Fuck.. i hate Art History... the damn faci gave me my very first 'D' in this RP life... damn.. she's trying to break Guinness World Record is it? well, she did... haiz... i think the faci hates me... and i think i hate the faci too...


Dammit... the weather is mad... all of a sudden so hot... and with all this stress, i'll will be sick real soon... i bet there is some prophecy now in China saying, "The person who just got a 'D' for his Art History will save the world. Eat beef, Save the world." apparently this prophecy was not heard by anyone because China is busy preparing for the Olympics... dumb people who are learning English... anyway, for some strange reason, the prophecy seems to be related to me... i just got a 'D' for my Art History, and whenever i eat beef, it will rain... damn... the Buddha have to hate me... haha... always pee on me when i eat beef... maybe if i were to eat beef soon, i'll save the world with rain!! haha... but sad to say, i don't seem to be fated to eat beef... everytime i want to eat beef, it's sold out... haiz... i think i can't save the world anymore... the Buddha really hate me now... haiz...


School was great... did photography today... i get to lay hands on the DSLR again... haha... damn power... took a lot of artistic shots... haha... damn fun... except some parts here and there... i shall not elaborate... my interest in photograph is slowly growing... haha... well, let time do the talking... haha...

Why am i getting so stresed up over the stupid PP? dammit... the problem had always been "how do i start?"... but at least now i have a direction to work towards... a couple of companies i can do now... just got to pray hard they don't turn me down... haha... it ain't that bad working in F&B after all... haha... found some possible contacts while working today... haha... power lah... time to work hard... haha...


How i wish i can live back those happy days in my life... now everything seems so dull... it's so hard to live on... i need motivation!!! i need interest!!! i need passion!!! AAHHHH!!!

!!!!!!AAAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

FUCKING STRESSED!!! DAMMIT LAH!! WHY IS THE WORLD CRASHING DOWN ON ME?!?! OR I'M I JUST LETTING THE WORLD FALL ON ME?!?! haiz... i feel so weak now... there are so many things haunting my mind now... life have never been this exciting... well, it's too exciting in fact... i can't handle it... shit lah... this is really bad... i must be strong... i'll fight this and survive it... haiz...

My health is starting to suffer... haiz... irregular eating hours.. i'm at the brink of falling sick every morning, no time to go toilet and all... dammit... this is really bad... well, strangely enough, i have time to blog... well, this is only because i need to let out some shit if not i'll become the Incredible Hulk i am in the gym when i carry extremely heavy weights... i'm not going to let my anger out on anyone...


Haiz... sometimes i wish for the impossible so hard, i feel stupid... right now, i wish you could just stand by me and help me through this period... but well, it's the impossible...

Damn... i'm so tired... i've been taking little naps here and there to ensure i don't get an overdose of sleep... haha... no Photoshop master training today... i was too lazy... haha... spent my day with my beloved PSP... haha... damn... now i'm feeling too tired to blog... PP is so screwed up... UT this friday... haiz... the first UT is always the worst... well, let's hope not... haha...

Damn.. i've been really down on luck... haiz... so sian lor... i can't be that lucky man... went shopping with Jasmin and Tricia today... Jasmin was really late... but thanks to that, i finally got a chance to read my Men's Health magazine in details... haha... so i decided not to complain about a single thing about her being late... one reason is because i'm really tired... i only had 6 hours of sleep... and the other reason is that i can't be bothered... haha... well, we reached our destination on time because Jasmin was wearing a watch... and if i wear a watch, i'll never be late again... but that's not going to happen... watches are too troublesome... need to waste 1 minute every morning to buckle the watch on to my wrist... haiz...

Only managed to one shirt... my shopping feeling was pretty dead... i was really sleepy... sleepy to the extend where i fell asleep at PedderRed while Tricia and Jasmin were trying the shoes... haha... we went down to the flea market at youth park... i saw this really nice mural there... but it's not for sale... haha... not interesting there... i almost died because my heart beat went off rhythm... the stupid speakers we blasting and the bass is super strong, i beats my heart for me... siao... i should have died there... lucky we left before i loss concious... haha... went all over to do shopping and dine... by the time my shopping mood was up when we are at Far East, i had to stop... cause i had work... sian... and because of time constrain, i only got ONE shirt... i could have gotten more good shirts... at least i found a place which sells my kind of shirt... haha... power lah... i think i'll be their regular already... haha...


Work was fine, i reached super early to find a new China boy... damn... i can't communicate man... haha... slack at one corner till it's action time... the moment i got myself ready at the order taking station, the customers started flowing in... dammit... i wanted to wash my face before i start but i lost the chance... it's 6pm man, everyone is coming!! i did not even have time to take a sip... haha... so exciting... 'chiong' till 10pm... 6 to 10pm man... it's mad i tell you... imagine talking for 4 hours straight without stop... i would get slapped by my teacher if i were to do that in primary/secondary school... so tiring man... one point to be happy is that i sold out all tenderloins... the sad thing is that the sales did not hit my goal... 5.1 only... i expected at least a 5.8... but Sam says it's considered good sales for a Saturday... that's what she tells me all the time... but it's ok... haiz...

If only clocks had more space for more numbers... haiz... every time i've found good entertainment, i have to stop... last night, i was having a great time watching Jack Black do funny stuff... but sadly, when i'm at my peak, i had to stop cause it was 12am already... haiz... happiness is short lived, enjoy while you still have them...



