Sunday, March 11, 2007

Have not really explored the new blog features, but think I'll do so along the way. For convenience sake, I've made a link to the new blog ( look to the left ). If the link fail, the url is http://www.skyloner.wordpress.com. As for this blog, think I'll leave it as memories. Wonder what I'll think of myself reading entries dated 10 years back next time. haha..


i don't wanna wait no longer;
9:23 PM

Friday, March 09, 2007

Realized I over elaborate on my thoughts during the previous entry. Shall touch on the platoon outing itself now. Met up with my bunkmates early to play bowling before the dinner. I reached marina bay mrt 5 minutes earlier and was quite stunned when I stepped out out the train. The whole station was deserted except for me and the operators inside the control station. almost thought someone want to ambush me or watsoever. Anyway, time ticked by. First guy to reach was 10 mins late. The other 2 around 15 mins late, and last guy around 25 or 30 mins. Haix.. should have drawn money from atm near my house first, cox the stupid "island" marina bay dun have any atm machine. Ended up kept on borrowing $$ from friends. Think even if I draw money first, I will at least be the 2nd earliest guy. Somehow, I missed the secondary school days when everyone were so punctual and actually reached b4 the meeting time. And now when everyone grow up and are supposed to be more mature etc, everyone starts to be late. Perhaps more burden, more constraints or less time, or simply just less serious about such details they deemed as minor. Ugly Singaporean.. not really a myth.. Anyway, dun think i'm pissed off or angry, cox i'm not. Just suddenly want to mention about this topic. Next was the bowling and dinner. Haven bowl for ...3 years?? or roughly there. EVeryone also said long time nv play, but their score say otherwise. Apparently "long time" is quite subjective. 1 month could also be long time mahx. But my platoon seriously got quite some good players. No wonder so many people voted for bowling. They must be thinking " YES! can show off my skill liao ". but well, not really a show case when so many pros around. And luckily, by the last round I'm getting 105 for my score. Finally is coming back, the first few rounds was complete agony! 33? 62?WTF! The dinner was quite fun too with gerry acting idiotic. But I really cant agree with the serving of live prawns, especially when you can see the prawns keep jumping about on the hot plate or its legs curling in the steamboat. And talk about cruelty to animals when people are doing such gruesome things. Good thing about the dinner was we got a part time chef among us ( luckily ), else i dunno how we will gonna to eat the raw food. All guys some more.. In short, I wun recommend anyone to steam boat at marina. Is unhygienic, troublesome (unshelled prawns uncut crabs etc), not tasty and extremely hot!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
11:44 PM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

i don't wanna wait no longer;
12:38 AM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

So tired recently..
mentally drained, physically exhausted. A lot of things happened, but not a moment of peace to pen them down. Anyway, will be using another blog soon. A blog which can provide me with more privacy and control. Different people blog for different reason. Some people uses their blog as an outlet for their anger and frustration, others may only blog happy events so that their friends can share their joy. In the worst case scenario, one may just blog about their mundane life and bored everyone, which is exactly what my recent entries are all about! The thing is I dun want to write about my day-to-day stuff, but surely I cannot possibly write how a bastard my clique friend was to me in this blog especially when he is reading it right? or openly describe the army politics i encountered here? A blog which dun allow me to vent my feelings, which I always censor till I'm so irritated that I cant be bothered to write about the joyous stuff, then I still use it for what!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:28 PM

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Hope you all had an enjoyable holiday this year. For me, I bascially collected almost all the hong bao on 初 一 ~ $160. $100 from my dad, $50 from my mum, and $10 from my next door neighbour. And 初 二 i'm already back on duty. A bit sad, but I'm sure there's a lot more people out there for the same cause. We're not alone. Nevertheless, I'm glad to say that this will be my last new year served in NS =) While discussing about our hong bao this year, I realized that one of my platoon mate actually gotten an empty hong bao during the holiday. Hai.. Next time at least put in the effort to stuff newspaper inside so that we can feel your xin yi! kidding la.. think is just a case of giving out the wrong hong bao. Anyway, went to 华 老 师 house the following day. Met up with some of my ex classmates. The guys still as much 废 话 as ever, but the girls really blossomed a lot. Yunhui is very slim now and her hair looks good on her, and yan shan looks so much more matured. But throughout the mini gathering, our ex chinese tutor kept correcting our chinese. Even Simple words we used like "吃 先" was wrong in her vocab. She said that was a direct translation from "eat first", and the proper way of saying should be "先 吃".. Well, I'm sure I will Eventually remember what she taught me. But then she kept addressing me as "A", yet she can still talk about the gals who failed to turn up eg milene, wang wang etc.. Think she had forgotten me, so sad! I thought she will at least remember me as the boy who slept in class. Played pool afterwards, and I think my skills had improved by a bit ( think only ). Good start for the year, and was even more happy to see my friend recovered from eczema. Congrats!


*a lot of things I dun want to blog it this way, but some people out there are reading this blog ( and U ). And a lot of thoughts cannot be written here much as I want to. so restricted..


i don't wanna wait no longer;
9:41 PM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Tried out my new long sleeve shirt yesterday, and I thought I looked quite different and more matured. But who knows Bird and Jeremy said I looked more like playboy. Wth.. Anyway, Jeremy was late as usual and luckily I brought forward the meeting time in anticipation. But Bird was actually EARLY, and even earlier than me. Almost cant believe it. She said it was because of her flat hp battery which caused her to feel insecured and so she dun dared to be late. So I guess she just have to forget to bring her hp everytime and we wun have to wait so long le. But it was a good thing Bird was early. I already felt damn awkward to carry the flowers alone on the mrt, especially when almost everyone took turns to stare at me. Speaking of the flowers, it was another tedious chore. Everyone agreed it was a good idea to give synn tian flowers, in case she was the only one who nv receive flowers then pai seh. End up still me buying, and worse, I never knew what type of flowers she liked. Actually no one knows la. Lilies seem too elegant for her, but roses are like too girly for her. haiyo! I also forgot how I managed to choose the flowers eventually =) Anyway, yesterday outing was full of hip cups which made me realized 3 things. first, I still cant control my emotion, still have to make caustic remarks to release some of my fury when things never go as planned. Second, I'm starting to believe in "Blink", the power of thinking without thinking. The map I saw only showed 1 bus stop in front of UCC when there's actually 2. This lead me to think that UCC should be on my left, so throughout the whole journey, me and lq were keeping a lookout on the left. Then I saw this big grant building on the right which gave me the "concert-hall" look. Told lq, and he reply "thought u said is on the left?" agreed with him, and looked to my left. Saw the basketball court, and suddenly remembered what weiling was telling me. Wanted to alight, but too late! And like what weiling had warned me, the next stop will be freaking far away. Thirdly, through this whole thing, I realized I was the only one who bothered to do some background research first. Wondered what would happen if I suddenly din managed to come. Btw, the dance was awesome! Saw a Jolin-look-alike. She was damn good, and damn hot! although everyone else are doing the dance move, the way she do it and carry herself really make her stand out from the rest. And saw a different side to synn tian, haha din know she can dance. I guess people can actually change, haha.. but I dun like the wayang show, still dun get it even after the whole thing. maybe it's an abstract version of the play, or is just there to add the artistic effect. Anyway, the dance will be quite enjoyable if not for my gastritis recently. It's sporadic, and each attack is getting more frequent and longer, the pain sharper and more intensified. Army has taken its toll on me..


i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:31 AM

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Today is the total defence day. Had a mini NE tour around Singapore with the starting point at City Harvest Church. Mmm.. the church really surprise me. With the scale of community center from the outside, it was fully air-conned and secretly hold an indoor 2 storey auditorium in its basement. Like wat my platoon mate says, the auditorium is big enough to even host Project SuperStar competition ( imagine the size ). As poor as a church mouse.. dun really seem to apply here. Throughout the whole day, heard a lot of discussion about the city harvest church culture. Can't really accept wat the church is practising, but just respect their way la. Anyway, back to the NE tour. Our first stop was URA- Urban Redevelopment Authority. Been here 3 years ago with my JC clique, for the same NE tour. the mini version of Singapore made of small wooden building was still there, walked the landmark of singapore, ate the same 和 记 粥 bird recommended and treated us, images from 3 years kept flashing back. It was almost like deja vu. haha.. still remember how that time we rushed back to tj to watch the temasek idol, and sneaked bird in without tickets. The old days.. foolish us. haha.. The 2nd stop was the Singapore General Hospital museum. I still dun get it, how come we are not allowed to take photos in the museum when the display shown do not have any sensitive material, and seem able enough to take the flash of camera ( even so, we can dun use flash). But the question they asked was a bit too easy/stupid. Qns : " wat is the instrument used to candle an egg ?" Ans : egg candling device. Another one " name 2 pigment of blood". Well.. not very straightforward for the rest, but then they forgot that some people used to take biology in A level. And although I still dunno how I manage to scrap a B for biology, I still know such basic stuff!! All in all, this was quite a pleasent trip. Just board the bus, sleep, have some fun, lunch, sleep on bus, refreshment, then sleep on the bus back followed by book out and day off for tml =)


i don't wanna wait no longer;
8:31 PM

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Happy birthday my friend, and happy valentine day to everyone else! Is such a pity that ur birthday has to fall on valentine day. Such that when everyone was wishing u happy birthday, I think half of our mind was secretly praying that we wun have to celebrate with u next year. Maybe that was in ur mind too =) As the clock struck 12 last night, I had just started my mid-night shift at the gate sentry with my rifle, and my buddy and me. The ambiance was not very encouraging. In the dead of the night, 2 lonely guys doing duty in the cold air under a dark starless night, with only the buzzing sound of the radio breaking the stillness of silence. And to make thing worse, the radio was not very helping. There's this "special" programme being broadcast for valentine day. And somehow, there must be a 20-years-old guy who complained on the air that he spent 20 years of valentine day alone--dun have to keep reminding me right? Anyway, took out my handphone to sms the other loners out there not to be discouraged. But I was quite surprised when somebody replied me. Turned out that I was not the only one who was deprived of sleep in this joyous festival.
On a happier tone, I'm quite pleased with myself that I've finally tried to stop taking the easy way out. Pity I was not so focused 3 years back in J 1 , if not many things would have been so so much different. For example, I began to play pool 3 years back, but started to anyhow play after experiencing the difficulty to control the cue stick, and ended up still a newbie now. But now, I made sure every shot counts even though most of them still keep going of out control. And I promise myself to stop the barley nonsense after cny, something which I should have done cleanly 2 years back. And a lot of other things as well.. Willing myself to move on with each step..changing myself, slowly but certainly. The most basic form of discipline is self discipline. And to another good friend, I know this will be a hectic week for you, and I dun want to bother you with my sms. But all the best to you for the next 2 days, EndurE! and u can rest le, at least for a short while. mmm.. think by the time u are free to read this, it will be over liao. But Just know that we nv forget u and had given u our blessing =)


i don't wanna wait no longer;
7:27 PM

Friday, February 09, 2007

I knew this confinement will be a tough period, but I never expected to feel so much pain. First night of confinement I already saw one of my bunkmate weeping secretly on his bed, while 2 other guys from sea side quarreling uncontrollably. And now they even deprived us of the right to take leave. For me, it could mean missing a last dance, for others it spell the end of a valentine date. A guy told me this morning "this was a god-forsaken place.. and god left us a long time ago". but then, perhaps god wasn't even here in the first place. Right from the start, maybe ours was meant to be a condemned unit..
Fighting hard to think positively, but with every step I take, my faith and morale just keep draining away. We were meant to fight the terrorist, but before we even contacted, we were half killed in the one-sided war waged by the officers, destined to lose from day one..
Beneath the starry night lies the brave souls of the courageous hearts, in grief, helpless and dying..苦 海 无 边


i don't wanna wait no longer;
8:26 PM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

