My inner fears

Some time back I read about this inner fear thing in Mumsgather. It reminded me of my own.

I guess everyone has some kind of inner fears.

As for me, I've been having this fear of traveling long distance, I mean driving,(not including going for holiday overseas) and driving alone. I'm not sure why and forgot when it started. But I guess it's due to kiasi (afraid of dying in Hokkien) factor.

However my mom passing due to road accident, has deepened my fear. On top of that, I also begin to fear of losing someone close to me again. That's why I don't having my husband traveling outstations, which I had no problem previously.

And every day I flip open the newspaper, I see many road accident reports. They made me paranoid and all the negative possibilities begin to play in my mind.

Frankly I'm not a pessimistic character, but why do I have this kind of negative thought and fear in me. Is it because I'm already mom? Or is it because of something else? I'm still not sure. I used to ask my psychiatrist about it. He explained that it's because my grief over my mom's passing. I just have to think positive and it'll slowly go away. I certainly hope so.

And they said Love can outcast Fear.

How about you? Do have any inner fears that you would like to share?

What will you do when your kid's making a scene in public?

I recalled seeing some young children making scene while I was shopping in the mall some times. At that time, I was hoping in secretly in my heart that Natalie won't behave like that one day.

I guess kids are kids. When they see something they want or like, they will want you to either buy them, or stay there and play till they bored or dropped.

Last night, while we were in one of those baby apparrels shops, at the Curve, checking out some stroller for Natalie. She saw this interesting toy phone set and started to experiment with the buttons. So when we wanted to try her on one stroller, she simply refused and started screaming away. That was o.k. But when we decided to hop over to the next store, she refused to leave, and squatted down next to the toy phone set as an objection.

Lucky I was with my hubby. So I asked him to handle her, while I was pretend walking out of the shop and hoping that she would follow. But she didn't. What if I was aloneat that moment?

Natalie is a sutbborn little, and is determined to get what she wants. Of course we can't afford to buy her everything she wants. I think we, as parents, shouldn't spoil our chilldren. I remember when I was young my parents led a frugal life, and never spoil us. My mom hardly buy us any toys, while my dad was a bit more generous. The only one toy my mom ever bought me was this little teddy bear I had. The one and only.

However, I remembered making a fuss during one CNY shopping spree, in some night market. I saw this top and bottom which I really liked.(Of course every year we only got to buy two set each.) But mom said it was too expensive and refused to get me... I was about 10, think. And I had an auguement with my mom and finally she bought me that set of clothes. But when it comes to toys, I hardly ask my parents for anything, knowing they won't get me. Of course in the end, she gave me more than that, a good degree and a chance of living overseas for 3 1/2 years. That was the most precious gift she had ever given me.

As for Natalie, I don't mind buying her toys, but I just don't want to get her same type of toys if she already has one. Just like that toy phone, she already has one at home which my sister-in-law bought her, so I see no reason getting another one.

So mommies and daddies, what would you do? And how would you handle this type of situation or scene?