No Weigh-In This Week

I'm not getting anywhere NEAR a scale today - in fact, it's probably best if we just pretend this past week didn't happen at all.

However, I'm hoping to get some good news soon regarding a new apartment.  Keep your fingers crossed...

Monday Weigh-In - Small Victories

Despite cheating early and often this past week (McDonald's, Chinese takeout, the 2:00 am run to the store for Swedish Fish), I still somehow managed to lose a pound. This makes a grand total of 27 lbs - 2 pounds away from my first goal.

The stress over my apartment situation (I'm still not 100% sure where I'll be living in the coming weeks) and general burn-out contributed to a less-than-stellar week.  However, I still walked a lot - which definitely helped.

This week I plan on getting back on track and losing these two measly pounds, so I can start working on my NEXT goal...

Monday Weigh-In ... Oh YEEEAAAAAAHHHH

Another great week – I lost 6 more pounds, for a total of 26 lbs. lost in one month!  This means I need to lose only 3 more to reach my first goal of dropping 10% of my body weight.

BTW, in a year-plus on Weight Watchers, I never lost as much weight as I have in the last month.  Big shout-outs to Dr. Atkins and the extremely walkable streets of Manhattan for the assist.

It also helps that I haven’t cheated (thanks to that SUGAR COOKIES trickery) and I walked almost every day.

It’s great that things are going well NOW, because when I MOVE and lose my routine/comfort zone it certainly won’t be as easy.  The only way I lose weight is by sticking to my routine – and uprooting my life and moving will shoot that all to hell.

As far as the move goes – things are still in limbo.  I've been trying to go through all my stuff and get rid of anything unnecessary - but I still have tons of work to do.  And I still don't have anyplace to go...

Monday Weigh In - Small Victories

I lost another pound last week – bringing my total up to 15 lbs lost since March 25^th.  My goal is to lose 2-3 lbs. per week – so dropping only 1 is a little disappointing.  But considering all that happened last week, it could have easily been worse.

For some reason I just wasn’t “into” walking – and didn’t do it every day.  And when I did walk, I usually didn’t make it the whole way.  In addition, work was stressful with at least one major crisis that resulted in me getting yelled at by my boss.  I tend to take these things extremely personally, and since I am an emotional eater all I wanted to do was lose myself in a carb frenzy.  However, I resisted.

One thing I couldn’t resist, however, was hanging out with The Minx this weekend!  She was in NYC for an event, so we arranged to meet on Friday and Sunday for meals.  On Friday, THIS was my dinner…

Yep – I took The Minx to dinner at Arby’s in Brooklyn.  And I must say, I was extremely good – only eating ONE of the Minx’s curly fries!!  However, due to a kitchen mix-up I ended up with an extra (free) roast beef sandwiches (I just HATE it when that happens!).  I ate one at the restaurant and the other one I shared with my kitties later that night. Apparently Oscar adores Arby’s roast beef almost as much as I do.

On Saturday night I found myself craving ice cream.  So I walked to Gristedes to get some of that Breyers “Carb Smart” stuff (below)…

Unfortunately they only had chocolate (which I don’t like) – so I ended up buying a pint of “Root Beer Float” ice cream – which is definitely NOT “carb smart”.  Needless to say, that pint didn’t stand a chance.

On Sunday The Minx and I got together again – this time in Koreatown.  We had decided on Korean BBQ so I could eat meat (insert joke HERE) – and the restaurant didn’t disappoint…

Each table at Kang Suh has a little grill in the middle, and if you order the BBQ, they grill it up right there.  The picture above is the “pork” I ordered – which was basically two giant, thick slabs of bacon - surrounded by all the accoutrement they give you.  Delish!

Anywhore – with all that happened (or didn’t happen – e.g. walking) last week, I can’t complain that I only lost one pound.  It’s certainly better than gaining.

Monday Weigh In - Good News!

I have surprised even myself - another 4 pounds down last week!  That means I've lost 14 pounds since starting back on my low-carb diet and walking regimen only 1 1/2 weeks ago.  It also means that I'm about half-way toward reaching my first goal of losing 29 lbs (10% of my body weight as of 3/25).

Exercise: Last week I walked all the way home from work 3 days and part-way home the other 2 days.  In total this probably adds up to almost 10 miles for the week.  And to top it off, I did an hour of aerobics at my apartment last night.

