yeah! dancetitute is finally over!! the start of performances today did not start off very well for me when i received some bad news..

But it all turned out well and even better with a great surprise! haha.. i still cant believe you actually drove all the way down here ! so sweet.

Thanks a lot though.. for being there for me. =)I really appreciate it..

And thanks to cecilia and aiting for coming down to support me. really love you guys a lot and thanks for the flowers too ....

First night of dancetitute is over! It was alright. but i would nt say that my performance peaked that night. coz... i kind of screwed up at the part where i slide down david and i "zao geng" when he pulled me up. So embarrassing. luckily i was wearing safety pants. And most of us screwed up that item too.. making it look.. quite chui. =( And also, i still cannot master expression. So funny yah.. a normally super dramatic and expressive person not being able to give the right facial expression on stage. Quite sad. Anyway, ai yah. heck it. its over already. Oh yah. i almost fell at the "i'm shitting here..with this pained expression" gosh lor. i ended up using my feet to balance. how embarrassing. I felt so stressed after that i indulged in chocolates. haha..Then it was the frenzy to change within 5 mins for CS item.

But i m proud to say i did not screw up CS item. i'm amazed.

Finale.. i'm not sure how to comment on it too.. but i somehow felt that... it wasnt very well done coz ppl keep banging into each other. haha.. whatever la we were all under that red cloth.

Anyway, someone came lor. sian. so freaky can. haha.. luckily you were there for me =)

*and now.. its show time for the very last time to show everyone how hard we have practiced for 3 mths during the holidays!*

huh?

I m just getting unluckier and unluckier.

Why? why? why? why did u have to appear now? the timing is just so wrong =(

you have just screwed my weekend upside down. Now that i thought everything was going smooth as per planned you have to appear and screw it up.

Goshhhh... =(

i m just getting unluckier and unluckier by the day. Lady luck.. where are you!!!

haish. now i have additional problems to solve ONCE AGAIN. =(

Je m'appelle Cathryn
J'habite Singapour.
Je n'ai pas de petit ami.
Je sui libre et celibataire.

hahahahhahahahahaa............. omg. hahahhhaahahhahahahahaa
hahahahhaha

i cmi. haha.

DO NOT BOTHER TO READ THE ENTRY BELOW AS IT IS FULL OF CRAP


Damn. i m in a damn fucking bad mood. have been in tt mood since 2 hours ago and am still in that mood. can someone tell me why the hell i m feeling this way?

You know... its so stupid. nothing ever goes my way. even with stupid costumes! and its not just stupid costumes. its just every f-in thing that is going around and about me. it sucks can.

I have no choice but to blog it out. i fuck care alr. who cares whether watching king and i lifted my spirits a little. i was really happy while watching it but when the show ended, it felt as though i have been woken up from my dream and slapped back into reality.

Nothings going right for me. i predict my year will end bad continue to be bad. I'm going to fail all my modules and i m going to do badly for everything.

I'm so fucking stressed and everyone thinks i m so happy and relaxed. what the hell la! take a look at me and do i look alright? you think everyday smile smile means alright is it? wtf la ppl have their own problems too lor.


and no i'm not angry at anyone just angry at people in general. people around people evrywhere. people who expect things from you.. people who expect you to behave a certain way. people who have certain aims for you to achieve. people who fail to recognise that you actually bother to put in effort. like wtf la. i'm damn stressed and i need a break.

I feel like typing a whole string of vulgarities here but i shall not. so i'm only going to use limited vocab here to keep this entry PG.

anyway, i'm going to be repeating the same point over and over again in this entry so ure being bo liao if u are still reading this. nothing is ever going right for me. i'm made to be a failure to let others shine. i'm stupid and slow and i'm never going to get anything done right.

I'm lousy and untalented, fat and ugly. arghhhh.. i hate things the way they are and i just cant wait to change them but they never will change. i'm very depressed today and i am going to continue feeling depressed until further notice. i dunnu why the hell i m feeling depressed but its definitely not PMS coz i noe its not. its definitely not. so i dun tink its the work of hormones or lack of.

no one is going to help me and no one will like to help me coz i suck big time and i am stupid and any help is useless.

i hate how i m feeling now. damn it. damn depressed. you must be thinking.. why would depressed ppl say they are depressed rite? so i m not depressed rite? yeah i m not i m not i m not i m not i m not.

hello! i just watched the King and I and it was superb!!!! i totally love the set and costumes!!! The songs were great too!!!! My favourite was the young lovers song.. will tell u all more about the song when i can find it.

Anyway, i m very sad. i got the same costume top as shan shan for finale item. so i;m going to look so ugly next to her can... sian. i m so not going to wear it man!!!