So much things to say! but dunno where to start from, so pls dun mind me if I'm jumping from point to point. here goes: Just came back from a shopping trip. This must be one of the most tiring shopping ever. Having slept only 3 hours the previous night, I felt like vomitting so much during the shopping. But no choice, cox I know if I dun do my new year shopping today, I probably wun have the chance to do it before chinese new year. All thanks to my confinement ( inside info ) by my commanding officer. And though I still dun think he has any good reason to do it, I wun really condemn him for this. Think I sorted out my thoughts this 2 nights especially after the haircut session conducted by my new csm ( discipline master ), and the enlightening talk by my old csm. And my gut feeling.. No matter how I see, my new commanding officer ( co) dun seem to be that bad a guy. Maybe he just want to show that he is in power and this is His dynasty or watsoever. And my new csm, though the changes he implemented are rather irritating, after following it for one day I think we are not that much affected. Fine-tuning, I would say. It will be the sea side and the other land side platoon, which have been slacking for so long, which will absorb the most effect. Seem to me my new csm just want to set the standard he expected from us, which is something quite logical. And to say the truth la, after reaching his standard which we adapted to within 1 day, we are already so UP there, how can they possible make thing anymore worse! As for the confinement, though is unreasonable, I actually manage to find some comfort in it as I realise this time I wun feel so much pain. cox of the good friends I made in this unit, who will make bad times so much better. To me, this will be a test of our platoon integrity, and a period of helping each other out. Tough time dun last, but tough man do. Dun really want to be so tough a man, but I sure want to clearly remember the tough time and especially the people who went through it with me. Tough time can be good memories, that's depending on how positively we take it =) With that, I rendered my 2 previous entries useless and deleted them as they might land me in a lot trouble next time. To NSmen, think positively la, u are only here for 3 weeks! And lets hope after this 2 weeks of giving the standard they want, they will give us the welfare they promise. Anyway, I'm drifting away from my original topic- the shopping! Bought 3 shirt today, but realise all 3 of them are white colour based. But think my taste of shirt has undergo some changes, which is a good thing. Is time I start to grow up. SO PLS, stop saying I'm CARTOON! U KNOW WHO U ARE! Quite broke now le.. The 3 shirts alone cost me ~$120, then come home and give $200 to my parents. $100 for them to pass to my uncle who shattered his leg bone in an unfortunate motorcycle bike accident ( so many traffic accident recently, luckily I nv pass my btt that time ). I know is a bit little for him who cant be working for quite a while, and I certainly wished I can give more, but also no choice. Hope he can appreciate my xin yi. And for my parents, also a bit of xin yi la. chinese new year coming, hope can do a part for my family also. Afterall, I still can manage to give them hundred bucks when I'm drawing a recruit pay of 350 per month in tekong. Is only after I'm posted out, and my spending power increase so much that I stopped giving them $$. Though just now they say no need la, 100 bucks to them also not much, but deep in my heart I know they pretend pretend only la. I bet they must be damn happy now. Haha.. once in a while, let them know that I still care for them, just that my limited monthly NS allowance really quite restrict me. BUT AGAIN, after this type of spending, when can I possibly save up enough money for my GREAT PLANS AFTER ORD and THE DIVING COURSES!! NOT TO FORGET MY DRIVING COURSE ALSO! ARGHH!!!!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
8:47 PM

Friday, January 26, 2007

Just return from combat shoot today. The mood was quite relaxing, since no one was aiming for marksmanship. It wun be exactly impossible to attain marksman, but I would say it will be an ambitious attempt due to the combat shooting (group)session. In essence, is either all marksman or no marksman in a detail. It was almost like going for an arcade kind of thing, just for us to shout around and make noise while having fun - something that I never experience before when I was still a trainee with strict instructors threatening us with "extra". But this combat shoot also make me realize that I now hate outfield. Haix.. ever since I left tekong, I used to thought the best part of it was field camp because of the relaxing night and the exposure to nature. Now, after being void of outfield since tekong, I'm beinging to settle in my own comfort zone without knowing it. Even one day of range is uncomfortable to me now. And I was still thinking of going to some island resort and live a life away from civilisation for few days after I ORD!! I NEED RE-TEKONG! Anyway, dinner was real bad just now. I cant believe it, but it was really much horrible than the out-ration I ate while on duty. That's why, never think of yourselves suffering everyday cox there are always people in worse state than you! Time now is 2349, and I'm blogging this in camp cox I volunteer for they duty tml since I dun have any plans on sat. Starving now! Dinner was bad, din get to eat more than few mouthful, had to stay in, with no more ration left in my cupboard. Resort to munching some expired nightsnack left on the bunk table since few days ago. And to add on, in this big building, there's only 4 ppl left for tonight, and only me alone in the bunk. Sad.. but Great job to all my detail mates for the day shoot. I think we are gan zai!! almost marksman=) but night shoot.. haha. need to sleep le. CYA!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
11:30 PM

Monday, January 22, 2007

Just realized I spent $51 bucks on doctor last week alone. Seem like health cant be taken for granted. Anyway, I fully appreciate the importance of 5 minutes today. Because of this 5 minutes delay which can be avoided by doing simple things like walking faster or dun be choosy with the clothes, I made myself look like the world greatest fool! The same story has to be repeated again and again because it sound so stupid that no one will believe. Here it goes.. yesterday I went to see a private doctor and got a mc for today. However, I was feeling much better last night except for my sore throat. So I decided not to use my mc since I need to get some stuff from the Emart urgently for my NS friend. The plan is I go to the sport complex as usual, and report sick to get some lozenges ( the stupid doctor forget to give me) while others are having their sport and games. Then proceed to Emart to buy the stuff. Afterwards have lunch with my platoon friends and sleep in bunk till I book out or smoke out. And in case Emart no longer sell it, I will go to beach road to buy after booking out ( an important promise ). But then! Due to some traffic jam and overloaded buses, I was late for the sport and games. Normally, I would just be scolded or sign few extra, but now because of the wayang OC rule ( anyone late, the whole platoon will be confined), I will be sabo-ing my platoon mates. So LL no choice, used my mc. From then onwards, everything is so idiotic already! Got mc still come back to camp to buy things from e mart? to report sick? Then what should be report sick IC put under my status : "absent but supposed to be here? absent with mc? present but reporting sick?" If put present but reporting sick, I'll be labeled as late and whole platoon will confine with me. Real DUMB! And the worse thing is I din go to beach road eventually cox my fever start to act up after I leave camp. So eventually, I wake up at 0550 today just to go back to camp for 4 hours and say the crazy story and be laughed at. WHAT A DAY!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
4:05 PM

Friday, January 19, 2007

Write and delete, again and again. Cant believe I'm actually stuck at writing my blog. I guess I simply haven been blogging for too long. Just to update the few people who knew I reactivated my blog. In military life, my arm was recently injured during an activation. And Suddenly I was frightened though this injury is nothing new to me. Will this affect my chance to stay combat? I was just starting to enjoy my military life, especially the new lifestyle introduced by my new commanding offiicer. But thanks god, the injury dun seem to leave a lasting effect. But other than this, everything is so so wrong.. Started to feel lost again. Sometimes doing duty really wake up my idea, especially when I do not have anything else to do, and is forced to rethink over a lot of stuff. My friends.. so much things are happening to them. severe skin disease, overwhelming stress, relationship problems, and all I can do is only to believe in them even when they lose faith. But is this enough? I wish I can do so much more to help them. And regarding my dream, I guess sometimes less is more. A good friend can be so much more valuable, right? anyway, broke my army spec 2 weeks ago. But reverting back to my old spec, I realized wat a blind I was last time- the result of too much dota. School, dota, dinner, dota, sleep, dota again.. I guess dota made me blind in many other aspects too. I nv notice too much around me, and never get to appreaciate wat I had before. Are things really meant to be missed only after they are gone? Maybe my previous lifestyle was too rush, perhaps I should really slow down to see clearer, and pay more attention to my surrounding. Just like I never notice there are fireflies in my camp


i don't wanna wait no longer;
8:08 PM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

I should have told you this more often
but it's usually my way to hope that you already know
all the nice things I could say...
so have a happy day
and remember as you do
you are a very special person and
I think the world of u...


i don't wanna wait no longer;
12:49 AM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

haix.. what can go wrong will just go wrong! I failed my BTT, and not to mention all the bad things that happen. To start with, I return home this afternoon to only realise my mum tidy up my room. I know my room is always in a mess, but is like home to me, at least I know where I left my stuff. As a result, I lost my receipt for my application as a private student which means I went home for nothing except to rush a taxi in Cat 1 and late for BTT. Without the receipt, I dunno where to report, was made to look like a fool to run about from one place to another -- 15 minutes late and drenched. To make thing worse, my com is so faulty that I get pissed off by the non-responsive non-sensitive touch screen monitor. And the in charge speak with such patience "touch gently on the screen.." that it's MADDENING! I'm not a computer NOOB!! As for the BTT, it is actually not difficult, a lot of common sense. But the thing is it's so easy that many of my friends say this not important, that one wun come out, and I took their words for it. I guess minor minor stuff is what people always overlook and underestimate to their own cost..
Oh ya, reactivating this blog after like.. 2 years? haha.. A lot of stuff to blog cox I realise that somethings should not be said, some cannot be said, but cannot be kept inside myself also. Hopefully is safe to voice out my thoughts here. Btw, faced some difficulties with the coding of this blog. somehow, the blog will appear differently in Internet explorer and firefox, even when I'm typing in standard html text. Seem like I'll be customising my blog to look normal in internet explorer since more people is using this. So firefoxers, bad luck..