Just finished my presentation... Damn PKL... ought to get slapped in the face... i really want punch her fucking face... "2 minutes to 30 minutes"... "He said that 3 times in one sentence"... what the fuck man... you think you very pro? i stand there getting shot by everyone, still want to chicken rice add rice for me... dammit lah... FUCK YOU B-... YOU ARE NOT A BITCH.. I CAN'T TELL!!! fuck man... i hope your "friends" hate you as much as i hate you... i'll worship the Buddha to not meet you in my class next semester, next next semester and next next next semester!!!



Had a inspirational conversation with Jasmin just now... i don't think she understood anything... but it's ok... at least i get to talk the shit out of myself... it really helped me think more about the kind of life i'm living in and reminds me of my goals in life... damn... i'm a new old man now...



Haiz... going to miss my gym session tomorrow... going shopping with Jasmin and Tricia... haiz... my body is shrinking like shit... strangely, my body seems to be growing smaller even after gyming... the most obvious are my biceps... they are getting smaller... haiz... triceps are not growing, chest are shrinking... i don't want to invest in any weight gainer or protein shake... haiz... what a turning point for my life... so exciting... so troublesome... well, at least when my life makes another turn, i would live a better life...



I'll stop for now... after tuition then see what else i can add... hopefully a new interesting idea that can make everyone laugh...



Back in a flash... the time now is 12.27am... just finished my RJ... quite exciting though, trying hard to do my RJ in 7 minutes... well, guess what, i did not make it on time... haha... so i had to e-mail the facilitator with some reason and whip up a bad promise... haha... well Sam, what a good start to a semester... haha...


Man.. i'm addicted to the song Jasmin sent me... shit lah... it induces an unexplainable emotion in me... to a certain extend, i feel a little like crying... i see half a bottle of tears when i hear the song... damn... i don't know why... i'm not a sissy boy... guys do have a sensitive sides which they try to hide all the time... slap yourself if you think i'm gay.. cause i'm not gay... haha...


Damn sian... i really can't think of anything to make this entry funny... haiz... i'm really tired now... tomorrow still have shopping and work... and i want to try out on of the exercise in the Man's Health magazine... haha... i doubt i have the energy tomorrow... haha... too bad for me...

Haiz... i hate screwing up... damn... i screwed up my presentation today... and i think i've just screwed up my future too... E24B went for the stupid PP briefing as a class... and guess what i was doing? i was Monster Hunting with Gary the whole time in there... i did not catch a single thing... you know me, i suck big time at multi-tasking... and i still suck at it... and the day PP talk lasted so long, it took up about 30 minutes... when i returned back to class, i played one more game, while everyone was busy working!!! damn... i have to feel guilty if not i'll have to die in hell... and by the time i finish my game, i had 30 minutes left... and because of the time constrain, i did a sloppy research and had no confidence in my work... in fact, i did not really understand my stuff... in the end, i screwed everything up... haiz... but well done team, the doll thing you all made was great... it's so real i don't think i can sleep without a nightmare tonight... i would probably dream of getting attacked by a hell lot of dolls, and that's damn scary... damn... haha... well, i'll try to put a little picture of the end product up later... and to everyone else who can't view shit with an opened mind, if you have nothing nice to say, you jolly well shut that fucking foul mouth of yours... i don't need any lousy feedbacks... my team had done very well...


Haiz... my days are getting back to worst... why do i see such dull colours in my life? i don't feel so comfortable nowadays... i really enjoy the company of my new friends, and i hope i can enjoy every moment as much... well, life is full of ups and downs, this must be another turning point in my life... and hopefully my sixth puberty come after that... i miss those days where i feel so hungry all the time... i must be growing a hell lot at that moments... and as a matter of fact, i need more of this 'puberty' now... it took me 2 years to grow 2cm... and i need another 2cm badly... i'm not waiting another 2 years, and i'm not doing and skipping... haiz... life is hard... you only tresure what you have until it's lost... haiz... blame it on bad luck i guess... this dull days better past quickly cause i can't wait for the happy days to be back... i want to bring the smile back to the people around me... haiz...

Sometime , i really wonder if i'm mixing with the right people... maybe i should mix around more with the STA people... for some strange reason, i find myself getting verbally abused... i'm getting really annoyed... i'm not trying to spoil your fun here, but your fun is coming from the expenses of otherS... i don't see a need to continue here... nobody is going to care anyway, why should i care so much? i can't be bothered anymore... let time do the talking... the future is not for me to see...


Enough with my unhappy shit... now for the juicy stuff.. haha... i worked in Vista today!!! so cool lor... damn power... but my room was freaking cool.. AND THERE WAS A SOFA!!! the most useful thing in there was the air-con and sofa!! haha... cold and comfy... 'shiok' man!!! i'll share pictures later... haha...

I finally contribute to the group for T205, DMA!!! haha... i'm finally useful!!! haha... for the past 2 days, i've been contributing nothing at all(other than the poorly done powerpoint)... and today, i finally got a chance to show my strength... actually, i ain't that pro... i only figured the program out today... i've only used the program as a tool to get chorus out if songs for people's ring tones... but today, i learn more than just cutting... haha... i'm so happy... we still had time for MH!!! haha...


Nothing much to blog about now... i've ran out of inspirations... i can't wait for gym tomorrow...

Guess what my mama found on my pillow today while removing the sheets? SPIDERS!!! WHHOOO!!! how often do you get to sleep with spiders? my mama blamed it on me for postponing change-bed-sheet day for a month... haha... i guess there should be a family of spiders in my head now... haha... i'm shall be SpiderMan's favourite sidekick, SpiderBoy!!! i'm SpiderMan's favourite sidekick because he's gay, not me...


