ohhhhhhhh... oohhhkaayy.. this is it!

in a few hours time, i would be setting off on a 7 hour plane ride to korea!

and crap, i dont know a single word of korean. this is bad because when you want to get things done when ure overseas, its quite impossible to communicate unless you know the language. but then again, since we're going on a tour (I HATE TOURS.. I'LL SELFDRIVE anytime) we would be going to those over-commercialised tourist destinations and the people there, naturally will be able to speak english.

guess what? the tour guide is going to be speaking in mandarin. CRAP. i HATE mandarin speaking tours. its going to be so boring and the people there might end up to be all very cheena-ish. =( i hope not. lets hope, the tour group has some outgoing cute guy that we can all talk to yeah? hahahaha.. -_-"" expecting too much am i? haha..

since its a scenic tour, I BET all old people or AUNTIES THAT ARE CRAZY OVER BAE YONG JUN (is tt how you spell his name) will be there. no.no. cute guys. cute guys = zero..

siannnn....... sobx....
the only thing i can look forward to is the shopping!! i heard theres lots of pretty dresses and shoes that we can buy! wee!!!

and yes. before you take me to be a bimbo (maybe i m) .. i have been to korea before alr. i rather go to Europe anytime where we can see beautiful and majestic buildings and paintings! my fav!

but nvm.. haha.

and yes, just like what i did for my Europe and Egypt tour (you can refer to the archives. ) i will do the same for this korean tour too. just that, i hope, it wont be like the other times, where i stop halfway coz it was getting boring and dry. haha. ok. in case you dont get me, i will be doing a blogotour! haha.. ok. self invented word. i will blog my tour to korea to share with all of you silent readers out there! (silent readers because, now that i have taken away my tagboard, i dont know who exactly is reading my blog. haha. i rather it that than see people type stupid comments on my tagboard. *recalls past experiences*)

so.. hope all of you look forward to reading my blog when i'm back! wahaha..

and i tink i might blog later. c how. haha byee!!!!

crap!!! guess wat?

Swing dancer Benji from So you think you can dance 2 is having a workshop! ARGHHHH!!! *screams*

n its swing jazz! so its going to be a lot of fun!! *screamz*

sobx.. its on the 30th april or 1st of may!!! =( Cry cry cry.. i wun be in SINGAPORE!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


I M SO SAD. I M SO SO SO SO SAD.....

MOS was not good again yesterday. or should i say. its always not good. i prefer zouk anytime. and.. i fell down on the stage. now i have this injury on my knee. sucks

But a lot of things set me thinking.

*disclaimer: please dont assume anything happened at MOS becuase nothing happened. i'm just reflecting on what i seen on other people, myself, and friends. *

i've seen people go through that. and heard from personal experiences. now i seem to follow in their footsteps although i know it is a wrong way. Is this what i want myself to turn out like when i grow older? Do i want to continue with such a lifestyle?

The thing is.. i kind of recently changed my lifestyle only. i'm not sick of it. but i keep asking myself if i'm doing the right thing. making the right actions. deep down, i know myself that what i have been doing, all those things... are not right. they will ruin my reputation. Or.. people will start viewing me in a wrong way. or.. people begin to treat me less seriously.

I know that people will view me in a different way if i continue my actions. and i might face the chance of no one taking me seriously anymore. just using me for play. do i want that?

i really dont know.

On one hand, i m sick of my previous lifestyle and want a change. thus, i have resorted to doing many things that many would deem unpardonable. or, things that i might deem unpardonable deep down too.

on the other hand, i want to know what it feels like to act in this way. and in a way, i kind of enjoy it. all these fun and games.. all these things i can do without bearing any responsibility at the end of the day. but i know it myself, even as i continue doing them, that.. all these will get me no where. all these will only come to destroy me in the end.

I think about finding true love. i'm cynical about love. love is only here to make us depressed. how many times have i been depressed and angry about falling in love? how many times? i'm sick of all the shit i have to bear. i've come to realise that love is nothing. its simply just like material. and material is much better. material is there all the time. it cant go away.

you have money. money you can trust. love, you have. but, cannot trust.

I'm in a situation where i feel caught between the 2 reasonings. and no, i m not in love in case you're wondering. i'm just in a dilemma on how i should go about taking my next step so as to become what there is to be and what i can be.

i feel caught. i'm torn between the want and desire to enjoy life as it is, at the moment. To enjoy life despite acting like a slut, a bitch, a whatever loose person that is. To enjoy whatever pleasures you can derive at the moment. to be in the moment. To do what makes you happy at that point in time. without caring about others and having no responsibility at the end of the day.

