wow. i'm bloggin again.

Stayed at home the whole day today to study.
Studying makes people depressed. it makes people feel how lonely it gets in this world. we are all on our own, threading in the dark and not knowing where exactly to go.

its amazing how one can suddenly burst out into tears for no apparent reason.

Its even more amazing how a few blog entries ago, life was still rich and fulfilling. Suddenly, when ure all alone, it seems life has become meaningless and all you have to keep doing is study.

i might not make sense. so, dont bother to read. i do not blog for anyone, but myself.

do you ever remember the feeling of how if feels like just before you cry? The sour feeling , then the stings in your eyes, then slowly, the welling up of liquid in the corners of your eye?

i remember them everytime and i m scared of that terrible stinging feeling.

I'm not strong. i'm not weak either. i'm just an ordinary person.

Was watching the 4th or 5th episode of ugly betty on my computer just now over dinner. how pathetic. youre home for the weekends but no one is ard. haha.

anyway, the shows not bad but it kind of reminds me of devil wears prada. the story seems to revolve around the same concept. Well, even betty has a bf. and even betty has the guy from accounts who likes her!
See, even she has. but i havent. =(

anyway, seriously, betty should just dump her bf who two-timed her once and just go for that accounts department guy. He is so much better looking than her bf. besides, there was one scene where he took off his specs, he is quite gorgeous u know. n he is like quite sweet too. her bf , on the other hand, is so disgusting. he slept with her neighbour and he is a weird guy. yeah. betty's bit weird but still, he is super weird. n he is so fucking nerdy.

Why doesnt she just give that accounts guy a chance? he is sweet. c.. this is what i call..some people dont treasure opportunities. Wait until they become like me.. then they will realise how precious these opportunities are. haha.



Above: ugly betty's disgusting bf.



Above: the cute guy from accounts.

yeah. c what i mean?! stupid people.

haha.. guess what my horoscope for today said!

" Could it be you are taking the whole dating and mating thing too seriously? Keep your heart light and meet new people while learning on the way. Relax and have some fun!"

hahaha.. me? taking the whole dating n mating thing too seriously? hahhaa.. so cute.

maybe i m.

haha.. but old liao what! what to do!? waahahahaha!

hellooz!!! first, i would like to wish Abel "happy 22nd birthday!" u;ve become an old man... hahaha...

ok.. Anyway, i'm really happy about my marketing project. Prof Seow gave me an A Star!! weeee!!!! =) haha.. so happy..
And guess what? our group totally did not know that the budget of the whole project was supposed to be half a million.
So, we did on having Love Resorts. Okay.. its like a sex resort. haha.. And come on, be realistic, how can the budget for a resort be less than a million. can you believe it? we totally went out of point over there! ahahahah!! \

But nonetheless, we did well and prof seow said nvm, coz we did all the accounting for our budget and everything. can u imagine, our advertising costs totalled up to 3million. and that is just advertising! not even developmental costs etc. hahaha.. But thanks to our dear Eric, the Financial Manager. Damn zai at doing all the calculations that i dont understand and dont bother understanding.

We just left the guys to do all the math while we do what we do best. haha.. engineers, cant blame them for being so zai at math!! Thats the good thing about having guys in the project group! they do all the sai!!!! hahaha... n they like it!! wahahaha...

i love my marketing project group! This is the first elective i have attended in my NTU life. and.. i love.... my marketing project grp! i dunnu if they feel the same way la... haha.. heres the pics we took before and after our presentation!



Above: Togethrer, we make the difference!! haha.. hui fen is holding a blue box of clorets. haha. the rest of us putting our hands together, like introducing the product like tt. haha.. blue clorets= blue pill. get it? ok.. if you dont, blue pill = viagra!



Above: Our marketing group with Prof Seow!!
From left: Me, Eric, Wenhua, Prof Seow, Wilson, Wei Qin, Hui Fen



Above: Hui Fen, Wen Hua and me!

And i just realised i nv take individual shot with Wen Hua!!! haish! n she's my senior summore! haish!!



