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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
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Friday, August 31, 2007
zenna's group baked a cake as shown above. nice rite? :D went for aces day workout and for assembly. performance. J performed first. not bad la. got one part the middle row dance nice. then it was mm. not bad also. then blahblahblah then went to visit kellock. (: saw yanping, xx, roch. what happened to pt, meg, jx and ww? saw mrs kuan. she said i changed alot. hahaha. she rocks still. too bad cheeloy already switched school. i sorta 'miss' her. sad lehhhh. now wan find also cannot find her. -_____- Wednesday, August 29, 2007
np sucked today. seriously. got screamed at. mr seow said limit to 10 pumpings and we did 25. seniors all torturing us. put us to march under the sun. had headache till now cos of it. dont let us go water break damn long and stuff. everytime, everytime i attend np i'll feel a deep sense of regret building up everytime. if i didnt get tricked i wouldnt be so tortured now. if i werent so stupid i wouldnt be in this situation. sad to say but its a reality. teacher's day on fri. gonna visit old classmates. :D hope mrs kuan wont say i got __ again. T___T Tuesday, August 28, 2007
i forgot to post about my results. hoo hum. ca2 scores eng - 15/20, A1 [zenna got the same marks as me ;D ] geo - 22/25, A1 [2nd highest in class i think. almost won tazkiah.. ] lit - 13/25, C6 some got pulled down for overalls, some got pulled up for overalls due to ca. overall scores eng - 73, A2 [it was two marks, two marks away from A1 -____- ] chinese - 51, C6 math - not saying(: science - 53, C6 [from A2 to C6, all because of chem.] lit - 62, B4 D&T - 81, A1 art - 32, F9 [thought the 'test' was to do it in the com. ended up need to write it out -___- ] and im isolated along with 3 other ppl for another chinese class - because we did badly for it. plus mrs lee is taking us. 4 A girls, 6 B/C girls. hope it wont be like hell.  doro's dnt group proj, eco bin. cute but retarded rite. hahahah.  bball got stuck up there today. had to throw shoes to get it down -_____- nth much today. im still so freaking tired. alot of hw, alot of projs, everytime. Sunday, August 26, 2007
feeling super lethargic right now. just came back from atc. yet i have dnt proj to hand up tomorrow. the worst thing is, all my stuff are in the locker. great. even my pencil box is in there. -_____- nothing much to say for the first day. went land ex, kayaking and stuff on the second. super tiring but fun. then there was low rope elements, rock climbing and blasting cannons. land ex was tiring. went to see wild boar. also saw wild hares. shortcut back was blocked so we walked the same route back and was late for lunch. hands werent strong enough to rock climb. too weak liao. blasting cannons was cool. joined another team from another area and the commando rocked. haha. low rope elements was fun too. swinging down like tarzan xD kayaking was tiring. the wind was moving us here and there. but fun. got capsized at the shore then cut by rocks. was the last group and had to move all those heavy kayaks to wash. went to wash up. before that had a thunder warning. did a group challange and we won :D now then wash up. highlights: - tio scolded alot alot and alot of times - reported strength alot alot and alot of times - survival test sucked - taking the van back to jetty rocked - didnt bathe for 3 days - had magi mee and some can food for all lunches and dinners - everyone chiong for pineapple can to bring home/eat - cresent girls know alot of campfire songs [and i mean ALOT.] didnt have enough time to bathe. didnt have enough time to eat. didnt have enough time to do anything. had to run for everything until 6pm. cannot run/walk on grass to destination. i think the tents here in atc were much cooling. perharps the place is more cooling. i dknw why but i dun feel so warm sleeping there. maybe a little but not much. had guard duty or whatever you called that for the second night. it sucked. was dammit sleepy and was nagged by the ci 2 times. pinched myself to keep myself awake until it was time for us to walk to the gates. final day [today] woke up at 5.30am, assembled at 6.00am. did PT as usual. breadfast and blahblah. then it was the final game of the final day of the final atc of the year. had fun and we were the 3/4th last group. everyone took a van off from the place and we waved to the people of area 13 who walked. whaah. took the boat back and took ges's bus. saw group members and was about to go up the bus and they told me i have to do proj work. hello, im sweating and i didnt bathe for 3 days. it was 2pm and i havent had lunch. im also carrying my heavy bags and food rations that i have to bring home. at least let me go home first rite? went to sq hse after bathe and blah. my work is in the locker. does anyone have a cam that immediately prints out once the picture is taken? cos i have to pass up tomorrow. its not just tomorrow, its tomorrow MORNING. i think im gonna plead with mr chandran. sq's group finished first and went down for pool. got fed up, brought my materials and left. im still doing my work halfway. i hope i get to sleep early and finish early. im so tired i could just sleep when i lie down. P.S i had about 30 mosquito bites. that was one of the least. some of them are acting up now. dammit irritating. some people had it worst than me. T___T Tuesday, August 21, 2007
