hello!!!

there is blk supper later.. i'm supposed to be mugging right now.. but i cannot take it alr... nid to slp!!!!! sobx...

its e-learning week this week. but it feels like the same.. because there are still lectures for CS 107 and CS 108 . sucks. haha..
Why? the reason given was because they were part-time lecturers.. so.. they dont have the chance to try out e-learning. where got such things?

some were joking that its becuase they're part time lecturers and they're paid by the no. of lectures they give. so.. they give more.. to earn more. hahaha..

Anyway, i must really stop eating supper. Yersterday, we studied at the reading room from like 7pm to 1215pm. siao rite? damn cool. non-stop! haha.. with the occasional breaks to talk for a while.

So we were really hungry and david suggested to eat macdonalds. Den a few others also wanted to eat.
Initially, i rmb telling jessamyn "we cannot eat supper tonight! must persevere!" at like 9 plus. Den in the end, both of us gave in to temptation and ordered sinful mc spicy. oh god.. how much more sinful can my supper get. sobs.. i better stop.

I just finished majority of my website. yipppee! tomorrow our group is going to meet at 9am, hopefully i can wakey in time and show them what i have done and hopefully, they like it. coz.. i like it a lot. esp the xodus rollover effect. hahaha..

Anyway, here are some pictures of the 2 hall cats i have been feeding for quite a while..



Above: the most obedient cat i have ever known. Big Balls. haha.. this is the cat that yee chien mistook for big boss. haha.. why big balls? haha.. guess for yourself..


Above: Dao dao.. Named by yee chien. haha. why dao dao? coz.. it is very disobedient and it does not respond to yee chien when she calls her.



Above: Dao dao and big balls talking to each other after a full meal of whiskas



Above: and this picture is a really great one. look at his face.. omg...


Above: Yee chien finally manages to get dao dao's attention. so we need to take a photo to rmb this moment.haha.. coz its rare she actually took note of yee chien.. wahahaha



Dont let the cat out of the bag.. hehe

i want to tell everyone! i think i can do what www.ilovexodus.com did alr!
Weee! i can do the roll overs n the cool cool effect for our CS 108 project! i feel a strong sense of accomplishment! weee!!!

n i find that our initial wireframe design a bit weird. feel like correcting it. nvm! i will do 2 sets of deisgn n show them ! haha.. c which they prefer.
*smiles* v happy coz its my first time using firefox n dreamweaver and i'm coming to love it! =)

In the meantime, looking forward to this evening. but dunnu still on or not. =( *muacks*

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yeaH! you came to surprise me this evening =)

m very happy about it.. =)

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Anyway, i'm crazeeeee about heels.. omg.. did i mention before i saw this $133 heels at Topshop? i totally dig it. Omg.. but nvm.. heres my remedy to myself...

Online shoppping!!! proudly brought to me by chian hui aka mama aka ah poon! haha... chian hui told me there was a private gojane spree that she was invited to. coz.. she's a frequent shopper .. so,.... i tagged along her sale to buy one really cool 4inch red pumps. OMG... i';m so excited. pls pls pls.. let there be stock!!! pls !!!!!

*prays silently. ahahaha*

i love shopping!

Anyway, my parents just came back from China yesterday (friday) and guess what they bought me! woohoo!! 3 freakin shoes! and... many many clothes!

Ok la.. not many.. i think maybe 3 tops and 2 dresses. But to be frank, one of the dress i dont dare to wear becuase look like bathrobe. haha.. so maybe i will sell them online. n they bought me 2 pairs of pants as well.. haha..woohoo.. i love new stuff..! yeah!!

*claps excitedly!*

hey guys.. if you read, pls tag! so i know whose reading. =) thanks!

Anyway, this week has been a really hectic week for me. i'm not going to do a summary of what i did for the past few days in this week like my previous entry.
Anyway, i think i'm falling sick. sleeping daily at 3am and waking up at 730 am. how much more terrible can it get when i dun even get my 6 hrs of slp!

Thus, it explains the dark eye rings underneath my eyes as well as the thick eyebags. Thus, one day, thursday,i decided to put on makeup so that people wont see my ugly eye bags etc. n guess what? everyone kept askin me:" hey! you're wearing makeup today?" hahaha

Cant i wear makeup ? haha.. to think everyone notices.. haha..

These are the things i need to do: -
- Finish 108 research paper
- Create 108 Website
- Study for exams

I'm so dead. i usually start a mth before exams.. now i dont even have time! haish.. =(

Anyway, good day to all of you. i'm feeling damn tired now. i'm going to take a short nap before i chiong my CS 108 research paper again! =)

Finally.. we gave out the examination welfare goodie packages!!!!

