I like studying... maybe just the end product... i feel hardworking...

Haiz... now i am feeling the stress... so much to do yet so little time... got to prepare for A. Maths, E.Maths, do Mr Ng's homework, do physics homework, practise on my clarinet, practise on the guitar... so little time yet so much to do... and now i am facing some friendship problems, table problems, studies problems and many more... haiz... how i just wish all this could fade away for a minute or two... life is hard, but i am not giving in...

Somebody pissed me off... and i don't like it...
Somebody pissed me off... and i don't like it...
Somebody pissed me off... and i don't like it...
Somebody pissed me off... and i don't like it...
Somebody pissed me off... and i don't like it...
Somebody pissed me off... and i don't like it...
Somebody pissed me off... and i don't like it...

It is not whatever shit he said but his actions just irritates me beyond what i expected... that guy is a common enemy to most... he is just a poser who thinks he is funny while being an idiot... at first i just hated him... i even tried my best to avoid him in case i lose control of myself... but whenever i had the chance to talk to him, every sentence i speak of is an insults to him indirectly... this is how i express my hatred towards him... but today, he made me think otherwise... now words won't do, violence is clouding my mind... and i am planning everything now...

Firstly Grad Nite is coming soon... that is when everything will take place... since that is the last day i'll be seeing him, i plan to do a hit and run... i contain my anger now and built up on my strength... everything must be done in 1 blow... quick and easy... after the Grad Nite, i will sent a fist into his face and break his nose... and then RUN AWAY!!! hopefully this hit and run plan would relieve my anger... sounds fun? don't worry, it is justa plan which i really wish i can carry out... but too bad, that assholic idiot had provoked a nice person like me... so no violence... but i really wish i can do it... just a little blood shed... but i really can't... haiz...

There are rats in my home... currently we are rat busting... so far one caught... 2 escape...


Rat Trap with Rat


Cute Pest

Familiar

My x Blue Form, where x<5


Unfamiliar

NS Letter from Ministry of Defence

Hee... i am a SWO member now... and there is no more RC for me now... now it is DG! haha... i kind of lile the feeling... but its a pity that now i have to work harder to cope with the pieces... i got my first taste of being in SWO today... after not touching my clarinet for weeks, i had to run on high notes... kind of a shock for me... but it feels good... the worst part is that i had been asked to play the 1st clarinet parts for today... not a very fun experience to have when you had not touched a clarinet for weeks... ecspecially when you are surrounded by pros and could bearly hear yourself in the mass of music...

I just flood my house sink... kind of a stupid thing... i was playing with the sink... the thing to stop water drainage... i pressed the stopper down and flooded the sink... then guess what... it could come back up... now i don't know what to do... maybe i should be a plumber in the future... so that i can clean up my own mess...

'O' Levels Oral had finally come... since the MTL Oral, i have been looking forward to his day... now that it had came, i showed no mercy... i shoot all my vocab and the teachers looked surprised... haha... sorry Jia Lan although it is your birthday today, i cannot give chance... i must get an A in EL and laugh at my stupid bro mearly got a B... stupid and useless... it was about the past and future... sorry huh... i talked until very high... so i just shoot everything... my brain was working very fine today... i feel real good... hoping to see a Distinction...

Just now, i was babysitting my cousins... i was trying to keep them busy as my siblings were busy studying and doing some band stuff... i was playing the piano and singing 'ABC' and 'Twinkle Twinkle Little Star' to them... and i realised... I CAN"T REMEMBER HOW TO SING THEM!!! very sorry to those that had spent time teaching me that song when i was younger... it is just so hard to sing them... 1 me, 2 toodlers, 1 extra long physics lesson after school, 'O' Level EL Oral tomorrow and A. Maths homework... i am going to die soon... haiz... lucky now i am taking time off... my siblings are free now... later go and 'chiong' studies already... i don't care if my siblings need help... my turn to study...

Anyway, good luck to those who are having 'O' Level EL Oral tomorrow... and happy birthday Jia Lan... don't expect a present from me... my brother had got nothing from me this year and i had no plans for a present for my sister... so too bad... maybe next year...

I had the best hair cutting experience today!!! the hairdresser was damn pretty... and she damn a very femaline smell... beautiful...

Actually i wanted to keep my hair till i get caught and be forced to get a $4 hair cut in school... can save money... but cheap price means cheap cut... so i drew up a plan... i ask the barber to shave off my hair... then i'll look like a monk... cheap cut, nice shave... but when i looked into the future, i see the Grad Nite... i'll be a monk for now, but a hairy monk on the Grad Nite... so i decided to get my hair cut before the teacher comes hair hunting...