Diet:  I only cheated once, and it wasn't major.  One of the servers at my restaurant left a STACK of Girl Scout cookies in the office for days, and finally I couldn't take it anymore.  I totally swiped a box of Lemon Chalet Cremes - but then only ate about 4 of them, felt guilty (not for the theft, for cheating on my diet), and threw them away.

This week will be challenging.  The Minx will be in NYC this weekend, and we plan on meeting on Friday and Sunday for lunch/dinner/whatever.  Sunday's meeting will be at ... ARBY'S (!!), so I'm going to have to be extra good this week to make up for cheating a little over the weekend.

How was YOUR week??

Monday Weigh In - You're Not Going To Believe This...

As many of you know, on Thursday I WENT BACK ON THE LOW-CARB DIET I’ve had success with in the past.  I also started walking again (5 miles last week) and I even did 30 minutes of aerobic exercise at home yesterday.

I must say I'm quite pleased with the results - 10 lbs. lost since Thursday – yeah me!!  Now I’ve been down this road (many times) before, so I know the first week is always the easiest week to lose weight.  These results are in no way astonishing or abnormal for me - and, trust me, when you are as big as me it doesn’t take much to drop 10 pounds.  But I am still happier than Oprah in a biscuit factory over the results so far.

My first goal is to lose 10% of my total weight (as of Thursday) – which would be 29 lbs (do the math – it’s not pretty).  So in the first 4 days I am already 1/3^rd of the way to my first goal.  Yeah Me!!

Thanks to all of you for your encouragement – it really helps.  I must say that doing this “publicly” makes me think twice before reaching for a Big Mac.

In non-diet-related news, this is how I spent my weekend…

Dust Bunnies Mrs.  Alaineous and her hubby Mr. Mischief send me the boxed set of the original Star Wars trilogy!  They no longer wanted it, so they mailed it to me – along with a hysterical “National Smell My Hand Day” postcard.  It was wonderful spending the weekend in “A galaxy far, far away…”.  Thank you Mrs. A and Mr. M!!!!!

So ... how was YOUR weekend??

Monday Weigh-In

All in all, it was a pretty good week for me – I achieved my goal and lost two pounds!

I walked home (2 ½ miles) after work 4 days this week – but that was the extent of my exercise. This weekend I was not nearly as energetic or motivated as I was last weekend: no exercise and not much accomplished on my “To Do” list. However, I DID fight with a closeted lesbian “Christian” Teabagger over at Joy’s BLOG regarding healthcare. Miss Thang even recruited a couple more Trolls to comment about my “anger management issues”. Yeah, I get angry … at "Christians" who think helping people is a bad thing…

I also received some bad news: because of financial restraints I couldn’t really afford a vacation this year. However, I WAS looking forward to Gay Camping with the Bears again at the end of the summer. Unfortunately I found out last night that our host at Camp won’t be available that weekend, so it looks like no vacation for me. I was REALLY looking forward to getting out of the city, but oh well … :(

Anywhore, I AM happy that I had a decent week health-wise.

"Me" Update and Monday Weigh-In

On Thursday, July 30th I did a blog post entitled “My Big Ball of Crazy”. In that post I talked about my feelings of utter hopelessness and despair and my non-existent self-esteem. Because of these feelings, I had spent the prior few months hiding in my apartment – eating and being miserable. And it had taken its toll.

Many of you left encouraging comments on that post – and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your kind words. And when my mother (who is celebrating her birthday today) read it, she insisted – for the jillionth time – that I was suffering from depression and needed to get help. Depression runs in my family – Mom suffers from it, as does my Grandmother. And apparently the big D had been passed down to create a third generation of Crazy Bitches .... me.

So, for once, I listened to my mother. After not entering a Doctor’s office in seven years, I made an appointment. And this past Wednesday (August 5th) I visited Dr. A, who gave me a prescription for Pristiq – an antidepressant which, he said, would not add to my weight gain or have any “sexual side effects”. That last part made me LOL, because I’m pretty sure you need to actually have sex in order suffer from sexual side effects. But I’m thankful for Dr. A’s optimism regarding my sex life.