Yes, we carried like 500 +++ examination goodie packs which consisted of:-
- Her World Magazine
- M1 post-it pads
- Drinks sachets
- Cute rabbit eraser everyone is crazy about
- Big metal paper clip
- Tissue paper
- NEWater
- 15% subway vocher
- paper fasteners
- instant noodles

And we walked around Blocks 45 to 48 to distribute the goodie packages one by one..
Though its tiring, it does feel good to be santa claus once in a while . =)

N.. my biz mag committee are one bunch of nice and dedicated people. Thanks so much for the help! = )

Ok.

This is my first week without my roomie. She's gone. =(

Anyone feeling bored etc, feel free to come to my room at Hall 9 to look for me. Need a shelter? you can always drop by... i'll always welcome you.

Feeling really lonely.

Reflections about the past week

This week and the past week have been very busy for me. Everything is like crammped up between this week and the past week.

Monday - Packing of examination goodie packs.
-Almost Everyone in BIZ subcom came down to help out.
-its really quite touching to c them coming down to help out. =) Really thank them . (though, they probably wun be seeing this blog entry because they dont know about my blog.)

Tue - Dance practice
-For hall supper. I think the MJ seniors are really good. Feel really crap next to them.
- =(
- But i enjoyed the whole experience of training. I hope to be like them and join competitions next yr!

Wed - Hall supper
- Finally performed for hall supper after waiting so long and after our few trainings.
- Food was not bad. i liked the carrot cake and the crispy chicken.

Thurs - Joint Hall dinner
- no choice.. all JCRC members had to go down to show face. Anyway, we paid $5 for the ticket. Might as well go, right? hee..
$5 included a buffet dinner as well as 2 cans of Asahi Beer. (which i din drink and gave to kah yan in the end. I cant believe it. She drinks it and plays the piano? woahh.. like drunken pianist. Zai!)

- Then i saw several familiar faces at joint hall dinner.
1. Su Fang - she is in the JCRC committee in hall 11. haha.. she was from my JC and from SC as well.
2. Cheryl's twin sister. At first i was quite hesitant to approach her coz i scared pai seh. but soon after, i realised she's quite warm and friendly as well. haha..
3. Ong Chin Chong. haha.. actually he nw refers himself as kelvin. But i find calling him chin chong more familiar. How i noe him? he was a candidate at The Recruit Room and i gave him the crappiest job ever. So now he remembers me as a bad person who asked him to be a general worker for $6/h.

Fri - Finally.. rest. Cant wait to see you though. I hope to meet you asap. =) hopefully you do too. =)

Yee Chien want to sleep le. i want to sleep too. on behalf of both of us, i wish all of you.. good nite.. i mean.. afternoon.

* i'm looking forward to your call. *

THE WHB COMPANY



4 young professionals and 1 RGS student.

Bringing to you a wonderful production package for anti-bullying.
In the oackage : 2 manuals - one for school admin and the other for teachers
PLUS an interactive CD-Rom with a flash game to enhance the student's experience in tackling bullies.

In my own opinion, i think WHB did great today! we swept alfred off his feet! haha.. (in my own opinion. )

Besides the part where he role played with us. haha...

but anyway, i think our group has the most impressive type of presentation. WHB rocks. =)

Today is D day!
The day of our CS 111 presentation.. wooohooo... finally after all the weeks, all the meetings which varied from different places like "the benches" , TCC, and even the broad space in Esplanade, we're finally here to present ..........

" SAY NO TO BULLIES", A WHB PUBLICATION!

I'm so glad its going to be over, especially after since everyone has put in sooo much effort in doing this project. And, i feel tat our group is very ZAI!
wahaha.. if i get the chance , i show you guys the flash game we have ok? damn zai!=)

And we're going to don business suits! so fun... haha

Anyway, i added one of my friends on msn with a wrong email and guess what? it turned out to be some weirdo from spain. Kept speaking to me in spanish. And everytime i'm online, i will recieve weird msges. So when i tried to clarify, he gave a "lips","flower" emoticon.

YUCKS.

Weird people.

Theres so much stuff to do.. yet..so little time..

Everything is changing around me, yet, i feel i remain the same.

Anyway, we've finally finished filming our CS 108 project! yeah.. next time when its done and if its possible, i will put it up here for you guys to c ok?

Feeling really fluueeyy and sickkkyy because of the stupid haze.. *sniff sniff*

i'm gonna be really lonely in hall after this friday.

should i leave too?

=(

shit. it comes to me so ever occasionally these days.