damn happy for my english results. but i failed both maths and chinese. oh well. although i improved for my maths it was still a fail. both are almost lowest in class. T___T stayed back after school to go dnt. tmr got cca yet dnt deadline is thursday. geo proj also due this week. im damn tired man. haven even done my individual clothes stuff yet. hope i'll get good results for my lit too. cant wait. >< Monday, August 20, 2007
practically happy day today. but morning wasnt so good though. hmm. patched up. omg laaaa. im so darn happy. after like 3 weeks. finallyyyyyy. went to tiong after school and then to kelyn's house to do proj. christabel's gonna wear a tubetop. whahhah. kidding. stayed till 6 and went home. forgot what i initially wanted to write. nvm~ im feeling super exhausted today. cant sleep till i song cos i have tuition. went there early and played arcade. super addictive i tell you. luckily i controlled myself and only spent $2. LOL. now im as broke as ever. but i saw _____! didnt expect him to be there. dammit ____. always. hahahah. tuitioned till 1pm then went to jurong. was supposed to have our group outing. was a bowling outing. got changed to movie outing last minute and finally cancelled. disappointed. went home and gamed all day. not exactly actually. kept lagging and i gave up. -____- i want to go to my relative's house to play warcraft. im super addicted to it now. T___T and also sims. i wanna own sims. $50+. mother says let her see results. I HAVE ALTERNATIVES THOUGH. WHAHAHA. hope i'll get it. meanwhile, i'll just get addicted by warcraft. super tired. i can fall asleep like immediately when i lie on the bed. hahaah. surely got panda eyes tomorrow. nvm. tmr after school i nap. wahhahah. oh and i pray that my results will be at least better than sa1. see my targets. subjects: [at least a...] eng - b4 chi - c6 sci - b4 lit - b3 maths - c6 geo - b4 just hope they'll be even better than my targets. then i'll be darn happy. Friday, August 17, 2007
gave her the letter through chris already. i hope she'll like talk to me during cip tomorrow. looks like i gotta take the initiative again. -____- im super busy for the weekend.. no time to sleep till i drop, that is. sat - cip, tuition sun - tuition, outing my stupid internet still cant work. siannn. i've been suspended from the internet since monday. im going to my relative's hse later to use the internet and maybe play warcraft games. im sick of dota and i suck at it so i'd rather try out other games. xD i like tag and defense games. used to like td, but sian of it liao. tag and defense games have so many different kinds, so fun somemore. whahahha. oh and geo exam today. quite confident about it. hahah. hope i'll get at least a b3 or b4 and im gonna be happy. :D global warming forum today too. super damn boring i tell you. we missed a lesson to move all the chairs from the audi to hall, then overshot normal sch dismissal hours just to move all back. i did move a table okay. but they picked on us, r and mm classes. biased la. say we nvr move, so force us to move all the tables back. and mr lau says he is kind. awwww. move back liao still have to make the rows nice nice. we are like workers all of the sudden. let us off at only 2.45pm. like what the &$^&$*$(*#&#. then it was np. SUPER SIAN I TELL YOU. juniors keep making us redo and redo although we got it right. then suhana has to waste her voice shouting commands from the starting till the end. must buy for her liang cha. xD combining with juniors suck can. its forever redo-ing. i'd rather do individual squad. then even if redo also can take it. after that they all one by one march here and there. waste time. make us stone there. make us say timing. still cant believe its atc next week. i have a feeling its gonna suck alot. you wont know anyone in your group. its gonna make me not talk to anyone for like 2 days. -____- Thursday, August 16, 2007
