Deer Altar

Engaging in Spring Soulodge with Pixie Campbell, what a wonderful group of women. What an intense journey. My altar to honor Deer, Fire & Water. Strength and Vulnerability.

New Medicine

Spider has been making its presence known to me with great intensity over the last 2 days, i spotted three different spiders, basically in my space, in my truck, in my home, and at my mothers home, which not unusual, but the fact that each time, i almost walked into it, or grabbed it with my hand (on a knob) caught my attention. I got the message, and the medicine. Spiders make my skin crawl, I like to see spiders in their webs, but surprising me NO. I decided there was medicine here that I needed to explore. What I found Spider is the weaver of the Web of creativity. The symbol of creation and Mother. Strong feminine energy, Goddess. Sacred creative female energy. I have come to the conclusion over the last few days that I have to fall back into my love and knowing that my love of creating natural beautiful body products, and just soul-full just for me art and projects. I need to engage, create, manifest the prosperity I want to see in all aspects of this being.

amnh.org Hawk Medicine - Each time I am at a new threshold or just received information that moves me I see a Hawk, and I intuitively knew that I was being told to open, embrace, receive and use the message I just received, or that I am about to receive a message and I need to be receptive. It re-inforces what Spider is trying to tell me, I found a red tail hawk feather recently, and I see them daily. They give me comfort and let me know that I am on the right path, a light on my path if you will. And just for grins, i reviewed native american interpetation of Hawk Medicine, and again was given comfort, and more trust in my intuition. Hawk Medicine - "Hawk is the messenger of the spirit world" Use your power of focus, take the lead, use power of clear vision. A strong connection with the spirit world and increased spiritual awareness.

www.komar.org And finally Deer Medicine- Deer was my first journey guide, and is so special to me, Deer gives me great comfort, and when I am sruggling, Deer shows me that there is always a different path. I had a blog post a while back about my meaningfull journey with deer, titled slippery hill. I won seat in Pixie Campbell's Soulodge for June working with Deer, that same morning my husband called me to let me know that he had found a 10 point antler set that he knew I would love. I am ready for more Deer Medicine. We will be working on balancing strength and vulnerability.

www.deer.com SO MUCH MEDICINE TO TAKE IN, BUT MAYBE I HAVE BEEN IGNORING SOME SMALLER SIGNS AND NEEDED THIS FRONT AND CENTER. WHAT KIND OF MEDICINE IS WORKING IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW????

Slippery Hill

I have not been here in a while. I am in one of those phases again. I dont feel like myself, I feel totally....out of whack.... Like you put me in a body I dont recognize. I feel sluggish, tired, emotional...sick..I have not been honoring my body, i have been dwelling in it, like an uncomfortable...sack over me, feeling confined, and not knowing which way to turn, not knowing if I am feeling sick, allergies, strange body pains, etc... and it is making me emotional, or the other way around... Eating comfort foods, that give me no comfort, and make me more uncomfortable in my body...My little joy lately has been in my "soap lab" concocting new potions for my little business with my family/partners. That gives me satisfaction... but tires me as well... My job has a cloud of uncertainty and opression over it... am I blowing things out of porportion, or not... hmmm...Yesterday I decided I would attempt to journey for help, answers...even though I was very tired, and my head was not completely clear. After finally finding my place to be, in my office, lights off, down comforter on a hard floor, pillows, and a chenille throw over me. I started a drumming CD, and lay there, fighting to get to the entry point of the under world, seeking my escape, and deperately searching for a little guidance. I asked to meet a guide, and receive medicine. It took me a while to quiet my mind sufficiently to achieve the goal. What would my entry point be, a magical place, that gives me a child like joy, a very old large cedar tree, at the Guadalupe River, an amazing tree, my husband has to pull me away from each time. it mystifies and facinates, for not only is this tree ancient, and narly, its roots, oh those roots, on that hill that goes down to the river, unbelievably, a spring of water pours out of this tree coming from the roots like fountain of life, the life blood and heartbeat of this magical tree.... I decide I will enter into the base of this tree, into an opening between those large finger roots. As much as I love it, it is an effort to stay in the moment. I must smell, feel, believe. I enter, I breathe in the dank earth, the damp, the moss, on the other side of the opening, I see the spring water creating a water fall of sorts. I throw my head back, and let it wash over me, as I enter the other side, lingering for a moment, but on the other side, not the river, not the Texas landscape familiar to me, the rocks, the river, it is instead a lush Northwest looking forest, everything lush and dripping, covered in a vibrant, living breathing moss. Waiting for me, a deer, we look at each other, it allows me to stroke its antlers, and back, we walk down a path together, side by side. We reach a mossy hill, I look up and see there is another path, I try to climb the steep hill, as deer just watches, I slide down the mossy hill on the steep embankment. Thinking maybe deer will try, or perhaps, deer will bring another guide to carry me up, to assist, but deer waits patiently until, I accept that I cannot on my own, climb up this hill. Deer looks to my left, and walks, in what appeared to be a valley to me, I follow deer, and see that a short walk away there is a small embankment narrower easier to cross, we step up onto the path, that before was so inaccessible, is now so simple. I see owl in a tree as we begin to walk down the path, I asked the owl if it has any medicine for me, owl, just begins to spread its massive wings and glide, it follows with us along the trail for a short while, and starts flying over me in circle, rapidly, and then I am back in my office, drinking it in...was deer telling me that I am making things too hard.. that i am creating this difficulty for myself, or is he telling me that I need to change the way I am doing things, and find another path of less resistance, i am pondering exactly what the slippery hill is, as at this point, it represents a few things for me.....I believe Owl must have been telling me to trust my vision, my intuition. Lots to ponder...