btw, i deleted ya msg in the guestbk

i juz found out tt the guestbk got stupid stupid idiot who wrote some real damn idiotic msg.. well, from wat i noe, i tink i noe hu is tt..
wateva it is.. its ya right to scold mi for typing such tings.. but , its also my right to type such damn SAD tings tt r a sore for YA EYES! so, if u tink its stupid, just click the cross at the top right corner of ya screen.. oh.. btw, do u even noe where is your right? do u noe wat is the meaning of the word top in the 1st place?
well, i assume u arew nnot sumone from xms .. perhaps u were from xms .. and only lowly educated fools and empty vessels will type such tings in the guestbk..
too bad, some ppl like to use the vulgarities such as the four lettered word. well well, what ever it is, the blog is MINE and MY WAY of expressing my feelings... if u unrefined and uneducated fool would like to waste your energy to scold mi , well, i tink you r wasting your time.. u might as well do sumting more productive..

haiz./.. today can say is a beri beri happy day , at the same time is a beri beri sad day..
the dAy started off wif us singing bdae songs during mrs teo's lessons from 12 (if not wrong) ppl whose bdaes were after today..hahx.. this included mi too.. coz mine during late nov mahx..we satred the songs fast n ended with wang wang woif a beri beri beri slow happy bdae... haha... it was beri fun..!
than during recess... most of the ppl in my class nv go for recess. as it was the last day at sch, everyone mei you xing qing go n eat... the class room was blasting wif music like disco like tt with many guys gathered at the whiteboard during to songs.. haha.. they were dancing macarena wif other tunes.. so it was rather hilarious.. then after tt, they suggested dancing toi the tune of "chihuahua".. haha.. so at first, most of us who were in class joined in wif them lor.. haha.. left , then right, then jump.. haha.. i still remember...
it was really beri fun! we went all around the clas.. then, they suggested tt the whole class line up in row, holding on to each other's shoulders... then we asked e2 to dance wif us, so.. two mad classes... sang chihuahua all the wasy down to the canteen where many ppl stared at us as if we were siao! haha... nonetheless, no one cared.. we continued by circling the canteen. we oso when to the othger 4e classes... when we reached the second floor, mr arthur lim spotted us .. he felt tt we were beri noisy so ask us go back lor... in a blink of an eye.. the ppl in e2 all disappeared.. not all la.. hahx.. hahx.. but nvm la.. coz mr arthur lim like beri the angry... nevertheless,, we e1 one all continued "chihuahua ing" down to the parade square..mrs low also saw us but din say a thing.. when we stopoped "chihua huaing", she came to us n praised us.. haha.. if i not wrong la hor... she oso nv scold us for making noise... coz i tink she understands our feelings of leaving sch lor... after tt, all of us went for recess, feeling dead beat!..
when we returned to class, we cheered 3 cheers for mr chee and then he said he expecyted no lesson can b done on the last day of sch. he opso allowed us to watch a slideshow showing a lot of fotos.. haha.. unfortunately, none of mi pics inside.. nonetheless, it showed the class spirit.we sang n swayed to the song "graduation too"
got some ppl cry oso.. this is when the sad sad times set in... i oso strated crying.. but i forgot when.. they play those sad sad music... haiz... the after tt , we went to take foto...
ok.. i tink i described a lot le..
i receieved ms mazna's autograph today.. she wrote mi a beri meaningful poem.. i'm gonna type it out here for all to appreciate.
dont quit

when things go wrong as they sometimes will
when the road you're trudging seems all uphill
when funds are low and the debts are high
and you want to smile, but u haf to sigh
when care is pressing you down a bit
rest, if you must, but dont u quit

dont give up though the pace seems slow
you may suceed with another blow
and you can never tell how close you are
it may be near when it seems so far.

