Do you see the party hat on my sidebar? You should definitely go here http://stirrup-queens.blogspot.com/2008/05/nacomleavmo.html (and no, I can't figure out how to get my stupid links to work) because it is a fantastic idea.
For those of you who are (maybe) reading my blog..Im pretty random. Right now, my blog focuses on work (a preschool), education (studying to get my CMA and then my BSN) and my upcoming wedding (10-04-08). It can be quite profanity laden (and I apologize, sometimes) and I am also worried (consumed) by the fact that Im 25, have had 1 miscarriage already and have had trouble w/periods my whole life. I worry that biological children aren't in my future. So Im kind of all over the board. Please say hi and let me know you're reading..
The above link has kind of been a lifesaver. When I miscarried, there was no support, the father of the baby didn't even know I was pregnant, no one did. So I did it by myself, and I've missed her every day since then. I don't dwell on it constantly because part of my feels like maybe, it was the right thing to happen at that time. I was young, in college, and most likely not completely ready to be a parent. But I loved her anyway. Now that I see that there are a lot of women like me, of all ages, I feel a sort of connection (although sometimes I feel like a fraud because I haven't been through all the testing, cycle charting, shots, pills, doctors office visits, and recurrent miscarriages) but I know the pain of loosing a baby..Even one that was unexpected. I read some of the blogs listed on the blogroll daily and have never left a comment because of the above mentioned reason. Now, I feel like I have "permission" to do so and not to be judged...Thank you for that.
Okay..it's 5AM (no idea why Im up before the alarm clock) and I need to start getting ready..
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