2 storey flat of 2 bedrooms

oh...sgt penat...
thinking of going home and get married ASAP with anyone that i met on my journey home...
huh~this is tough~~~~
what do u think mom,sis???


*then i can start searching for a real 2 storey flat, no, condominium would be better! of 2 bedrooms~~

changes?

people change.
i change.
you change.
maybe now.
or later.
we just don't know when.
we do not ask for it, but the changes come.
it comes without any invitation.
without any warn.
no matter how hard we try
it can never be avoided.
so
if i change
for good.
then don't question me anything
but
if i change
in a bad way
please.please.please
correct me.
show me the right path.
i'm begging you.
because i know
that you know better

marah (part 1)

have u ever feel like this??marah yg mungkin lama dipendam and then puff!! terhambur keluar segala isi2 yg ade...i do..felt like u cant control the anger deep inside..and u went on shouting here and there...while at the same time u were shaking badly coz of the anger..OMG!! i'm so totally gonna regret doing that...but at that time, the anger had overpowered ur mind and u dont give a damn to anything else...

i felt so much connected to volcanoes in Eyjafjallajoekull(cant believe i can actually spell this)....hopefully nobody got stranded this time...

questions to think about...

i really dont get it...
can we judge something that we dont really know about???
can we say that cadbury is better than van houtten without really tasting both of them??
can we change people the way we wanted to??
can everybody think the same way that we did??
can we be nice to everybody without hurting ourselves??
can we follow other people although our hearts are against it??
can we do something we dont really like and succed in doing it??
can we be ignorant about something that has nothing to do with us??
can we.......

anybody has any answers for any of the questions above??

anybody??

one time~

enough with misery posts (yep...the last few were miserable). reading those again makes me puke 3 times, laugh, cry(dlm hati je), banging my head on the walls, laugh again, and hate myself even more...

ok, i'm getting crazy with this...stop!!!

no. i'm a human, not a crazy frog.

anyway, apologies to those involved....u know who u are...thanx to me, ur life now is more complicated..no, i'm not proud of my actions, though i may won some awards for being such a 'troublemaker'.(hey, i made life more dramatic and interesting ok??).without me, no conflicts will arise..huhu

"thank you friends, for not pulling my hair till it's bald...or kick me into leazes lake.."

those involved (again??), please accept my sincere apology...nver meant it to happen this way...promise u i wont disturb u again...in no time, i'll be invisible(borrowing harry potter's invisibility cloak)...

and thank you for everything..yes..i mean for everything...i know i cant repay it..(unless i'm super duper rich and u accept money as payment)

haih~life is hard...wish it was simple..and i can live it in a lavish style...

wanna be like this, minus the bottle..(bottle coke xpe..although i dont drink coke =p)

no matter sweet a fantasy is, the truth is always ugly..erkk...

oh...last two weeks a friend told me that i am a silent left-handed...meaning i was born to be left-handed but somehow my parents successfully force me to be right handed...

this is the way to figure out whether u are a lefty or not..

this is somehow true coz i remember my mm told me that when i was little(less than 3years old), i use my left hands to grab anything..and they manage to teach me to use and write with my right hands..yay!! ..hooray to them..i know there's nothing stopping my parents from growing up their children the way they wanted them to be..especially mum..hohoho...see, now im in overseas, studying medicine. 4 years back i'd never imagine myself as a doctor...(sissy, dont tell mom about this part ok??)

haha...what i'm trying to say is...we human can change our environment..and make the best out of it...

we made our own destiny

so, dont look back. nothing u can do if u looked back (and time machines never exists!!)..lets face ahead, creating the best for the future...yay!!

ps: currently i'm banned from the kitchen...what should i do??

erk???

let me warn u before u read this post..this post consist of nonsense piece of writing that's not worth ur time.. im too bored that i've decided to write this..unless u r bored and have nothing to do like me, please do continue...

i'm so lazy these days i even have planned to skip lectures..well that's before i imagine my mom's face...huhu...even tho i went to all lectures (excpt for one) i felt like my soul was never there..especially today's 3 lectures..idk why..hurmm...is it because "motivation" wasnt there??i wonder how am i gonna survive for a month???sometimes i wonder whether ............................(sorry cant publish this part in public)God please help me....

ps: felt like going to spain...who knows if i can find my "motivation" there??..anyone??LOL~

keciwaaa...

cant help myself from feeling a bit..nope, A LOT dissappointment this week!!!
kecewa!!kecewa!!kecewa!!
durh~
*sigh*
need to improve myself
need to be strong
need to remind myself not to put high hopes on something
need to be organized
need to be nicer
need to stop complaining
and last but not least..
need to find the right path and dont astray

A Post with No Title

As I think of you,

I smile to myself

This can't be true

You treat me well

With your sweet charm

It's how I fell

You caused this

But no complaints

It's you I'd miss

You're one of the kind

The real thing

A wonderful find

Denial

finding myself doing unnecessary stuff (with the internet unsurprisingly) with an unfinished assignment lying around tho~..haih~
is this some sort of denial???i dont know either..been stressing out lately
and i cant figure out why...sigh~

these are the stuff i've been doing as an excuse not to face the assignment..

1. writing this post(obviously)
2. facebooking
3. checking the emails 9-10 times
4. read the forums on LSE
5. washing the dishes
6. house hunting
7. facebooking (again?)
8. stalking my partner's fb..
9. watching video clips
10. have i mentioned replying my emails??
11. watch movies
12. playing with things around me..

and the list goes on....