School was great... especially T201, Creative Concept... haha... it's the best time to be crazy... haha... i love it, but i'm not crazy... haha... today's problem ain't that difficult... just write a little short story with a little twist... no kick man... haha...

The freak guy from Moscow Circus is back in class... haha... this freak guy dresses like a freak, talks like a freak, has a freak hairstyle, wears a freak sunglass in class even when the lights are off and have freakish habits... really sounds like a perfect freak... lucky for E24B, he's only in our class once a week... haha... i can't wait to be in the same group as him... i want to disturb him a little... haha...

Some fool stole all the Photoshop books in the library... now i can't be the Photoshop master... dammit... which fool is trying to prevent me from reaching my ultimate goal? that person ought to get shot in the head... i should be the one stealing all the Photoshop books and preventing others from reaching their ultimate goal... shit man... i'm a little late... if not i would have gotten the books...


Dine at Pastamania with W15H peeps... after dinner, Tricia noticed that my stomach was all bloated... haha... it looked as if i'm 3 months pregnant... damn scary... i got shocked myself... i've never seen my stomach bulging out of my shirt before... haha... damn funny... i kept on playing with my extra big belly... but too bad for me, it was temporary... when i reach home, my stomach was flat again... sian... i thought i've found myself a new friend... haha...


Man.. i hate myself for being forgetful... the last time i forgot to bring my comics home... lucky for me i had good friend who helped me keep it safely... and as for today, i ought to feel guilty... i left Yvonne's present in class... dammit... the cleaner aunties better not steal it... it won't fit their feet... i know it... i really hope it stays in class tomorrow... i don't want it to be missing... damn... next time don't pass me things lah... i lose everything i hold... that's why i don't dare to get a girlfriend... haiz... i don't want to be responsible for the lost of any presents... haiz...

WHHOOO!!! i've found a new hobby!!! SLEEP!!! today is one hell of a sleepy day... keep on sleeping... so 'shiok' lor... when do i have the time to sleep like that? haha... not much happened today... just that i sat one corner and explore my Photoshop, play my PSP and sleep... mainly sleeping... i feel so good man... and i'm still tired... haha... well, gonna fill my stomach and back to sleep... gonna learn more photoshop stuff tomorrow... haha...


Photoshop was really fun... well, at least i'm getting the hang of it... i've figured out quite some functions now... i'm going to be the Photoshop master soon... give me some time... haha... damn fun lor... except the part where i screw up the pictures and save them over the original ones by accident... haha... lucky it only happened once... haha... too bad for me man...

Damn... after a long night, i still woke up pretty early... like 9+ going 10... it's made... but it's ok... no choice... i got myself a couple of things in the morning... verbal abuse from Jasmin, Monster Hunter Freedom 2 back in my PSP and Photoshop CS3!!! WHHOOO!!! i can't wait for tomorrow(technically today)... i want to explore the program and learn stuff only... when monday come, i'll borrow books and learn even more stuff... at least i won't be a burden to the group anymore... well, people who wants the Photoshop, please let me know... i'm giving it out at a cheap rate... just $21.58(excluding GST) can get you a Photoshop CS3!!! no lah.. i'm not that bad one... just $21(still excluding GST) will do... so please do let me know when i'm in school... haha...


Gym was fun... i've formulated my own train for triceps... it really kills, but the result is there... and seems that my dream of having inner triceps are coming true... it have to be my formula... it seems that my outer triceps is overflowing into my inner triceps... damn... one day i can help people sell houses on mocca.com... haha... and as for chest, i did the impossible... i hit 25-by-25kg on my own!!! like finally lor... and i'll be increasing in the future... haha... my chest don't seem to be getting any bigger... it's just getting more and more rounder... haiz... no wonder Jasmin keeps on referring my chest as breast... haiz... people in Thailand might mistake me for being a Shemale... shit... that's disgusting... let's drop the topic now... anyway, i've lost weight... 0.2kg... haiz... since Botak Jones days ended, i've been losing weight... from 59.8kg to 59kg... haiz... my dream of hitting 60kg will never come... too bad for me...


Work was exciting... i was doing order taking again... and as you know me, i always try to make sure my "Recall Sales" don't hit 3 columns(15 dockets)... and guess what i did today? i did order taking so slowly that 3 and a half columns became 4 dockets... damn... i got a little worried myself... everyone asked me to speed up a little... so i did... and i panicked... so a messed myself up a little... and when i started taking orders quickly, all the monster orders came... 3 U-Crazy-What, 2 Double Botak, 1 Botak... that was the first... before more customers came with paper... Nel told me that they did not have enough space for the Botak patties on the grill... the grill was filled with nothing but Botak patties!! haha... but it was really crazy... well, at least my order taking skills are coming back... haha... doing condiments was pretty exciting too... the tomato sauce was spoilt... you know when you see bubbles in the chili bottles, the chili had gone bad... but you don't see bubbles in tomato sauce, the sauce just turn orange... damn disgusting... and the smell is terrible... i had to throw all the tomato sauce away... no easy you know... so many bottles... i pour till at least 1/10 of the dustbin is filled with tomato sauce... i had a little idea along the way but it did not try it out... i wanted to tape up the cover of the dustbin and write, " WARNING: Inside this is a highly harmful bio-chemical, you will become the Incredible Pulp upon contact with the substance." haha... but i did not dare do it... too bad man... there goes a wonderful idea...


