Hee..as the title suggested. Halo everyone..today just finished one of the papers(literally finished-i hate the kind of paper that expect you to read a lot yet come out very little and whatever you write depends on whether the marker apprecitaes what you're writting) so even crossing finger doesn't work. Ha and the next paper is on the 29th Nov then..IT"S OVER!!!!wwhahaha..
well..recently got a lot of lflash backs going on my mind.Started to listen to the songs i used to listen to,reread the comics that I didn touch for relly long time and yesterday when I saw a guy in the greenie no.4(army uniform) then..dunno why got a sudden feel about the whole thing.indeed army days passed just like a daze~not the blur blur kind but the kind which before you know it, its over and you move on in life and i've been moving on for almost half a year..actually told myself my NS chapter ended on my comms ball nite..which makes it almost 10 months liao. The picture was taken on 4th Feb this year. so ,many things have happened! and life goes on. sometimes I ask myself what am i really after in life? What is there to be done and why so many a times I did things that I know i'll regret, and times when i didnt do it and i regret. Wanted to do something but taking the first step is always so hard, when I know doing it will make my life worthwhile..like helping special school children, SPCA etc..
but I know life is like that! By being yourself and enjoy what you're doing is good enough. The future..is Now! the second i'm in now is the past on the next...time just goes on and on..
Well Nia, shit happens. Like myself..tho I dunno why certain thing happened to me..sometimes I even question is it suppose to make me stronger or weaker. But I realise there are certain things I didnt see in my midst of agony..example will be my spine fracture.when I finally got to recourse, during the first 3 weeks was utterly painful for me. There was so many ego bursting and pridee hurting incidence..yet because of my back and Daniel came over every night to help me rub ointment. It forged a eternal friendship!and the emotional ride during the first 3 weeks of recourse soften me so much that I actually dropped tears during parents visiting day that shocked my parents.I told them I might not be able to take it or make it through and for the first time after so long their grown up son suddenly showed the soft side and both of them comforted me and told me if really cannot dun push myself too hard and they wun blame me and are proud of me~tho a bit embrassing after that incident, the whole journey became not just a personal goal for pride and glory. but for my parents, buddy, and an answer to myself. So my idea was to go as far as I can and in the end, I found the answer when they're there at the parade square. So the injury isn't bad afterall~made me learn a lot of things..
Now here I am looking back at my army days..those still in green, it'll be over soon~after that, actually feels quite normal lah.in the end you still have to experience it yourself. For girls dun complain~the guys took it up and still have to go thru studies..and to think you girls are going out to work first...so for the first few years all expenses are on you all! Female power GO go Go!haha..