Anywhore, I just want to let you all know that I feel FANFUCKINGTASTIC! As much as I wanted to wallow in hopelessness and say that NOTHING could help me, I really feel like the Pristiq is working. I realize that I’m not going to feel FANFUCKINGTASTIC every day, but I’m certainly going to enjoy it when I do.


At first I thought maybe I was just imagining these good feelings – especially since everyone says it can take a couple of weeks for antidepressants to work. But then on Saturday I cleaned my bathroom. I know that doesn’t sound like a big deal, but I had spent the last 15 Saturdays (at least) sitting on my couch. Seriously, Saturday was the day I “caught up on my blogging” (which is how I justified it). I didn’t leave the apartment and I didn’t accomplish anything. Hell, I didn’t even shower!!

So this Saturday, before I really knew what was going on, I found myself cleaning the bathroom. And going to the Veggie Market. And EXERCISING. And going to the Grocery Store and buying low-fat stuff. It was amazing.


I am one of those “Things To Do List” people. When I’m completing items on my Things To Do List, I feel great. The more things I do, the better I feel. And this weekend, I pretty much did every damn thing I needed to do. And I realized that I hadn’t even bothered to MAKE a Things To Do List in months – because I wouldn’t have done any of it anyway.



Weigh-In

Because of my Pristiq-induced positive outlook, I’m going to go back to “weighing in” on Mondays. And in the past 2 weeks (which was the last time I entered my weight on weightwatchers.com) I’ve lost 3 pounds. I have to lose 21 more pounds to reach my goal weight. And yes, this is the same goal weight I’ve been trying to reach for 1 ½ years.

As far as losing weight goes, I have decided that my target will be to lose 2 lbs. a week. I have lost (and gained) enough weight over the years to know that this is achievable for me. And even if I cheat a little, I should still be able to lose 2 lbs each week – which will definitely add up over time.

BTW, you may remember that I told my Doctor that I was concerned about the cost of my medication. He, in turn, gave me 10 weeks of Pristiq samples for free. But I’ll tell you this right now: I don’t care how much it costs – I’m going to make sure I get my Pristiq. If I have to beg, borrow or steal, I’m gonna get my drugs. Hell, I’d sell my ass on the street for it. After all, there are “no sexual side effects”…

Monday Weigh-In

I know I said I wasn't going to weigh-in today after my Food Festival EXTRAVAGANZA - but I'm a glutton ... for punishment (get it!?!). So I almost fell off the frickin' scale this morning when it told me that I hadn't gained ANY weight - I was at the same exact weight as last week. Let's chalk this one up as a big WIN!

I guess all that walking (while eating) paid off after all.

Monday Weigh-In

There is NO way I'm stepping on a scale this week. Ima skurred as to what I may find out.

It all started on Thursday when I walked past White Castle and saw the picture of these little tiny pork barbecue sandwiches. And it's been downhill ever since...

Monday Weigh-In

Since last Monday I've lost 7 pounds! Although I am thrilled to death, I could have lost more if I hadn't indulged over the weekend. Oh well. Hopefully this trend will continue up through the DDBW (Drunken Dust Bunny Weekend - thanks Mark in DE) and beyond.

Speaking of DDBW, here are the confirmed attendies: Zombie Mom, Kailyn, TrannyBeth, Miss Ginger Grant, Maddie and the BoyToy, Mark in DE and Spouse, and Dust Bunny Howard. Others are still on the fence, and I encourage them to make their reservations now. If you need any hotel advice, or need somebody to meet you at the airport - please let me know. I plan on taking Thursday through Monday off from work, so I'm available. GOODNESS KNOWS ... I'm available. I practically have "available" written on my forehead.

The only two "official" events so far are a cocktail party at the gal's suite in the Sofitel on Friday night, and the First Annual Drunken Dust Bunny Bar Tour on Saturday. I would love to get a gang up to the Bronx Zoo one afternoon, and of course a field trip to Arby's in Queens MUST happen. I haven't had an Arby's roast beef sandwich since I was in Pennsylvania for Christmas!!

Also, if you are a New Yorker who reads DavidDust - PLEASE JOIN US FOR THE BAR TOUR! I will provide you with the meeting time and place - and anyone and everyone is welcome to join us. The more the merrier. Even if you aren't a blogger and have never left a comment, we'd love to meet you. And most of us don't bite ... except for Maddie. :)

>P, b.