Above: Wilson presenting. See his face in the powerpoint? haha..
Dont u think he look like a hong kong actor? i cant rmb the name liao. but everyone agrees. haha.. anyway, wilson is the king of talking cock. everyday talk so much cock. 25 yrs old alr.. still talk so much cock..



Above: Hui Fen. She's from CS too. Damn pretty la. i tink shes her hall princess..



Above: Wen hua. The damn outspoken chinese major in my tutorial class. Really nice person and i enjoy her company!



Above: Eric. Haha.. i din noe he was a hongkonger until.... very recently. haha.. he also another damn funny guy.



Above: Me and hui fen



Above: Eric and hui fen



Above: Eric and me..



Above: Wei Qin n Mei Qin. hahahaha..




Above: Wilson and Eric



Above: Wei Qin and Wilson


Above: Wen hua and Hui Fen



Above: Hui fen and wilson



Above: Wen hua and wilson. Wen hua! why u act cute!



Above: Wilson and i



Above: Hui fen and Wei Qin



Above: Eric and Wen hua


Above: Eric and Wei Qin.oh u noe! interesting fact about them! they are from the same army camp.. and in 2 and a half years... THEY HAVE GONE OVERSEAS 7 TIMES!!! omg........ 7 TIMES!!!



Above: We gave out chocolates for everyone to eat before our presentation started. ERIC! WHAT ARE U DOING EATING THE CHOCOLATE!!! he looks damn cheeky and greedy here la!



Above: The narcissist.. hahaha...

I really like my marketing group. =) thanks everyone for all the effort put in! =)

you know, there are just some people in this world that are so insensitive and think that they are always rite.

They are absolutely unaware that somethings does not have to do with some people but yet they put the blame on them. i pity these people.

somethings are not people's problems and they end up becoming the problems of some others.

Somethings are done voluntarily by others and now that some stuff are not happening others get blamed for them. what has the world become? why are there such people in the world? or is it that i have been couped up in my own little world that i did not notice the presence of such people around?

its really amusing when u think of it. haha.. when things were made so clear initially and yet, people come one round and stab u in the back. omg. i actually find it funny.

Luckily i'm not one that hasnt been through any setbacks before if not i will find it sad or even feel sorry about it. luckily i have seen through many others before. when they do nt get what they want, they blame you for the results. omg. i'm seriously amused as i have nv met people like tt before until onlu recently. haha..

So, i seriously dont mind playing the blame game because it doesnt really affect me. and u might be thinking, if it doesnt den why m i blogging about it?
i'm bloggin about it becuase i find it amusing. this is so funny..

A BRAND NEW START

okay.. this is it. i have finally cleared up all my debts.

I paid my phone bill which accumulated up to $235 over the past few months.
And.. i paid up whatever that needs to be paid up.

This exam season, is the time to start saving up to break even of the debt i have just cleared.
This means.. i would not be bingeing on snacks, and i would not be spending lavishly. My hp bills will continue going lower and i will make sure they do not exceed $40 each month.

This should be possible. Also, i'm gonna have to start recording how much i spend a day, so that i can estimate how much i spend a week , then a month , and so on. so that i can start calculating how much exactly i m spending and i will know where all that money of mine has gone.

Its terrifying how money can just fly away without myself knowing.

And, i'm going to work during the holidays. though, not sure what yet. Perhaps i might go back into recruitment. But, i feel like taking up an internship in a PR company.
But i m quite certain i'm going to start giving tuition so i can pay off my hostel bills myself. I dont want to depend on my parents for hostel bills. So, i'm probably gonna find someone to give tuition to. Besides, i'm not going to have much commitment except for dance anymore. So, i think i should be able to do it.

Was browsing through some other peoples blogs. People i know, people i have seen around, and people i dont know and have never met before. There are different ways of expressing themselves. Some write poems, some write abstractly, while some.. jst write simply. Just like me. Though, i admit at times some stuff i write are crap.

What is the purpose of my blog? I remember a friend asking me the other day.
What do i want to get through to people in my blog?