I hate it when i forget my ideas... i hate myself 6 times whenever that happens... haiz... i think i need a little book to jot down all my ideas... and most probably after getting that little book, i would forget where i put it... haiz... sian... i had a perfect idea for my MSN nick... but i've forgotten it... too bad for me... i need some brain booster... or maybe just a good tight slap... i mean i slap someone, not people slap me...

Damn... today's lesson(technically yesterday's lesson) was exciting... excitingly challenging... i screwed up the whole presentation... guess i was overconfident... i thought i knew a hell lot about everything... damn... now i know i don't know a lot... haiz...



Mass advance BBQ birthday party today at Nerissa's place... Raphael, Yvonne and Joan... 3 straight days next week... well, as usual, TPC is the cook... haha... and as usual, cooks don't get to eat much... cooking wasn't as easy as before... the stupid fire kept coming back in the stupid pit... i think the Buddha is still not happy about me eating beef... but i don't really care... anyway, the food all turned black real quickly... i had to pay so much attention to the food and flip them so often that i didn't have much time to interact with everyone... haha... but when it comes to sabotage act, i as wrongly accused for suggesting ideas... i'm super innocent... i may be a STA student, but that does not mean i have a mind for destruction... and Charlene was not accused... no fair... do i have the looks of a criminal? if i do i would have long been arrested by the police because i was mistaken to be Mas Selamat... anyway, i'm really innocent... i did not come up with any single bit of the idea... in fact, i did not have the time today to do so... so stop pointing fingers at me... we chat till 1+am... many left way before 12am for their own reasons... we were hell lot of fun till some dumb security guard tried to chase us off... and some semi-drunk bastard tried to help the situation and talked a hell lot of shit that are somewhat not logical... and he repeats the same points all the time but rephrase his lines for every repeat... stupid fellow... still call us youngsters... like as if we are a bunch of dumb kids out there to make a fool out of ourselves... we are nowhere near youngsters... we have well-developed brains and we know what we are doing... dammit...
Drank a little, but i was still sober... haha... after the incident in the past, my alcohol control had improved by leaps... haha... once bitten twice shy... i'll never get drunk again... in case some nice girl or gay bastard comes and take advantage of me... haha... reached home at about 2am going 3... haha...


Damn... i got to mind my words now... in case my PKL story goes further... haha... being in the same group with PKL for one day had made me lazier... but it helped me see more of her monstrous habit and arrogance... dammit... makes me want to slap her... so hard her mother cannot recognise... haha...


I think i need new trademark lines... everytime i come up with something new, it gets stolen... then it gets boring... haiz... it's so hard to come up with something new all the time... that's why i'm beginning to hate pirates... they steal ideas and sell them at a cheaper rate... haiz...


Monster Hunter Portable 2G is out... reading the reviews had got my heart a little itchy... dammit... good games are hard to come by... but that stupid is in a stupid language, japanese... damn... why can't the japanese learn english and make the game in english first? after all, China and Japan are all trying to learn english to communicate with the world... why do i need to go through all the trouble to learn their language? dammit...


I'm beginning to get annoyed over something... damn... make my life so difficult...

AAHHHHH!!! I'M SICK!!! SICK IN THE MIND!!! sick i tell you... i've been watching gay porn.. i mean gay art.. no no, let's put it in a more artistic way... i've been watching artistically naked men in class today!!! AAHHHH!!!! and to get things straight, i'm seriously straight... i still look at nice girls in the train on the way home... and i go gym to build up, relief stress and look at nicely figured girls... i'm not there to watch big men... haha... so i'm confirmed straight...no more debates... haha...

Class was pretty fun today... i'm not refering to the gayartistically naked men part, but the process... had a really great time with my team mates... as usual, we have to do crazy stuff if not we can't call ourselves STA... haha... we went to an empty classroom arcoss ours and made it our studio... haha... i want to be E24B's next top model... haha... so fun... going topless and posing in a super cold room... haha... well, at least our hardwork paid off... the faci liked 2 of our pictures and it's all possible because of my power team mates... confirm A lah... haha... good work all... well, for the others who missed out our artistic pictures, here are some...

Summary..


Gym in the morning... 'chiong' gym on 2 slice of bread... i could bearly push myself... my chest got bigger.. for a few hours... i need a everlasting solution for my chest...


Down to Orchard with Jasmin and Tricia... DTF for lunch... anyone need explaination, come find me... did a little shopping... spent $100+ on a super nice jacket and a super nice shirt... made a shopping agreement with the girls...


Tuition... taught 2 student... had a hard time... i'll avoid it in the future...

Haiz... i think i know what does STA means now... Super Tired Assholes... haiz... damn... i'm super tired today... don't know why... had a superb KO sleep... totally undisturbed and super deep sleep... it was super 'SHIOK'... haha... but my damn alarm clock woke me up... i would have slammed my alarm clock on the floor if it was not my handphone... finally a good rest in so many days... haiz... too bad for me...


Class was terrible today... i felt so useless and a teammate made me feel even more useless... it's feels like i'm working for a VB module... i should have gone out for long breaks and come back to claim that i have done nothing... haiz... it was hell man... sitting there in class for 3 hours trying very hard to contribute but the result was little... i even had to restart my lappy twice... it's mad i tell you... haiz... what to do? at least i pull through the day... and by the way, Macbook sucks...


