interview

gone.
i knew it was...quite screwed at the end. im talking about my np interview, fyi.
had alot of things to say, but i just wasnt able to say it all out.
call it mental block, lag, whatever.
point is, i died.

it was dam crap, there were some qns where i knew what to say, but just didnt say it. dunno what happened. so dont ask me why, ty.
i dont think i'll be very surprised/shocked if i dont get it. i mean like, obviously i screwed up...dunnid talk already.
but i'll definitely be...quite sad la. sad that i didnt get, that i failed, etc etc. even so....life's still got to go on right? it wont wait for u. so im thinking, just forget about this bloody interview and focus on the tasks at hand. next week got some sickening ccts (spammage again wtf), and im already sick of them. oh eff, and theres like ss presentation and a chem redox OBA as well. seriously dam eff...

ya apologise if i happen to snap/appear irritated/scold some vulgar or what >< and the like. i just hate this feeling...
np gone, academic work gone. this sucks. whats next? nth positive im afraid.