i don't wanna wait no longer;
4:47 PM

Friday, January 05, 2007

strange desires, weird emotions, indescribable thoughts.. the same feelings over and over again..wat should I DO!!!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:36 PM

Sunday, May 29, 2005

today supposedly got a taekwondo outing organised by the year 1, but now, dunno if it can still be called an outing. merely ten year 1 going, and perhaps 6 year 2?? so pathetic.. the number is boring enough, let alone the heavy downpour just now. Maybe is becox of the weather, I'm not exactly feeling the best. In fact, this weakling feeling had been hounding me for days. So drained.. cannot get anything done. Rather, cannot even think of doing anything. Play dota? waste of $$. Basketball? Badminton? swimming? so so tired.. For these past few days, I had been holding tightly to my hp, waiting & longing for a sms to ask me out to do anything! just name the time and place, and I will be there.. perhaps is due to this boredom that I nearly did something real bad. Luckily for my friends who are there, if not I might be making things real worst. Sorry if my sms had led u on. Till now, I still dunno if is u like me, or is just my friends who are thinking too much. but i only know i can only treat u as a.. good friend? I have to be faithful though she might not have noticed me at all. since 19th jan when I first met her, I know she is the one. And though she might be an unrealistic target, I dun mind just to be her friend now. haha.. crap la.. dunno what i'm talking also liao


i don't wanna wait no longer;
4:17 PM

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Just finish the taekwondo competition yesterday. Well, the venue is better than last year~ more official, but somehow, some feeling is lacking. Din really have the tense "competition" feeling unlike last year. wat an irony.. a big hall yet giving a feeling of emptiness. pathetic isn't it? The standard is relatively lower than last year too, much less the audience engagement. Lucky for that too, no one really wat a big injustice we did to ourselves yesterday. They must be laughing like mad..should not elaborate too much here. the green belt team 1 and my teammates should be able to share my mix feeling. Should be happy for tj since we manage to win the overall champion again, but we din contribute to their success though we have the capability. We let the club down.. Thanks for not reprimanding us and console us instead. After cooling for one night, I have finally see a bit through it. We may have lost grudgingly, unwillingly, bitterly, yet we have ended this chapter in our lives. Is time for a new chapter~ one that is filled with challenge, tests, and endless revision. No use crying over spilled milk too. Like wat JJ says, it may be a blessing in disguise. Wat we have gained may be more than just a controlled front kick. At least we share months of pain and joy together, pulling us closer. May the blue belt team spirit live on!!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:21 PM

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Just gotten back my march common test result recently. Well.. Fare good enough since lecture tests consist of only the difficult questions and the time duration is so short ~ approximately 35-40 minutes only. Gotten b3 for chinese, c6 for GP, E for Bio and Chem, B for Math and Physic. Chinese tutor's comment : hardworking and well-behaved student
GP tutor's comment : shengle still seems rather playful and distracted. He needs to be more proactive and forthcoming in discussions. He commits rather basic error where command of English is concerned. ( haix.. so embarrassing)
Bio tutor's comment : shengle holds himself in high regard although he has not been doing well in the subject. He does not seem to be working hard at all for biology and is not very willing to listen to advice. Easily distracted in class.
Math tutor's comment : His performance fluctuates from average to very good. Tends to be distracted easily by peers in class.
chem tutor's comment : shengle is definitely capable of doing much better in his work. He appears distracted at times and come across as still adopting an easy-going attitude towards his work. He needs to be more focused and diligent in his work.
Phy tutor's comment : shengle is a bright student. However he lacks focus at times. But eventually he should do well.
Civic tutor's comment : shengle is a bright student who is currently underperforming because he lacks the motivation and focus in his studies. He appears to believe that he will be able to catch up when the exams are near but he may not ne anle to do so if he keeps up this attitude of his and does not get down to serious study soon despite his intelligence. Should he adopt a more teachable and positive attitude towards his work, he will have no problems emerging among the top in his class. Shengle has an easy going and fun-loving character. His friendly and unassuming character allows him to mix well with his classmates, often providing much entertainment with his witty remarks.
My own comment : Should JC be adopting Uni style of doing things such as students being able to write comments about the lecturers, I can confirm that my bio tutor will have worsssssssse comment than mine.I have nothing to say about all the other tutors' comment. I admit to being distracted easily, admit to being underperforming, admit to being bright, but certainly not exerting an arrogant aura like wat the bio tutor commented between the lines. She is the slackest tutor among the 6 of my tutors, arriving in class just to flash tutorials for us to copy without any the smallest tinge of explaination. And unlike my physic tutor who finish marking our physic test within one day, she took the whole term to mark and return to us. To add on to my agony, she is so so so bias against me! Today we are supposed to have a bio lecture test. But due to me being sick on monday and tuesday and having taekwondo on wed ( the night before ), I din manage to finish studying. So today I was like " shit.. later sure die liao" Then, gladys told me that she was not taking the test today becox she was ill on sat and sunday and thus has no time to study.. She was excused without any scolding. But when me and 2 other friends asked her, she gave us a dressing down, in fact most of the scolding were directed to me. One of my friend said she got CO intensive training the night b4. She was like ".. okay" but she said a lot of rubbish when I said mine. Mine was a combination of gladys and my friend's excuse, so if I'm scolded, they should be scolded as well right?? But no, only i'm screwed upside down. In fact, she even mention about me indirectly during her tutorial which she used to scold us in front of the whole class. Is super obvious that she is just bias against me, and I wondered if it was because of my short arguement with her last year. If it was, then I think she got no rights to be a teacher. A teacher should be kind, helpful, understanding, encouraging, forgiving etc.. but if she was tat petty to rmb such a small incident for half a year and went all the way to pick trouble, then she is just a crap. By her comment, I'm cocky, but by my comment, she suck cock!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
9:16 PM

Sunday, April 10, 2005

yesterday was xinmin homecoming~ a super fun event. So ke xi I din manage to make it back. By the time I rushed back to hougang, it was already 3++. Can only join them for pool and lan. Haha.. but not bad also in the sense that I dun have to see her. Dunno how to react when see her. Just walk by and pretend never see her? SOund a bit cruel. Or say hi to her? but wat if she dao me? So quite relieved never has to see her yesterday. BUt pity, I lost the chance to meet up with my ex classmates and teachers also. So wasted. It had been so long since we have the chance to meet up. My current class is nothing like the ex 4e1. though both are good in different sense, but 4e1 is certainly more ON. More heck about result, and wilder =p Still remember the times we spent around $1000 to thank our chinese teacher, and the day when everyone cried on the last day of school whereas everyone else are busy celebrating. You all are really one class beyond words~ missed u all always!
But then, yesterday I'm kanna shouted by a gal ( not so gal ) for throwing a dunno wat to her in the name of fun. She was so rough in playing, Dunno why she suddenly had such a swing in mood and screamed at me. reminded me of tt day when I was shouted by shiping also. But nvm, next time dun play so much with her k liao. Woman are unpredictable..
Anyway, yesterday was not a complete waste. Taught my friend to play DOTA~ my new favourite game. Though I lost, it was a gg~ great game. Cox my partners all got heroes which i dunno how to teach them to use, luckily I know how to use my heroes. But is useless against skeleton king, crystal maiden and tide hunter. Hope they are addicted so that next time i got ppl to play with!! =p


i don't wanna wait no longer;
12:39 PM

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Only 2 things to say. First, Yt is the one who told ew and ch that I took back all the things from you. HOw can she not know about this rumor since there is a pretty good chance she started it? Second, I dun want to drag anyone into this and certainly not going to drag this futher. I was doing fine all by myself when this thing just hit me for no reason. Maligned, confused, sadden, disturbed, shocked, when one cannot feel such a range of emotion at the same time, I just exploded. Especially when so many gals do not believe me. I promised ew that I would end this quickly and I will. From now on, I will not blog anymore of these here, nor will I tag it on my tagboard. As I had said before in my entry on 16th Jan, no matter wat she does she is e winner. To those of you still have some doubts about what is the truth, start reading from my entries dated 16 Jan onwards, and just follow your heart but keep the comments to yourself. To ew, if u are reading this, I'm sorry. You never doubt me, and stood up for me. But think I created some hard feelings between you and them, esp kai. To kai, you did wat any man would have done, you stood up for your girlfriend, but dun condone her wrongdoings if she has. Is my fault that I dun have a clean break with huiqi. But now, I dun have anymore things to do with her. Watever she may say, I wun going to bother myself with it. There is another earthquake again. Relatively, our issues are of no more significance than the scurryings of ants in the wide universe. Hope you can see it. Now lets make it clear, we got a clean break. Yeah.. A clean break, a clean start =) For a person who is no longer by my side, is not worth not being myself. So sorry Sotong for letting you down. Never again ('',)


i don't wanna wait no longer;
6:40 PM

Friday, March 25, 2005

WAT THE FUCKING HELL?? I'm in the wrong again? Wrong for saying the truth? Wrong for saying that she is a fucking bitch? Excuse me, for the past weeks, I have to endure ppl saying I'm ungentleman, bastard etc all becox of her spreading I took back all the things from you after we break. Instead of hearing some apology, wat I got was downright scolding from you! Sometimes I wonder why din u just jolly well write down all the things I took back from you instead of writing words such as "Go ahead and announce wat i returned to u.. N yes, u merely took back some stuff". Issit becox u are so pleased with the misunderstanding? How can you not know about such lies spreading in aj when you are in Aj yourself? Or issit not yiting's fault that she misinterpret? Did you purposely say it to her in similar ways so that anyone would have misinterpret this way? If yes, then I will have to apologise to yiting liao. If NO, then does misinterpreting include spreading lies about me all the way from AJ right toTJ? One being in the north while the other being in the east... Since these lies can travel kilometres all the way to TJ, I wonder who dunno about it in the merely few hectares big AJ. I dun give a damn about wat u all say in AJ, but I certainly do care in TJ cox I thought that is my only shelter from U! U wrote before " One of the things i can never accept is when a fren say bad things about another friend of mine.. Especially when at that point of time, i'm close to both ", does this sentence apply unidirectional? That means only I cant say bad things about yiting while she can scold me ungentleman, bastard etc? you said I'm not fair to yiting, but when are you two ever fair to me? Fair for you two to say bad things behind my back? Fair for you two to disturb my life again when I finally gotten over you? Is never fair to judge based on one side of the story=> pls go to www.qi-er-4eva.blogspot.com to have the full picture and tell me WHO IS IN THE RIGHT!! OH MY SUCKING GOD, I"M SO FUCKING SCREWED!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
9:37 AM

