happy belated birthday to me! haha.. its 30th of nov n my bday was on the 29 of nov.

yes, its weird why i m proclaiming the date of my birthday. because.....

this is the first time .....

that there are people who got the dates of my birthday wronG! so cute rite? but i m still very happy because at least they still remember of my birthday. haha. coz there are some people who dont remember. isnt that worse?
haha. yah. i mean no biggie. nv wish den nv wish lor. haha. but.. like its the thought that counts yeah? haha


So anyway, i really am appreciative of those people who wished me happy birthday. its really nice of all of you to remember my birthday. it meant a lot to me. thanks again to those who wished me! =)

anyway, i had the most wonderful birthday celebration! it was a blast!

Early in the morning... sweetie and i took 10 years off our age ( for him 10 for me 5 la.. he is an old uncle. wahaha =x) to go to WWW.

WWW????

World Wide Web?

Wild Wild West?

no.... c'est Wild Wild Wet!!!!

haha, ya... lame.

Initially, at the ticketing booth area we both felt damn old la. but when we went in, it wasnt that bad. there were many NS guys there though.

heres one picture from WWW. The rest cannot post to preserve modesty. hehehehe



then after that, we went off to East Coast to walk walk and dine at...

the Zen Restaurant ! i think thats the name. then they have a short line below writing - the creation of Shindo Art.

The food there is really good and quite affordable too. good for special occasions. n u;ve got to try their 4 course dinner. so cool..


Main Course :

"Low Carb" Grilled Fish



Soft Shell Crab Mee Sua... What a big bowl!




Below is the picture of the dessert. Red Wine Ice Cream with Gold candy floss. isnt its cool?? i totally love it! costs $10.80 per cup.




Heres some pictures..

It was a really great celebration and i love the pressie. Sweetie made a fake cake for me! coz he cant bake so i guess thats why he made me a mango cake. so cute la. C the picture below...



So sweet of him rite? n it looks so real. esp at night. cox when he brought them to me... i had to blow off the candles. hehe. and then..i went to smell it. ermm.. it smells of glue =.=""
hahaha

luckily i did not stick out my tongue to lick it! =x



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Other random pics..



Above: Sweetie in the car while driving to ECP for bday dinner. i think. haha..
he looks so sunshine!! love it!




Above: Sweetie n i studying.



Above: How you will look when u study until you sian diao. haha. as said by sweetie. BUT I THINK.. he looks like that all the time. ALL THE TIME. from the moment he takes out his book.. until... he goes back. ALL HE WANTS TO DO... IS SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP!!!!

what a pig! heehe.. my piggy dew! hahaha.. gosh. i'm becoming super mushy.. cannot cannot.

i really keep screwing things up. i just keep getting everyone around me angry.

i admit. i have a very bad character.

i am dishonest.

i am scheming.

i am a sinful and bad person.

i dont understand why u still like me when i'm like so bad. ure so nice n all. haish.i think my entrance into your life has made it miserable. from a nice smooth sailing life become like that. become like a shitty everyday gotta worry this worry that life. i screwed up your life. =(

i'm so guilty about it. but i dont know what to do. i'm so happy ure here to make me a better person again. why is it i learn so slow? why is it i cant learn how to be nice quickly. why do i take such a long time.?

i'm such a screw up.

now that i come to think of the situation.. actually sweetie, ure right. its really no big deal. how come i cant see it the way you did initially? haha.. maybe too young n immature. stil xiao mei mei ma!
hahah.. nvm ... by thursday would have grown older already. wahaha.. den maybe can be a bit more like you. but u'll always win me coz ure my sugar daddy! haha

=x

haha. i know others reading this entry would make absolutely no sense about wth i'm talking about. but it doesnt matter. haha. this is an example of shared meanings and understandings due to communication history between two people. haha. omg. i'm actually applying com255 in my blogoentry.

theres a dilemma about time passing fast. i cant wait for exams to be over to spend time with you. to spend my last few days left with you. but yet, i dont want time to come so quickly because that would mean i would have less time left with you. i tink i mentioned this before.

and yes, i'm supposed to study but my mind's wandering. haha. thats the power of having a lappie next to you. i'm so going to off it now.

why is it we have so many things going wrong for us?

haish. and they are all attributed to external factors. becuase i know without them, we will be as good as heaven. and all these external factors only serve to add a bit of salt in our lives so that we wun be too smooth sailing.

But we;re great we're fine. we conquer all these problems together. thanks sweetie for being so understanding and sensible. i guess your optimism and maturity really helps and maybe thats why youre here for me. love ya.

i finally completed the marathon run of my 3 consecutive papers - accounting, media effects and francais.

finally!

but not to forget, i still have business finance and org comm on next lundi et mardi respectively.

but for tonight, i am going to give myself a break. can you imagine? since sunday night i have been studying non stop. i.e. when the paper ends, i rush to le bibliothèque and continue studying for the next paper the next day. then when the second paper ends, i rush to le bibliothèque again.

I have been doing that for the past 3 days.. now i look at my books, all i can do is to sigh. so thats why i'm not going to touch them today. heck.

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So excited. i'm so waiting for my exams to end. then a few days later it would be the big 2..

Not that i'm really looking forward to my birthday. but more like.. at least theres an occasion to look to rather than just continue your boring life after exams rite? i wonder where sweetie dew is going to bring me! he keeps giving me clues but just dont want to tell me where.. arghhh.. irritating..

The coming of age

Reaching twenty could mean reaching a turning point in your life where its time for you to make real decisions that concern your life. but i think, i dont see how bad its going to be. so i'm gonna be taking this optimistically.