I dont know why. maybe its for a good reason. can lose weight anyway. hahx

something happened again this evening.. dont understand why must i alwyas be slammed down. Cant anyone ever trust me and let me do the things i want to do?

Why must i ever be so goody goody and listen to you.

Cant you just give me my peace.

I just thought the weekend will be a good time for me to escape all these stupid brainless things but no. they come more.. and more.. and more..

Cant i have my own ambitions?
Cant i?

I'm nnot a puppet and i dont do what you dictate.

Already no one supports me.. cant you do your part by supporting me or even just.. keeping quiet..? must you add on to it? must you tell me things i have been hearing for the whole past week?

its so stupid you know. its so stupid

btw, do you know its friday the thirteen and i heard from nadia.. today. v speacial. the numericals of the date added up together is equals to 13.
i.e. 13-10-2006
1+3+1+2+6 = 13

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i'm being very random now because my mind is full of thoughts.. i think i think too much.. sometimes very unneccesarily.

Anyway, i went to JP with YC and her cousin jessamyn last thurs or wed. cant really remember.
Should be thurs.

And we went to toys r us to buy present for her bro.. whose birthday was that particular day.

Then i just realised that i haven been buying much stuff for myself anymore. I dont mean neccesities like clothes and shoes. but.. luxury items and unneccesary stupid stuff like toys.

Then i saw this cute little elmo.. omg.. had fetish for him since young. but super ex.. $14.90. haha.. felt so tempted to buy it.. because maybe it can brighten my nite. haha. with yc not ard that nite sumore..

Of course i din buy. becuase i did the right mature adult thing to do. do not unneccesarily spend $$.
Maybe i should buy. no.. nvm.. i forgot .. i'm saving up for paris hilton's cd.

haish.

And furthermore.. if i buy.. my parents will KILL me. coz they will nag that there are so many toys in the storeroom.. WHY CANT YOU JUST TAKE ONE OUT AND PLAY INSTEAD OF WASTING HARD EARNED MONEY ON STUPID COTTON STUFF

yeah..but its not the same.. i haven bought a single play thing for myself since ages. its not the same!

yeah.. i'm acting spoilt.



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i know lots of people wont understand what i'm talking about becuase i just type whatever that comes to my mind.. i dont bother to phrase it nicely. Why should i?
This is my blog.

Anyway, i screwed up in Vandana's lesson today. sucks.
We were grouped up and were supposed to look for 5 articles to change them all into a 5 mins radio broadcast.

So i picked entertainment. and decided to write abt christopher lee.. becuase.. its close to our hearts what.

Den she came and say lots of stuff about my writing. and everyone in class only commented about my article . they said its too long winded. =( Too lengthy, too crap alr coz i wrote about terence cao's comments that he supports Chris lee coz he empathises with him.

Hahx..

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My dad is watching our old videos now.
1991 at New York City . Then we can see the Twin towers where they still were..

next scene..i see myself at .. 3 years old? being carried by mym mum.. staring up at the Statue of Liberty.

I miss being 3 years old.

i dont like being like.. 18 or 19.

2 consecutive weddings in a row

I've never attended so many weddings in such a short time before. It seems to me that there are more and more people getting married these days.. or is it just.. me getting older? n thus, more cousins, friends etc getting hitched?

I attended a solemnization party on sat and then a wedding dinner on sun, both by different pair of couples.
I also realised that more and more people are getting registered etc first. They then wait a year or two before they get settled for their customary weddings.

What does this situation actually mean?

1. too many hotels all booked up already that they have to wait 2 years later before the hotel is free.

2. they have no money and thus have to save up for their customary wedding which they will start planning from the day they are solemnized as man and wife.

I believe option 1 is definitely rather ridiculous and option 2 would be the more singaporean and practical option.

But my question is..

Why cant they just wait 2 years later when they have saved up enough money for both the solemnization and the customary wedding dinner then they get married and organise both consecutively?

is it because : -

1. They are afraid they lose their partners within the next 2 years and want to get a form of assurance ( and in the singaporean way - papers) that they will not have to resort to speed dating 101? or even.. 10mins canoeing dating (as inspired from a comic strip on sunday newspaper todAy) ?


2. They want to get separate ang baos (i.e. more money) from the same people at different times

3. They want to stop aunties from naggin at them to get married.

4. They cant wait to DO IT ...!


haha.. anyway, yeahh.. any comments ? haha..

i really want to be bridesmaid.. if not, i will never want to get married.. haha..

yo..
its a weekend again. ITs pretty amazing how time passes so fast in university. Or perhaps its because my schedule is always packed and thus it seems like times really passes really quickly.

Did i say before in my blog that i really like my course?

