weird.

hai.
today's training was...weird, in a sense.

got to take sec2s, since uh, i was applying for sec3nco. apparently sebastian was looking for..."potential" sec3ncos, so to speak.
and he was...overlooking/judging/spectating???
btw there were only 3 of us there, me, yak and lennard.
wa then i was forced to take them for pt...yak n1 make me do it >.<

er wouldnt say pt went extremely well or something like that. it was real short, so basically they didnt do much. spent most of the time at the pullup bar looking at the "noobs" finish theirs.
so then was drills...yak was taking for 1st half, me n lennard were like stoning away cos he was supposed to be the main guy.
wa then he actually forgot most of the sizing up commands...quite gg =(
then sebastian said we (me n lennard) were stoning around too much, should go around point out mistakes interact with them etc.

pfft. like i want.
sec2s got some REAL guailan ppl. eg shawn, dhivian etc i think. wa seriously damn guailan la, ask shawn raise leg up properly while doing hentak, come fake for awhile, then march awhile hentak again, hai. u know what happened, he was hentak-ing at some 20 degrees. dam pro, caught him like 2/3 times, nvr change.

then sebastian was giving feedback...
dam nice la. guess what he said.
"you can make the squad laugh...but i dont think you can get alot of them to respect you."
wth. like, i was taking them for PT?? what you want then, its not like i wanted, i wanted to take drills one lor. sure owned out of the 3 of us, at least. can say what they dont respect me, wth like sebastian had asked them to purposely make things difficult for us. then after that come guailan. zzz. obvioulsy im not exactly feeling great after that kind of comment =.=

oh well, at least i feel alot better letting it out. can concentrate fully for the next 1hr+ for phy...>.< yea i know its a dam short time.
also, perhaps sebastian DID make a few good points worth noting:
-planning of activities etc isnt some plan-one-week-in-advance thing, its mostly impromptu (at least for nco), depending on what you can make use of etc
-you have to be able to control them...eg make sure they dont laugh during drills etc.
er cant remember any more points, due to the scattered thoughts at the moment.

another note, now im getting a kind of dilemna. maybe this squad isnt that "preferable" after all, with so many guailan-ers. its really difficult to change their attitude when...this year they've been given so much space/freedom to do this kind of thing like its allowed and all. i can tell, it will be very difficult indeed. however...current sec1s, though not as uh guailan, but they're quite stony. as in u ask for a volunteer and such, they either lag, or act like they didnt hear/understand your words. ><
hai. whats the use of saying this now, interview is already over, my verdict wont be changed. but perhaps it'll get screwed if sebastian c&p what he said to me to the other sec4s/exco... hai.
doesnt matter la. think i'll just make the best of whatever i get. hey, i mean leading can always be learnt right? but obviously i would still want a nco post! (excluding the small which is aka fei nco posts of course)
on a side note i wonder when the "results" of the posting will be released...hmm scary scary

oh shit, i still have a phy cct tmr. didnt mug much sia, gg. also got ss presentation, after which hopefully all the dreadful stuff for this term is over.
oh no it isnt. sep hols got 2 screwy courses, police knowledge and homefront security. and dam they require full uniform to be worn, and its at HTA at CHOA CHU KANG wth. bad stuff nvr ends does it.