I must admit my initial use of my blog was to attract attention due to my attention seeking nature. But i realised soon after all these attention are just temporary. They go away after the novelty wears off.
I also must admit i used to manipulate through my blog last time. Ranging from talking behind people's back, gossiping, to even.. declaring my love for someone i had a crush on.

But now, as i grow older (yeah.. i know this is cliche but its true), i begin to treat my blog as a memory database, recording the little things that happen in my life, making me what i m today. I guess when i grow up next time and when i re-read my blog again, i would definitely find myself laughing at the stupid things i worry about, m sad about and feeling proud of myself of what i m in the future. (well, at least i hope that will happen)

Writing a blog also allows me to be able to reflect better. Putting my worries into words seem to make these trouble simpler and easier to solve. I somtimes find myself worrying about the most stupid things when i blog. But as i type them, i realised i was being too pessimistic and things are not so bad after all.

I admit i use broken english and all that singlish in my blog. is it good? or is it bad? seriously, i dont really care. Blogging is therapeutic for me and i really appreciate the advent of the internet thus giving rise to Web 2.0 and thus blogs. (haha... gosh. i m even applying what i learn in CS 108???)

So, seriously, who cares about what you blog as long as u feel happier after blogging? surely we can be selfish for once? surely for once, we do not have to bother about other people's feelings when we type what we want?
maybe some of u might not understand. but i realized i used to practice self-censorship on my blog. its so stupid. i did it because i did not want to hurt the feelings of the people reading my blog. but i realised, if i cant do it on my blog, where else can i do it?

i dont have a diary, am too afriad to keep one coz i still remember my cousin took to read it before. (yes, mei hua. thats you. ahhaha.. but i dun think u read my blog though. ) After that, i was so traumatized i dont dare to keep diaries again, for fear that anyone else reads it. haha..

yeah.. i know, out of point. but this is my blog.. who cares?

Anyway, if u know anyone who wants tuition. tell me k? haha.. i need to find a student. but that.. can wait for after exams.

Til then, i shall start working hard because exams are 19days away.

I just finished lectures .... so tiring !!! my day brightened when i saw thomas ong lookalike again!
hmm.. i heard him talking when i walked past. he was talking abt... flingS???

wah.. i certainly dont mind having a fling with u!!! haha..

okok.. time to get back to projects and studies!! tata!

There are no cute guys around anymore. so sad...

as i do my CS 106 project, i have to search on issues like marriage, divorce, etc. oh man.. so irritating to read all those lovey dovey quotes. seriously, i wonder when will be the day i will ever get married or will ever have someone who loves me and i love them back all the same. Getting a bit emo. haha..

anyway, i think.. no need to find guys from NTU already. because ... its impossible lor. in my female studying environment. its impossible to have any guy friends.. besides the ones i currently know. haha. so pathetic rite? haha

anyway, i just saw that cute guy again from CS yesterday. so shuai. tried to take his photo using my phone but he kept moving around. so irritating!! n they still say he looks like a construction worker!! no way!!

anyway, ( i realised i keep saying anyway) i decided already. cecilia once said i was always being very wei da in relationships because i dont give looks a damn. haha.. she says that applies to all my previous relationships. haha.. ok. so, now i'm going to set my sights further and look for.. cute guys who are rich and drive a car. thats my aim!! (omg.. as i get older, i get more materialistic and i get shallower. wat is this!?!?!?)

*shit. i have to stop acting this desperate!!!*

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Had project meeting for marketing til 10plus yesterday. We tried our presentations and i brought my camera to take photos of them. funny thing is, we nv take photo together. but nvm, i shall take them on thurs!



Huifen presenting...




Wilson



Wen hua.. she is my TJ senior! and i only knew it last week . -.-"""



Eric. he looked damn chui in his t shirt shorts and slippers tt day. haha.. good lor. came from hall.. shuang la.. i want to go his hall!!



Wei Qin. haha.. c his name? if u change the W to an M. or shld i say... if u just invert the W... its my name! Mei Qin..


