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♥MWUAH♥

Bubbly
All smiles and laughter

Farhana
twenTEEN
Student

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I DREAM:

I want a house by the BEACH
100% Health
Be with my FAMILIA for eternity & beyond
I wana WALK-IN CLOSET
I want a PIANO
Let me ride a HORSE
I wana Swim with the DOLPHINS
Oh i wana LEARN to SWIM
Let me Take the PLANE
& Travel around the WORLD

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I WANT:

Lets buy me another ECLAT D'ARPEGE Lanvin perfume
Lets buy me a fresh supply of fruits and veggies everyday(:
Lets buy me a mini lappy
Lets buy me a whole new wadrobe
Lets buy me pretty pretty dresses and heels
Lets buy me a Chanel handbag
Lets buy me a big Fendi bag to lump all my junks in

♥♥♥ ♥♥♥

YOURS TRULY

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Tuesday, September 30, 2008@7:40 PM

Selamat Hari Raya

Sudah tibalah Syawal yang dinanti-nantikan, dan berlalu sudah Ramadhan yang penuh rahmat dan berkat.
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Farhana disini ingin memohon ampun dan maaf,
Jikalau ada
terkasar bahasa,
terlepas kata,
tersasul bicara,
tersepak muka
dan ter-ter yang sewaktu dengannya,
Maaf Zahir dan Batin yerr...
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"Terima kasih tidak terperi
Atas budimu duhai pembaca
Ambil kesempatan ucapan diri
Selamat hari raya pada semua"
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Salam Sayang, tulus ikhlas dari hati,
Farhana (:
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ENJOY!

She Wrote In Her Diary @7:40 PM

Wednesday, September 24, 2008@6:53 AM

-_-

7am now.
In 1hr time, mom will be dragging me off to see Dr Amir.
Guess im really worrying her.
and i swear theres something painful under the left side of my ribcage.

couldnt sleep the whole night cos the pain was unbearable.
and things like this always seemed to be happening to me only.
no one else.

and i never failed to question why.
everysingle time.
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Faizal called ysterday in response to my msg.
Im elected next in line for dance captain.
and.i.had.to.turn.it.down.
I feel bad. Really bad.
But i guess its time to change.

Talked to mom about my decision and she was taken by surprise though shes happy for me.
Atleast i agreed to take up the asst dance captainship till Willy graduate end tis yr.
Yi Min will make a very gd dance captain nxt yr, im sure ;)

guess i shall use this next one hr to maybe get some sleep first.
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She Wrote In Her Diary @6:53 AM

Tuesday, September 23, 2008@7:24 AM

time to smile again.

update.
it feels so good to be able to communicate with Him.
pour out everything thats occupying my sunken brain,
i.feel so.much.better.now
last night meant alot.
:)
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Recess week just gives me so much free time to blog.
All these excessive blogging are here for a reason.
Its to cover up for the forseen hiatus i'll be in once school starts next week.
deadlines! and my nightmares starts.
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but for now,
too much free time that i resorted to checking out facebook.
really confusing like hellL in a way.
bt its fun tho.
much better than multiply.
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cant seem to open aed105blogspot which all the more gives me the reason to NOT start on the reasearch yet.
(Does trying to decipher what the whole chapter/ page/ sentence counts?)
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every sentence's analysis is worse than analysis for literature.
Ms Ng must have been proud of me if she sees me scrutinising every sentences like i am doing now.
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and much thanks to Muni dear for collating all of our work due to the sudden escape of our dear Mr Group Leader. lol. sempat pegi holiday ekh!
I didnt even rmbr there was a deadline last night for our hypothesis.
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For my dearest omega floorball lovelies, all the best for later ok!
My deepest apology for not being able to join u babes/hunks later.
MY mini olympiad dream is over.lol
but BUT..
Im sure Omega will win this time round!
*wink wink*
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This week break fast with THE Familia, still waiting for duneRica (lol, full name ba?) to confirm everyones's free day. Not sure if i cn make it tho, but i'll try squeeze time for my sweethearts.
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and Mom's determined effort to convince me into taking up driving is giving me a big BIG headache.
hehe
maybe after my exams ok mommy ku yg tersayang!
(:
sigh
i forsee another driving practice at the carpark with biggie bro.
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shoutout to Siddiq & Alfonso Miziano Dicaprio:
I need u guys to help me recall guitar chords!
lol.
my strumming so karat already!
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Ciao lovelies.