Work after school was fine... i did the order taking... i needed a refresher course anyway... haha... it would be way better if i were doing the running... haha... i was really tired then... when Sam told me about the waiting time, i did not hear it... haha... and after knowing the waiting time, i still kept on typing "15-20mins" for awhile before i got a self reminder... lucky my self reminder came on time... haha... after i've typed in the first "20-30mins", Sam asked me about the waiting time... haha... i've turned stupid man... Helped Raymond with the washing because i'm so free... Home with Nel...


Damn.. i've not been getting enough rest... i'm experience gum pain, dry under cheek and MASSIVE PIMPLE!!! AAAHHHHHHHHH!!! the gum pain thing was the thing that fooled me the most... i thought i was turning wise... cause the pain was all the way at the back of my teeth on the upper jaw... i thought my wisdom tooth is coming out cause there is a sharp point sticking out at the both ends of my teeth... damn... super scary man... the rest are just signs of heaty-ness and not enough rest... well, too bad for me...

Haiz..

Haiz... my days can never be normal... my happy long hour sleep did not work out today... i woke up at 8.41am... damn sian... i used to wake up at 11+ on sundays... it's the only time i get to sleep real late... but not for today... spent many hours playing PSP in the morning... haiz... i have no life...


The day passed fine... went to grandmama's place... met QiQi... she is still calling me "Papa"... haiz... i'm still waiting for the day she call me "Susu"... haha... anyway, i did not buy my Vroom Vroom today... i think i'll get it tomorrow instead... haiz...


Nothing much today... except that tomorrow is going to be a challenging week for me... so much to do, so little time... i'll be working on tuesday and saturday night at Botak Jones... i maybe teaching a new student together with Joan... i'm going to need a very alert and quick mind... haiz... well, i want my rest... goodnight...

Haiz... i knew my weekends can never be passed like any normal weekends... haiz... there is 101 things to do despite the weekends... haiz...


Headed for gym in the early afternoon... i rushed and all so i could meet up with Jasmin and HuiYan as early as possible... 'chiong' chest... i've formulated a new training method... now i feel the stretch... haha... but there was a lack of time... haiz... when i entered the gym, i had a washing board chest... after gym, i realised i forgot to bring my bra... haha... my chest really showed massive difference in size... haha... did a little back... it had all gone flabby... when people hit, it hurts... so now i'm trying to make it go back to it's usual state... at least firm... no need to be too hard... haha... i did not touch on biceps due to time constrain... haiz... my abs are turning flabby too... haiz...


Met up with HuiYan and Jasmin for a little walk and talk session... people came and go and eventually, we were left with Jasmin, Jerry and i... headed down to Novena for a little adventure tour... met Kim soon after and had a pathetic Korean dinner... haiz... i'm not going to complain about it so that i can complain lesser than somebody... cause that somebody complained specially lot today, i think i've even lost my title as the "Complain King"... haha...


Well, long story short, i want to rest now... the end has no end... i don't want to complain anymore... goodnight...

Damn... today is the worst day.. EVER!!! early in the morning, a hell lot of shit rained on me... i'm must be really unlucky or something... first thing, i woke up in the morning at the same time is my sister... we entered the bathroom at the same time... we exited the bathroom at the same time... but the only difference is the process... in that 20 minutes, i've washed up and showered... as for her, she had just finished her wash up... and because of her, we left the house about 3 minutes late... damn... next, the damn rain... i bet the Buddha is trying to punish me for the ribeye that i ate yesterday... dammit... punish me also don't have to get my friends involved... damn... lastly, which really made my day, terrible, was my damn ear piece... i lost the little silcon bit for the right ear piece when i alighted the car... shit... i can't live a day without music... it's like a drug to me... without music in a day, i'll go wild and crazy and bite people... damn... i was suffering the whole day... with one-sided music... if i lose it at the end of the day, i would be less unhappy... but i lost it in the morning... the No.49 i did in the morning... i still have tuition in the evening and have to travel a hell lot... dammit... i ought to get slapped... so here are the 3 main causes of my unhappy morning... the rest are little little problems that made me all stressed and annoyed in the morning... dammit...


Today problem was interesting... my group did a drawing... and it took us 1 hour and 45 minutes... it's mad... we had little rest along the way... well, that applies most to YingTing... haha... i'll let you take a look at the picture first...

Now here's your task... guess what i drew? haha... if you think i drew the sun on the top left, then you are hell wrong!!! now as for punishment, all of you can slap yourselves... 5 times... on each cheek... haha... done? ok i'll be honest now... i drew the.. factory at the back... a few of them... and the black stuff at the bottom right of the picture... and the little sprout all the way at the corner on the right... and the cloud... haha... not bad right? YingTing drew almost everything else... damn power lah... confirm A1... she did all the shading too... i tried to draw the man's face... but after drawing one side, everyone agreed it looked like a monkey... so we scaped my drawing and asked A1 artist, Grace, aka Yuki, to draw the man's face... damn power also... haha... i added a little hairy touch to my half man/monkey face during meet 3... so now it looks like BigFoot's brother, BigHand... i'll upload that artistic picture another time... haha...


Tuition was great... Joan was super focus today and i'm very happy... if she were to give this 120% every lesson, i'd be the happiest person... and if she is motivated enough to spend 30 minutes with 120%, she is a confirmed A student... haha... well, hope my little gestures of reward would motivate her even more... haha... Tricia had a tough time... so tough that the tuition last 3 hours... i shall not elaborate... haha...