Thursday, March 24, 2005

NOt that I wanna complain, but I really cannot help it. Something to clarify, I did not take back everything from HUIQI after we break! Is just some stupid bitch in aj who kept spreading this crap. The truth is this.. after we break, I did took back somethings from her. But wat I took back was just our first neoprint and first movie ticket. We kept an album for such things when we were together, and now I just wanted back these two things for memories sake cox i got my personal album too. If u dun believe, u can check with her. Like wat ppl says, hao lai hao shang. We have already break for quite a period of time, and I have finally finally gotten over it. I dun want to live in her shadow anymore, I got my own life, a new life. So yiting, can u jolly well shut the FUCK UP?? Dun disturb my life anymore! Quoted from westside story, " shi4 peng2 you3 jiu4 she mo4 dou1 bu4 yong4 suo1, bu4 shi4 peng2 you3 suo1 she mo4 dou1 mei2 you3 yong4 " meaning true friends will not question each other, but if the trust between friends is not present, then no matter how I explain, u will not believe me.. Hopefully the next time when I blog, I can stop complaining and write about my new life


i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:03 PM

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

It has been 1 and a half month since we break. Honestly, I have been thinking of patching it up with her, but I din. After seeing so much of each other for one year and having all those sweet moments, I just cannot accept her leaving me. Haha.. I created this blog 2 years ago so that I can have a common topic with her, well, this blog had served its purpose but not anymore. They say time can heal all wounds, and I agreed with that after reading one of her latest blog entry. Think she found a new love- her senior zhu tou, and I sincerely wished her all the best. Initially I'm quite surprised how little this news hurts, but think that's an indication that I have finally learnt to let things go. Hopefully they wun end up like us. If u are reading this blog, my last advice to you is that dun be influenced by yt. She is not a good influence. For one, she sure knows how to twist facts and exaggerate. With that, good luck with ur new love. Cya..
Now lets tuned back to tjc. To our BIGGEST friend in tjc, hope can have a heart-to-heart talk and clear everything up. A real man is one who is decisive and responsible. We are the titans- the real man. And if we are really at the fault, we will be responsible for our actions, just say it. Is tiring on Bird to be the messenger all the time, she needs the time to catch up on her work too. In fact, she is lagging too behind! In case u still dunno, your bad mood is affecting everyone including ur other friends! Hopefully, you will know wat to do after reading Bird sms to u last night using my phone.
Lastly, happy belated birthday to Junrong. Sorry I could not join you all last night. My climbing ended at 8 plus. After eating and waiting for bus etc, I reached hougang mall at around 10 when u all are starting to leave. So sorry for that. Btw, climbing is a diasaster. Strength with endurance is nothing!!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:05 AM

Friday, February 18, 2005

With chinese new year coming to an end soon, I thought I would have to repay all the "debt" I have acquired. Been slacking since year 1 and now is reaping what I have sown. Stress is finally getting to me. Din kn0ow that I even had the idea of ponning school to skip one lecture test. This is so unlike me- where is the integrity I have been talking about? The honour , glory , pride?? Luckily I dropped the idea in the end. But now is seriously considering dropping physic S paper, maybe can repay my debt of slacking for one year. On a more serious tone, I think I have to do something real soon, practically right now about our big friend in tjc. On the behalf of my group, I sincerely apologise to Esmond for the misunderstanding "L" had so unwittedly created. Esmond, please dun hold against him. After being with him for one year, you should know that he is always suaning people but with no bad intention. Is just his usual/ unique way of making a friendly conservation. I think is also right to say that "L" is not daoing you when he din speak to you during taekwondo. You know what he is like, he is always talking to jeremy about the cute year 1 gal "J" ( u know who right?? ) Maybe he is wrong to do that, but you can only blame him as a colourwolf, not as neglecting you. Like my case, I have already told you that even me and him dun speak much on bus alone, but that does not mean that either of us are daoing each other! Btw, do you really think we are all idiots who dunno that you suddenly avoided us? ESP when there are 3 guys in our group who are currently taking 2 S papers- the special force! Just kidding. Do you know how anxious "L" was to know the cause that he kept begging me during lecture?? He also tried to talk to you, but you are not responding. Though he put it in an extreme way, I think he is right to say that " Esmond kept embarrassing me. WHen I tried to talk to him, he either act as if he never hear it, or just fu yan me. Wo hao2 dai3 ye3 shi4 ge4 shuai ge1, he makes me very xia4 suey " I dunno so much about him being shuai ge, but he is certainly right to say that such incident can be very embarrassing. So when he gets embarrassed so often, he just gave up talking to you. As for me, I also dunno why you are angry with me. I dun think I have neglected you or anything in that sense. Is unfair of you to give us cold shoulder just because of such small misunderstanding. We also got our own problems to deal with. Do you know that fat just cried recently because of I dunno what?? And I still haven gotten over being ditched and here I am trying to console you. Lastly, I think I will also have to add that you are too zhong se qin you on the behalf of the 3 guys. Dun pretend about bird and fat. Alright, I have said all I have to or need to. What is to be done is done, all I/we can do now is to wait for you. Is really up to you.. Dun be stubborn.


i don't wanna wait no longer;
12:50 PM

Sunday, January 23, 2005

It had been a week since we break. This week have been quite disturbing for me as everywhere I go, I can see bits and pieces of our past dates. Went to queentown to get a new pair of shoes, returned empty hand and to be reminded that we once went there to shop for her shoes. Took 87 home one day, and remembered the times that we would board the same bus daily. haha.. DInno I would be taking things so badly even after I saw her true self. Hate to admit it, but I felt quite unused to her absence. Without her accompany, I dun feel like swimming in e early morning. Dunno who to sms when I'm bored, happy or sad. haha.. is diffcult to forget.. but today when I met here to collect back e things I left in our album, I feel like a complete idiot to feel this way. e expression on her face was so cold that it forcibly reminded me that it was her who wanted it this way. O cox she wun feel e pain as I do!! I was stupid last holiday, foolhardy last week, but not again. Showing such signs of weakness is not worth it for her! I MUST LIVE BETTER WITHOUT HER!! She no longer has control over my thoughts, my feelings and my decision!



i don't wanna wait no longer;
6:52 PM

Sunday, January 16, 2005

haha.. help no longer needed. I just realised her intention of doing all these thing.. is just a break she is pushing for, just that she dun want to be the one saying it. Maybe to maintain her demure image? I dunno.. no longer understand her. No wonder I'm treated this way since last holiday.. To think the whole of 2 months holiday, we only get to meet 3 times. Her excuses are very standard, either got service learning or CO. Now I ponder if she is really that concern about CO or is she just dun want to go out with me like wat my friends have suggested. She said she got CO 4 times a week, and cant pon cox da zhu is very rare practice and xiao zhu is important when she skip her practice to go shopping with her mum?? and when one of her team mate is allowed to go back to malaysia and skip all practices?? Even in tj, e malaysia scholars are needed to come back for cca.. now that i'm more rational than yesterday, I start to realise that for every way she treated me, is way below e way she treated her normal friends. Like for chrismas countdown, she can go out e whole day to celebrate with classmate, but when I wanted to countdown with her, she said she was only allowed for 30 mins. ( her 2 bro can go out whole night, and she has not care about this type of curfew since vv vv long ago ) Since she wants it near midnight, I rushed back from e orchard countdown to hougang. I waited.. and waited.. e time for countdown near and pass.. but she was still not in sight. everyone around me was counting " 3..2..1..merry chrismas" , but I was alone..A lone figure sitting on a bench. Then I walked to her block. Saw her walk out of lift, but went back in. When she finally arrived, she said, " aiya.. u just waited for a few minutes, my friends' bf all wait for hours without complain.." Haha.. I din scold her for I din wanted to spoil e chrismas mood but kept e anger within me. A few minutes late might be vv minor during normal date, but to a countdown, a few minutes late is a completely different thing. Her explaination was, she needed to go back for a chrismas letter to post to her senior and she had to make it in time for e next morning post. Good excuse huh?? I din receive a chrismas card or letter from her when she practically send to most of her classmates, seniors etc.. this chrismass letter to her senior is more important to me rushing back from orchard to countdown with her?? Her chrismas present to me is even more fantastic. Some pieces of cookie she baked. not bad? but she baking e cookies to her seniorSS also, and i'm just getting e leftover. From her blog, can tell that she had given more carefully-chosen presents to her seniors. She can have no time for me, and can have time to chose present for her seniors? Such good effort .. but is for her seniors and not for me. Maybe can see how she describe her whole day of celebration with her seniors, and compare to my half-an-hour countdown with her.. Best of all, read her tagboard to see how she flirt with her seniors.. couple gift somemore.. I must add also that after e break, I think she is going to sentosa directly to play with her classmate.. A damn bitch who dun care about my existance. And I suppose all her actions is because she want to anger me to have a break up cox she still care about her "demure image" so she cant say she wants a breakup directly. Maybe now, she will be telling now wat an asshole i'm to write how horrible she is on my blog so that she can complete her demure image and she, is e "real" victim. Or maybe, she will also be writing in her blog what a bastard I am to show that she can't stand me and a breakup is natural. Or, just keep silent about e whole thing so that when ppl read my blog, they will think i'm e bad guy?? Or maybe..maybe.. I do not know.. She is a deep one, a schemeing one.. which I realised too late..no matter wat she does, she is e winner.. Like what i say, maybe u all think i'm a horrible bastard to write all these thing here, or i'm a complete idiot to fall into her trap even when i know it, but I do not care.. Cox i know if i keep this inside me for another minute..another second.. I will die of frustration .. die of anger.. and now that i have written all this, I will get myself up.. not worth feeling all these for a schemeing bitch right?? no longer will keep anything inside me again.. never!!



