its so ironic how happy i can post the previous post and how unhappy i can be in this post.

im terribly depressed.

just want someone to talk me out of it or talk to me .

nothings going right.

im depressed.
terribly depressed.

no one ever believes it. or people just forget. they think u will be happy all the time.

i dun get it.

im sick of all these.

i just want to plunge into depression and not care about anything else.


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Everything is screwing up. i keep doing things wrongly. maybe im just lousy. maybe im just stupid. im not meant to do well in anything.

Happy birthday daddy!!

Happy birthday to Dad!!!!

I doubt he will ever see this , though. haha..
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These are some recent plus long due photos for your viewing pleasure.



Sweetie dew and i went to the Glasshouse place at Pasir Ris park(our own name for it. because til now i still dont know whats its name) for a drink.

Looks nice rite?

Tastes.. ermm.. alright. not fantastic.

So anyway, we're probably not going back there again. nothing fantastic about that place too..




Above: Sweetie dew n me taking a photo in his car before heading off to Pan Pacific hotel for his granma's bday dinner..

Dont we look compatible? he was wearing a purple shirt (which i bought for him) .. and im wearing a purple dress! =) *beams with delight*

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Anyway, last friday, we went to Home Club for Minya's birthday.
These are some pictures taken with YMCA - Y.



Cecilia and i.. as u can see, our faces are red. dont ask me why. haha




Ting n me...


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Here are 2 photos of friendly.. sitting lovingly on my lap..

she s so pretty. but dont ask why im wearing such querky pants. hehe

Taking minor steps towards success

People who know me would probably know that i cant stand the Chinese language. However, i finally understand the importance of Chinese in today's society and am indeed taking some minor steps towards improving my grasp of my mother tongue.

And so, about 3 weeks ago, i borrowed 2 chinese story books in hope of reading them so that i can improve my chinese.
Guess what? i did not touch these books at all.

But now, ive grown more determined. upon expiry of those 2 books i borrowed one other chinese book again and im determined to finish the book this time. And hopefully, i can write a review about it here to all of you reading this entry. =)

So wish me luck!

Besides trying to read a chinese story book, i came across Fann Wong's blog on xin.sg.
Whether or not it is just a heightened publicity stunt for her, it doesnt matter. its in chinese and there are many photos of her. So dear fann wong fans, heres the link to her blog. read it for 2 reasons.
1. improve your chinese
2. read up about her life!

http://blog.sina.com.cn/fannhy

The link can also be found on the right hand side of my blog.

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In the meantime, im enjoying my internship at APRW. I enjoy being part of the action and being able to attend and be part of a media conference or the event launch.

Public relations is not event management. In the case of a media conference, efforts have to be put in to ensure that sufficient and reliable media turn up. This is where your good media relations come in. In the case where your event is not so enticing, you need your favourable "media friends" to help you out. And of course, in the case of an event launch, it is always important to take note of the whereabouts of each media present for the event. At best, each media should always be accompanied by someone from the PR agency so as to take down questions being asked in the interview.

I also realised that it is important that we are constantly aware of current affairs happening around us as they could very well affect your media conference or event launch.
For example, last saturday was the launch of National Family Celebrations, Family Day Out. The pedra branca issue (whatever the outcome) could have affected press attention as the media would pose questions regarding the Pedra Branca decision wherever there is a politician or minister present. and indeed, we had President Nathan and Dr Vivian with us.

It is also important in PR to always be present where the media is because we have the ability to control the flow of the interview, lest anything wrong is said.

This marks the end of my short analysis on PR on media conferences and event launches. There would definitely be more to come as i get to learn more! and i cant wait to learn more about PR! i hope to be put into an account and learn the ropes!! =)


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Out of goodwill, cathryn has decided to recommend a good read for the month.

Marketing Singapore
Hardcopy available.

Website : www.marketing-interactive.com

This month's magazine issue talks about media measurement. Something very close to our hearts. It debates whether or not certain media platforms are indeed reliable and why we should or should not follow the figures blindly.

Its a great read. Costs $5.90 for each issue. im definitely going to start getting it after i leave APRW for i would have no other chance to read it anymore.

Its a great start for aspiring PR , marketing or corp comms professionals like me!

May has been a really exciting month for me. despite the month coming to an end, i feel no regret as i have done so many things for the past whole month that i feel extremely fulfilled. as though i have been living my life to the fullest.

I have so far, after coming back a month ago, went for 3 bday parties, went trekking, went ice skating, went for 3 buffets,attended 2 media conference, went to mediacorp twice, met up with more than 4 different groups of friends... the list goes on.

on fri, i went for min ya's bday party. after which after not clubbing for soooo long... i decided to drop by MOS with my YMCA dearest (without the Y who is in syd) for a short clubbing experience.

Clubbing was ok.. but i shall declare here.. Cathryn is so over it already. haha..

she is so broke and she has already spent $500 this month despite only earning $500 for her internship.

All because she is 21 this year (many ppl's bdays) and she has so many things to do.