She Wrote In Her Diary @7:24 AM

Monday, September 22, 2008@6:46 PM

random stuffs

Some random rantings:
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Didnt go for DF exco selection.
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Another day of the precious recess week spent, NOT studying.
Cant seem to find that motivation to study yet.
yea, excuses.
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*scratch scratch*
My stupid rash is back! So freaking itchy like hell! Mom said its allergy cos ive been stuffing my face with seafood!
BIG SIGH.
Im going to see Dr Amir tmr morning.
I dont care!
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to my dear gurl whos taking her A's this yr, i know hw it feels like to not haf found that motivation yet.
JiaYOU!
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I simply love Kimora L.S and Nicole Scherzinger!
I OH so love their Hair!!
Thats's it!
Time for a major Hair make-over!
soon, soon...
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*imagination*
(imagine...if i were to be a celebrity, id probably have my face all over youtube with the caption "101 different hairstyles in a year!"
haha
since mom said she thinks i have an addiction of changing hairstyles.
(p/s: be it for the better or for worst)
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And im halfway through Breaking Dawn.
So excited.
(:
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I never wana hear a single word from you.
i get my final say.

She Wrote In Her Diary @6:46 PM

Sunday, September 21, 2008@10:48 PM

hush hush

Hush Hush

I Never Needed You To Be Strong
I Never Needed You For Pointing Out My Wrongs
I Never Needed Pain,
I Never Needed Strain
My Love For You Was Strong Enough
You Should Have Known

I Never Needed You For Judgement
I Never Needed You To Question What I Spent
I Never Ask For Help,
I Take Care Of Myself,
I Don't Know Why You Think You've Got A Hold On Me

And it's A Little Late For Conversations
There Isn't Anything For You To Say
And My Eye's Hurt, Hand's Shiver,
So Look At Me And Listen To Me

Because I don't Want To,
Stay Another Minute
I don't Want You,
To Say A Single Word
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
There Is No Other Way,
I Get The Final Say Because,

I don't Want To,
Do This Any Longer
I don't Want You,
There's Nothing Left To Say
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
I've Already Spoken,
Our Love Is BrokenBaby
Hush, Hush

I Never Needed Your Corrections
On Everything From How I Act To What I Say
I Never Needed Words
I Never Needed Hurts
I Never Needed You To Be There Everyday
I'm Sorry For The Way I Let Go
From Everything I Wanted When You Came Along

But I'm Never Beaten From
Broken Up Defeated
I Know Next To You Is Not Where I Belong
And it's A Little Late For Explanations
There Isn't Anything That You Can Do
And My Eye's Hurt,
Hand's Shiver,
So You Will Listen

When I Say I don't Want Too,
Stay Another Minute
I don't Want You,
To Say A Single Word
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
There Is No Other Way,
I Get The Final Say Because,

I don't Want Too,
Do This Any Longer
I don't Want You,
There's Nothing Left To Say
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
I've Already Spoken,
Our Love Is BrokenBaby
Hush, Hush

No More Words,
No More Lies,
No More Crying
No More Pain,
No More Hurt,
No More Trying

Because I don't Want Too,
Stay Another Minute
I don't Want You,
To Say A Single Word
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
There Is No Other Way,
I Get The Final Say Because,

I don't Want Too,
Do This Any Longer
I don't Want You,
There's Nothing Left To Say
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
I've Already Spoken,
Our Love Is BrokenBaby
Hush, Hush Yeaaaaah (Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush)
I've Already Spoken,

Our Love Is BrokenBaby

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u know my hopes had always been on you
eversince i had my fall back then.
this time
i guess it took another downfall
without you to be my support.
though its never your fault.

though im still hoping
luck will stand by my side this time
and destiny will do its job to make things right.
For once.
Thats all im asking for.
And i'll never stop praying for the best.
I appreciate whatever you'd done,
Your neverending strive to prove that everything's ok
prove that it IS still ok.
But im telling you, that i know.
truth hurts, but lies hurts more.
Guess with me, nothing is ever meant to be.
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Im just so sick and tired of all these.

