me stressing too much (she's been in TN this week) and apparently he figured I could use some money. And he was SO right. But he told me "I didn't tell your mom, she'd spaz" which is true and then he said "well it's my money and I can do whatever I want w/it. " LOL. I was just flabbergasted. My parents have never given me money, no strings attached (which I think is fine). And if they do, I always pay them back. This money came w/a no payback clause and no strings attached. I couldn't hold back the tears again (for the 20 hundreth time this week). I told him he had no idea what this meant to me. I am beyond words. I am so grateful, and I know he didn't have to do this. And he also knows I would have refused it if he hadn't "snuck" it in. Amazing. I am blessed beyond measure.