Or, to just maintain and do whats best for myself for the long run. stop all these partying and get on with serious stuff in life. wake up. know that all these partying is not good for me and my reputation in the long run.

i dont know. i dont want to end up regretting what i do. or anything i do. i feel so.. lousy and terrible i dun know how to face myself.

No one likes a girl who parties all the time. no one likes a girl who is alright with "what happens in the club stays in the club". no one likes someone who even club at all.

Come on. be realistic. end of the day, every one will say.. " i want a good girl as a girlfriend to turn to."

no one cares why you;re doing whatever ure doing. no one thinks what has happened that has made you like that today. people only see the consequences.
Not the process.

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The point of thinking about all these, perhaps many might think its too early to wonder about all these things. but i know, that its gonna affect how people view me. i dont want to fall in love to finally know that actually the guy that i'm in love with is not taking me seriously. i have did it to others, i simply cant keep doing it right? or can i?

i'm confused. i'm blabbering.

i dont really like what i;m doing. i dont like what i m thinking. i just want to let my hair down and fuck care about anything and do anything. but i know, deep down i always have an inner self telling me this is wrong this is wrong. but dont you all get it? i just keep doing it!

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ok. enough of depressing stuff for today.
MOS photos..

*i only put photos that i think i look ok in. *



Above: CS girls... in mOS toilet.



Above: Me and grace.. apparently, a bit high already.

Thats all that i dont look too terrible . the rest, i dont want to show. too bad.
sorry friends if i took photo with you and your face is not there. haha. its not your fault. i have inferiority complex.


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This week is a tiring week. but fun! After sleeping at 6am in the morning. i woke up at 11am to prepare to meet my bestie, yan pin.

I brought along my camera. we took lots of photos!

First, we went to do manicure and pedicure.

She did a pedicure, i did a manicure. We did it at Voxy. It is hidden in a small place inside guardian in vivo city.



My manicure



Above: Her pedicure.


Then after that, yan pin said that there is good scenery at the top to take photos.. so... here we are..





Then there is this swinging man... in the middle of the wading pool..









Shades cam whoring..! At river island.
I bought a pair of shades there for $45..









Guess which one i bought in the end? haha.

Dont tell you. make all of you.. heart itchy itchy!

Eski bar.. n not so good al dente restaurant.

After our exams, we went for the last stage of our product testing experiment. They din even debrief us?!? i tot all participants should be debriefed? hmm.. weird. thats what we learn in CS 105 Communication Research anyway. But i'm so glad to say, its over! gone are all the experiments, all the days where we try so hard to memorize all that crap and yet, the tests are still so hard! The only nice prof is Marko coz his tests are so much easier and understandable.

Anyway, after the product testing thing, we all got $30 enclosed in an envelope. Yeah! then we headed to JP to meet grace to celebrate the end of our exams!

We went to Holland V to eat so that we could head on to Eskibar later in the evening.
We all wanted to try something exotic. sSo, we decided to go to this italian restaurant which was ... not so good. i mean.. the pasta was not bad.. but.. not worth the money. Pasta mania can win them anytime.


Above: Jingting, grace, me at that restaurant.


Abve: jingting, grace, me , wai mun at that restaurant.

Actually, i think it was supposed to be some high class restaurant or something. or at least, something more high end that the usual swensons or fish and co. My freakin pasta, which tasted just like creamy chicken in Pasta Mania, cost like.....

a freaking $22!!! omg..

hahaha.. nevermind la. once in a while. its quite fun to do, especially when ure with your friends. haha..

then jingting was saying abt her liking to go to such fine dining or whatever expensive place to eat with her bf. i kinda agree with her. i mean.. who doesnt like to be pampered with such good food rite? haha. so.. must find a boyfriend that like to enjoy good food, and also, willing to pay for such dining.

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Then after that, we headed on to Eskibar!


Above: Justin, me, grace and jingting..



us again!

and.. my personal photo.. haha



haha.. anyway, the quality of the photos not v good. haha.. dunnu why. maybe its the cold?

It was quite fun in there. but can u believe it? it was so freakin small! i think its more of a novelty thing. a once off thing. you go there once to see see look look, you wont go there again.