She Wrote In Her Diary @10:48 PM

Saturday, September 20, 2008@3:29 PM

u-can-fry-an egg-on-my-forehead.
&
i sprained my right thigh joint
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thanks god its recess week. alhamdulillah.
which gives me 1 full week to recover.

finally i got a full 7hrs sleep last night.
which undubiously explains why my entry is on a lighter tone.
i shall start on my essays soon. i hope.
there's still bio revisions to do.

(u're probably wondering why im blogging when i cn use this time to complete my tasks..well, its called procrastination my dears.)

Stayed up after sahur to make honey cornflakes (:
while momma made choc chips cookies.
dad just idle arnd.lol. He was trying sooo ubber hard to converse in ma' nigga' language. simply by adding a "yo" behind every line.
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"Ini kuih aper, yo!
nak ayah tolong tak, yo!
takpelah, ayah nak pegi tido, yo!
dah kasi si 2 kecik tu makan ke belum? yo!"
(p/s: 2 kecik is my turtles btw)
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my house is currently a baking factory. People taking orders and my whole kitchen cabinet is filled with hari raya cookies!
kinda exciting in a way.
though i dun really feel the hari raya mood yet..
maybe soon.

Life is really tiring now that i dont even have personal time for myself.
Maybe i shall kickstart the whole recess week by reading Breaking Dawn and learn new guitar chords with my baby.

p/s: yes Ais, u cn borrow ALL of my Twilight saga after exam period ends.

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Oh, momma' wants me to buy more of B's clothing line. (HOD)
(lol. Beyonce's House Of Dereon)
Its one of the few clothing line where her interest in style doesnt clash with mine.
u know what this means?
another shopping spree!
(oh wait, after i recover maybe)
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.Turbulence made me nervous.

She Wrote In Her Diary @3:29 PM

Friday, September 19, 2008@6:35 AM

LIF(V)E.

The Nana Symptoms:

'm down with a bad case of flu, been breathing through my mouth since last nite.
'm feeling feverish.
Giddy and my ears are so 'pekak' since i kept blowing my nose.
Im breathing out hot air and its really uncomfortable.
muscle ache everywhere
chest discomfort again.
Analysis

call it anxiety. I dont know.
Hate it when im feeling this way.
Call it psychological, but im the one feeling the pain.
aargh.
I need Dr Amir!
he'll just say its anxiety- again.
Nt sure of becoming next dancecaptain.. Meaning i gotta conduct dance class everywk for everyone, teach them the dancesteps and come out with choreography every week. Not even sure if i wud be staying in DF for the 4 yrs...i mite decide to change and stop dancing at some point of time too... :( sigh.no doubt i love dance. and i love DF mucho.
I hate making decisions.
and i am physically drained.
Need to cancel most of the outings/meet ups during recess week to catch up with my sleep, make time for individual essays. Deadlines are drawing near.
Need to start revision for exams. Bio so many things to memorise!
Try find a day for Spartanbabes/hunks buka-puasaing and my 'Familia' buka puasa-ing and mono-movie-thon( watch 1 movie only. lol) eventhough Dune and Gino wont b fasting.
bioprac just nw was fun, examined all the plant cells under microscope bt if u happened to have all the symptoms mentioned above during the course of practical, nothing is ever fun! Gd thing im sitted with my darlings. I survived the 2hr30mins prac. Though the microscope light and all the squinting just made my headache worse. Gd thing gesl was cancelled.