i don't wanna wait no longer;
1:39 PM

Saturday, January 15, 2005

ARGGG!!!! There is something which I felt I really must say, or else I will be doing myself injustice!! Actually I haven been here for very long, and din think I will be back here, but I really dunno who else I can complain to!! Just start of the year ( 9/1), I went online and realised my girlfriend is there too. However when I talked with her, she din replyed. AFter waiting for vv long, I thought she was away doing other stuff, so sent out sms to her. BUt after vv long, she still din reply! Growing worried, I sent out another 2 sms to her, one asking her if she is alright cox she always suffer from stomachache. I also asked my friends online to talk to her, to see if she is just angry with me. But to no avail! After waiting for 1.5 hour, I can finally wait no more due to e anxiety. I called her handphone, she answered it. First question I asked, " are u alright??", her reply was " ya, i'm fine, i din see ur sms ". Then when asked why she reply me online, she said her bro was using her account. When asked wat she was doing, her reply was simple, " i'm chatting on the phone with my frenx cox she is very stressed up".. All the above sounded very simple right?? But dun be deceived, she is just taking us for a ride!!! ARGG!!! Firstly, her hp is a nokia phone. TT means when she received a sms, it will be written as "1 sms received" ( name of sender will be unknown unless she open it in e inbox ). That also means that she lied to me upon e first sentence. Rmb that i called her hp?? She ans it and said " ya, i'm fine, i din see ur sms ", issit a little too quick? she knows wat is e content of my sms when she haven read my sms. Unless her eyes is just beside her ears, how can she read e sms when she is using e phone to talk to me and she is not using a loudspeaker cox I can distinguish e difference.. Another thing, she said her bro is using her account. Look fine one e surface, but when u think deeper, why is he using her account?? to chat with her friends?? Why cant he sign out when so many of his sis friends is toking to him?? and then, how he knows her passwords? last time when i went to her house, her computer dun have different users, and that e msn is not auto-signed in to her account too.. or is she just taking me for an idiot?? That time i din say anything but just kept quiet althought i have already realised that her excuses are lame and there is a vv high probability of her lying to me. This week, when I sms at e nights, I got e same reply almost everynight. Firstly, she will take her time to reply my sms. Sometimes 20 mins for her to reply me even after her previous reply. ANd usually by e 2nd or 3rd sms (usually at 11 pm), she will tell me to go to sleep. Mind u, her supposedly reason is that she want me to slp early for e next day when she can chat with her ex hua chong classmate up to 1 AM. Or is she just tired of replying me?? This happen regularly at nightSS this week. When last night I sms her again, I dozed off while waiting for her reply cox her reply came after 1.25 hour of waiting. Her excuse was that she was eating dinner and she din check her hp. Today when I sms her, she took one hour to reply cox she said her was having a meeting, and is going for lunch (at 10 am, u believe it?) with one classmate. Surely such casual meeting would allow replying of a sms?? even so , her reply was so fast, that we used around 1.5 hour to exchange couples of sms which other couples would have completed within 15 mins. At 9 Am, i sms her, " sorry, i dozed off last night while waiting for ur reply. U are getting home so late, careful u dun get burnt out! u mean u all dun have breaks during evening". her reply came in at 10 Am, " sorry, meeting just end. now going for lunch with a classmate. Got break at evening, but i din take rice, so having dinner at night" I reply at 10.04, "wat meeting? later u got co? wat time start if have?" ( with great hope and purpose in me at that time). She din reply. I send AGAIN at 10.30. THen she reply that she dun have CO, but will be going to sentosa for service learning thing ( her excuse last holi for rejecting my dates 50% of e time, e other 50% is due to CO). the next reply is at 10.57 with just 10 words =S. Notice e difference between e timing when every sms i send is instant and she is just having "lunch" with one classmate but replying me almost half an hour later?? her next reply at 11.02, " wat e matter again? if i dun reply, u won't be happy. NOw i reply, u also not satisfied. dunno wat to say" just because i told her to read my sms carefully. The previous 10 words reply to me is " huh, wat hua chong friend, i'm not even with her" when my question to her is wat to do today, cox my plans for us and her sentosa trip clash. e hua chong friend is just e few words at e bottom and i din even mention about she being with her. Obviously, she is not bothering to reply my sms and is just taking a quick glance and replying 10 words sms for e sake of replying. Wat can i do with her??? SOMEONE PLEASE TEACH ME!! SHE IS NOT EVEN CONCERN WITH MY INJURED ANKLE WHEN IS HURTING ME SO MUCH LAST WEEK!! WAT CAN I DO!!!



i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:46 AM

Friday, April 30, 2004

yoZ eveyone, it have been such a long time since i come online. hai.. i used to come online almost daily last time. Wat is happening to me now?? starting to wonder.. to all those reading my blog now, if u happen to be a sec 4 student, then i got a piece of advice to you. ENJOY THIS YEAR! GO FOR eVERY OUTING. You wun get another such chance. Many a time this year, I used to think about all the things I have done in my sec 4. I know i wun have another such chance to do all that again. So now, I'm going to frame all these memories here. Maybe years later if this blog haven been deleted, I might have to come back here to find some wonderful memories.. Last year 21/3/03, we went to safari park to celebrate Alastiar birthday. Haha.. Morning play badminton. Still rmb we bought him a new racket and shuttlecock. Vv save money. Cox since then, we always get to play with good quality shuttlecock. Hehe.. that is my group. Think we made Alastiar do his longest walking distance. Actually we were also vv tired. But enjoy ourselves alot. Alot of jokes come out. Like chris can tok to the birds?? Then we went to Alastiar house to stay for a while. Idiot chris and enwei picked this time to tok abt ghost stories.. Wat meepok.. Frighten poor tbh running home.. but the few brave souls remaining were not much better. Junming and Enwei too scared to go home as they have to pass by some isolated area first before reaching home. And me, I had to call my dad to fetch me home.. Seem like the only christian, Chris, is the best among us.. dare to go home alone in the dark after listening so much ghost stories. Reminded me of something. Think before Alastiar, Enwei broke his left arm at basketball court near his house ba. Accidentally tripped by tbh. That is hw the court got its nickname " break arm court"


i don't wanna wait no longer;
11:12 PM

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

yoZ, this is the dunno wat day of the orientation. Think I'm abit slow. After about 4 months in tjc, I'm just starting to feel its life, passion, wildness and freedom. Today we had our amazing race which is a clear deviation from my sec 3 sjab amazing race. In that race, I got to walk such a long distance till my legs almost break. Also, that time we are all cursing qingnan who was in charge of planning the race. But today, we had a great time. Boarding bus no. 12, we were the first group to arrive at the Tanah Merah Mrt. Firstly, we bribed the station masters with chewing gums. Clever hor? While other groups cheered like mad and only got about 30 marks, we easily got hundreds of marks. WINNERS right?? then the rest of the journey is not much worth mentioning cox nth really special except got to see a super chio gal from tkss. Much more chio than most of the xinmin gals =p Heard that she used to be one of the two belle in tpjc for the first three months. Almost like princess snow white, she got a flawless fair complexion. This remind me of something. Today the orientation organisers got a surprising complain from the parent. It says that the orientation organisers should not organise such orientation cox their precious daughter got SUNBURNT!! diaox.. I got nothing to say. maybe cox is gals ba and all those things about dainty gals, but better dun let me hear got boys will complain about sunburnt hor. If not I bring him to the toilets to check if he still got his manhood! Hey, better dun sidetrack too much. Then we went to east coast park MacDonald's to pick up kerwei who is a new member of my class. HENG arx.. IF not, then really all xinminians dispersed liaox. Cox is at the beach, we got a lot of water games ('';). Met VJC people in the park. O cox, the organisers wun let go of the chance to show their commitment to tjc. THus, we did a TJ cheer in front of the vj. In return, they did victoria cheers for us to know their passion also. Since vj also using east coast park as their venues, so the two jc ppl always meet and cheers from each school are very oftenly heard. Haix.. neighbour jc for so long liao. Must have happened many times b4. Mjc is different. Althought we met them on the bus, they cheer us on. Good school huh =D? However their teachers on the other end of the bus were not happy, kept shouting them to be quiet, but the mj students also dun care ('',) WAY TO GO! Among the mj students, I met an ex Tj student. Actually I also dunno him. THink must thank MILENE. He was in her class. Maybe last time I'm not so close with my class, so always find her. Therefore her class ppl see me till sian liao. But nevertheless, we got a nice chat for a couple of minutes. Tjc ppl very amiable de worx.. Perfect example is ME! hehe.. Anyway t east coast park, we had a 2 games. Meiqin is the station mistress of the first game. Yesterday hor, I met my primary school friend in the winning rival. So she very give face, only draw a small cross on my forearm. BUt hor, meiqin being the station mistress said that is not enough, so use LIPSTICK to draw on my face! kaox.. 4 years of frenx liao.. later I got pimples how?? Nvm, I got my revenge today =D. Pour a lot of water on her, and together with my very ON classmates, we dunk her into the sea water! hehe.. bao chou le! get revenge from hearing her screaming and feeling her struggle! TT is wat we mean by WET GAMES! but we bargin for too much later liao la. Actually is 200 points for the organiser to protect himself from being dunk by us into the sea. but then got another female organiser give us 400 points to dunk him into the sea. Wat to do.. must do wat the highest bider say mahx. Then we waited and carried the male organiser just above the sea level so that the bottom of his shirt and pants feel the water while they bargin. Haix.. in the end, they both give us 650 marks in total to dunk ourselves into the sea and do tjc cheer. too much to ask hor liao! haha. but we still have fun. WE ARE FROM TJ!!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:16 PM

Saturday, March 20, 2004

haix.. jae posting result is out today. Well, i get into tjc. haix.. vv sian liao. gf posted to ajc instead. Got 1 year and 9 months of lonliness. Maybe I should have listened to my friends. Put Ajc as first choice and dun print the verification Slip. Then tell my Dad that tjc very difficult to get into.Wun even accept a 8-pointer. Wonder if anyone really do that. If so, they must have been very daring. So now wat? Try to appeal to ajc and anger my dad? Or enjoy myself in tjc without caring for other things? Must admit that I'm lost at the moment. All my xinmin friends are in ajc, but tjc classmates are quite nice also. Still got 2 more days before the start of the next term. Maybe I should just go to tjc and have a new life there. Be the usual self and make a come back in the A level and went on to army and U etc? haix.. so sad that she din get into tjc.. or else i will enjoy my 1 month and 9 month there more le.. wonder if she feel the same.. haix...


i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:01 AM

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

yoZ, haven been posting here for very long. In fact got more than 1 month liao. Hopefully by next term, I can have a better time management. So how is everyone? Is still the same for me. Getting to like tjc more le. Esp my classmates. Hope u all are doing fine also. Anyway, I just went for an interview for the oversea attachment. Kinda of discouraged there. Everyone was from the top few schools like chinese hign, dunman high. Hate to admit it, but my chances are vv vv slim. Think I only get to talk for about 4-5 minutes whereas the other two in front of me spoke for a very long time. Can't be helped. One is from chinese high, and the other is from RV. What is xinmin compared to them?? Maybe I should learn from guoan, backed out at the last minutes so that wun be so discouraged. Nevertheless, it is a good experience for me. Finally get some break for slacking. But also, I had been slacking since school start. Let this holiday be the last slacking time for me. Must work hard like before liao. Or else if A level result to the Anderson students, confirm will be laughed at. Tjc is not bad a school, cant disgrace this new school of mine. Lastly ppl, feel free to exchange notes with me. Just contact me via sms. I also need other schools GP notes.. U all better dun slack anymore also liao. buaix~


i don't wanna wait no longer;
2:20 PM

Friday, February 06, 2004

Haix.. so long nv post liao. Everyday do hw until vv sian liao. Jc is jus so stress! Today I just have my first test in jc. Think I'm going to fail or just pass only. Haix.. When the teacher see my paper, he will instantly know that I'm practically sleeping during lectures. The careless mistake which made me lose 7 marks out of 20 is stressed a lot of times durng lessons.. And why did I have to remember it only during the last 5 mins?? I should have remember it earlier or jus dun remember it mahx.. then at least I would not feel so bad. Tml I will be taking my first grading for taekwondo--the white belt. Must wish me luck hor.. or else I do my taekwondo training on u :o hehe.. To my frenx in the other jcs, how are all of u?? Hope u all are having your share of fun worx.. But while u are doing that, dun forget to think of me hor! Buaix!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
1:38 PM

Friday, January 30, 2004

haven been posting for a long time. about time i write something liao.. been ill recently. not a good feeling.. it had been so long since i last fall ill.. think tt's becox i'm lacking exercise liao..haix..just been to the health and fitness club where i get to use some of the gym equipment. Hate to admit, but my muscle are no toned =( must train again liao. or else every week pe will die one. tue is pe, wed is working out at gym, thu is pe again.. think my arms cannot rest liao.. somemore, sat is 1 hour plus of stretching.. haix..if this goes on, i will confirm be vv fit by ns..