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stupid jess! so lucky! she is going to watch Phantom of the Opera! omg.. I M SO FREAKIN ENVIOUS. its one of myfav musicals of all times. =( sobx..

i'mmm soooo looking forward to the end of exams! then we can all go and have fun.
justin suggested going to Eskibar. let's wait and see whether it will be fulfilled in the end or not. wahaha! because.. everytime we say wanna go where.. we end up... ermm.. not going there..

just like.. deciding which canteen to go for lunch etc. coz got a lot of opposition. like grace, jing ting and wai mun. wahaha!

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There's so many things to do after exams. so little time. But first things first, i've got to get ALL my barang barang out of the hostel room! how the hell and i going to do that? i have like.. literally bought my whole house over can? wahaha..,

Then.. i've got to start packing my bag for our overseas trip. Mum says.. there are so many regulations now.. =( cannot bring this cannot bring that. cannot even mention the word "bomb" in the airport. sooo scary.

Anyway, those who want souvenirs... please let me noe ok? haha.. u can msn me or sms me. i will definitely get them for u! =) see.. i'm such a nice girl.

i'm not really looking forward to the trip. for various reasons:

1. i've been to that country before. though, not that region. n

2. i think.. theres going to be no cute guys and a lot of OLD people. omg. how boring. *yawn*

3. i dont have much money to spend.

4. who the hell is going to feed my kitty friendly?!?! omg. shit. ok. must get my aunt to feed for me.

poor friendly kitty. i'll really miss her..!!! =(

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and yes, i realised... my previous post was full of bad english (have i mentioned tt alr?)

Had a go at the Colorgenics test again.

Some parts quite true. some parts are not.

You are seeking protection against anything which might seem to be exhausting you or tiring you out. It would appear that you are seeking a life of security and physical ease, free from any problem or disturbance.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

For some time now it would seem that you have been frustrated and emotionally inhibited. The circumstances which appear to be beyond your control are making it very difficult for you to develop the detached emotional attitude that you seek.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured.

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Perhaps the first one is true. The part on.. i seek protection against anything that is exhausting me or tiring me out.

Perhaps . i'm trying to seek protection by seeking in all places anywhere i can go.

Its a lonely day again. Yes, i might like to be alone. but.. why is it my parents have to go malaysia all the time? its sucky. i hate my grandmother. she's so fucking selfish.



And seriously, i'm running away. i'm sick of all these people who just dont get you. Have you ever experienced times where you just dont want them to bug or irritate you and they just keep coming? Dont they ever get the hints? Dont they ever let you move on with life?

Well, currently, i dont know whether i'm gonna sound like a bitch or whatever . but i'm not going to care. this 2 people. pls stop bugging me. i'm fucking irritated already. making my life like hell.

anyway, i rather much more be alone than be irritated. so i should be thanking my stars instead. haha. i dont know why i said stars also.

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i'm looking for my aries guy to come along. where r u aries guy?

Of Vt,Marco, Ogilvy, and cs 816

its finally friday! the long awaited friday where i can finally rest.. for a little while! =)

i guess i have not been blogging lately. but.. i've been reading blogs! haha.. interesting ones too! some of which, i have put up in the "others" link section on the right side of my blog. would be adding more soon to accumulate my blogs links so that next time, i dont have to go search for the blog add. i can just click on the links column. so, putting them there is more like.. for my own reasons.

Anyway , first, i would like to say that... i really deserve at least an A- for my group speech and presentation because i feel that i did much better and really well. normally, i'm not the kind of person who would like to boast of my accomplishments or anything. but this time, i feel.. i really deserve it and i think its because VT dun like me and thats why.. she never gives me anything other than a B+. Also, she has stereotyped us. She thinks you are whatever material, she will keep giving you that grade. and oh yah.. i think she likes people who are just like her. you know.. what i mean. i really dont want to be mean.. but.. she's really too much. she made me so pissed this morning. i shall not talk about her further in case i get bad luck or karma.

And yes, i know that after CS 105 test on thursday, i really want to say.. Marko is really good looking!! oh yah. he wore a pink shirt today! cant stop staring at him when he was collecting our exam scriptS! for people who simply have no idea who the hell he is.. go check out wkwsci webbie.. den look for a professor by the name of marko. he is.. soo handsome! omg..