Anecdote:
Play guitar
Make Honey cornflakes
Recess week starts
I wana sit by the seaside and stone all day.
its bloody irritating when blogger is being pms-sy.
at times like these, i wish im somewhere in some high mountain minding my own business. And not having any calefares poking into mine.
So much for recess week. More like mugging period.
and im bloody pissed off with everything.
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momma n daddy wans me to take up driving lessons a.s.a.p. so i cn share our baby subaru wid bro.
sigh
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so sick.

She Wrote In Her Diary @6:35 AM

@6:35 AM

them dance dance!

What can i say
Thankyou so much to all my dancers for being sooo ubber cooperative, fun loving and great!
Had a great time conducting the dance lesson yesterday!
I i mucho MUCHO love each and everyone of you.

p/s: Thnks to Jocelyn n Jasmine fr the Laptop and PSP :)

Feels kind of awkward especially when there were new members joining the dance class yesterday and some of dancers are older than me.

Met up with some of the girls at the Dance studio to practice the new steps. I was having fever and a bad flu. Nevertheless, continued to plan the rubrics for the dance. Felt so giddy, feverish and my nose was freakin runny lah please!

Joined Jasmine for a 'short' nap at the side of the dance room and i ended up sleeping! Too comfortable aldy uh the aircon and dancefloor. hohoho.

Was surprised for a split sec when i woke up to find myself still in d dance studio cos i thought i was at home!! lol

Dance class started strictly at 6.30. Yea, people started streaming in and class starts!

Since there were new members, decided to recall Willy's choreo and teach them along the way...and THEN i started on the new choreo...

We did lyrical Jazz. WOO! and danced to 'Apologize' btw.
and-the-dance-steps-are-really-cool!
reminds me of "So u think U can dance?" with all the floor works.

wah wah. feeling2 professional jer..

Split the class into 2 groups and we started the 'performance' routine. Took a video of each team's peformance (:
Im just really proud of these dancers, though some are really beginners cause its their determination to learn that amaze me.
Despite the very complicated and fast steps, they could catch up.
So in a nutshell,
Good job dancers (: Made me proud! (:

oh, reminds me of our SYF days too because i get bruises on my knees and elbow!!
haha.

Faizal called to check if everything was ok and invited us to dinner reception at Student Hub. Some went home cos it was already late while the rest of the "Free loaders" whos up for free food, made our way to UID. The food was one of the best buffet food id ever eaten! Good hospitality from the TTC members too and we got door gifts! Not bad2..LOL
Once i reached home, decided to type out the bio prac report (which apparently was dued today, instead of tmr! haha) and fell asleep without even knowing.

Fell asleep with the living room light on, my room light on and the laptop on. Waste electricity! Cant really put the blame on me since i dont even realise i fell asleep!

and biggie bro FINALLY bought Deng Deng! OH! The bliss!
ok, gotta type up the insanely long bio report...
end of entry.
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Everything is gettin' way too overwhelming.
Dont think i should do this.
Spread out my options, lay a reason behind every choice.
Behind it all, everything points to you.
U know why im doing this?
Cos its the only thing that relates me to you.
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sigh
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She Wrote In Her Diary @6:35 AM

Wednesday, September 17, 2008@11:24 PM

a first to everything!

less than 6 hrs to go...
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1. For me to finish up my Bio Prac Report (That i dont even remember the format!)
2. and brush up on the new dance steps i just learned. Cos u know why? (lol, suspense..)
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jeng! jeng! jeng!
Im taking over our current dancecaptain for tomorrow's dance class.
*faint!*
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u heard me right.
Im teaching the choreo to d whole batch of NIE/NTU dancers!
*wakes up, faint again!*
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not forgetting, i need to make a dance lesson plan from the warming up, stretching exercise, body conditioning...dance techniques, THEN finally the choreo itself( voice fades away...)
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Hopefully i can do a gd job tmr..
pray. pray. pray.
breathe.
I think imma screw up abit, cos im not excellent in lyrical jazz..
Damn. Gino, help ur poor kind friend here can!
This time i promise i'll come for ur next pformance even if it means smuggling inside if i dont haf tix!! aargh
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Been days since i last get a proper gd nite sleep.
Maybe i might stand a chance of winning my not so beauty sleep during recess week.
haiiish.
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My very random entry.
Im reali ubber tired.
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Ciao my senoritas!