Well, the weekend is now... and it's still not a rest day for me... haiz... so peepoo, hope you enjoy your long waited weekends and goodnight...

I WANT TO FLAMETHROWER!!! I'M SO ANGRY I CAN EAT FROGS!!! dammit... let me share with you my little story from the top... well, there is this person in my class... lets say she is a "Pao Ka Liao"... let's give her a name to make typing easier... it shall be PKL... anyway, this PKL person is really Pao Ka Liao... s/he voluntee for everything, do everything, act innocent, selfish and always present first... i get really annoyed by he/r at times... and today, s/he just hit the Angry Sam switch... s/he stole my freaking idea... and i'm really unhappy about it... one, it's my idea... two, s/he stole my idea... three, s/he presented first and my idea becomes a second hand idea to the faci... damn... i've damn damn angry... now taking my ideas are taking my grades away... in the future, taking my ideas is taking my money and fame... shit man... and when s/he presented the idea, s/he was standing right in front of me... wah... i want to shout and give that person a good punch.. but, no fighting man... haiz... that's my little story...


It's late now... i need my rest... i hope to be a happier man tomorrow... goodnight...

Damn... what a start for the day... reach YCK MRT at 7.30am and waited for Raph for almost an hour... i'm sorry to be complaining about this, but i cannot control my inner self... wah.. i wait nevermind you know... but we got stuck in 2 jams on the way to school and i only reach class at 9am... i was 30 minutes late for class... i'm lucky the faci was only halfway through his introduction... haha... enough of this...


Today's problem was mad... it felt like VB... i had to duplicate a image... and there are paint, photoshop and all... but we used photoshop... and i don't know how to use it... i did not even see it before... haha... how to do? i asked Jasmin for help but as you know, it did not work... in fact, i got no help... but it's ok... i have 2 people in my group that knows how to use it... i did the powerpoint for the whole day... it's boring... i need to learn photoshop... but not from Jasmin... someone else please teach me before next tuesday... haha...


WHHOOO!!! finally!! people of the same interest... my class have many music freaks... but majority of them are J-Rock people... sian... i'm Mr Rock n' Roll man... at least there is not slow rock guy in class... now we are talking man... and he is a bassist too... now we have more to talk!! haha... damn power lah... he is damn experienced... we can share tips and talk about bass all the time... haha...


I'M SO HAPPY I CAN DO MY HAPPY WARCRY NOW!!! i can finally cut songs from youtube videos!!! credits to Jasmin too... well, she might not be good at photoshop, but she is good at downloading videos from youtube... haha... damn... after she download the video, we solved a little problem of mine together then off to work... Jasmin go play with her Hamtaro while i kept on reading and downloading all sorts of programs to extract the song out of the video... haha...and finally, i did it!! i even had to cut the song a little... haha... but it's all worth the happiness... damn... without Jasmin, i would not even be able to get the video from youtube... damn... thanks a million... you are the sweetest little thing... even the bees and butterflies wants you... now Jasmin is my self-proclaimed best friend!! we have a partnership now... next time you want some audio, come find us... at a small price... haha...


Well, every happiness have to end somewhere... i need to sleep soon... i'm really tired now and i need to help my mum at NTUC next morning... haha... then suffer the wrath of holy orange juice... haiz... well, tomorrow's problems, tomorrow worry... goodnight...

Damn... i'm so tired... after dinner with W15H, i was so close to falling asleep... damn... going home was a massive challange... i fell asleep and was really afraid i miss my stop... damn... i could not get a fruitful sleep in the comfy bus... haha...


The first day of school was fun... the people were great... i clicked pretty well with my group... everyone could talk... we even gossiped about one of the over-dressed guy in my class... haha... damn funny... we worked out pretty well too... haha... the presentation went out well... except that i tell everyone to go my feeling... and i ended up presenting the content page only... haha... luck i add on ideas when the rest are presenting... haha... too bad for me man... Creative Concept I was really fun... can anyhow think of stuff... but the difficult part putting the ideas in the appropriate situation... haha... damn... i think so hard until i'm tired... haha... well, i guess i just lack of sleep...


Damn i'm tired now... guess i want to get some good rest soon... i want to go molest my bass for awhile too... haha... goodnight all...

Work was pretty easy going for me today... did running and the crowd was average... not much of a challenge for me... haha... but there was a stupid customer... he confused himself, confused me, and confused everyone... stupid bastard... ought to die... haha...


Ended work at 6pm... had all my plans carried out... gym till 8pm, go down to AMK HUB to buys stuff then home... but everything went out too smoothly... i gym till 7.20, bought my stuff at AMK HUB by 8pm... i had too much time... so i decided to head down to AMK outlet to give Yvonne a surprise... after all, i owe her a visit... and after walking a hell lot, i found Yvonne nowhere near... i headed down to the nearby 7-11 to buy Men's Health... it's pretty useful... haha... anyway, after buying the magazine, i headed back to see if Yvonne had re-appeared... but i was wrong... i asked Emerric and he told me that she is not working at the moment... haiz... a wasted trip... but it's ok... i've settled my score with her already... she did not say anything about her needing to be there during the visit... haha... too bad man... haha...


Can't believe that school is just tomorrow... sian... i hate RP... i hate having a sibling in the same school... it's because of this 2, there is more conflict... our timing clash and all... sian... she don't want to give in... i can't give in this time... if not i'll be late for school everyday... haiz...