Its full of projects will minimal assignments to do and all discussions only. Isnt it fun.. ? You dont really have to use brain until during lectures and tutorials where ure trying to understand what people are trying to explain. other than that, theres nothing much of brain usage. yeah.. i like the feeling of me not using my brain.

Anyway, i have lots of things on for the next 2 weeks. die.

there is hall dance performance to prepare for for hall supper which is on the 18th of October. Yupp.. which means, we have only 2 weeks to prepare for. Hall dance pulled out last min from the investiture coz we did not have time to preapre. do you think we will make it through this time? i think the seniors dance really well.. i hope to be like them one day!

Then again, theyre dancing hip hop. Something in which i have moderate interest in only. i still love jazz a lot. exp lyrical. i told myself last yr that i must continue learning jazz when i come to univerisity. but now i realise, i dont think i have that much of a time to continue jazz anymore. how? i feel quite sad at that thought.

Jazz allows me to relieve stress coz its so enjoyable. The thought of immersing in the music and the movements makes me smile. But the though of not being able to enjoy it for the next few mths.. makes me depressed.

Maybe i will take it up next yr after hall dance is over. Then at least, there is only MJ to concentrate on. haha.. i dunnu. i'm confused.

haha..

hi! pls be prepared .. this is a sad post or angry post. so pls dont read it. thanks. i'm really sorry i think i m suffering from depression.

Please. if you have something you dont like about me, can you all just say it in the face? you all dont have to go one big round and shoot at me even though you claim that you dont mean to arrow at anyone. by specifically giving an example, you're already meaning that.

I dont believe it. i try so hard not to offend anyone but i end up doing one minor thing that no one can forgive me.

Whats wrong with doing something i like? at least i'll be happy there. I cant take it anymore. i need someone to be there for me and help me and guide me through all these mess that i have created for myself.

I will confront you straight in the face about what i want to say. because i dont believe in talking behind your backs. Not because i dont like gossiping, but because i think you deserve to know what i think. I know its my fault that i was held up by something you deemed as unimportant. But are you me? no. You have no idea what is going through my mind. You have no idea how terrible i m feeling inside now. You might claim that all these is self brought upon.

Maybe youre right. But.. you dont know why i m doing all these. who are you in the position to question what i'm doing as long as i get what i need to be done right.

i cant take it anymore. everyone everywhere is demanding a little bit of me every single time and at the same time. will you all just give me a break?

The world would be a much happier place with less of such things.

I tot i broke away from the stupid elite thingie in TJC council already. Those people.. suck.

Now, i think i m experiencing the same thing again?

Shit. I try to avoid such thing and it happens to me time and time again. when i dont even do anything.

I've really learnt my lesson this time. I know what i'm going to do next year. N i willl make sure i will be reallly happy next year.

But in the meantime, i guess i have to face up to all these shit for one year. i know i can do it. i know i can make it. just tolerate this stupid shit for one year and everything else will be fine, mei qin. everything else will be fine.

I know many people who still read my blog will be thinking that i'm really depressing and are getting irritated with the kind of posts i put up these days. I know. But what can i do? i know the more such depressing posts i put up, the more people think lightly of the situation.

Let me give you an example. Cases of terrorist attacks have been published in newspapers everyday that we start taking them for granted. We're experoienceing the nauseatic effect from seeing so much of it being reported that we are becoming nonchalent about it.

hahx.. i have no idea why i'm talking about this.

I break dowwn everyday. i need a break. i wish these 2 weeks will go over soon quickly so that i can forget about all these stress and trouble for a while. at least for a while i can be away from all these evil.

Many people think the root of evil is me. but how can i let everyone know i'm just a victim? how?

i dont think anyone will believe me.
i know no one will. i cant take it already. all of you, please take care of yourselves.

bloody exam goodie package

i want to abolish the exam goody package. i think its stupid, a waste of time and really very unneccesary. f***ing unneccessary u noe that??

I have only myself to blame when i get into such a situation. i have only myself to blame .

NO ONE ELSE IS TO BE BLAMED EXCEPT ME

no one else.

Why? cos i gt myself into this bloody mess by joining jcrc in the first place.

First,i tot it was in the name of fun and that i would have people helping me. but no.

You think i dont know what is happening?

No one is doing anything except me. no one takes it seriouslt except me. ME ME Me ME Me!

i have no friends who are willing to help at all..

All the people i know wont help me at all. everyone is a hi and bye friend. they dont care if you have troubles. they dont give a f cking damn!!!

they dont even bother if you die! they dont care!!!!

they dont fckin care. they only come to you when they need help. they go away when u ask for help.

they dont care