She Wrote In Her Diary @11:24 PM

Sunday, September 14, 2008@2:28 AM

FLOW!

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Let the feeling of GUILT bestow upon me!

hehehe
i committed a Bigger shopping sin this time!

U'll find out why later on...

I know im suppose to finish up my research on Teresa Amabile and complete my bio practical report! But theres too much things to update on and its really accumulating!

Lets do a summary of past event...
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Our first BIOLOGY FIELDTRIP

to Botanical gardens's Evolution Walk

ok theres too much photos on this so i shall just upload this one special pic with our everdearest Prof Shawn Lum!

peace professor

"OMG! Thank you so much! I feel so famous now!"
(thats what he said when we requested to take a pic with him)
Next up was our DanceFuzion dinner at KFC.

there were 21 of us..how to find seats for everyone?! so we had to wait very long till everyone gets seated. U can see a long line of tables..

This pic is just 1/3 of the section of the line and only of one side.
Then we have the break fast session after our gesl meeting. Sorry no pics my dear! Everyone was too focused talking (gossiping?) and eating.haha

But this is us in our EXCLUSIVE bus ride home!
Our very own shuttle bus from NTU to Boon Lay..how cool is cool?
(It just so happen that no one took the bus ler..but still very exclusive right?)

Not forgetting our long awaited moment of completing our Aed105 presentation. Yea, i was the 'showgirl' (dengan plastic filled with cadbury choc!) It was really funny!especially the Bloopers video (or 'Dopplers', as Wei wei would have said! ;P)
This is just a random shot in the lift, where we realised all 3 of us were wearing white!
My lovelies! Podcast! Podcast time!
Me and my dearest Munirah went into 'recording studio' at student hub to record our beeyouteafool voice!

So many bloopers section also..
Miss Rani should give us an A grade for our effort!
My butt looks big!

And also our first GROSS bio practical based on Animal specimens!

Let me name you, from dead crabs, tapeworms, leeches, lampreys, PIG EMBRYO, 'god knows wat other worms', lizards, BUGS, big tarantula-lookalike spiders..Im getting the chill now again.
Though theyre dead, still, the thought that these (gross) species is just a jar lid away from your fingers...

(~SHIVERS~)

Since there wasnt any GESL meeting last fri, met up with (point to the guy below) for our buka-puasaing...PIZZA HUT!

THAT, (point to pic below!) was our feast!! I so cant finish it lah..but my cravings for cheesybites is fulfilled. (p/s: I STILL wan my Deng Deng!)
hehehe

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ok the main highlight of the entry as i'd said earlier on...

SHOPPING time again!!

Met up with my fav. Russian Queen Rena and we head off to Town!
(Us @ Chanel boutique..)

nvm2..one day...
She's my partner in crime for shopping..went to my all time favourite shop FLOW! Stayed there for hours..Anyone wana buy apparels from there can contact me ok? The owner inofficially proclaimed me to be their ambassador! (lol bcos i stayed there for hours and i made them filthy rich by becoming their regular customer!)

Vicky, the owner of FLOW (hehe), msgd me the night before telling me theres new arrival for babyphat items and i badly wana ask her to order the nameplate pendant for me! but sadly, she wasnt there yesterday cause she was moving house, as what Hong2 told me. Oh yea, Hong2 is her assistant. LOL. sigh...must go back there when vicky is arnd :(

So funn!

and..so, met my honey, Queenie in the shop! she too was looking for stuffs to buy, tho she ended up buying the same hoodie as i bought previously but a pink one. Guess we'll look more like twins from now on..hahaha
i have a new craze now over designer clothes!! and Suurrprisingly, my biggest fashion critic, My Momma', is giving me 100% support!