Monday Weigh-In

I didn't have a very good week diet and fitness-wise. The previous week was phenomenal - I lost 6 lbs. - so this week I kept allowing myself to cheat for just "one more day". I kept thinking I could make up for it by the time "Weigh-In" came around, but I was wrong.

Well, Weigh-In day is here, and I ended up gaining 2 pounds last week. I'm surprised it wasn't more since I am fighting a cold and I had to deal with some dating-related rejection last week. I know those are just excuses, so it's time to get off my butt and do better this week. Wish me luck...

Monday Weigh-In

I had a pretty good week health-wise: I walked home from work every day and did my dance/exercise thing on Saturday and Sunday at my apartment. I did have a few slip-ups on the diet (I caved in and ordered Chinese food once) but I did my best to stay within my Weight Watchers point limit.

My efforts definitely paid off, because I lost 6 pounds! Now keep in mind that I’m still RE-losing the 25 pounds I lost last year (and gained back this year) – but after 2 weeks I’m already halfway there.

My next goal is to get back to the gym…

Monday Weigh-In

Last week I promised you a Monday weigh-in, so here it is...

Exactly one week ago, I tipped the scales at a new record for me. The 25 lbs I had lost last year had been regained – plus a few.

Instead of getting discouraged (like I usually do), I actually took steps to reverse my gaining trend. I started logging my points again at Weightwatchers.com, and I walked home from work twice last week (2 ½ miles).

And on Saturday I did something that had helped me lose 90 pounds a few years ago … I danced.

Yep, you heard me right – I danced. By myself. In my apartment. Alone. I put on one of the Dance channels on AOL Radio, and boogie oogie oogied ‘til I just couldn’t boogie no more. And I forgot how much fun it was.

Bitches – I could sell tickets to that show. You should see me getting my groove on. And it is really good exercise. An hour of walking earns 3 Weight Watchers activity points (basically, 3 extra points you can use to eat later) – but an hour of dancing earns 8 points. And I really do work up a sweat.

And heaven help me if I hear one of the old songs I danced to when I first hit the clubs here in NYC. Like Murk’s “Some Lovin”…




Or The Fog’s “Been A Long Time”…

I’m wiggling here at my desk just thinking about it.

Anywhore, it wasn’t ALL sunshine and light this past week. I keep ordering Chinese delivery when I should be having Lean Cuisine. But at least I got my dumplings steamed (instead of fried) over the weekend. I obviously still have room for improvement.

But, as of today, I have lost 6 pounds from when I started this whole journey last year. Yes, I know at one point I was down 25 lbs, but at least it’s a start. And at least I'm not HEAVIER than I was when I started. I’ll check back in next week and let you know how it’s going.

Manic Monday Weigh-In

I had a HORRIBLE week when it comes to diet/exercise - and I didn't lose any weight. So I stand at 14 pounds lost (in 3 1/2 weeks). This seems like such a small amount of weight for such a long amount of time - when I was doing Atkins I could lose 14 pounds in one week, easily.

On Tuesday (Election Day) I stress-ate all day. On Tuesday night I drank like a fish to celebrate. On Wednesday I hangover ate (McDonald's TWICE - as well as the Chef at my restaurant making me Chicken Salad sandwiches). On Friday I binge ate everything in site, and ordered a cheeseburger and fries at 2:00 am. And last night, in the middle of the night, I woke up and ate the sandwich that I had prepared for today's lunch.

To make matters even worse, my ankles have been KILLING ME - preventing me from walking (you would hurt too if you had to support this lardass). And the icing on the cake was an ingrown toenail that made walking even more painful than it normally is. Therefore, I did not exercise at all this week.

All things considered, I guess I should be happy that I didn't GAIN any weight. I am very frustrated and depressed right now - I don't have my part-time job, and my full-time job is much less lucrative. My roommate is out of work, and I'm not sure how he plans on continuing to pay the rent. I have been hit surprisingly hard by the Prop 8 loss in California - how is it that MY rights are allowed to be put up to a popular vote - and others are not? All of these things make me want to stuff my face and cry - which is pretty much what I've been doing.

I will try and get myself together and weigh in again on Friday.

UPDATE: I just entered my weight onto my WW page, and it turns out I DID gain a pound. Just fucking shoot me...