Ordinarily, the sight of an eight foot tall Santa standing next to a Mickey Mouse holding a green Christmas ornament would bring some sort of cheer but today I looked at this odd combination and thought, "I don't get it...Santa and Mickey Mouse?"
Surely an irrepressible smiling snowman should make someone crack a smile? I waved weakly back at this fake snowman - there hasn't been snow enough to make a snowball, let alone a towering snowman.
A couple years ago - this setting with the reindeer simply lit in clean pure white light awed me... the deer are placed in a small wooded glade. Tonight I looked at them I couldn't decide if they were reindeer or all male deer...and I guess I thought after a few years running, I was no longer awed with this scene.
Depression is more than occasionally feeling blue, sad, or down in the dumps, though. Depression is a strong mood involving sadness, discouragement, despair, or hopelessness that lasts for weeks, months, or even longer. It interferes with a person's ability to participate in normal activities.
Depression affects a person's thoughts, outlook, and behavior as well as mood. In addition to a depressed mood, a person with depression can also feel tired, irritable, and notice changes in appetite.
When someone has depression, it can cloud everything. The world looks bleak and the person's thoughts reflect that hopelessness and helplessness. People with depression tend to have negative and self-critical thoughts. Sometimes, despite their true value, people with depression can feel worthless and unlovable.
Because of feelings of sadness and low energy, people with depression may pull away from those around them or from activities they once enjoyed. This usually makes them feel more lonely and isolated, making the depression and negative thinking worse.
Nobody wants to see entries like this...so I won't write any more of them until I feel more like the old self.
16 comments:
*HUGS*
I am so sorry you feel bad. I know how it goes, there was a dark time in my life that I hope never returns.
I don't want to sound flippant, but I truly, TRULY hope you feel better and please let me know if there is anything I can do to help.
HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
I'm sorry you're in a dark time again. Is there anything I can do to help?
Play the accordian while doing a tap dance?
Walk around town in a giant squirrel costume taking pictures of people?
Running out into the road and rescuing all the OCHA's?
*HUGZ*
BTDT,,,aint no fun. You need to talk lemme know.
How about putting the OCHAs in the giant squirrel costumes and make THEM tap dance to the accordian, Chicago..?
((((((((((Iggy)))))))))) cripes.... just know that you are loved by so many that care about you so very much.... but I also know that depression is not just like have a couple of 'off' weeks of sadness.... one of my dearest maties suffers from depression.... all I can do for her is be there for her, as I am here for you.... if I lived near I would be round in a flash, so you would know you really are not alone....
huge hugs to you dear friend..... know you are loved.....
ps...... all this nonsense with your shoulder is enough to make a dark cloud form, believe me, pain can sometimes be a bad friend.... get the shoulder sorted and maybe the light will start to flicker and twinkle and then shine fully....
x
I wish I had something useful or clever to say... But I can't think of anything. All I can do is offer an ear if you need to talk, and send you some virtual hugs.
*HUGS*
As selfish as this sounds, you are NOT allowed to disappear from us... we need you, and you need us, its called togetherness....
Now, we will take you in your happy times and like now in your sad times..... so get back in here....
x
Depression hurts. I wish I could give you a huge bear hug (keeping the ouchie shouldier in mind of course) right now. We love you and need you. You accept us, warts and all... We need you to keep posting hun - we really do. I know that is shelfish but, hell, I'm selfish! You get the weekend off and that's it!!!! Posting how you feel is part of blog and it isn't always good and that is ok! Huge hugs to a wonderful friend.
As someone who knows all to well what you mean, I also know that for some reason all the kind words in the world doesn't make this feeling go away for good. It's a constant inner fight and saying to yourself you won't give in to it. But it does help to have people physically around you, hugs, company and warmth.
It's also good to get those feelings out somehow. If you keep them inside brewing, digesting and mulling over each sad thought, it just bubbles into something worse.
I also tend to push people away when I'm crying for a kiss or a hug from someone - anyone. I do hope it all goes away for you soon.
And I meant to write "too" up there. Can't go around being a hypocrite about that stuff.
There isn't much more for me to add that the others haven't already said.
Hang in there, kiddo. Better days are coming. *HUGS*
Just popped in to make sure everyone left the place tidy last night.... wasnt the party great, Iggy so needs to get more chocolate cake in the cupboard though and what about all the gin that we consumed, I suppose someone should replenish the supplies, I grab a couple of bottles whilst out today, he will never know we was even here :)...... where the hell did that elk in the sitting room come from?
x
I just want to add my 2 (or 3 or 4) cents worth. You already know your friends are here when you need them. Please know you are a vital and important part of our lives. Big hugs and much love...and some cheery smiles to light your way.
(I am making whoopie pies today. Can I send you some?)
*Hiccup*
Gun... errr I mewan Gin... errr I mean... dang! what a party! *Grabs a santa hat off the elk horn* Is that tidy enogjk? Oh my I fink I need to shobre up :)
Iggy, my new friend, I'm so sorry to hear of your sadness.
From time to time I tend to dwell in the same place. I finally learned to just accept it until it passes..and it always does. It makes the non-dark times all the sweeter.
I have to say though, you are so adored here..what great friends they are!
I have no doubt they will all be here when you are ready to talk again. I will too. :)
Heart healing energies to you!
Namaste',
~gypsy-heart
Yawwnnnnnnnnnn... morning here..... just checking in, you lot stop eating everything out the fridge and STOP drawing tashes on those priceless paintings....
x
I hope you feel better soon and I look forward in you returning to the blogging world!
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