So anyway, was so damn elated on thursday because i got a call from someone from Ogilvy and Mather asking me to go down for interview for an internship position! So, anyway, i went down for the interview today. the place.. is 4 storeys only.. and is next to lau pa sat and SGX. and let me tell you... ogilvy.... IS SO DAMN NICE!! the whole place, from the moment i stepped in til the moment i stepped out of the place.. oozes creativity from all corners of the building! omg.. i love that place so much. so.. we then had the interview in this room.. where.. the walls were glass. and the seats... omg.. they were those high chairs tt you can find sometimes in fast food restaurants? i then commented to the interviewers that this is one of the weirdest place i ever had an interview at. sitting on such a chair. omg.... then .. they brought me around to show me the workplace(that is.. if i get in la.).. it was.... SO DAMN NICE. Really messy kinda workplace.. with all the creative juices around. omg. i love the environment.

The exterior of the building feels posh as well. with starbucks, subway, and many other cool things and definitely... good looking people. there is definitely lots of eye candies around! omg.. good looking guys.. and gosh... i absolutely ADORE guys in smart suits and stuff. (omg.. whats wrong with me? haha.. ) i actually prefer guys in straight iron-pressed shirts rather than in uniform (contradictory to what many people say girls actually like. ) haha! and even better, i rmb when i was in europe and it was winter. then.. there was this street where there were many people in business suits and trenchcoats walking to and fro. omg.. i love it when they were the business suit and the winter trenchcoat or whatever you call them! shuai! haha..
*shit.. i better stop sounding like a despo here!hehe*

And so.. the interview went on.. with them asking what i want out of the internship and them explaining the job scope to me. the job scope sounded really interesting. it wasnt glitx and glamour at all. but.. i really wish to gain the experience and learn. and hopefully, i could be like these people someday. i wish i could be like them,.. having a permanent job in such an area. but of course, everyone also aspires to go overseas to work. but anyway, one at a time. one step at a time and i will try my best to reach my goals and dreams.

With love out of the way, i can now concentrate on my studies and perhaps be on my way to carving my own career an being an expert in my niche.

but then again, all these is just plain speak. its just hopes and dreams. and most times, things dont normally go our way yeah? all i can do, is to hope for the best. and try my best, as i always do, with energy, zest and enthusiasm. Cathryn! Mei Qin! you can do it! =)

And anyway, regarding the interview, i dont think i should put in too high hopes in it. because, there are other candidates. and most of the time, no one would want an inexperienced year one undergraduate. they would rather pick a year 4 or something. so that they can intern, then convert them to permanent staff. sucks.. gotta look for other options soon. i cant believe it.. people actually snatching to earn $500 a month? come on.. give it to me. go look for something that pays much higher. i really want to learn. i really am sincere about learning..

And can you believe it? this is the first time i actually say... or imply.. i want to study? omg. hahaha!

well, its more like.. i really want to learn how the advertising and PR sector works. thats what i really want to gain. i want the exposure. i cant stand theory based learning. probably because i suck at that..but.. i really want to learn. pls gimme the chance! *puppy dog eyes*


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And then again... now its back to reality and away from dreaming big city dreams. i have CS 816 exam on monday. i dont even feel like studying for it can? its like.. so crap. coz i SUed it already. but if i dont study for it, i might not guarantee a pass. all i need is a pass for this one..
nevermind. i guess..... people all need rest at times. and it is times like this! where .. i should be resting instead of slogging my brain away.

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arghhh

i m PMSing.

i just quarreled with my parents 3 times today.

then i got angry with 2 people on msn today. so today, i;m going to BLOCK them until i feel happier. hmphx!

first one say my english sucks. second one say i'm fake!

hmphx!!

dont want to talk to u all for tonight!!!

It is during the exams when i start to feel the lousiest and the loneliest.

It is terrible when you know that when you go back home, the things you need to do is to pick up your books and read them, understand and memorize the content.

It is worse when you know that you suck at that module because of the terrible grades you have been getting and because assignments and tests make up 50% of the whole module, the best you are going to get for that module is a C or a B, no matter how hard you try in your 50% written exam.

It is also sad to know that when you are bored and looking for company, there is not many people around you to look for.

It is depressing to note that when all others are seeking comfort from loved ones, you are left alone with no one to turn to.

It is disheartening to know that you cant accomplish anything you set out to do.