Anyway, pretty dresser, pretty smell, pretty cut... now i look like this...

Haiz... life is full fo ups and downs... that is a lie... how often does my life go up? it is hard to find an answer for that... what makes my day so special that it becomes shitty? oh... many reasons to that...

Recipe to a Perfect Shitty Day:
-For no reason, there are domn lot of dog shit all over on the way home...
-Too many extra lessons out of nowhere on a beautiful Friday...
-Collection of 'O' Level MTL results...

Point 1
Some dog seemed to have a bad stomach today and had left its shit all over the grass when i am walking home... i don't want to elaborate on it or you readers are going to puke...

Point 2
Today was a very special Friday... unlike others, the weather was perfect for a good sleep... after a heavy rain, the sky maintained its shady colour tone and the atmosphere was cool... as what Yong Jie described, 'It is just like the sky wanting to let the rain down yet it is holding back the rain.' i can grantee you... you would be falling asleep in between lessons... the last time i slept in such an environment was when i was in primary school... how pathetic... this 'best weather to sleep' never falls on a weekend where i had the time to sleep...

Point 3
This is a very confusing problem which i bet many out there is facing now... i received my 'O' Level MTL results today... as you know my chinese standards, my results is not very pleasing... before getting the results, people kept asking me, 'What are you expecting to get?' i told them, 'Between C5 to D7...' in the end, i really got whatever that was between C5 and D7, C6!!! i really can't believe it... at least i passed the paper... although this is a major exam, i know my limits... and i don't have the time to push it up... haiz... i am really unsure wheather i shoulld be happy that i passed or should i be sad that i meerly passed the exam... despite the confusion in emotions, i am more towards the happy side... look on the bright side, at least i can enter JC with this... and according to Shi En, Band 405 MTL band people all managed to pass the exam... with is C6 each... hiaz... the paper is done and the results are out already... no point worrying about the past... now its time to decide wheather i want to sacrifice one subject for all the others or sacrifiice all the subjects for one... hard decision, but i got to decide fast... the school is forcing those people who got B3 and below to retake the paper... well, if the school is going to give us one choice only, i think i'll just have to make another option for myself only... but i had not make up my mind... haiz... the future is hard to decide...

Results are out tomorrow... don't need to wish me luck... luck is not going to push my grades up...

National Day is a very special day where i sit behind the television and laugh at the clowns forming shapes and patterns... damn stupid... i tried to be part of Singapore today... i wore a red underwear... no pictures... but i really wore a red underwear...

Anyway, today the Wei Hong, Yong Jie and i went to meet the drummer that Yong Jie was interested in... 17 years old... we were supposed to meet at 1.30pm at AMK Mac... but i was kind of stupid... i got the time wrong and went there at 11.30am... at 12nn, i realised that something was wrong... i read through the message Yong Jie had sent and realised the meeting time was 1.30pm... knowing that i was damn early, i went for a long walk around AMK Central... i went to bookshops and browse the books, i went to the arcade to watch people play... i know that sounds very pathetic but i just did not want to spend my money over meaningless actions... i walked from end to ends in AMK Central... i ate luch alone at KFC and walked to Jubilee to use the toilet... i did all this to waste my time... when it was finally 1.30, i went to meet up with the rest...

Anyway, the drummer was a really nice guy... at least two heads taller than me and twice my size... despite having such a huge built, he was a very nice guy on the inside... he studied in a private school... studying mass com... and he is a swimming coach on the weekends... quite freindly i guess... from this, i learnt to not judge a book by its cover...

When i got got back home, me and my siblings studied in the living room together... not that we were helping each other but we were all just studying at different corners of the room... after studying till the last chapter, i grew bored... i got the soccer ball and kicked it around the room... then i asked my bro...

'You want to kick ball later?'

After a short pause, i continued...

'Lets go kick your ball...'

I am going to die soon... i had been having less than 4 hours of sleep a day and i had fell sick because of that action... i just can't find the time to sleep or people just don't let me have the chance to do so... a good example is last night... when i finally got a cahnce to sleep at 11pm, my friends started messanging me at 111.45pm... whan i had settled the message, my brother, who enjoys reading between 12 to 2am, came to read in the room... with the lights on, who am i to sleep? i really hope this ends quickly... i have a 'O' Level to prepare for...

It is my useless brother's birthday again... and guess what i get for him... NOTHING!!! all i did was to wish him a happy birthday in the morning... lucky i did not get him anything this time round... his girlfriend got scolded for buying him a $150 Fossil watch the day before... i pity his girlfriend... she was trying to be nice but in the end she got scolded for spending a large sum of money on him... how i wish i had someone like her... haiz... he just don't know how lucky he is... to have a girl waiting on him...