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9:24 PM

Saturday, January 17, 2004

Hi everyone, I just realised that we dun have to be torture by running. In fact, there is something so easy for others, yet so tortuous for many ppl like me also. Imagine stretching for 1 hour and 30 mins .. cool right?? Well, maybe for the girls.. but for the boys with rigid muscle, its a tough job. But vv luckily, one part of the stretching I can do without any difficulty. So happen we need to lay down for that stretching, so while others are struggling, I'm practically slacking (",). And is kuan ming zheng da de.. Come to think of it, I remembered that this is something similar to wat I did last time. That time we are supposed to sit in a vv wierd position on bed. And among my frenx, only shijie and I managed to do that. But hor, they say those who are able to do it are mainly gals... now I think we can change that mindset liao ba =P


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10:26 PM

Saturday, January 10, 2004

Haiz.. been back in jc again due to unforeseen reasons. During these few days of orientation, they had been having their share of fun. But me, I only had my share of sun tanning. And dunno if is bad luck or good luck. guo an is in my same class. Still the same him, but he had changed a lot..spiky hairs and even bought birthday presents for the gals he had only knew for one day. Dunno if is attention-seeking or just pure good intention. Or maybe, the gal is chio ba. Other than that, my new classmates are quite okay. Although dun have those beautiful gals, there are some cool looking guys. If any unattached gals are interested in them, i can intro worx..=)


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2:40 PM

Friday, January 02, 2004

yoZ ppl, I haven been posting anything here for quite a while. sorry abt that. A bit tied up these few days. Today is the start of many jc. Haix.. think wat someone scolded me did make sense. I'm very sorry that to snatch the chance to enter tjc away from the first guy who was rejected to the jc. A bit of ironic, so many ppl want to go but i choose not to. Wonder how many ppl were shocked by this decision...Btw, these few days during my work, I realised something about my o level. I got this physic qus and i thought of something which should be the correct ans. But wat scared me was that I realised none of those i discuss the qus with had that ans. Wat should i do?? I'm kinda of sure of the ans i just thought of....


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11:37 PM

Tuesday, December 16, 2003

Sorry everyone, few days ago my angelfire account is down. So my background music and picture are not available at that time. Erm.. I haven been updating my blog for quite some time due to my tight working schedule. As a waiter, I got to work for 8 hours per day. Haix.. dunno is bad luck of qiao he, met deborah and yancheng.. Both bully me cox they are the customers whereby I'm the waiter!! But thanks to them, i get to have some joy at work during that few days? or else will be bored and bored and bored... Luckily, there is some arrangement for transfer of manpower and the new comers are vv humourous worx.. maybe next time, I should get their photo to liu lian4..


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12:57 AM

Thursday, November 27, 2003

It was the graduation dinner last night.. Think it must be one of those most money-consuming event for this year. Everyone was so stylish attired. The clothings alone must have cost a bomb. My friends and I bought our clothing at access the other day. While doing some gentle sun-tanning, we decided to meet at my house yesterday to dress up together. Firstly, we started at 3 plus to iron our shirts. Have some fun with pillow fight also. Then we moved on to make our face more presentable. When all these is done, we wore our attire and do our hair. Although is just a few things to do, we used up almost 3 hours to get them done. A bit kua zhang for guys horx?? Bringing along our invitation cards and a blazer and some flowers, we set off for the big show at around 6. With great eager and anticipation, we parted at blk 836 with me walking towards huiqi's house. Seem like I arrived a bit early and had to kill time by watching tv shows. The first sms arrived when my friends informed me that they were already caught in traffic jams. With less than 1 hour to 7 o'clock ( the time the ball start ), I had no choice but to call huiqi's hp even though there is just a distance of perhaps 5 metres and a door separating us. Despite the din inside the room, I managed to make out her words that they are almost ready. After dunno how long, I got a big shock upon seeing the gals coming out of the room. No wonder they took so long.. their hairstyle alone was impressive enough. Chatting casually, we advanced towards oriental hotel in taxi. Luckily the taxi driver was smart to avoid the jams and picked a much quicker routh. Upon arriving, I was greeted by a scene of people clad in black clothings ( esp the girls ). Seem like the girls are dressed similarly. Black dress/gown/tube and rebond hair. On the contrary, guys can classified in big classes. One big group wearing blazer, tie , the other wearing long sleeve with or without tie. Leaving only some minority wearing clothings of unique style put together by the access designers ( mainly us ! ). During the dinner, I made an unforgivable mistake of making the e2 guys sit with us. The boring dinner was made worse by the heavy silence which hung at our table (due to boy-girl shyness) and the pompous speech by our pincipal. Think the most interesting thing at the dinner which happen to me is this : I was watching enwei ( the first runner-up for prom king ) doing the catwalk. Erm.. quite attractive to some la.. but the thing is, after he turned one round and did a pose, I assumed that he had finished and thus turned my head back to the table. However, when I return my glance to the stage in the hope of seeing another catwalk, I saw that was still enwei with another pose. A bit wasted.. some said he was very entertaining and did a total of 3 turns ( i saw only 1 ). After the dinner, we spent quite some time taking photos with our friends. Then we were back to heavy dancing in the hot music which made our bodies vibrating in time with the beat. But too bad, huiqi and I were not gd dancers for music like this. Kana dragged by our friends, we joined in the fun. Even though we dunno how to dance, think we enjoyed ourselves a lot ba. The end of rap music signalled the start of some slow music. During this time, I must agreed that some gals are very open with their dance partners ( but mainly is gals "earn" ). After saboing me again and again, my friends left me alone with huiqi. O cox I made use of this chance to escape with huiqi, leaving them to a game of hide-and-seek with us. Idling around, we finally made up our minds for the progamme of the night. However due to some protests, huiqi and I left for home. To huiqi, Thanks for making this special event, which took place once in a lifetime, so unforgettable for me. I enjoyed myself a lot. To e2 guys and junming, sorry for boring u all at the tables. Think we all very shy in the presence of gals la.


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10:55 PM

Friday, November 21, 2003

Yoz everyone, haven been posting anything here for a long time liao. But since o level is over liao, I got too much time to spend until dunno wat to do liao. So can keep posting entries here again!
Yesterday is my sixteen birthday. Finally!! I have been waiting for it for a very long time. This sixteen birthday marks the day when I can be recognised as a mature guy ( i hope ), but it certainly enabled me to play pool official as wat my frenz kept emphasing. This pleasant day started off in the middle of night with some of my friends smsing good wishes to me. A bit early is yanshan, the one who is older than me by only 8 days, but still appreciate ur thoughts. Then the most punctual guy came in, namely jun ming. He was also the first person to sms me last year. Thanks for that! Then following close behind is mr hu enwei. Just few seconds after junming. After that is Milene. Seem like the first 3 ppl are the same as last year. So touched that u all still rmb my birthday after 365 days. Next is huiqi. I saw wat u had written in ur blog. Since my birthday over liao, I as mature as u liao! Both of us 16th liao mahx. After huiqi is yancheng, shijie and wangwang. Erm wangwang, I cannot sms u in the middle of the night on ur birthday cox the next day is our bio. But I din forget abt ur birthday (",). On the early morning came more sms. The first sms came at 0918 or something like that. Yun hui, the first gal I spoke to in xin min, woke me up with her birthday wish for me. Luckily for that, or else I would be late. Then followed by kelvin ( my yun shi xiong ). Haha, think he sms enough to know my sleeping time slot. He must be surprised to know that I woke up so early that day. While replying kelvin, I made my way to the flats. After waiting for some time and calling huiqi, I realised that I was at the wrong place. No wonder I cannot see u all. So after spending some time to recall the location, I strode towards my first present. Arriving at the correct location, I saw a gal clad in yellow clothings trying to light the candle. Milene, I'm sorry for making u light the candles so many times until u hurt ur thumb. Really paiseh. After listening to a birthday song sang by huiqi, milene and jiaying, I cut the beautiful cake made by huiqi. Like wat milene said, huiqi is the gal who can go kitchen and come out of kitchen. Had a fun time cutting the cake.. first time cut cake into so many slices. Usually my bro would fight to do the job. Then is time for the presents part. Heard that u all took a long time to search for my gifts.. thanks a lot! Very touched by the gifts.. can tell that u all put in a lot of efforts. Esp the meaningful card ( the bigger one ). Sorry to trouble u with it during ur o, huiqi. Very touched by it. Maybe next time I go learn and do one for you =p. As for milene, think u very used to birthday practice liao. Still can tell me to cut cake, make wish etc.. And hor, next time if i happen to celebrate birthday with u, pls dun slap so hard again!! My whole arms instantly went numb!! But still have to thanks u again. Cox think u also spend a lot of time ba. (* the card). Think I had to apologise to jiaying here.. nv got a chance to tok to u..paiseh.. practically waste ur time there..Then is chatting, playing, chatting, playing till is the boys' turn liao. Similar to last year, the boys are still the humourous group which accompanied me last year. Namely, junming, enwei, shijie, alastiar, boonheng. Similar to last year also , the present is still a wallet. Although i dunno who chose the wallet, i still wanna thanks junming. Thanks for being my friend and everything. Most importantly, thanks for coming out even though is still ur o level ( apply to huiqi and jiaying also ). Then thanks shijie, thanks for being my frenz cum the entertainer. Ur jokes brought me a lot of laughter. And enwei, thanks for being such a true and dependable friend. Esp dependable when hp kana problems ('',). Next time when we played time crisis together again, let aim for perfect. Afterall, we only lose one life to complete it. Alastiar, taught u ice-skating last year, now is ur turn to teach me how to play pool. Quite easy for u la, since I got standard one ( bhb ). Boonheng, next time u cannot suan me that i cannot play pool liao. I grow up liao. Yancheng, although we only just chatted this year, i think u are another gd friend to have. Thanks for ur card.. the yang guo very cute.. like me mahx. In short, THANK YOU EVERYONE. THANKS FOR MAKING MY DAY!! btw, after reading through the event list, had anyone noticed that I nv eat breakfast and lunch?? Starving till dinner time..


