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"Babah niii, mesti balik lambat jugak. Aiman dah nak tido baru balik!" Dan pada malam itu aiman merajuk, marah-marah kat saya tanpa saya tahu punca. And mama aiman was not saying anything much too, mungkin kesian kat anak dia dok mengadu. To be frank, I was sad too. Merajuk jugak, sebab aiman tak nak kawan babah without any reason, huhuu...
Esoknya baru mama aiman cerita, aiman mengadu babah dah lama tak main dengan dia. Adeh, kesian pulak anak aku ni. Padahal babah pegi surau belakang rumah je pun, dia rasa babah tinggal dia lama.
Hmm... Even though I tried to spend some times with my kids every day, it seems not enough. Ye lah, pegi balik kerja, tinggal berapa jam je. This is the very reason why in weekends I try my very best to do something or go somewhere together. Tapi bila aiman ajak main game lama-lama penat jugak melayan. So I would prefer to go to the beach ke, let him play sand and I can do some exercise too (lari-lari tepi pantai... exercise la sangat kan...).
Mama aiman ada jugak tambah komen, why I seems like not spending much time with adik, like I used to with aiman when he was a baby (not to mention less time spent with her). Yes, masa aiman baby I used to bath him almost every time, rajin bangun malam-malam and so on. It does not mean that I didn't do it with adik, but most of the time I let mama aiman to do it, and I just like help lite-lite aje.
Masa mula-mula kawin; berdua; so the attention is only for the wife. Then Aiman came joining. Being the first child, lambat pulak tu, of course he gets the full attention from the parents. Lagi pulak masa tu tengah study leave. Then adik arrived, menambah seri cahaya. Of course the more the merrier, but sehari ada 24 jam, more people/more job means less time for each other. Sigh!
Sometimes I wonder how am I doing as a father, a husband, a leader of the family...
... يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا قُوا أَنفُسَكُمْ وَأَهْلِيكُمْ نَارًا وَقُودُهَا النَّاسُ وَالْحِجَارَةُ
Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Peliharalah diri kamu dan keluarga kamu dari neraka yang bahan-bahan bakarannya: manusia dan batu (berhala) ...
(At-Tahrim: 6)
Ya Allah... Permudahkanlah!