After project meeting, i went on to blk 45 lounge for Bombers' Sexy Bomb Bomb party. haha.. the theme was stripes.. but.. i have no stripes clothes!

Only got to take photo with alan. coz after a while, everyone left already.

Later in the nite, we went to celebrate yuen bo's birthday.. there was coffee cake from bengawan solo. They took the cake and smashed around.. end up.. no cake to eat. haha..

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i'm really screwed up with my revision schedule man.. =(

OMG.. i cant believe it. i was supposed to wake up at 330 to study and this is what happens. shit man.. i cant believe it seriously. i cant believe it.. i;m up awake at 730?!?! oh man.. how am i going to make up for lost time?

yay!! i got a new alarm clock. its a piggie alarm clock. thanks abel for popping by n giving me the alarm clock! haha.. so happy! because.. all of my clocks, except for my hp clock is not working...
its like.. my computer n alarm clock are both wrong. i was without sense of time for like 1 whole week. how terrible it felt man!!

haha.. but abel! why you "song zhong" to me? u want me to die earlier arh!!! haha.. =( later no one gossip w u how? haha.. k la. i shall not be so mean. anyway, dont think he reads my blog too.

anyway, i'm really glad to gain back my sense of time.

Did you know there was once i was doing work from evening til nite. i started around 6ish.. n the clock kept at 9ish. and actually it was already 1am? i was damn shocked because i still had a lot to do.

haha,. okok.. spent so much time talking cock. now must study alr.. tata!!

i'm back in hall.. u noe.. i'm getting the kind of feeling that... i'm not going to complete what i set myself out to do. sianx......

i was stuck between the decision of taking special sem or to work during the hols. besides, i dont really know if there is time to work because we would all be busy preparing for Dancestitute.

Anyway, heres a photo of MJ girls at Momo.. before we set out to zouk that nite. it was taken by a photographer from www.mumtazz.com ?? dunnu la. nice pic!



oh man.. i'm so gonna miss dancing throughout this exam period. =(

anyway, i was wondering.. is it true that the friends you mix with makes you become what you are? or.. ure already like that.. its just that the people you mix with.. allow you to show more of your true colours than others you mix with.

do you get what i mean?

ok. i think no one actually does.

do you all think i've changed? hahx.. i actually dont know. have i? or was i always like this ?

woah. there are actually people i m not aware of that are reading my blog, reading my blog.
get that sentence? not sure if its in perfect english, grammar or watever shit. haha.

Nvm. I wonder who else reads my blog since i do not publicise it so much. And, you know, its kinda irritating when you read something and start speculating stuff. Why not just come n ask me? i prefer you all to be direct instead of asking here asking there. speculating here, speculating there. omg.. what cowards. yeah i agree with you. i'm a bitch. but so are all of u. haha...

Anyway, CAC Joint Dance concert at SCGS was kinda cool. We were the opening item. Woah. why arh? haha.. coz MJ v zai is it? hahahha.. =X

then. we had nothing to do for a very long time before it was finale and we had to go up once more on stage. haha..

So, during this period of time, lots of stuff happened. so fun.
Some of them played daidee while me n some others stuffed ourselves with KFC that was readily available on our tables in the waiting room for the dancers.

Then we stuffed marshmallows into our mouths.. Regina broke everyone's record. She stuffed 7 marshmallows into her mouth! haha.. too bad i did not bring a camera if not i could take how she looked like. haha..
the most the rest of us could stuff was 5.
then they were saying that, the more you could stuff the better. haha... so.. u can provide more satisfaction next time. hahaha.. (think why yourself. hahaha.. )

Then.. we started playing Charades. omg. so funny again.
We gave aisyah the movie titled "Virgin Suicide". She came up with like so many sex positions and all that actions la.. just to show the word virgin. hahah..


Then.. there was our turn where an qi did the movie titled " Chronicles of Riddick" how the hell was she supposed to do tt?

haha.. She broke them down into "read" and "dick"
hahaha.. omg.. Read was easy.
but how about dick? haha'
yes, you've guessed it. haha...