I m sooo super tired from shopping for costumes!!! Thanks to yanpin who accompanied me to look for costumes and thanks to her again for helping me with her great fashion sense! its impossible to find clothes that are beige and white can? In the end.. i bought something which i realise.. totally did not match my shoes.. =(

Anyway, dancetitude tickets for saturday is SOLD OUT. omg. cant believe it lor. now only left sunday.

There was cca fair yesterdaY and today. The junior girls performed on monday while the junior guys performed on tue. our performance was chui! omg.. really lor.. because we were super shocked by the bounciness of the stage platform.. which.. also absorbed our energy. Hence, our dance was terrible and super messy. Then there will be less people interested to join MJ.

Anyway, i signed up for DSA.. alone. gosh. haha.. coz no one else wanna learn with me leh.. The worse ting is.. some people join with dance partners.. but i dun have la.. omg. what if i go there den no one wanna partner me =( coz too fat .


Aly brought her camera to the MJ booth on monday.. so.. she cam whored.. and.. we joined in.



Aly and me



Aly and me again



Aly siew hui and me



Aly siew hui and me again..


haha.. and if u realise.. i look the same in every photo. -.-""

ok. i have officially completed my first week of school. it was... -.-"" i have no idea what word to use to describe my first week. There were no tutorials at all so everything felt pretty much relaxing. i cant wait for next week when french lesson starts! I think French is such a cool and romantic language! haha.. And.. i hope i dont remain all by myself in accounting or business finance lecture..

Dancetitude is in 2 weeks time and i'm kinda nervous. i'm still fat and lumpy. =( Please tell me how to lose weight and get nice flat tummy in time for dancetitude if no everyone will see a fat girl bouncing across the stage like nobody's business.

Somehow, i dont like the new batch of freshies. bleah. i dun like them for no apparent reason. i just dont like them lor. i have no idea why. but they are repulsive. hmphx!

Anyway, this week was rather relaxing for me.. except some dance pracs here and there to rush for. other than that, nothing much..

Went to TRY to catch fireworks on national day.. haha.. and we ended up watching it unconventionally.. We were sort of faced with a roadblock and so could not get to the desired destination.. and we ended up watching behind a tree near a construction area. haha.. so funny la..

Okay. Below are my new semester resolutions

1. Get along well and live peacefully with my roomie. (not that we're not getting along well. we're fine. i think.)

2. Read all lecture notes and required readings before any lecture.

3. Complete all tutorials on time.

4. Learn to be neat and be more organised.

5. Perfect time management.

6. Stop clubbing.

7. Read more intellectual books and STOP reading silly romance novels.

8. Improve dance techniques and lines. Improve memory too.

9. Be a good friend to everyone who needs one.

10. Attend at least 90% of lectures and tutorials.

11. Be a good daughter.

12. Spend more time with Friendly. Save more money by shopping less and spend more on buying good treats for Friendly.

13. Lose weight until cannot lose anymore. -.-""

14. To fulfil a certain wish which has not fulfilled since... long long ago.

yoo.. i haven been blogging for a long long time.. ok la.. not very long but about a week already. It is just somehow i did not have the motivation or inspiration to blog.. I guess this must have seen quite long coz even got people ask me whether i change blog already or not. haha. so funny la..

Anyway, I've officially moved in Hall 3 and sorted things out with my roomie.. She's malaysian and she seems really nice.. so.. let's hope things work out yeah? =)

And... i'm not clubbing tonight! C..! i'm so nice.. i'm really stopping clubbing already and this is the first step. There is a proverb saying that if you do not take the first step.. you would never be able to go far..

so anyway, my week is packed with dance dance dance and dance.. its not sian i love dance but its just that.. dance takes up so much of my time.. i think.. i have no life anymore. how? i'm a no lifer. haha.. =(

So anyway, i've finalised all my electives.. i'm taking...

*hold your breath*

*you will never believe i'm actually willing to take these subs*

1. Accounting
2. Business Finance
hahaha... so.. not me rite? all those require math and analytical minds. and i'm like so not analytical can...

Anyway, i'm also taking french !!! so exciting! i like everything french. haha
France
French Toast
French Kisses
French language
French Men (???)
French (i cant think of anymore to add on to the list) --> can help? haha..

But you all get the idea la yah? haha.. i tot of this while i was walking back from lecture.. but this is all i can think of starting with french.. sad rite? haha..

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watching fireworks tomorrow! so exciting! i love fireworks!

my life is damn scary. haha.. i had dance prac from 1 to 930 yesterday.

Then i had prac from 1 to 930 again today.

Its going to be worse tml.. arghhhhh!!!!!