maths exam today. more or less i predicted if those questions i THOUGHT will get correct, i'll still fail. lol. at least i DONT THINK it'll fail until so cham like before. i hope. did graph like shit. sian. at least i tried my best. the only thing to do if i fail - to learn my mistakes and amend those fomulas in my brain. lol. talking of that, i wrote my apology letter already. hope she'll accept it. really hope. its been 3 weeks ever since she started cold war-ing with me. if she still doesnt talk to me after i get the letter passed to her tomorrow, it'll be a month of cold war-ing. im damn cold already. give me some warmthhhhhh. oh yes. global warming. wahahah. that reminds me. geo exam tomorrow! chap 9. whole of chap 9. omgg. must remember - answer with expanation and must take note of the question. the KEYWORDS as mrs/miss lok always says. finally it'll be the last of exams. yayyy. unfortunately there's still sa2. -_____- i dont think that week of holidays in sep is gonna be fun. mdm zu said so. rawrr. there's still np tomorrow. siannnnn. hope sunday will be a successful outing. its been about half a year ever since our last outing. must have more outings b4 next year. T___T Wednesday, August 15, 2007
felt better today. wrote like siao for lit exam. when mrs ho was giving out question papers, read the question. started, kept writing till the end. non stop. lol. 2 and a half pages. now my fingers cant write properly cos it hurts. im still quite worried for my maths exam tomorrow. T___T oh well. im gonna hate the np camp. its NEXT WEEK. OMG. its too sudden can. our squad only has 3 people and we're going to be separated. siannnnnn. makes me detest np even more. if only bball wasnt closed down. if only. argh. nvm. suffer for another few yrs before im out of this damned school. hope the main internet connection works by tomorrow. -___- i really feel so reluctant to go to that camp or whatever you call it. combine units sia. its gonna suck. failed maths test badly today. has caused a direct hit to my self esteem. felt super down but apparently came to my aid. kel said that they wanted me to calm down. but i guess this is the day where i finally understand "it's every man for himself." when i wanted to understand, when i wanted to learn, when i was confused, you guys said i was annoying as i couldnt understand. the cannot understand part was not on purpose. do you think i was as 'clever' as you guys? if i were i wouldnt even bother coming to ask you people questions. oh and thanks to kelyn for making an effort to teach me last minute chinese. last minute chinese lesson. xD although all those questions were still wrong. -____- anyway although that direct hit has lowered my self esteem and caused a 'dent', i stayed back and asked mrs gomez about the maths question. i finally understood. thanks for you people's 'encouragement and console'. no wonder mrs gomez won the most caring teacher award last year. i hope i'll do well in maths. i finally have that part of confidence that im going to do good. gonna ask her about equations tmr. used to think i was a failure in maths. someone who cant do maths for shit. she let me realise i actually can. just that i was lazy to learn and to practise. finally. lit exam tomorrow. guess it's gonna be quite easy for me. cant say anything yet though. Tuesday, August 14, 2007
english paper was alright today. guess i never felt that rush for it before. oO everytime i do an english paper, im always finishing it so much earlier than the deadline time. but this time, really have to chiong sia. spent 15 mins highlighting the points and didnt even realise it. spent another 15 mins copying down and summarising the points, had to write super fast. spent the last 15 mins trying to finish the last task. i hope science will not be so difficult. T__T there's mt tomorrow too. somemore sci is like first period start. omg. tmr morning assem have to faster go school and clear my doubts. cant believe there's still cca going on even though there's ca. they're like depriving us the time of studying. -___- hope cca will finish faster although i dont think they'll even do so. felt so affected by what sq did to my pencil box today. if you want take it out on me, my pencil box is innocent. theres no need for you to give that 'disgusted' look and fling it as though it was an insect or some stupid thing. i really dont know what can i do. nvm, looks like the only thing i can do now is to shut up and go along with it. oh well. Saturday, August 11, 2007
english ca is like on monday, which is the day after tmr. looks like i have to mug like siao tmr. gonna study the english arguementive essay. its gonna be hard. im gonna make up the figures. went cip today. some stuff pissed us off. some stuff made us happy. :D for instance - there was a spider on their cup. got assistance. the nurse lifted the spoon and fork, great, the spider went in/disappeared. wanted to find it, then the woman told us to get lost. then the man act pro 'defend' her. wthh. we trying to 'save your life' here. you want to drink the spider? its alright if you like it(: eating insects have nutrients anyway. lalala. happy that exams are not as separated as before but afraid since exams are like two days away. im esp afraid of maths, science and chi. i bet my science has deproved alot as the following two factors. miss goh not strict, therefore i slacked. the factor thats affects the most is i dont understand the fomulas and i slacked. zzzz. must. study. hard. in. science. now. ms YEOW! is teaching us now. hope that'll help. at least she's more strict. doesnt give me the temptation to slack. xD hope sq doesnt ignore me anymore. sian. Friday, August 10, 2007