She used her hand initially and we all guess "m ....".
n then she used a water bottle. we guessed .. "P..."
haha.. she got exasperated after a while and she changed the waterbottle for a bigger one.. haha.. we began to derail and we guess " Ere..." haha.
omg.. who would have guessed dick until the v last min? haha..

then after this, it was finale. We were all alr very high because of the game..

it was fun. =) gonna miss MJ for a while.. for the exams.. haha.. time to work super super hard to make up for lost time spent on dunnu what stuff! haha.. jia you!!

ok. the items for each person in Dancesitute are out alr..

I'm quite surprised at the items i m performing in..

Oh yah. everyone had 3 items. so its kinda fair. yeah..

I'm in the opening item! --> which is CS's item..
and i m in Rizal's item! --> yeah!!! coz i heard its slow hip hop and lyrical jazz or something similar! Heard from alyssa its a love story or something one. omg. so cool.. i cant believe it. so happy. but i better buck up because i think i m like the lousiest amongst everyone there..

oh.. and yes, i will be going overseas right after my exams.. but i wont say where yet. probably until the last day then i will reveal to everyone. for those who know, lucky u!

For those who dont, well.. i dont think u all really want to know also la, yah?

kk.. i gotta rush my lab report. tml still got concert to perform . tata!

oh my fucking god.. i cant believe what happened to me last night.

It was the first time i got fucking pissed drunk. fuck.

It better be the last time man. i made a spectacle of myself and utterly ruined my reputation.

Fuck.

I cant believe it was kg tt got me drunk. omg. sucks. gonna kill him.

I cant remember what happened at all. omfg.

it was a traumatic experience sitting through all that..

So traumatic.

i brought my camera to school on monday and was cam-whoring with my friends.but i realised.. i look ugly in all of the pictures. so.. i am not going to post any of the photos up. friends, if u want the pictures come and get from me..

ok.. gotta go down now..update l8tr

boo!

I slept at 4ish and woke up at 8ish to study. Good! keep up the good job!

Yesterday at CS, we saw this cute guy in a grey shirt. I think he is probably a senior who is majoring in EBM (Electronic Broadcast MEdia) coz he was carrying filming equipments and stuff and walking around and he definitely is not a year 1. So, he is definitely a senior. He is damn cute la.Or at least.. only i and grace think so. The rest, some had no comments, some , like stupid Wai Mun! say.. he look like a construction worker (!!!!).

Then later, on closer look, even grace also say he is not that good looking liao.

No lor. i think otherwise. haha.. he is damn shuai. He looks like Thomas Ong!! Just like Thomas Ong, he has nice floppy hair and wears so specs. Shuai!


All fo their taste sucks. He is good looking k! haha.. gosh. reminds me of KNS. hahaha.. but if u ask me who more shuai.. i say.. this CS guy is more shuai than KNS. Because KNS got "bao ya" while this guy doesnt. And this guy is freaking damn tall.. just like thomas ong... wah.. maybe he is thomas ong's bro are something........

Yeah! got 1 cute guy to look at in CS alr! =p

People grow fat when they're in love. People grow thin when they're stressed up or depressed.

Me?

I grow fat either way. Why? why am i plagued with this weight issue?
=(

We have to wear the Freshmakers' costumes and the girls in there are damn fucking slim. I'm so fat. how the hell am i going to squeeze into that and embarrass myself?

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These are the pictures taken at Sentosa during NTU Family Day where we had to perform..



Guess whos sexy imprint is tt?


Damn f-in sexy pose..... n thats the owner of the black temp tattoo.. alyssa. Damn photogenic la..

Then there was the butterfly glitter tattooo for the lucky girls who were smart to wear halters..


Above: Aisyah's tattoo

And the near butt tattoo for the girl who wore low pants that day.. Shu Hui



And then... there was the stupid girl who continued wearing MJ T-shirt... And.. black dance pants.. and had no where else to put the tattoo.. but....... on her.... arm... -.-"""


Red Rose...