Guess i'm going to have an early night... i'm already tired now... haha... well, too bad for me... i'm gonna have to prepare for my Operation "HS"... goodnight all...

Haiz... today's work was mad... i was order taker for dinner... the crowd came and stayed... it's normal for long queues on weekends, but the queues usually die my 9pm... today was a little special... the queue was still long even at 9.45pm... i talked non-stop since 6.30 till 10.02pm... dammit... if i were to do that in primary school, i would have gotten slapped by my teachers man... and i'm doing that today... it's mad i tell you... once i'm done with the last customer, i immediately turn off the light... haha... so nobody will come and order... haha.. it's mad i tell you... and Raymond told me that i sold a lot of gumbo today... a few tubs to be exact... haha... i want to mantain 15 dockets on the "Recall Sales" so i had to find a hell lot of things and bullshit my way about... haha... well, so much for a tiring day... haha...


Man, i can't believe that tomorrow is going to be the first day of school... i can't believe that today is the last day of school... i can't believe that yesterday was the second last day of school... it's crazy man... 10 weeks gone just like that? haha... i think my life had just been shorten... haiz...


Alright people... i need to rest for my last day at work for the holidays, the last day a gym for the holidays and the last day of the last day of my holidays... damn... goodnight...

I saw my new classmates pictures... and i'm not excited to start school anymore... haha... just kidding... man.. i hope the girls would look better than those i see on the website... haha... after all, people change... and it's one year already... haha... power lah... 2 more days... and i need to change back to my early sleeping hours... it's not going to be easy, but it'll happen... haha...


Work was mad this afternoon... only 3 floor staff(excluding Ben)... it's mad i tell you... and the crowed was crazy... and the 4 of us, together with 2 chef, hit 1.2k for sales... haha... and i made a little mistake when doing order taking... some bloody bastard came and tell me that he wanted to cancel his 300 ribeye... stupid bastard... i was in shock for a moment thinking of a way to reply but i could not... everyone was not around... Ben is somewhere else and i had no one to approach for help... damn... and the guy just walk off... later i told Ben about the cancel and well, he had all rights to be angry... everyone is working hard man... i want to make things smooth for everyone... but in the end i made more mistakes... crap... in the mids of the stress, i keyed a wrong order... lucky it was just a fish and chip... i could get rid of it easily... damn... what a day man...


After work, i rushed to gym... i must gym... school is starting... dammit... 'chiong' that one hour man... so little rest in between... so tiring... but only slightly fruitful... sian... at least my main part that i'm training is aching... haha... you can count me as half a happy Sam... haha... Sunday night, chest day again... i need sexy breastchest man... after not touching it for 2 weeks, they need to grow again... haha...


Damn... my personal stress is coming back again... counting my hours of sleep... damn... i know it's pathetic... but that's all i can do... i really need my rest... well, i still have much to do tonight and i'll try to keep within my own timing... as for now, goodnight...

Just another working day... with a new bunch of trainees... haha... some really nice, some really quiet... haha... well, time will do the job i guess... and i lost $1 in a gamble with my friends today... Mark, Spenser, Ras and i were betting on the names of the trainees... first was the guy... 1 out of 2 turned up, Jeffrey and Slyvester... i bet Slyvester together with Ras because from the guy's face features, the name Slyvester is just the perfect name for him... but i was wrong... Spenser lost of the worst reason... he bet on a trainee that was not coming today... haha... i tried to make Ras pay my share by claiming that i followed his judgement which happened to be wrong.. but it did not work... Mark won himself $3 just like that.. next was the girls name... Aisha and a complex name... i bet Aisha on one girl and everyone else bet otherwise... and damn, i was.. WRONG!!! i had to give everyone $1 each but i did not... i refused and ran away... haha... so i saved $3 just like that... haha...

Small crowd today due to the rain... i did washing... i washed like SpeedRacer... managed to finish everything by 11.30... and i realised that i was the only part-timer left... all the rest had left... damn... i 'chiong' all the way man... haha... and finally got home... i'm supposed to have a day off tomorrow... but now i need to work due to the lack of hands... but i'll leave once the crowed dies... i need to gym man... i've planned my gym days for the week already... so tomorrow is a must... but i'll be squeezing a hundred into one... cause after work, which is after 2, i go gym and i'll be having tuition at 5... sian... but rush like siao again... all those are not inclusive of travelling and waiting time and grace periods... damn... i really need to gym... school is starting and i can't do without gym... i need to set a good impression... "Don't mess with me"... haha.... just kidding... i'm quite gentle actually... only on the inside... haha...


I've finally got FF7 from Spenser... haha... but only disc 1 and 2... disc 3 is corrupted so he is re-downloading it for me... damn... he is so nice... haha... well peepoo, goodnight... i need to prepare for tomorrow and test my FF7... haha...

Firstly, i would like to apologise about yesterday's post... my mum read it and force me to apologise to her... NOT!!! haha... i just feel that i went overboard... i was blinded by rage... i do feel guilty... so i'm really sorry about yesterday... at least the idea is there...


Today i have all the time in the world to blog... but sadly, i doubt it's going to be a long one... haha... i'm still 1 hour from my bed time... tomorrow starting work at 12 so i can sleep at 2 tonight... haha...

Well, i have to start somewhere... so...... I'm feeling more and more energetic every morning... it's a sign of recovery... haha... i'm so happy... now i'm left with a dumb cough and a nose which resembles Xiao Ding Dang's pocket in certain ways... haha... now i'm more motivated to work... haha... except that being the order taker for a period of time had killed my walking stamina... now i get tired after doing a little running or setting... haha... i'm weak again... don't bring me out for shopping, girls... i'm going to complain again... haha...