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Today is our 9th month and we would have many months and forever to go.. =)

happy vesak day

im really thankful to god for a few things

first thing is for granting my parents a 'ping an' trip back from china. they came back a week before the earthquake happened. thank you god for blessing our family. i dont know what could have happened if we did not have your blessing.


the next thing is that im thankful for a patient and loving bf who always forgives me and is always there for me. thank you god for granting me this man in my life for he is a treasure that i will never let go. and i m still learning, god. im still learning how to appreciate this dime. please be patient with me.

i'll also like to thank god for granting me great friends in my life. and definitely, this blessed life of mine. thank you.

food food and food AGAIN

since i have nothing much to do in the office today, i shall blog about how ive been gaining wait continously eversince i came back. and because of all these food, i decided to take a detox diet for a week ( or maybe, alternate days.. or maybe.. once a week.. or maybe.... haha whatever.)

So these are what i have eaten or at least can remember. they are probably the more significant ones of the few.

The sunday following the one that i came back, dew dew's grandmother's bday was held at *gasps* Pan Pacific 37th Floor chinese restaurant where we had a deliciously sumptous ala carte buffet of chinese cuisine. i tell u.. this place is so incredibly nice that im sooo going to go there on my 21st! definitely! and i will keep ordering everything i like to eat!

Then on Monday, dew's parents brought me to eat at some restaurant at Chomp Chomp.

On Wednesday, Dew dew's cousin's bday and so we went to eat at Grand Copthorne Waterfront's buffet dinner which costs like i tink abt 50 per person.

I'm like so damn fat now im like a cow. haha

Theres like so many other good food which i cant rmb anymore. but these are the main few and dew dew! its all bcoz of u!!!

n yesterday, i went to Timbre with Jess to eat.. we spent a freakin $35 per person!!! coz we got drinks n stuff too. gosh.. im broke n fat. what else is there for me left? =(

break up season?

throughout my whole almost 21 years of my life, there has always been seasons of making up, breaking up and of getting together as well.

after being in ulu aussie land for so long, i finally hear so many stories that ive missed out and in a way, i feel really bad not being there for my friends when they needed support.

This is the season.. again.. of breaking up once more.

Many friends, almost 3 or 4 are breaking up. Many express disappointment in men and many remain cynical.

i feel depressed as i hate that kind of feeling they are experiencing now. and because i hate that feeling and feel depressed, i remind myself time and again i must cherish dew dew because i believe truly, that he is the one.

oh well.. yes we of course still do quarrel but i think we have improved a lot and our relationship has grown much stronger as a couple. and i believe that we're both planning our future together in the same and right direction.

i just get depressed over this season as everyone is like breaking up and i need to constantly remind myself how lucky i m . which i really believe to be so.

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anyway, i hope there is work to do tomorrow. i really dont wish to be slacking around in the office once more. i dont get it. sometimes its really busy, sometimes its not at all. why!!!!

why cant i help them in everything!

haish. oh well.. im just an intern.

3 weeks since ive gotten back

i spent about 15 weeks in hell and now, im back in paradise again. ive been in paradise for 3 weeks and i hope to remain here for the rest of my freakin' life!!

Anyway, ive been experiencing fluctuating times of "real busyness" and "real slacking".

now, im in the mode of "real slacking" today. not out of choice though. however, i do enjoy real busyness too.

ok. as u can see, im crapping again.

anyway, dew dew and i went on the Singapore Flyer. We paid about $30 per person and guess what? unlike poor people who have to share the cabin with other strangers, we were on it ALONE!! yeah.. so fun right?

dew dew proposed to me too! haha.. coz i forced him to. and he ended up forcing me as well. so anyway, photos might be uploaded soon.. when i have the time..

Dew dew is starting work soon and im on my internship. so... things will yet again, change for us. scenarios will change. its no longer the dew dew n me study sort of ting anymore. but we welcome changes! we can adapt!

so anyway, i wish dew dew all the best in his work which starts monday! please earn lots of money for me to spend!!! n buy me everything i want! treat me to good food! haha.. i make it sound as though he only works for me n me only and all his money will go to me. haha. so anyway, all the best to sweetie's first day on monday and to our rship!

i havent been blogging since Apr 24 and i had a sudden urge to blog today to vent my unhappiness on people i dont like.

those who know me know that i absolutely HATE people who cant speak English proper.

i really cant take it.

Was watching TV for the first time (mind you. thats 2 weeks) since coming back and the Arena was shown on Channel 5.

it featured debaters from secondary schools.

yes yes. u will say. they are merely kids so why m i criticizing them?!

but i really cant stand the way one of them spoke. i shall not mention who just in case i get sued or something. Singapore is really sensitive on such stuff and u never know when Big Brother is looking.

And so.. this person used so much singlish and gosh.. her singlish accent was so strong.. it was.. repugnant.

yah. wrong or right usage of word? i dont care. but.. seriously, on national TV u speak like tt? =( i feel sad for u.

but i do like the way one of the girls handled her rebuttals. she was calm and steady and answered wittily. I m amazed at how young she is and how capable she was.

so anyway, this is just me feeling unhappy about how people speak.

i just find it a real turn off. i just cant stand it that people cant speak properly and to think you appear on national tv! omg. but oh well..i applaud her courage! way to go!