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We performed for Patrick to see our dance items for dancetitute today... Finally, david and i managed to successfully do the swinging stunt for the first time. we were both damn shocked la. haha.. but it was good. it was good. =)

Other than that, i m also quite happy when Stephy suddenly came up to me and said "cat! uve improved!" i'm so happy hahaha.. =)

My first night over in hall 3. Ok. the cough made everything worse and i pity my roomie's friend because she had to endure all the noise coming from me.

I guess i must have been a horror to room with. but hey! i dun think yee chien suffered when she roomed with me!

Anyway, the first terrible thing about me as a roomie would probably be how "early" i sleep. I was shocked when the roomie's friend was going to sleep at like.. erm.. 1230am. I guess culture shock yah. haha.. i wonder what time my roomie sleeps. And anyway, i slept at like 2 plus yesterday. i wonder if she could sleep for the first 2 hours as i could see her tossing and turning from the corner of my eye. Then again, it could be because she wasnt used to sleeping in the same room as a stranger.

The next thing was that i kept coughing and coughing. The thing is... the cough gets worse at night and so... between 230 to 430. i think i kept coughing non stop. i tried to reduce the no. of times i cough so that you know.. at least she can have a peaceful time sleeping for a longer period of time. hehehe.. but.. ai yah. cannot.. my throat gets very itchy and i will just keep coughing. this cough.. can never be cured. =( but.. wateva. haha. as long as i dont cough halfway through while dancing can already. hehe..

I think i caused her to lack sleep the whole entire night. so poor ting.

Anyway, i woke up this morning and realised i lost my right arm. i could only feel myself from the elbow upwards. it was so scary. it was like i was amputated right there. So.. i tried to drag my whole arm up.. but guess what? i could not feel anything!!!! den i used my left hand to hold my right hand up... and throw it about.. and... there was nothing! no feeling. omg so scary it was as if i lost my forearm forever. luckily, after massaging it.. it was back to normal. phew.. i realised how much my hands mean to me..

As the saying goes.. you only treasure them most when you lose them. hehe..

okay. the problem for the entry below has been solved. so i'm back to my normal self again. its scary when you think how one person can go from super sad mode to normal or happy mode.

Met up with Jessamyn and Yuyan today for lunch and a short shopping trip where i wasnt tempted to buy anything! i must say.. it is a great achievement for myself! It was fun catching up with the both of them as i have not seen them for almost 2 mths! eversince school ended that is. I guess when school starts we wont be seeing much of each other too because we are no longer living in the same hall. kinda sad isnt it? hmmm.. i guess i would probably miss hall life in hall 9 with some of my friends. but definitely not all of the hall 9 ppl la of course. haha..

Met Derrick after that to catch Alone. omg la. its damn scary. as in.. the sound effects and how the ghost look like. and i was so embarrassing! i screamed in the theatre lor. the person beside me looked at me like i was some weirdo. =(


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And because i m in a much better mood now, i shall blog about what i did yesterday. Went to Capita to collect my paycheck before proceeding on to dance prac at NTU, and hence my hip hop dressing. Although, i dont think it is very visible from the pics below.. but tell u all something first. guess how much my pants cost?

$5.90!!!!

Freakin cheap rite? mum bought it for me. omg i love it la. so cheap summore. and many ppl said it looked $30 plus.


So anyway, i went back to capita.. bought my ex-colleagues some goodies and wrote all of them postcards. i'm so sweet right? hehe..

Lovina then treated me to lunch. how sweet of her. =)

Below are some pics i took with the folks at Capita...



Above: Adelle and i. She's so pretty rite?



Above: Francis and i. Francis is the boss. haha.. so is victoria. but she isnt there to take photo..



Above: Jin n i. omg.. why jin look so dai in that photo? haha.. and my eyes look scary.



Above: *Pukes* wth is jin doing?!?! look at my disgusted expression..



Above: Kenny and i. Kenny is filipino plus chinese. haha.. but i always felt he looked chinese. i just realised this picture has the illusion that i m leaning on his shoulder. wahaha... -.-"" later his gf come n kill me..



Above: Lovely Lovina! I really admire her because she is very zai. Smart, witty, talented, pretty.



Above: Zen and i. He looks like the ape in Paul Frank. I cant rmb the name of that ape alr. but its the paul frank logo la.. they all say i look like mian bao chao ren. =( you know.. the bread hero? coz.. my cheeks very fleshy and always red red... =(


Zen looks damn tall in the above photo..

So.. we took another pic..



Above: Arhh.. now a bit better ...





above: haha! even better! you see how much he had to squat/ open his legs? haha.. he quite tall la. 1.8m. any girls interested? haha.. too bad he is attached.

I;m gonna miss working at Capita..