For your information, my English is not very good, not to mention the speaking. I might have thousands of words, ideas to deliver, but the pronunciation just make me to rather swallow everything back. The more I talk, the more reveal of my weakness to pronounce 'R' ESPECIALLY AND MANY MORE LETTERS. So, one of the issue I concerned is when people asked of my name. I barely can tell it correctly with a bit of fear that people will correct me on speaking my own name.
I learned a word today. "Sanguine", from a friend's status on Facebook. Googled it and I found 'sanguine' means being optimistic and cheerful. Apparently, everyone is talking about the coming up PSPM, almost everywhere, if you can find a KM student. Stress accompanied with fear, sleepless night, 'azam baru'(new vision), coffee, Maggie Mee, appetite losing and a few study group that appeared to be zero efficiency where it should be chatting-and-watching-movie group instead.
But I hardly bother about it. Yes, it's about our future. But to me, the principle is simple. You study and then you get good result. There's no other solution other than paying effort. Or to be more realistic, there's no free lunch on Earth. I guess, we all understand the proverb rightly.
However, I was more distracted to other things. Yesterday, I read the latest Daily Bread online. It's talking about signature scent and I felt quite awful that I failed to give a good impression to people around me. What would people think of God, seeing my behaviour and attitude? Should I consider this is also another form of sin, indirectly? Having a deep thought of the whole 10 months here, I found myself undefined. I was like a roller coaster, with moods up and down, and all my friends ought to take the same ride, enduring my uncertain moods. Of course, after the programme, I shall not find any really best friend here due to their unsatisfactory with my discipline.
And I gave a phone call away to my Mom, asking her if there is any God's words for me. I always consulted her for anything. I found her more spiritual than me and I have nothing more I want other than hugging her when I'm back. Then, she said, "Ermm, do not be afraid as God will always be with you." Well, the Daily Bread today just wrote about Job(one of a real character in Bible that undergone loss of health, family and property at one time). What a coincidence?? Or just another miracle? Yet, I realised that God sending me here to test my character and makes me stronger. At the same time, He provides me with strength and comfort to see me through.
“He knows the way that I take; when He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold” (Job 23:10).
If you asked me, why I always like to talk about God? If I asked myself why does He pick me started from the beginning? The reason would just be the same. Because God loves me. And it gives me comfort each time I mention Him, indeed I walk with Him.
And give me some time, to mingle with you all, as I need to be friend with God first and then only I can share His love.
I learned a word today. "Sanguine", from a friend's status on Facebook. Googled it and I found 'sanguine' means being optimistic and cheerful. Apparently, everyone is talking about the coming up PSPM, almost everywhere, if you can find a KM student. Stress accompanied with fear, sleepless night, 'azam baru'(new vision), coffee, Maggie Mee, appetite losing and a few study group that appeared to be zero efficiency where it should be chatting-and-watching-movie group instead.
But I hardly bother about it. Yes, it's about our future. But to me, the principle is simple. You study and then you get good result. There's no other solution other than paying effort. Or to be more realistic, there's no free lunch on Earth. I guess, we all understand the proverb rightly.
However, I was more distracted to other things. Yesterday, I read the latest Daily Bread online. It's talking about signature scent and I felt quite awful that I failed to give a good impression to people around me. What would people think of God, seeing my behaviour and attitude? Should I consider this is also another form of sin, indirectly? Having a deep thought of the whole 10 months here, I found myself undefined. I was like a roller coaster, with moods up and down, and all my friends ought to take the same ride, enduring my uncertain moods. Of course, after the programme, I shall not find any really best friend here due to their unsatisfactory with my discipline.
And I gave a phone call away to my Mom, asking her if there is any God's words for me. I always consulted her for anything. I found her more spiritual than me and I have nothing more I want other than hugging her when I'm back. Then, she said, "Ermm, do not be afraid as God will always be with you." Well, the Daily Bread today just wrote about Job(one of a real character in Bible that undergone loss of health, family and property at one time). What a coincidence?? Or just another miracle? Yet, I realised that God sending me here to test my character and makes me stronger. At the same time, He provides me with strength and comfort to see me through.
“He knows the way that I take; when He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold” (Job 23:10).
If you asked me, why I always like to talk about God? If I asked myself why does He pick me started from the beginning? The reason would just be the same. Because God loves me. And it gives me comfort each time I mention Him, indeed I walk with Him.
And give me some time, to mingle with you all, as I need to be friend with God first and then only I can share His love.