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Today is one of the most fun marketing meetings i've had. so fun!
We had a great talk cock session.. haha.. the people in my group are like.. damn ... talk cock ppl.. haha

Gonna take pics with them some day and post them out yah! haha.. gosh.. i'm becoming a cam whore.............

I'm getting quite fed up with all the work that has to be done. Deadlines, assignments, projects, everything has to be rushed. Theres no time to sit there and stone. and stone. and stone.

So please tell me, why some people still can sit there and stone. and stone. and stone. ? why?

Anyway, just got back from my Sentosa performance. it was... okayy.. i did not make any blunders. The door gift was a freakin tourisy hat which has NTU imprinted on it. can you believe it? who would want to wear that obiang thing?

Surprisingly, the "supposed" coolest of the coolest did. The breakdancers wore it. WHY? it totally.. made them.........."NTUish".. "Bookish", etc etc.

And the hat was so big for some of them it covered their faces and you cant see any of that. in that way, they could not really connect with the audience and their break dancing got dry after a while. Well, they are good.. but why did they have to wear that freakin NTU hat? omg.. ahahhaha..

There was the bento set which was not bad. Then we all went to get free glitter tatoos that last for a short while. maybe a week?

Haish.. wanted to do one at my back. too bad.. was not wear spaghetti or halter. So.. has to do a stupid red rose on my arm.. =(.. on my fat fat arm. hahaha..

Yeah... talking about dance, MJ is going to start Dancestitute preparation soon. And they are choosing dancers. which.. i tink i would be one of the LOGs. Which means.. Left -Over- Girls.

how sad!

=(

So.. i 'm probably not going to invite anyone to come watch me perform because other peopl would be performing say... 3 items? while.. i m probably just gonna perform like.. er.. one?

Yeah.. i;m lousy what. what to do? haish.. nvm lor.. accept your fate. ure not talented. move on with life. find something better to do? =(

yeah.. so dont come asking me how many items i get coz its probably 1. =( Or i m probably the person everyone pushes around like a ball.. saying" eh.. u take her la.." "dun wan la.. u take la.. u got space" " cannot la.. u take her lor.. just put her at the back"

yeah... =(.. n.. pls.. people. dont bother consoling m,e.. or telling me.. its alright. becuase its hell not!
I cant wait to c the email tt tells me the items i will be in. haha.. probably ZERO.
And.. pls.. i repeat. dont console me.. and say its alright because that shows u all look down on me.

haha.. adrian insisted i put his name on the top of all my links..

So.. there it is. just for you.haha..

Anyway, added lots of people recently. Cool.

But i wanna change blogskin.

I've come to realise the merits of being single and start to miss less the times of being attached. so, for those who recently broke up, well... dont fret.. because being single has its merits as well.. which.. far overruns being attached. For those attached, well i think they should still count themselves lucky. because it is only the singles (like me) that are being sour grapes. haha..

being single for more than a month, i have come to realise that actually now, i have much more time to do things that i really want to do. for example, i can concentrate on going for my dance practices without fretting about how to set aside time for the boyfriend and how am i also going to squeeze in more time for studies. Right now, i m already tied up to my neck with homework and sorts.. and i';m still grasping for breath because time is simply moving too fast.

I realized i also get to spend more time with my family. Which is really good because family is most important after all. and.. they are the ones that treat you best, they are willing to do anything for you and without any motives and stuff.

I used to hate going out with my family, for obvious reasons. because i m an only child and i found it hard for my parents to appreciate things that i appreciated and enjoyed. And also, well, every teenager goes through that phase in life i guess. well, as i approach the end of my teens, i realised the importance of family after surviving a break up and after staying in hostel.
Home is still the best place to go. i love home.

And now that i have more time to myself, i can also work on more self-improvement stuff, which i intend to start doing during the holidays.

At least now, whatever i do, whoever i go out with, why i'm doing anything.. i do not have to be answerable to anybody. End of restrictions and the road to more freedom. This is the time we should all make full use of our youth and do as much as we can and try out anything we want, just before we become old and hagged and lose the ability to do them.