HAPPY 42th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :D  watched the parade on tv although i went for the previews. saw sq on tv. sad that she still doesnt wanna talk to me. zz. gamed till 5.30am ytd at relative's hse. i think i could've gone all the way longer if i didnt think someone was making noise outside. next week is like ca2 away. must mugmugmug. dknw what the hell is with my com nowadays. lags alot sometimes and makes super loud noises as if it were driving when im starting it up. then people start to flood my msn. -___- Tuesday, August 07, 2007
tomorrow's ndp. ndp = parade. parade = march. at least its not under the hot sun. im the only one who wore black today. ys forced me to. -___- damn tired. gotta wake up at 5.30am tmr. 6.30 go sch. change and assemble at 7am. siannn. plus i won the theresian heart award. LOL. wth man. zenna and qm sabo-ed me that time. die liao. wear mafti go on stage is embarrassing. surely damn malu sia. zenna should get it la. she should get what she derserves. i really think that zenna should get la. shes the only cmc member trying hard to keep the class quiet and blahblah. she made alot of contributions, yet she didnt get the award. i, not even in the cmc member thingy, got it when i dont deserve it. == hope this award thing is fake. LOL. dun even have rehearsal for it. how to suddenly know what to do. not like i always get awards. dunno why now exceptional. i HATE HATE HATE DNT DRAWINGS. so difficult. zzz. i prefer practical ones. siannnnnnn. Monday, August 06, 2007
whats with you getting so fked up over something that wasnt big? hais. np tmr. say use sch uniform, ended up last minute say pt kit. whats the damn difference? its just that our shirt is different and added track pants on, thats all. track pants is black. it looks like you want us to become fried chickens. or maybe, fried chicken feet. boring day as always, maybe will always be. school parade ndp 2oo7 on wed. they want us to wear mafti with red shirt. whalao. it will look so toot la. why not just the normal red shirt and skorts. WHY MAFTI? show everyone we are in the parade huh. only change to black socks and wear np skirt. 34/50 for eng pract ca2 paper. lost to zenna and chris. T__T chris got 35 and zenna 37. so pro can. i didnt know im so lan. guess my compre did quite badly. must do well in ca2. retried sit and reach during pe. got a B. if im not wrong for 2.4, i have 3 As, 1 B and 2 Cs. so damn happy la. perserverence rocks. Friday, August 03, 2007
ran 2.4 today. was bloody tired. felt like my legs were going to break. 16.30. looks nice but lost to many people): sq and chris got like 12. rawrr. thought that the last round was the second last round, therefore i didnt sprint. stupid me. if not i could've got like 16 you know(: oh and thanks to those who encouraged me to move on :D changed sci teacher. AGAIN. WHYY. OMG LA. CANT MRS LEE JUST COME BACK. I MISS HER IF NOT FOR EVERYONE ELSE. cos im 'scared' of her, therefore i'll listen during class! sian~ now i practically dont understand anything about those chemistry things. ca2 next next week after ndp. no fair): lets start mugging! assembly. indian, modern and jap dance. watched indian and modern dance before. jap dance was repeated so many times. OMGOMG. i find one of them so chio. @_@ np. stood under the blazing hot sun. i think we were like being roasted to roasted chickens can. my toes are like burnt now. lets see the level of burn-ness within 3 of the uniform groups. red cross - most relaxed. WHOLE THING WHITE. PROO. girl guides - not so bad. their blue is bright. np - DARK BLUE AND BLACK. we like helping the other two to suck in all the warmth and sun. zz. a picture from ndp preview 2oo7.  P.S this is like my 201th post :D Thursday, August 02, 2007
npcc sucks. dunno who dunwan to admit their fault. i dknw why i dont feel angry. LOL. if they pump also i bet they'll start whining, asking whoever to admit now. 2.4 on fri. gonna listen to music. hope it'll distract me from how pain and tired my legs will be. have. to. do. faster. than. 16 mins. :D after national day its ca2. sian. luckily its not as stretched out as before, one week everything settle, better. must start mugging liaoo. |
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