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I talked less now. With family and friends.

When there's no topic between us, I found it's unnecessary to talk.

With parents, I just hate it when they think they could read me, they understand me while they made a completely wrong guess.

With friends, I can't talk neither. Just, I still haven't open my heart to make friend.

So, I rather be silent and again back to my own world.

So that I can have some peace in my mind, so that I wouldn't be swayed away easily from the track of the Truth.

After what happened, after every miracles in my life, which is less attracting compared to fairy tale, but I could deeply feel that it's a journey.

Especially when I met Christ, many things changed and all from bad to good.

It isn't what you pay hard work for or your convince of yourself about it, I believe many heard the gospel and God just picked everyone and it's up to you now whether you accept to be chosen.

And somehow your conscience and humility made you stood out for it.

I know it's rather weird but I need time. The relationship between God and me is something beautiful. Imagine, you can just talk to God and soon, you see the response, right in front of you. This is something couldn't be seen by others who didn't believe that it could feel the emptiness right in their chest.

A Pastor said praying isn't like taking up the phone, phone to the one you want to talk to, just talk what you need and put down the phone. You need the one from the other side to respond. Many had said 'Amen' even before they asked God if this is what He wants.

Imagine a kid that had suicidal thinking since she was only 12. As a child, things already become so difficult to her and world had showed her unfairness too earlier. Nothing is ever right to her, at home or school. And secondary school was a tough life until she see Christ.

And the villains, the bullies were no one better than her now.

I knew many people feel the injustice of the world. Trust me, if I wish to write the injustice in my life, it would be pages long.

And it's a great, new whole life when Jesus came to me and told me it's time.

Our God is justice and He can turn something to good or everything to good just beyond the extent you could imagine.

This is the world He created, what more you can doubt?

It doesn't matter to me how you think, well, I just want to talk about myself.

I just wish to tell my life has a sharp turning point and this is what I press on every time I write.

It seems I talked less now.