Single is good. Single is good. and i intend to remain like this for quite a while. And i think i intend to enjoy for much longer before i find my knight in shiny amour (if its possible. if not, one riding a white horse can liao hahaha.. -.-"").

Besides, NTU quite chui. No cute guys. Ok.. got la.. but then.. very unreachable coz i dont know many guys in NTU because of my course. Sad rite? haha.. its ok.. i shall graduate with a double bachelor degree. hahaha.. but since i m female.. bachelorette. haha..

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Talking about degrees, NTUWKWSCI has changed its curriculum and used us as their guinea pigs. I dont understand why is it that my batch is always the one being tested out. We have been tested out on so many different education systems and stuff. There was the project work as us being the final batch (i think), the PEARLS points system (as us being the first and final batch), then there was the HAS (Hall allocation scheme- again as us being the first batch) and now, theres the WKWSCI divisions.

Originally, there were 4 divisions.
1. Communication policy and research
2. Journalism and Publishing
3. Electronic broadcasting media
4. PR and Advertising.

I think so.

Guess what? now, we have freaking 6 divisions!!! and.. they split up my dearest advertising and public relations!!
omg... now , i have to choose between advertising and PR. haish.. i cant decide which becuase i wanted knowledge in both. there is the choice of doing both tracks together but it would be extremely taxing on the individual. but its also because i m intending to do a business minor and so i cant afford to do 2 tracks.

Gosh.. i cant decide and the problem is.. this time, we have to decide on our specialisations in year 2!! that means,straight after my exams i have to start thinking of which side i want to head. Most likely i would be heading towards the PR track and doing a business minor. but i dont want to lose out on the Advertising track too!! I've long wanted to enter the advertising and PR industry and was hoping for my second year to let me have a clearer picture of what i want to do. now that they've simply cut off that experiential learning on my part, i dont know how i'm ever goign to decide. what if i regret going into the PR track?

Advertising would emphasize more on graphics and creativity, which i know i definitely lack. probably they'll be talking about using Flash, adobe, etc etc.
So, maybe i might not go into that track because of the arty side needed.
So right now.. i have two choices that i would take.

1. Do a PR track and do a business minor
2. Do both advertising and PR track

which one should i choose?

looks like i've got to look for professors to talk to before making a decision that might affect my future career.

The questions is: Diversification ? or specialisation?

this is the first time lessons were cancelled because the internet was done. How cool is tt?

i wish internet will be done every friday afternoon and we will never have to attend CS 816 labs anymore. every friday. just every friday will do.

Anyway, i'm looking for a nice blog skin. because i m kinda sick of the old one already. but this blog skin must be able to accommodate my big photos, just like this one. So, the layout must be really simple and nice. haish..

Its such a stressful week. Actually, i thought that danceworks would be the last time that we would be performing that particular dance of ours. But guess what? haha.. we have to perform it another 2 times. Sunday at sentosa, and next saturday at SCGS for NTU Joint Dance concert. Gosh.. and we din even have practice.

All of us are so stressed up by the workload we have, even when exams are around the corner. I look forward to the start of my revision so that i can comfort myself that.. there is still time.. there is still time.

On a totally random note, Mediacorp is having this charity thing AGAIN. Not that i m against or anything but somehow i feel that it has been oversensationalised. dont you think?

Besides, i think the PR side is getting a bit boring and predictable. Yes, by that i mean that we know that you are trying to touch people's heart by showing some heart-warming channel 8 drama at 9pm to try to make people's heart soften, just in time for the charity show. Hmmm.. the PR side has become so predictable that people are getting skeptical about it already. But people, i do not only mean by people who bother to notice trends and stuff but i mean by even normal heartlanders (though, not to discriminate any).

People know of your intention already, and when that happens, the show becomes a little fake. Hmm.. I cant comment on the drama actually becuase i m seldom at hoime and have absolutely no access to the television. So, its quite impossible la.. but i guess, the only good thing about the show is.. there is fann wong inside.

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i have lots of projects and assignments to hand up. and i m going to list all of them here to scare all of u!!!