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3:27 PM

Friday, October 24, 2003

Yesterday must be the day which most of my classmates cried. Not becox of result. But becox yesterday was the last day of 4e1 offical lesson in xinmin. It must have sound comedy. Other classes were cheering as they do not have to come back to school. But 4e1 on the contrary, cried becox yesterday marked the day which we would be separated. Indeed, there was a time when e1 was very uncooperative. But that was history. 4e1 is now a class beyond words. And our tears is the proof of our friendships. Although I'm not very active in class, I can also feel the strong attraction force which bond us tightly together. Among the 43 classmates, 3 gals had been classmates with me for 4 years. And another 1 gal was the first gal who chatted with me in the whole of my xinmin life. And not to forget, one boy was my comrade in cca and basketball, brave pumping and promotion with me. Thanks all of you for that!! And I guessed the hugging was wat made them cry so bitterly. Even I felt like crying again when teck wee hugged me. The warmth radiating from his body instantly reminded me of the 3 years of classmateship we had. The joy, hardship and everything...Even though I had always proclaimed wat a sentimental person I am, I realised I was nothing in that sense when compared to the gals. I came prepared with tissue papers... but at the rate they using... haiz... maybe next time really must lend them my shoulders... or perhaps, there wun be next time. Next time when we cum back, we wun be 4e1 liao... haiz.. To add on to the atmosphere, they played a very touching sound entitled wish ( or something like that ). As the song was being played, a slideshow consisting of our photo was shown. I believed the happy faces and wide smiles seen on our picture futher made us more vulnerable to the free flow of tears. Dun worry everyone... I think we will have class gathering in the future. And hopefull the date would be 23/10 of every year... Sad thing aside, I'm glad that e1 is quite an active class. WE led in the chi wa wa dance combined with the e2. Although we were kana scolded, we had a fun time!!! This shows that we rocK!!! 4e1 rulex!!!! 4e1 RULEX ALWAYS!!!


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6:33 PM

Saturday, October 18, 2003

Haven been posting entries here for a long time. Dun think i will be posting anything here if not that something upset me this morning. Group of friends of mine agreed to meet at the hougang interchange at 11 this morning to go for the a jc open house together. People living in faraway places can be puncture but not those living right in hougang. Very ironic ?? Dun be. Someone purposely wanted to be late. In his quest of doing that, he called others so that they both can't leave the house. Very clever hor? And a bunch of idiots actually waited for 3 165. Good excuse he came up, but somehow did not tally with that of the others. Dunno that he can be two places at one time. Wonderful... In a jc, he saw us. BUt in order to chat up the gals, he walked the other way. Ask them to call me, in which he must have used our name ( jm and i ) . We are not ur tools! Morale of the story: he who wun give a damn about me wun receive a damn from me. And those who are with him, are against me... Let's see how many true friends i had left....


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4:44 PM

Saturday, October 04, 2003

Hiz,, people. I'm very miserable now. Seemed like I had choosen an unconvenient time to fall asick. So throughout the emath exam, I was in great "torment". Got serious flu, but only limited supply of tissues. With no other choices, I got to use the tissues with great care and management. Dun even have the mood to check despite all the time I had left. Too nan shou to care liao... Anyway, after the test we went to compass point to have our lunch. Again, due to my sore throat and flu, I dun have much choices with our lunch. In the end settled with a noodle.. Noodle do not need oil to cook right?? Then when we met up with shijie, he told us a shocking news. Seemed like he caught someone red-handed worx. Someone who always swear that he dun have gf.... Someone who always cum to my blog...so sorry, cannot expose that guy here...haiz.. On the journey back to school, wangwang had a sudden attack of stomach ache/ gastric pain. Actually I also dunno wat pain she is suffering cox I just saw her doubling over?? Whipping my first-aid cert, I promise to assist her. But somehow, seemed like many of them do not have much trust in sjab.. or issit me who they dun have trust in?? Can't be ba...


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6:48 PM

Thursday, October 02, 2003

Haven been updating my blog for the past few days. Actually is should be: I cannot update my blog for the past few days. That is unless I can have access to the school computers after 5 plus cox I had been staying in the library. Quite encouraging that my friends are willing to stay in the library to study also. Or perhaps, just perhaps that we shared the same problem... We had this wonderful computer at home with the alluring internet access. So I/we tend to come here and chat instead of doing the homeworks. To add on to my earlier entries about studying in the library, we discovered that we can actually order deliveries to the school ( thought someone ban it last time ?).
And by the way, I might be changing my tag board nick soon. Overheard that someone is thinking of using the same nick as me. So if she does not intend to change, then I will be the one changing. Can't be helped mahx. Since when does boy win a gal when quarreling...So better be smart---just change my nick!!


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6:33 PM

Saturday, September 27, 2003

Received the champion award AGAIN ( bad luck on the npcc which din get gold last year ). The design had been changed. It's more classy than the old one. However, looks can be deceiving. Try looking at the back of the award. Behind the shining metal with our "BIG" name, it is full of gum. Those used for sticking shoes together, get it?? In the whole, this champion day is quite okay, except for my ears which is going through a lot of hardship/ suffering/ vibration/ irritation/ TRAINING. As the excitement rise among the sjab members, the sound level also increase significantly from about 40 dB ( the sound of the hall ) to about 130 dB, peaking at 150 dB. Judging from the reaction of the npcc guys in front of me, I can safely make the assumption that they never undergo much of sound enduring training during their cheering. To me, it is quite normal liao. To show off their joy and passion further, they started standing up and cheering for our Sirs. Apparently, we started a trend. Band copy us, while npcc tried to challenge us by doing a kalang wave. To prove our superiority in term of high pitch ( seem like the teacher still dunno who is the best cca for cheering ), the sjab Gals once again did us proud. Beat other cca hands down during the cheering competition. However, I'm not so honoured to have the honour of be part of the cca with such powerful vocal. Luckily I had already stepped down, or else I will still be in sjab which must had already been blacklisted by the guys from npcc. One short and sweet sentence to sumarise the sjab gals : I'm proud to have such talents to take over our position, but at the same time, I also feel lucky that I need not cum back for the champion day next year." MY days of ears suffering is over!!


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7:03 PM

Friday, September 26, 2003

HIZ, just had another peer study session in the school library just now. That add up to a total of 3 peer study I did in the library. Give the library quite a lot of face liao. Actually, the atmosphere is quite friendly for studtying. Should drag more people there to study with me. We can learn more there than at home. I mean wat can we do at home?? Giving in to temptions and wasting our time? At least the library still offer some "scenery". Well..., at home only got my mother and sister mahx. But in the library, I still can see ppl sleeping worx.. a Slping princess waiting for the kiss of a prince (",)...Let see how many princeS are there today: most potential---NCC men, Sjab hero!! So after 1 hr plus of intensive comics reading, I went home with jm they all. Took a long and serene walk to the bus stop. Somehow, walking at night seem very peaceful and more enjoyable. Even the air is nicer.. perhaps we should take a walk home from school next time to enjoy the walk mahx (^^)!!


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10:27 PM

Monday, September 22, 2003

Attended a thousand ppl banquet last night. Actually I went there just becox i'm kinda forced into going. Wonder how many of u all know---international representatives from guanxi association all over the world came to singapore on friday, so the banquet is organised for them. Never b4 had I seen such a crowd. 115 tables !! And for the first time, I was seated right at the last row, which is quite common in this occasion. Who am I as compared to those guests from other countries? However, I personally feel that the dishes are not so "grand" enough for these guests. Just the normal dishes like other years. Thought they will have something special for a change... Haiz...traditional...can't be helped. All this whole time-consuming thing, I arrived home at 1230 ( around there ). As there is something I need to do online, so naturally I came online ( crap hor ). Quite surprised to see someone online too, esp when we are having lessons the next day, which is today. I had calculated, she cannot possible have more than 4 hrs of sleep that night!!!
Basking in the joy of scoring good results, I went to superbowl with the e2,e1 and e3 today. Including today game, I played a total of three bowling games in my life. Actually the result is not bad-- at least I kept improving. Maybe next time I should try the curve thing they are learning. Seem quite fun. On the otherhand, maybe i should also trying "putting" the balls instead of throwing the balls as wat the gals did. The result is amazing. Although they cannot "strike", they manage to knock out most of the targets. Their accuracy due to simple putting of the balls is too high to be real!!! Trust me on that! Scaring...


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10:04 PM

Friday, September 19, 2003

By pure luck, I discovered that my handphone had been with me for one year plus. And how did I know that?? Well, out of boredom I had been rereading my sms in both my inbox and outbox. From wat I had seen:
ren wan3 wan3 bu dong de zhen xi shen1 bian1 de xin4 fu, chang2 chang2 mang2 mu di zhui1 qiu2 bu ke neng2 de meng4 xiang4. Yi2 dan4 xin4 fu yuan3 qu4 shi2 cai2 hui hou4 hui3. Yi2 jing1 tai4 chi2 le...bie2 wang4 le CHENG JING guan xin guo4 ni3 de ren, ye2 xu3 zhi2 you3 jin1 shen1 mei2 lai2 shi4. Sender: ***, Sent: 23:00:53, 14-09-2002. CAn understand? CAnnot?? Nevermind, just to refresh the memory of the sender only, that is if he/she come here. Wonder if he/she will keep my sms for one year also?? Even without asking, I know my ans---he/she did not keep for sure ( I just know it; got logical analysis one ).