Work was great... well, at least i've learnt something new.. i shouldn't be saying this, but i've learnt to cut corners!!! i'm so tired, i want things done quickly... so, that's the only solution... haha... those who have seen this, don't try to pull a bad April Fool's joke one year in advance... if you do expose me, i'll break your legs, rip your mouth off your face and run about the streets naked... so you better not try to do anything funny... haha... anyway, Yvonne and YanQin visited me... haha... how nice of them... they are so swweeeeet!!! haha... headed home with Yvonne after the long but fun closing... haha... and thanks to Spenser, i'm finally getting FF7 on the PSP... haha... i can't wait!! haha...


I hate April Fool's Day... i want to remove it from the calender... i got seriously fooled 6 times... first was because i did not know that yesterday was April Fool's Day... then Tricia and Jasmin... then Tricia's bright ideas till dinner where i got fooled by Tricia with an impromptu gang with Kim about my meat on my plate was frog leg and not chicken... dammit... i went along with Tricia wanted to eat because i did not know what to eat... and the menu was in chinese... and the item was pretty much foreign to me... damn... i can't believe i was fooled so many times... haha... how dumb can i get? dammit...


Man... i'm in E2... but lucky for me, there a quite a number of people on the east side of RP... haha... so cool... now i have the majority with me... haha... so i still can't do anything... cause W15H is a group that is run by girls... if one day this girls put their differences aside and come together, they can go for election and over-power the PAP... then Singapore will have lower or no tax, GST, ERP, vegetarian snakes, laughing gas and all... haha... anyway i have a faci with a crazy name, Papayoanou... aren't that cool? where can you find a name that sounds like a fruit? i'll be the trend setter in the future.. ok not me, but my kids... i'll name one banana teo, the other strawberry teo and apple teo for the next 8 kids... i can't be bothered to think... and i'll have all rights to scold my kids when i want to vent my anger cause when i call one, eight reply... so i have all right to scold them for trying to be annoying... haha... sounds fun...


Check out this link... it's not virus... it's just some stuff i did in my primary school days... some neopet stuff... and come to think of it, i can't believe i was already a funny guy when i was young... reading my pet's description still entertains myself even till now... haha... damn funny... check out my petpet's name too... damn fun... too bad i forgot the birthday i've put for the account... i know the password but the additional security caught me by surprise... i only remember laughing at how old i'd be with the year i've put... but i don't remember the numbers... haha... anyway, too bad i was a stupid kid in the past... i had no dreams or goals and did not put my "funny" talent to use... haiz... there goes 6 years of my life man... haha...


Ok peepoos... my time is running up... my eyes are getting heavy and i'm 5 minutes away from bed time... so goodnight... i'm gonna get high on drugs... haha...

I know... one day without a entry is so unlike me... well, i agree... i was like a fish out of water... it sucks man... but i had no choice... i needed my rest yesterday... so i had to skip one entry... haiz... it's not easy for me you know... well, today is a little special... i have to do an entry before my blood boils and my head explodes... well, angry Sam will be last... so no worries...


2 days ago... i was assigned a new task... which is Floor... not a floor manager who cleans the floor but someone who goes about and interact with the customers... damn... i was really unlucky... the second customer that i approached talk a hell lot and i did not know how to reply... lucky Elias came to my rescue... haha...


Yesterday, a.k.a. April Fool's Day... i was fooled 6 times... and i really believed it... dammit... first one was because i did not know today was April Fool's Day... but i was fooled for the other 5 times... how stupid can i get? tuition was ok... i got a little agitated with Joan that i raised my voice a little without knowing... very sorry... i did not mean it... my blood was just a couple of degrees above the usual temperature...


Now here goes... please pardon my vulgarities...

When i just got home, which was pretty late, like 12am sharp, i got fucked by my mum... i waited for Tricia cause she had to teach another student... and now my mum is asking me not to wait next time... what the fuck is this? now it's a friend issue... fuck... you tell me anything i'll listen... but when it comes to friends, i know what to do... i can't just dump my friend behind like that... it's against my own principles... if i ask you to kill your husband will you do it? that how i feel... my friends are more important that you.. in case you don't realise... i've been listening to you for the past 18 years of my life... now you want to decided my friends for me? fuck off man... i'll do anything you tell me, but when it come to my friends, i'll do the thinking... i rather be out there having fun with my friends than be locked up in this bird cage... i'm already facing so much myself and now you're adding more on me? it's not going to work this way... the next time i'm not just going to close the door gently in your face... i'll slam the door and break that finger of yours in the future... and if you push it, i won't hesitate to fight for myself... don't force me to do things that i don't want... if i were to leave my friend behind, i'll be facing more stress in the future... how am i going to answer to her? it's not fair to her, to me... i think your control is getting out of hand... i need my space to breathe... and if you hold too tight, i'll bite you... so back off for now... i've faced enough of you... if you want to push on, i rather not have a mother... and if everyone want to say me, i'll rather be an orphan... i need no such love... i've lived long enough to think... i'm only respecting you because you are my parents, you are my senior, you've lived life longer than me... i've always the one talking nicely to you, unlike the others... and that's what happens when i'm too nice... i get pushed around... i let you have your control when you want them... now you want to control more than you can... it's not going to happen...