Besides, i think this year, i have learnt quite a lot from various experiences and my life has rode high and low throughout the whole year. I hope that i've grown and that i can improve further, especially on my mood swings. i know they can get quite bad and one person has to take all the mood swings. and its not fair.

Besides, i think there was a positive change and turning point in my life during june july period and i have become a much happier person now. I;ve also learnt to look at simple things in life instead of thinking too deep all the time. sometimes, its just good to be happy go lucky. however, no matter how much i;ve learnt, its hard to change. but for the sake of our future, i'll try. i'll really try.

The coming of 20 signifies what i call... a neither here nor there age.

Why?

21 is the age to watch R21 shows. so that sort of constitutes an adult.

19 is the last year of a teenager.

So what is 20?

We're sandwiched in between these two ages. what does that make us , all these teeny weeny twenty year olds? haha..

Whatever it is, i'm going to think of some birthday resolutions and make sure.. i achieve them before the end of this year, and some before i reach 21.

Alright. je suis fatiguée. bonne nuit!

i need to note this down. haha. before i forget.

Something significant happened to me on Thursday. I dropped my beloved BRAND NEW samsung ultra slim 12.1. i.e. U700

Into....

THE TOILET BOWL!!!!!

And when there are times like these, who thinks about the shit, the urine or even the possible vomit that could have once been present in that fated bowl of water. All you know is.. the life of your beloved mobile phone is at stake and all you can think of is to plunge your hand down to grab it.

One try is not enough.

Too much water involved. It was a good first try, but a failed attempt nonetheless. The second try needed much improvement. And finally, on the third grab, beloved once-elegant-now-turned-drown-victim phone was salvaged.

Attempts to resuscitate the victim was useful, but minor injuries were still sustained. Permanent damage of its face was obvious. streaks of water remained in its memory. It remained and stayed in that state. Refusing to move from its inertia.

The only way to save it is through medical experts who are now working 24hours round the clock to prevent it from getting more harm. I wait patiently for news to come, but ... as time passed, there was none. All i can do now is to stare blankly into space, willing for my "temporary" replacement to ring, so as to hear that my beloved slimie is safe again.

And guess what? before that.. i forgot to apply for medisave. I'm going to do it right now, just in case its too late.

helloo..! my blogging frequency has really decreased by damn a lot. today is D DAY!!! where we have our lovely dreaded 207 exam. haish. studied with grace, jing ting n justin yesterday at canteen a til 2am until i went mad and started sprouting non sense.

Have been spending almost 80% of my time studying. damn stressed. i should have known not to take 6 freaking papers!

Anyway, Sweetie is so nice. so motherly. hehe he bought me Chicken Essence! haha.. although.. i have never eaten chicken essence in my whole life. hahaha (yeah la... sua ku. cannot is it? ) haha.. he is so sweet la. never expected him to buy for me. hehe.. muacks!

In the meantime, BACK TO MUGGING!

wtf. i just typed one fucking entry and this stuypod fucked up blogger just erased off everytyhign!

thanks for making my day worse than it actually is already. i hate my damn fucking life.

I was saying.. i really dun like friends that make plans with you and just because some other friends ask them out, they push aside their plans with you and tell you they will meet u later. you know how that feels like? it feels like second priority. i hate feeling this way.

Anyway, anyone wants to study with me on deepavali? very lonely on a public holiday and i need somewhere to study. haish.. WHO WANTS TO STUDY WITH ME LEMME NOE K?

Exams are approaching and i seem to be studying lesser and lesser as the day goes by. Somehow, the motivation that i used to have is lost. i have no idea why i cant seem to take up my books to study anymore! is something wrong with me?

Anyway, i realised the issue of maturity just isn't so simple. its also about being "dong shi" or in english, sensible. I think i m not mature enough in that aspect. I like to demand for things that i want and i love to have things go my way. and in the case they dont, i will adopt the spoilt child attitude and show my glum , "black" face. However, i realised that not everything we want will come our way. sometimes, we just have to give in because it is for the greater good, or so to speak. Sometimes, we just have to understand that perhaps some little sacrifice can go a long way next time. But why is it that i can grasp this concept so well and yet not want to believe in it?
Why is it i believe in living for the moment and not thinking too much until something happens and the consequences surface?

I just cant practice what i preach. Does that happen to everyone often? or does it happen to me? i'm still sad and glum over why i cant have things my way. its so childish of me isnt it? haha. i must learn. I guess thats why u came into my life. To make me a better person.. and to realise that... sometimes, many sacrifices are needed to make us better people.

Yooohooo.. its 1240 am now. and i'm mugging. i'm glad i m mugging n not slacking away. just felt like blogging but i have absolutely no idea what to blog about!

Anyway, just got my acceptance letter and arrangements and plans are made for going to aussie the start of next yr . with so many things to be done, it is really packing my time back to back. Cant wait for the exams to end but do not want january to come as that would mean that i would be leaving my bf, family, cat and friends. haish.

But also cant wait for the new sem to start so that it can end and so that i can have my holiday with my bf! i hope plans go smoothly and yc finds a new place to stay den i can go over n visit her too! everything is so uncertain. but nvm.. i realised its fine even if he cant come over at the end of the day if his exams end late. we can probably just save the money and go for a trip elsewhere again.

I'm also learning to appreciate the finer things in life. the good things in life that i often take for granted. e.g. my bf's patience towards me . esp during this critical exam period. dont worry k.. when you start working i will be more accomodating. BUT.. wahaha.. u shall be my sugar daddy and "yang wo" . wahaha... kao ni le! haha..
jk la.

Anyway, whatever i write in my blog is how i feel and i do not see the need to censor anything just because i know some people whom i do not know but know me are reading. this is my blog and i guess i have a certain amount of privacy to it. whatever it is.. if u think i'm too mushy or anything.. bleah. its your problem. =p