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10:03 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

Think this year must be the year which zips spoiled the most. Another friend of mine spoiled his in the toilet this morning. Actually not bad to spoiled it in this way. At least better than my case, in which I still dunno why it spoiled by itself in the class. So since the zip cannot be fixed after it was spoiled, he had to cover his "part" with his chemistry book all the way to the general office where he received his second disappointment. The general office did not have any stand-by pants for situation like this ( I knew it since few months ago ). Quite surprised that they haven done anything about it. Haiz... So next time, guys must be more careful hor. He was so lucky to have me in the same shift as me. Cox I'm so experienced mahx. So he bought two safety pins and proceeded to the back of the bookshop to mend his spoiled zip. Obviously, we were late to report to the library and he seemed quite desperated to finish the job as quickly as possible. So the fastest method = pin right in front, confirm cannot see anything!! Just that is a bit obsence if gals happen to see it. Well, from my experience last time, I realised that the gals were not so shy afterall. So might not be so obsence. After reporting to the library, he and I went to the toilet. O cox I never helped him mend, wat if a gal looked in through the mirror and saw us?? Wat will they think?? One guy touching ...?? Throw our face!! In the end, one gal still happen to look in. Dunno whether she knew of what we were doing. Seem like the image grooming is not so fun for the gals.


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6:39 PM

Monday, September 15, 2003

Just had my lunch at heartland mall. Somehow, we decided on that place at the last minute. Till now then I knew why we went there. For 4 years, I never met the girls in my primary school before. However today, I met one at the Macdonald, and is the class belle somemore!! Must be fate (^^). Natural reaction, I tried to contact chin hao. In the end, it was quite fruitless. Cox both chin hao and me were too shy to approach the girl mahx. Can't be helped, xinmin guys are like that. After that, we paced around for quite a while, longing to go in and exchange our contact number. But due to their time constraint and our bashfulness, we gave up in the end. Quite wasted hor... saddening... Then we went to superbowl. Had my first bowling game. Well, the result is quite unexpected. The lowest marks I got in one match is 1!! Who wanna console me??


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6:43 PM

Sunday, September 14, 2003

Hi. Just played basketball yesterday. Sound vv familar hor? Since everyone is writing that down in their blog, think I also should do that. So that we provide as many different light to that incident as possible mahx. Well, is true that the people we met there did not have a good attitude. But in my opinion, only 25% of them got lousy attitude. And I mean real lousy attitude. Obvious he thinks he is much better than us and deserves to play more than us in the court. Plainly, he does not have much of sportmanship. The first guy to knock us "accidentally", as wat they claimed. The worst thing is, he dun even have the courage to speak to us. Only dare to give us that idiotic look. Is a smaller kid who spoke on his behalf. Actually the deal they have given us is quite good, the winner get the court. However, if the match is going to take place, a royal fight is bound to erupt between us. After that first guy who knocked into us accidentally, the two other boys followed his lead. Well... is quite to our disadvantage. It is not so painfully if they knock into us at the shoulder area, but then due to their height, they only managed to hit us around our ribcage. Can imagine the pain?? This is without the match going on. If during the match, any of us managed to block them due to our height advantage again, then I will bet anything that they will play roughly. And when that happen, we will come to blows very soon. Can't be helped, who tell the guys in my group to be so character ( xing ge ).


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7:36 PM

Friday, September 12, 2003

Had my class chalet yesterday at east coast park. It was quite fun actually ( for some ). However I went to the chalet only becox I wanted to watch the movie, turn left turn right. Who else will want to accompany me to watch tt show? I have no galfriend, and my group will complain tt show is too sissy. And my guess is proven correct when I met Chris and his friends at TM. I was running late at that time, cox I had calculated my time accurately. But due to some unforeseen reasons, like taking the bus in the wrong direction, I end up arriving late for 5 mins. The first thing that happened to me upon my arrival, is to kana beaten by Chris! Ambushed me from behind!! So surprised to see him there, thought shijie called him also. Turned out tt he came with his friends to watched another shows. However, before he returned to his friends, he made it a point to stress how sissy we were to watch the show. All lovers of turn left turn right, wanna beat him?? After waiting for a long time, we started to watch tt show. Red umbrella and green umbrella. So next time guys, if u happen to be using a green umbrella, watch out for those gals using red umbrella. Cox they may be lovers of turn left turn right. For all u know, they might be aiming you worz.. Right at the start also, we learnt one vv important phrases. How big is Taipei, surely shun lu one... Guys, pls rmb tt. VV useful next time. But then, just as the movie is approaching its climax, things started to go wrong for me. In my rush, I forget to go to the washroom before the movie start. Then how... bear till the show is over lorx...Actually the show is quite touching, but obviously no one cry. In fact, they are busily laughing!! Not tt they are insulting the show, but there are a lot of funny scene. But the funniest part was tt one of the poem the female recite, I KNEW IT SINCE PRI 5!!! Shijie was so surprised tt I could recite the whole poem to him!! Can't be helped, love poems mahx. Even if teachers nv teach b4, we also will learn on our own one mahx.
Then we board a taxi to the east coast park chalet, not east coast chalet, as wat the taxi driver taught us. Then the usual stuff happened lorx, dinner and all that. Quite common, think u all will know. Nothing much special, although there is something unexpected tt happened. Can't say it here...sorry


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4:23 PM




A sad sad song which describe my feelings, entitled "fool again".
Baby, I know the story. I have seen the picture. It's written all over your face. Tell me, wat is the secret that you had been hiding... who is gonna take my place??
I should have seen it coming, I should have read the signs... Anyway, I guess it's over. Can't believe tt i'm the fool again. I thought this love would never end. You never told me. Can't believe tt I'm the fool again. And i who thought you were my friend.. How was I to know, you never told me..
Baby, you should have called me when you were lonely, when you needed me to be there. Sadly, you never gave me too many chances to show you how much I care. I should have seen...




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12:30 PM

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

Today when I roused from my bed in the early morning, I must admit that I could hardly move my arms about. It felt like being pinned down! Slowly, it dawned on me that I just went to the gym yesterday. No wonder it hurts so much. Wonder wat happen to my other friend.. As I had mentioned, I went to the gym yesterday. It was located on top of hougang sport hall. Since it wasn't my first time to visit it, there was not much exploration to do. However, my friend was joining me for the first time. Thus was quite ignorant to the rules and regulations. This give me some privileges (^^). For example, it gives me the privilege to glean some sensitive details out of him...details like WEIGHT & HEIGHT!! Actually, I did not lied to him. It was a common practice to measure your height and weight before the whole thing. SO will you pls forgive me (^.^)?? Nevertheless, it was my supreme honour to invite someone so FIT to work out with me. At least, his strength is superior to mine. Not sure of his stamina. So the first thing we tried was the let-down. 60 kg... Deteriorate quite a bit. Used to do 70 kg with chris, the guy with perfect score for NAPFA. But then, that was the purpose no.1 of going to gym mahx. To maintain some of tiny bit of strength left in me. As for the other purpose of going to gym, I wun say anything abt it. It would be a secret between chris and me. Hor, chris ('',)? Hey, think I going derailed already. As I was saying, we were doing the let-down. Due to some limitation my friend faced, he had some difficulties doing it. So, I had to help him a little lorx. You see... the let-down was a bit too high for him mahx... the rest u think of it yourself. Can't eleborate on it further, or else the consequence would be too terrible to contemplate. He was the muscle man of our school, all his muscle are at least twice the size of mine. So if I eleborate more on tt, I would have to try to dogde a huge mass of "A" grade muscle hurtling towards me mahx. After the let-down, we also tried some energy consuming exercises. For example, weight-lifting...just kidding. We went for a jog instead. Still rmb the time I so call "jogged" with chris. The pace was very "slow". 12 units ( dunno wat the SI units are ). But then, I could barely last for 5 mins despite the "slow" pace set by chris. And he, kept on running with tt speed for a full 8 mins!! And it was i who beg him to stop!!! Can you believe that??? Dun worry, I also find it impossible to believe at that time. Cox tt was my best standard long time ago! HOW CAN he be on par with me??? WUN BELIEVE IT!!!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
3:52 PM

Monday, September 08, 2003

Just finished my last round of chinese chess competition yesterday. Dunno is my luck or wat, but my opponent never turn up. So I win two points without a fight. From this whole competition, Alastiar and I make some mental notes. Rule number 1, CANNOT WEAR BLACK. As far as we could see, black shirt is a symbol of the expert. A colour which distinguish the steady players from the lousy ones. So next time, please dun wear black to any chinese chess competition. And if your opponent wear black, be smart... Ambush him b4 the match ('',). Rule number two, LOSE when u have to. The opponents are paired up according to their marks. So in 3 matches, win the first one and lose the second one. That is the highest possibility that u will get to win two matches out of three. And Rule number three, Pray regularly. As far as concern, there are quite many beginners with the urge to play. If you are lucky, u might get to play with them. ~sure win~. Despite all the tension during the match, we had our share of fun. Made two acquaintances. First one, a NCC AIR guy in sec 2. Very amiable ( cox vv crapy and lame ), and thus mix easily with us. Same character mahx. Pity most of my xms friends never participate in this match, or else can qie chuo1 "lame skills" with that guy liao. Interschool interaction.. our principals will love that. Second one, a sec 1 guy. Actually I dunno him that well. But then since he is a player of you si wang card ( a japanese card game ), made friend with my brother and Alastiar immediately. So for the whole night, they can chat abt those cards endlessly. Win liao horx? Quote of the day: From every win we gain, but from every lose we also learn. I heard tt this competition will be held again in two years time. So chinese chess players........GO FOR IT!!!


i don't wanna wait no longer;
12:27 PM

Friday, September 05, 2003

YES! Prelims just ended today with only our practicals left. Kinda regain our freedom. At least we will have some time to relax liao. About one month or so from now, many dedication will be heard over the various radio channels to wish their friends good luck for their prelim. Wonder what will be our reactions? Laughing at them cox we had already finished our prelims long time ago? Or will we be there wishing our prelim haven finished so early? But one thing for sure, we will be there thinking, will anyone dedicate anything for me?? Hard to say, is our last year in secondary school, maybe someone had hidden some feelings for 4 years liao?
Just had some minor dispute today. Obviously one idiot think that is very fun to inflict wounds on others and so kept very long finger nails lor. Plainly, clawing others is a very glorious act for him mahx. Everyone will be so terrified of his "power". Scared Scared... Everyone will be wetting his pants, trembling so much that they cannot retaliate... Ya rite.. As if everyone must let him win... Honour---never bully the weaker, pick someone of your own size. Seem like someone is counting on this honour to have his own way. But every stories tell the same plot. Evil will never triumph over righteous. Heroes create the situation, but the situation also creates heroes. When evil reign and all hope is lost, someone will stand up...to put everything back to normal. P-O-W-E-R. Real power. That is the magic word which distinguish people. Power and strength will separate the weak from the strong. Trust it, and believe in it.
Quote of the day : "The world is evil. Wolves hunt the stragglers in a group of deers. Vultures devour the fallen. Hyenas destroy the weak. Humans kill that which they fear. Survive and be strong, or die, cornered by your prey, trembling because the night is dark..." Moral of this quote: Be kind to the weaker is as good as be cruel to yourself...


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6:51 PM

waiting;

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