CS 103 project - presentation and research paper
CS105 project - survey design
CS 106 project - presentation
CS 816 project - AB journal articles and newspaper articles
CS 816 lab report
MB 103 project - presentation

want to complain? think again.

i hate all you guys
i fucking hate hall 9! i dont want to stay in that damned place. i want to leave this place. but i cant.

i have to fucking stay here and take all the fucking shit. i hate all of you people


you all say u want to help but no one is doing anything at all. why bother asking me if i'm alright when thats the most you can do? why put out a hand only to retract it back when someone tries to hold it?

why?

is it that fun?

is it that enjoyable?

i just want to leave this place.

i really want to leave hall 9. i hate hall 9

hall 9 has all the bad people..

all the people who are just nice on the outside but evil on the inside.

[eopl who just want to see you die. people who cant wait to see you cry.

i;m sick of all these hypocrites and cheena people.

all stupid people who cannot speak proper english and only know how to shit. i hate all of you. i really hate all of you!!! i hate all of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


you all make me feel as though the only way out is death. i hate all of you

weee!!!!

MJ invited 2 "so you think you can dance" contestants to conduct a workshop for us!

It was Ashle Dawson from Season 1, and Ashlee Nino from season 2. both Ashle and Ashlee were damn cool! Ashlee Nino from season 2 (the only female popper and locker - small and petite one) is damn chio!



Above is a polaroid taken with them. coz, the dance school that created thw workshop did not allow us to take photos with our cameras.. haha.. must pay $4 per polariod somemore!

Ashle dawson taught as Fushion Jazz. it was fun.. but.. i prefer lyrical still. she did not include any techniques at all. which, i found was rather disappointing. but thats maybe becuase most of us are amateurs in jazz and she did not want the class to be too technical and boring.

Ashlee Nino is mexican spanish. she held two classes, hip hop and popping and locking. i did not go for the popping and locking class becuase .. well.. i simply have not much interest in it la. hahaha.. but hip hop was really fun!!

i enjoyed MJ tt day. and later after class, alyssa and i went to eat at Macs with them! so fun to dine with celebrities!!! they were really down to earth and cool. then we gossiped about the gays in So you think you can dance.

i asked them about my fav! Dmitry!!!! soo shuai! he's straight! BUT.. he's got a serious gf alr.. sobx!!! no chance for me!!!

then we talked about nick and craig from season 1. They are gay and are together. it was said that melody was initally with nick. but then, the 3 of them, nick craig and melody did a show. and guess what? yeah.. i dont need to say much!

then they said ryan and travis from season 2 are gay too. but they;re not together la. haha..

so fun!

i'm very stressed over the fucked up goodie bag issue. i cant find sponsors in such a short time. what you all want me to do?

subcommers procrastinate. JCRC complain.

no one understands and can help.

i really need sponsors. if not, i will kill myself.

woah.. i barely slept for 3 hours today.

n i guess you can tell i m very tired now from the lack of sufficient slp. anyway, MJ danceworks photos are out. feel free to get them from me.

Btw, the guys team got into the finals. We , the girls team and the senior mixed team did not get in. its actually alright and i did not really feel that sad actually because i guess, this is one of the times where you know you have did the best that you could and you appreciate yourselves for all the3 efforts you have put in. besides, this is only our first competition. its alright. =)


This picture shows the whole of MJ that participatedd in the danceworks competition.


The MJ girls with our choreograhers.. Ruifen, stephy, amanda, and melissa


The good girls in MJ... ( as in those acting as good girls in the dance)




Good Vs Evil. Good is in gold while bad is in black


Me acting guai before the competition. they say the make up everything made me look very guai and angelic.. gosh.. hahaha


Me , yan yan and alyssa


the bad girls... sexy!


Anqi and rebecca


Good (yan yan) vs Evil (alyssa)


Cheerleading girls in skit..
we had to wear super tight cheerleading costumes for our anti-drug commercial


all the ppl who had to wear the costumes for the commercial


Alyssa and i




An qi and alyssa


An qi and juicy


MJ guys


those are abt it le!! =)