I feel so.. lousy, terrible whatever.

i feel, in simple, sad.
just plain pure sad.

i want to be just like everyone else around me, happy and fortunate. just like everyone, they have people to turn to. they have boyfriends and girlfriends to look for when they have trouble.

i also want. i want a boyfriend in uni. right now.
so he can study with me.
so we can stay up all night watching the stars at adm.
so we can have breakfast together.
so we can lunch together.
so we can have dinner together.
so we can have supper together.
so we can share gossips.
so we can share experiences.
so we can have fun in boring ntu.
so we can quarrel when we are stressed.
so we can go jp together to shop when we are bored.
so we can go catch a movie at wee hours of the night without worrying who to go home with you after that.
so we can have fun as a couple while all the singles stare enviously.
so we can do strange things in ntu for memory's sake.
so we can go to the "quad" n pretend we are in a high class restaurant.
so we can walk to "the sun" and buy ben and jerry's whenever we want.
so we can go swim at src together.
so we can walk around ntu aimlessly together.

yes. n right now, so we can study together (as above) is the most important.

thats why i m feeling like that. i want an ntu boyfriend.

but right now, there is just no one around. especially when ure from CS. nothing is male. nothing.
i m so unwanted. =(

ntu sucks big time.

This is a "how- i - m - feeling -right -now" test that is like.. SO SO true. so true thats its so scary..

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You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

You are feeling very disillusioned at this time and you feel that you are being left out of things. You know - or you think you know - what you want, but you seem unable to exert the effort to achieve your objectives. As a consequence, you are feeling left out and neglected. You would like to be afforded greater security and fewer problems.

Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that 'belief' system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will!

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

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This is like so cool la.,. i got it from min huey's website. haha.. true or not, its up to you to decide!!

There are............


Wild boars in the backyard!!!

just right behind my room!











all taken behind this wire gauze of my window..

i think my parents are one of the most energetic bunch of people for their age. not that they are very old, but i think they are damn energetic la..

They just got back from a Genting trip today and they still have the energy to send me home and eat dinner with me!

anw, i'm not sure if they know of my blog or not. but mum n dad, if you do, i really love you guys a lot even though i m rude most of the time. blame it on my impatience and lack of sleep. really.

Anyway, i'm secretly glad that dad did not win this time round. yeah.. i know its bad of me to say such things. haha. maybe.. its god trying to tell them that "hey! you shouldnt be pang-seiing your daughter at this kind of critical period. She needs your support for the exams and you shouldnt be going to enjoy yourself!" wahaha.. what an evil thought from me!

But yeah.. its kind of true mah.. i think i would have felt much happier if my parents actually were at home during the long good friday weekend. Then perhaps i would have felt less lonely. besides, they go to msia every weekend, leaving me alone at home. Its alone in hostel from monday to fri. then alone at home on saturday and sunday. Quite sad yeah? so basically, i'm alone everyday except say.. on sunday evenings when i have dinner with my parents. and thats the only time i actually get to spend with them. it sounds really sad and i feel quite sad about it also. I regret not appreciating the times when i was younger and was able to spend every single dinner with them at home.

But whatever it is, i think i must also thank staying in hostel for helping me to realise this. and also for helping me to realise that my parents love me so much and that i really appreciate family.

So i was saying, i am actually quite happy dad did not win money this time. So, at least he doesnt have to spend money on other people and treat them to sumptuous dinners. I mean, for the exception of one of my uncle and auntie la. becuase they also treat our family sometimes. But for the rest of the relatives, i feel very irritated when my dad sees them and exclaims he has won money and then has to treat them for dinner because.... it is dinner time when he meets them and we have no choice but to dine with them. i mean.. thats my perspective but definitely not my dad's. he is too freakin generous la.

So.. i'm happy we do not have to waste unnecessary money on unnecessary people like them. i rather my dad not bring me to those expensive restaurants than actually spending money on them. actually, this time at Genting, he also let another group of people to stay at one of the free rooms that Genting offered him.

Then you know what? they one whole big family come. Then, they cook Bak Kut Teh in the freaKIN hotel room !!! its a premium room somemore and they so LC go n cook Bak Kut Teh?!?!?!

i know la.. because they are a big family and it is expensive for them to eat out in Genting especially. So they have to cook.; BUT BAK KUT TEH???!?!?!

my mum said they stinked up the whole room with the B ak Kut Teh smell. n u noe what? the room is under my dad's name. he gave them the room for free and this is what they do?

What if the hotel people dont like and they blacklist my dad? den we will have no free rooms the next time we go to Genting anymore! not like i will go though.

so.. unappreciative these people. Tsk tsk!

thats why i said.. i'm happy my dad never win money. i'm very happy~!

