hi there. itsa surprise i did not cry for the whole night. in fact, i just cried for an hour plus. tts all.. haha.. its a great sense of achievement ya noe? heex...
anyway, i have thought it over. It is ppl's loss and my gain. oh boy, m i lucky to have discover that if it were to continue, things would have been much more different and stupid and will actually start to spoil this nice personality of mine. it is after all a gd decison of others and a gd fate of mine. haha.. boi,.. m i lucky? i have definitely learnt my lesson after these 2 incidents. i was too naive to think that maybe not all ppl are bad. it is just the minority or should i say 10% of the opposite sex are bad. haha.. but now, reality has proven me wrong.all homosapiens of the opposite sex are EVIL AND DANGEROUS.**** hahahaha..............

mei qin has learnt her lesson n vowed to herself never to fall into the trap for the 3rd time. twice beaten, thrice shy.she will never never never never ever FALL AGAIN.idoitic ppl will not bother her any more.. instead, she will do whatever she can to make ppl who backstabbed her SUFFER!!!!

I DONT GET IT.. Y AFTER PUTTING MI INTO SO MUCH.. U JUST SAY.. LETS REMAIN GD FRENX
WHY THE HELL DID U HAF TO GO ONE BIG ROUND TO STAB MI AT THE BACK LIKE THIS? WHY??? WHY???????? GO TO HEL.. JUST LET MI KILL MYSELF. THIS IS THE 2ND TIME I HAF BEEN TREATED LIKE THIS..

thoughts...

haish..i dunnu whether io should be happy or depressed. but the truth is.. haish.. i dunnu how to put it. i've been thinking back about what happened long ago.i m very afraid it'll happen again, i dun wan it to happen again.no! it must not repeat.

izzit because i m too sensitive n paranoid? haish..u noe, sometimes, i dont understand why bad ppl get many things that they want , yet, gd ppl never get get whatever they wish for.
i thought that mayb if i changed wherever i was, maybe i would get what i always longed for. ok.. now i might seem like someone very very selfish only thinking of what they want and not what others wan, but.. y wun i juz b given a chance? for once, i thought that everything was going well.. now.. i dunnu.. i dunnu.. mayb i'm thinkin too muxh of the unneccessary, but, tts juz mi.

yes yes, u will say,"despo alert!".. i must say i m not.. i m just someone hoping to be like everyone else. just someone hoping for happiness.. is tt wrong?? is tt? i dun get it. does it mean tt if u r fat and ugly, u wilkl nv ever find what u wan?
seriously, i doubt anyone understaNDs..

anyway, i dunnu la.. 2 wks later i might just come back online to type tt i haf lost something else again? hu noes? i got this very feeling the same thing is happening again. i feel like typing it out, but i cant. i just pray pray pray tt it wun happen again.. i dun wan it to happen again... just a short note.. even if i were bz, i would stil find time for someone or something. u noe4 wat i mean rite? haix..mayb i m fated to be like tt.. i wait so long le.. still no sms... hai.. masyb i shld juzt forget about the whole thing n give up finding the someone i wanna find.. i shld give up...

GP Lesson

Woohoo...
now i'm at the hub.. researching on USA's aims of education. Mr Tony Tan nv come again.. haix... hope he is feeling much better.
ok... now is not gp lesson le.. today is sat... i juz came in t crap a bit more.. coz i very long nv update my blog le..
Anyway, i went to Temasek Lifesciences Lab (TLL) today. It was so called the 2nd round of selections after i got into the 1st round of interviews. yapx.We took a 1 hr qualifying test paper which consisted of 5 20marks essay questions. Crazy rite? haha... i juz crapped my way thru the test. i alreaDY noe i confirm cant get the attachment le.actually, i'm feeling kinda disppointed ,.. but... wat to do?stupid jiu shi stupid.
Haish.. anyway.. lets tok abt cecilia's bbq yesterday nite..
Quite a no. of ppl turned up. but cecilia oni reached at ard 830pm.. haha.. so the fire started rather late lor.yapx.. we ate cake. den cecilia has tis choc chips in banana ting wrapped in aluminium foil. let mi tell u... tis is damn NICE lor... i wanted to eat it again n again man...somehow, i think i hould not type in singlish or broken english.ok.. i'll try...