haiz.. today i tink a lotta ppl are going for the open houses at the various jcs... i wanted to go.. but,.. there was no one to pei mi.. i'm starting to hate life in sec sch already. i dun realli wan to hate my life in sec sch coz i had a lotta happy memories.. pls dun force me to hate sec sch life...
however, fate seems to b steering mi towards tt direction.i badly badly badly wan to go... n i badly badly wan to haf more frenx... not tt i realli haf beri little.. all my frenx are beri gd.. but... somehow.. i haven found a fren who shares my interest and likes to go out... as a result, i'm often confined at hm... acceptance. tts wat most ppl wan.. yes, i agree. i'm not the sort of freak whgere ppl avoid n not the sort of freak whom ppl c as disgusting stupid or wat... perhaps its jux tt i'm not tt satisfied..
i tink its juz mi hu is wrong.. i owaes feel inferior or left out everywhere i go.. i dunnu.. izzit juz mi?
i hate loneliness.. tts ljuz it.. this causes mi to hate ppl hu mumble secrets to their frenx in front of mi.. n when i ask wat they say.. they say nth..
come on lor...u tink i stupid or wat? even a fly will noe tt u dun wan mi to find out wat the hell u guys toking abt wat... this happens since like in pri sch.. everyone is doing this to everyone.. i observed..'tts y i'm not saying this is happening to mi.. i feel angry for those hu are being treated this way! however so, we cannot change ppl... we humans haf to learn to adapt..
so ppl.. if u hate feeling left out in an awkward senario like this, dun do this to ppl.. so tt ppl wun do it to u.and if u really haf a secret to tell n u dun wan ppl to noe.. wait until the person is alone and not wif a fren or wat.. k? understand?

wahx... tml no need to go sch... yipee!!!!finally can get a break..
well, if u ever happen to b reading tis, not tt anyone will.. but if u r reading this,go listen to the radio from 8-11 pm (perfect 10 98.7fm)tonite.. i juz sent in a dedication.. hahx.. but horx.. i tink the probability tt the dedication will be read out is like one in a million.. but nvm.. haha.. dnu read i send another one lor.. haha... wat to do? hee..ok.. i dunnu wat to write le.. best of luck to everyone in the upcoming o lvl!!!!

graduation

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And i keep thinking of that night in june
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon and there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

1:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat 1

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? can we make it somehow?
I guess i thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when i leave this town
I keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Repeat 1 x3

this is one of the best tear-jerkers i've ever heard.. its so damn nice n touching.... so nice so nice tt every single time i hear it online.. i will cry sia... wun u?? juz listen to the words so damn meaningful n stuff.. sobx sobx.. haha... really can cry worx...

before i start saying any other things.. i would like to start by saying : "CONGRATULATIONS! YAN PIN!!/ ESTELLE!! FOR WINNING THE SWATCH SASSY GAL AWARD"" i feel so bad coz i nv go n suppost her.. i had mock exam today so i could not go n support her.. haiz!!! wat kinda a best fren i m? haiz.. nevertheless , she won.. hee...
for mi.. things r not as smoothsailing as usual..
after a long long wait.. i finally got back my bio matks.. we got back our papwer 2 in the morning n i juz hit 75%. wich is A1.. den in the afternoon, i got back my stupid idiot practical wich pulled my marks down to an A2.. arghh.. i dun understand y??m do u noe tt sometimes, life is juz so unfair coz u put in so much effort,. some ppl dun, n they do so damn well.. n wat abt me? i get shit results.. everytime like this.. i juz feel like gifin up studying le... its no use.. study zso hard for wat,.. results in the end sti.l the same rtie? might as well b like other ppl,, dun study at all.. den mayb got chance get A1.. haiz.. sux.. sux.. sux...
cant god even gif mi sumting to b happy abt? now tt i get majority A2 or shld i say all A2 except one A1 for my L1R5,. c! sux.. so now L1R5 is 11... sux sux sux sux sux....
i tink the gods are all very unfair ppl.. there is unequal distributin of wealth in tis world.. at the same time, there is unequal distribution of happiness in tis world.. some ppl can b so happy.. coz they eveyting oso do so well.. n so many frenx.. n so many ppl care for them n etc.. cannot say finish. but for some, they r very sad ppl, being manipulated bvy oithers and lousy marks.. no one cares for them n ppl talk bad abt them
as for mi.. i guess i belong to the middle catecory , leaning towards the sad side.. haiz.... when will my life ever take a turn for the better?