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Anyway, in case you're wondering why i bluff you that my parents did not go on a long trip, you know the answer yourself. i'm sorry i had to lie to you. but you know why yourself..

And, there isnt a need to reply to everything i say on my blog. and by that, i mean you two. u might or u might not know that i'm talking about you.

There is no need to reply to this too.

Danceworks Finals

Hi there..!

I just got back from Danceworks Finals a few hours ago. The guys got 2nd place! congrates! i think they are damn zai because they choreographed the whole dance etc themselves.

Then there were the other categories which were damn good too.

then there were the kids! the ones who could dance real well! omg.. like.. the young ones are like 8?

I think they dance so much better than me. i have lots to work on man!!

i wish i could dance just like them!!!

what am i expected to do?

how am i expected to respond?

am i responsible to answer those questions?

why is it always at a time like this?

you tell me u want me to talk to you

yet you question my motive for talking to you.

is this what is expected of me?

m i supposed to be like this?

I dont know. i cant do anything. i m powerless.

Its always you. it has always been you as priority.

Have you ever considered how i feel?

do you think i actually feel good?

Do you think its easy acting as though nothing is going on?

Do you really think i'm taking it as easy as you see it is?

Why do you always question my motive?

I'm human too. You think i m so tough that i can take everything by myself?

i try to. i'm really trying to.

you think i m having a good time now. you think i m enjoying every moment of my life now.

You think i'm so lucky?

you think its easy?

i cant control myself.

i cant.

but i have to.

you wont understand now.

but one day, you will.

my life is not as simple as you think.

i;m not as simple as you think.

I like being alone.

I like the feeling of not having to care about whats happening around the rest of the world.

anyway, i finally finished doing two heavy assignments. One which is my marketing graded assignment of 13 pages, while the other is my speech of 5 mins.

finally. now there is CS 103 stupid research paper to do. =(

HAPPY 500TH POST!!

Hello!! this is my 500th post since i started blogging. Isnt it cool?
Wow. blogging has indeed came a long long long way for me!

Anyway, latest updates!!

THE CUTE CS SENIOR THOMAS ONG LOOK-A-LIKE cut his hair!!!!
omg.. n now, he looks cuter than ever. his hairstyle suits him so well and he looks taller too. i think his height should be about 180? i dont know, haven got the chance to stand next to him before. and will never. so how will i ever know?!
Wai mun says he is skinny, i dont think so. i think his physique suits him really well. my kinda guy! =)

yes yes, i know, i m living in my fantasies.. but hey. whats wrong with indulging in your fantasies once in a while? He is a bit like KNS, so near, yet so far. except that, him, i will never get a chance to know, unlike KNS. =(

Anyway, i discovered another thing of him that resembles Thomas Ong~!
He has a damn deep voice.. just like thomas ong! omg. so nice.

*Smilex and drifts off to cloud 11*

haha.. anyway, CS 103 presentation is over and now we have to do our research paper. everything is coming and coming and nothing is ever stopping.

Heres a list of all the "big " things that has to be done before revisions of exams:

1. CS 103 Research Paper (10 pages- though its group work)
2. CS 105 Assignment (Group work)
3. CS 106 Presentation (Duh. group work)
4. MB 103 Graded Assignment (10 pages - individual)

so many things! so little time!

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Who wants to go jogging and swimming with me during the weekdays in ntu? pls look for me ok? i need to lose weight!!!

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Shall get back to the books! tata!

ON ONE NIGHT STANDS AND FLINGS

How do you make the distinction between a one night stand and a fling?
A fling can be a non-once off event and you do not have to go into sex. thats what i think. As for a one night stand, its obvious and blatant what it means.

I might be open in discussion about such stuff but i m certainly not one who is keen on going for one night stands (ONS).

I was actually rather taken aback when i was asked if i wanted a ONS yesterday by someone.

i was shocked.

And no, i did not agree to his request in case you were wondering. haha.

Hmm.. i'm not really into ONS because i guess there isnt a need to. As some people say, some go into ONS because they needed a place to release and did not want to commitment. i';m not against ONS though. i always believe, if both parties are okay with it, then its fine to go ahead.

Yup.. but still, i wont go for such things. haha. fuck buddies are certainly not my cuppa tea.

haha. so in case youre wondering? no. i'm not interested.