But i stil must rmbr to save up my $$ every month ;)

Im going head over heels Crazy in Love with Beyonce's clothing Line, "House of Dereon"!!

and not forgetting Kimora Lee Simmon's "BabyPhat"!

As expected, i spent hours in the small FLOW shop deciding which one to buy.
Initially i fell in love at first sight with "AppleBottom" hoodie, but it comes together with this short skirt which i know i'll never ever wear in my whole life! So why waste so much money on that? But the hoodie dress is really ubber nice..turquoise with gold patterns and lining!

so i moved on to decide between BabyPhat jumpsuit and Beyonce's hoodie dress.

well, the jumpsuit costs more than 2X the amount of d hoodie. :S

But i came to a very VeRY hard decision of...

*jeng jeng jeng*

buying BOTH! Its insane!

So i beat the record history of spending over >$200 from a single shop, a tiny one of that!
Hong2 was ubber nice cos she gave me 10% off each tops that i buy cause i bought many of their stuffs already a.k.a regular customer. She said she needs to give me commision for promoting their shop!

bought the stuffs, waved gdbye to Hong2 and rushed off in search of a makan place to buka puasa.

Lo and Behold!

No place to eat!!!

All the makan places are fully occupied by Muslims! even makcik2 at fareast! Suddenly i felt as if im at bazaar Geylang! a sudden influx of makciks and pakciks!
We managed to grab a seat at Restro Surabaya at fareast. Can only break fast at arnd 7.30 cos the food arrived late! sigh, ate ayam bakar though i still strongly feel that Ayam Bakar Ojolali is much2 better! and waayyy cheaper!
after the filling meal, we head off to Tangs!
and then i rmbred that i need to buy my lipgloss!
So i got GOT GOT myself my very own Dior Ultra Gloss Reflect Lip Gloss!!!

So to sum up this very2 long entry, are pics of my jumpsuit and hoodie dress!

My Black and Gold BabyPhat jumpsuit it comes with a hoodie and pants! (amnt invested=$159)

Beyonce's House of Dereon Halter Hoodie! (amount invested= $69)

and of course my babyPhat hoodie from previous shopping spree.
Half jacket and pants! (amount invested=$139)

Some of my perasaan shots! lol..
U can see my weight gain! I look chubbier! (p/s: like i told aishah, these are the thinner looking ones i picked out, most of the pics i look more berisi! Thanks to the fresh milk Momma' force me to drink every night! sigh)

All pics credits to Lil'sis Natasha.
Yeah!
Which brings me to my last and final point..i need a change of hairstyle! New hair is growing back and my supposedly straight hair is becoming wavy again..

U know what this mean?

I wanna haf curls again..hurhur...i miss curly hair..(but i NEVER miss my nigerian hair..)

I promise i shall go to a proper Hair Saloon this time, and im doing Digital Perming! No more rollers, hello curling iron! I want big big curls this time! hehe

kinda Ex but at least i know i wont be in danger of getting Nigerian Curls animore!
NOTE to my hair: please grow faster...

I shall go study now!
and maybe read up Breaking Dawn later. (I hardly have time to read it! Ggrr)

Oh! and Haris Hardi missed me too. My poor lil' babyboy. I shall see u soon kay! MMwuah

With Love.

She Wrote In Her Diary @2:28 AM

Saturday, September 06, 2008@7:00 AM

Breaking Dawn!

Shh...

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PLEASE DO NOT DISTURB!

'cos im reading my long awaited book

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BREAKING DAWN!

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last book of the TWILIGHT Saga series.
Yes im a big fan of it..i spent over $100 getting the whole Saga series!
n its not a waste of $$ if u ask me..cos this kind of books comes around once in a lifetime.
Im nuts. I know!

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Must prioritise my reading. hehe

which explains why im not really updating. More updates soon.

:)

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She Wrote In Her Diary @7:00 AM

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