But whatever it is, my impression on girls are going back to the old one... some of you girls will know that i used to be sexist... well, i tried changing... but then again, my bitchy sis had ruined everything... i tried to be nice in the past by lending her my chemistry notes... now i need it back, she did nothing in helping me find it... instead, the phone becomes more important than my future... what a bitch...i talked nicely to her but what did i get back? DISREPECT... that bitch... i really hate her attitude... i'll be washing my hands off her from now... she want to be fucked by whoever she is with now, i don't care anymore...

Morning, i went to NTUC with my mum... help her carry the stuff and help her spent her money... why i went? because my useless brother was still sleeping... when i got back home, i killed a bee in the kitchen... it had a sting sticking out of its ass... so i took my chemistry file and smacked it...



While studying the smashed bee, i almost stinged myself when the file flipped into my arm... lucky it missed...

Later that day, i went jamming at Yong Jie's house with himself and Wei Hong... i was a beginner but under their pressure to make the piece sound as good as possible, i made great improvements...haiz so happy... after jamming till 5pm, we went to parklane to repair yj's damage guitar... well, we realised that Yamaha's things were so much more expensive compared to those of the little guitar shop at parkline...

In the late evening i rushed home to eat pizza...



Damn... i almost died eating it... try eating 5 slices in 20mins... then drink 3 full glasses of water... i felt like vomitting after the meal... but i felt good this time... better than having a stomach of alcohol...

I just realised that i am quite an evil brother... my siblings are really unlucky to have me as a brother... i just keep on insulting them... especially my brother... he seems damn sad... he just went for a check-up for his NS stuff... he was labelled Pes B... the people are labelled from Pes A to Pes F... Pes A being the best and Pes F doesn't need to attend army... Pes B is the rating for every standard army men... my brother actually wanted to go to Pes D or E as he wants to be a useless clerk... but too bad... at first i keep on insulting him saying that he is a useless Singaporean that doesn't want to defend the country... after the check-up today, he told me that he was suppose to be in Pes A but he had a history of injuried wrist therefore he was DEMOTED to Pes B... what a useless guy... then i was saying that he was a weak... i told him that it is because of weak people like him, there is strong people like me going into Pes A... i insulted him the whole time he was at home... what a sad boy... my sister is worst... a great challenge to insult... she is damn stubbon and always out talk me... this is where i get my talking practises from... haha...

Not long ago, sometime today, i just realised that i do not have much time left to the 'O' Levels... today i just received two tight slaps on my face... not that i laterally got slapped... but i verbal wise... by two teachers... firstly, it was Mdm Tay... she said that it was time to go onto our maximum gear... gear 3 is too slow... must go gear 5... because of this, a great impression was created on me... i understand everything she said... next was Mr Chiang... he shared his past with the class and i learnt that 'O' Levels is something that i will never have a second try... or maybe i just cannot risk a second try... i think i have woke up now... and the biggest change i see in myself is that after A. Maths extra lessons, my teacher asked me to stay back because he wanted to teach me some stuff which i fail to accomplish in my homework... instead of running away like i did all the time, i stayed in school till 4.30pm when he had the time to go through my mistakes with me... haha... i feel good... i am really changing... my life is changing... for the better i hope...

As what Mr Poo once said, 'The only thing that is constant is change.'

You might think i am crazy after reading the next few lines... but this is only my option... actually i think having detention is quite a good thing... as what Yong Jie and i had discussed... if you plan to come to school late, come to school as late as possible... but remember that the time before leaving your house should be spent mostly on sleeping... have a good rest before leaving your house... anyway, when you arrive in school late, you know what you'll get... DETENTION... by getting this punishment, you should be happy... after school, serve your punishment... in th at period of time, you will be so bored that you'll start doing your homework or study... that was what i did to day... in this harmless process, you will get double the advantage... you get your sleep and get to finish your work before leaving for home... it will be recommended to get a group of friends and be late together... at least you will not be so lonely during the punishment... i can't grantee a detention for being late... so do it at your own risk and don't point your finger at me...

Now my story... i forgot to bring my Social Studies 4 Year Series to Mr Poo's class... therefore i had detention as my punishment... along with my friend White Kid Wai Keat... i was quite happy to be outside the general office after school... i don't know why... but i enjoyed myself... i sat there spending my whole time doing chemistry holiday homework... and as you know, chemistry is not my forte... so i spent the whole time asking Wai Keat how to do the work... in the end, Mr Poo gave us a discount of 20 mintues... he was nice... but if he was better, i would not be there... here are some of my enjoyable times i had posing for pitures...