So there i was.. after escaping from the investiture rehearsal at sch with yunhui, shu fang, n janice.when i reached there.. there were abt 4 couples in action.i felt rather empty.most of them were showing PDA. in case you have no idea what that is, it means public displays of affection.
yapx.. so they were PDAing.. i wanted to say,"HELLO!! tis is a bbq! not HOTEL!go somewhere else can?"
yes yes yes, you will probably think i m jealous. yes.. i m damn jealous n i dun c anything wrong with being jealous. i m still human n i nid love too!! but unfortunately..

i will stop[ here today.. no offence to the couples. u guys are a ncie bunch.. juz tt i m jealous..

yo!!!
its a damn long time since i logged into blogger to type some tings here.. haha..
well.., overthe past 3 mths tt i have not written anything, losta tings happened... som4e happy some sad.. but nonetheless, they have made me an even stronger person. so lets start off from... ermm?? where>?haha... i shall juz type ne ting tt comes to my mind.
well well... lets start off with my nominations for TJC's students' council. well, during this period, we were supposed to do our campaiging for about a wk. for tt, i campaigned with Zi rui.. haha.. we put up losta posters ard the school. i also made wands wich had a star on top of each wand n gave to ppl so tt they could vote for mi. hmmx.. u noe wat? i feel like i m writing an essay. sounds so ermm.. narrative..
Well,next, lets talk about my officer training course (OTC) exam.. haha... well well... i din study AT ALL for the test..so.. abt a wk after my OTC exam.. i recieved a msg from Steven Sir to ask mi to go baq on the 30th of may for a retest
sobx..
so sia suay.

Well, next came the gd events. Tuesday,20th of april (i tink.. not so sure) was one of my luckiest days this yr. It was the day where the results of the Students' Council elects will be released.. n YES! i got into council.. (not realli yet..) , actuallym, we r sorta called elects.. ya.. we 'll haf ta wiat till 26th may where will b offically councillors. yapx..Anyway, another gd news came by later in the afternoon during GP lesson.i recieved a phone call from the general office telling me that i have been selected for the TJC Academic Scholarship..! yeah!! i was elated!! i couldnt help wanting to scream. but i couldnt coz my classmates wanted to comcentrate on their comprehension. but nvm, after sch.,. i couldnt stop smiling.,. it felt as if i have climbed mt everest.. haha.. jk...
So on thurs the ppl who got the scholarship (7 in total) had to meet Mrs lim, the principal at the Temasek Room. I released that i was the only gal .. actually got another one.. but i tink she couldnt make it ba.. u noe wat?? to think that iw as actually late for my scholarship interview n yet i got the scholarship!!! i really cant believe it!! at that time when i was late,... i tot.. there was no way i could get the scholarship./.. hee.. i'm so happy.. but i muz constantly remind myself tt i muz nmot b complacent n not study..
yapx.. next up.. would b the EXCO elections for students'' council.i muz say tt it wasnt exactly a happy event. it ended for mi with tears.. well, basically, i ran for VP, Secretary and PC.. haha.. din get in any.. u noe.. its ok for mi not to b elkected into any of them.. but wat i cant stand was when i hear5d from frenz, tt ... someone (or 2 ppl ) were so scared tt i would become pc tt their body language showed.haix.. nvm la.. actually i m used to these sorta tings liaox.. haha.. i'm used to being looked down on.. i'm us3ed to being tot tt i m weak.. yapxc.. i m weak .. but i tink i m mentally strong.. dun worry.. time will PROVE ALL OF U WRONG FOR LOOKING DOWN ON ME!
but nvm.,.. i dun tink i shld b affected by these ppl.. i shld instead stay happi..
hmmx.. wat else.. now.. i'm running for hse cap nopt bcoz i wan,.. but bcoz its compulsory. haha.. anyway, i noe i wun get it oso.. haha.. so nvm.hehe././yapx.. i dunnu wat else to say leh..
oh ya!!!! THE COUNCIL CAMP.arghhhh... i dun reali like the PT.. but the rest was fun.. actually, i HATE the pt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it SUX
oh.. yesterday was fri.. hee... went out wif someone.. haha.. oppx.. cannopt say to much here ya? haha.. kk.. tts all i haf gotta say..