*loves the title of this post...kinda remind me of someone's name....

hesitation leads to changes??

since the discovery of this blog by *Mr. WC, *Mr. ZJ and *Mr. FW and maybe few others who live nearby last week, i was kind off a bit hesitated to write more in this blog. i mean, they are going to read those craps and knowing that, i can't face them!! it's sort of humiliation!!(thank God Mr. DW didn't discover this blog yet; otherwise i have and need to change school!!). since i can't seem to get away from them, i was thinking about doing some 'penapisan' when i wrote something.

so don't be surprised if this blog is going to have general topic, unlike the previous post..i know it sounds boring but i'm going to crack my head up and magically turn those boring topic into a very interesting and hilarious discussion (coz i can't stand boring stuff either!!).

*bukan name sebenar

hurm...

got an email from the group gp tutor..its a reminder actually..reminding those who will be having the gp visit in the future to arrive 15 minutes early..she said some of the students were late and it isn't really good..
i think she was referring to us. we were 15 minutes late for the gp visit yesterday and we got the email today...i admit it was our fault..we should have go earlier (though i blame the taxi driver for being late as well!!)

this incident had somehow ruined my image as a good student..and the professionalism as a future doctor as well..dah la aritu x gi seminar, which was compulsory..i'm pretty sure that there's some notes in my record in the medical school, regarding the seminar thingie and also being late for gp visit..haih~since darjah 1 smpai la kt IB xpenah ade record..i mean, i do 'fly' during high school and in kms, seludup buku out of library, and lots more (owh..forgive me for these sins)but somehow i manage to get away. record bersih kot spanjang 20taun idup..tanye je la sape2 about me..mesti dorg kate syamin budak baek(hehe..but dont ask my previous roomate and those i'm closed with) but here..things were different..it doesnt go my way..hurm...

i need to work on something to make things right again..but how???what can i do?? i guess nothing...i can't turn back the time to fix all the wrongdoings..but maybe i can reflect back and improve myself..yep..let's see whether i'm gonna be better or not..

Durham......

i went to Durham today..the place where Harry Potter scene was filmed..

and honestly..it didnt go as much as i expected...

and believe me..its not worth the money i've spent..11 pound melayang begitu sahaje...

so..the moral of the story: plan ahead before u go somewhere!!!

duh~

pain in the chest..and i dunt know why~

counting hours

approx 24 hours lg b4 departure..

and I'm bored..
xtau nk watpe..
atas suggestion izzat..saya xmo tdo..
tp..nk watpe ye??

1. tv..bru peas tgok tv td..lgpn xde citer best pn...
2. pack..saye da lame pack..huhu..ni sume gara2 bosan tahap dewa...check in luggage 24kg..hand luggage 11 kg..ape pndapat anda??
3. online..ye saye tga online skang..klu x..xde la post ni..huhu..
4. tdo..pasni tdo lg..xbesh la..
5. bce buku..da xde buku bez da..sume buku utk tdo je..haha
6. contact sdare mare...phone no dorg sume lam phone ibu..ibu da tdo..dorg pn msti da tdo..esok je la..
7. maen kucing..dorg pn msti bz hunting..xpon tdo gak..haha

kesinmpulannya..saya xtau nk wat ape da slaen online dan wat quiz ntah pape kt fesbuk tuh...hu~

story books

these long hols is making me sick...luckily big sis come to the rescue by bringing home about 10 novels, stepmania for me to play with and tons of mags(wohooo!!!). So i end up reading day and night and i am seeing letters everywhere(ok, maybe i'm exaggerating).ok so here is some of the novels i've read so far;

MERCY by Jodi Picoult
- this book is about euthanasia. i thought it was a great story since i read other Jodi's book MY SISTER'S KEEPER and it was fantastic!! Apparantly..i was wrong..it was so damn boring!!!(i dont know haw i managed to get to the last page)

A PLACE CALLED HERE by Cecilia Ahern
- reading this book makes me wonder "Am I reading a children's book?? I thought this is for adults..." seriously i wont recommend this books unless you think like a 10-year-old and you love reading alice in wonderland over and over again.

WHERE RAINBOWS END by Cecilia Ahern
- its a fantastic book!!the format differs from any other books as it was written in a dialog and letters and emails and instant msg kind of way..the story line is good too but maybe a little bit long for the writer to wrap up the story. it's like you already know the ending but huh..its a long way to go..

SIZE DOESN'T MATTER by Meg Cabot
-this is book no.3 of Heather Wells mystery...i like the story line but then again the main character(Heather) was thinking too much!! she had this monolog kind of thing and babbles all the time.

well..there are more books i'd like to comment but this post is getting longer and longer(and i hate long post!!!).so better publish this right now before its getting longer.........

Things i'm gonna miss most leaving KMS

1. Jalan gi bistro..i'm gonna miss this fountain a lot..
xtau knape..tapi suke gler tgk bende ni..lol

2. study..haha..mcmla xstudy da pasni..
what i meant was learning in KMS...
eventhough the place is like...you know what it's like
but then..the teachers..friends..environment..is what i'm gonna miss most!!

3. of course my room!!!mane nak cari blik yg strategik cm E002??
(time ni buku bsepah ckit sbb exam)

this is my fav corner in the room..haha..ske gler..
(name fatin mencapub kt whiteboard)

4. Last but not least..jadi babysitter time cuti...
rindu nk jage bestfriend time cuti..dorg sgt adorable eventhough byk kerenah
ni cj ngan hyppo
(not in the pic: Mr. Luffy)

IB exam

haha..smangat gler wat math

eventhough exam nak abes..aku tls gak post ni sbb cm xde keje (keje byk je tp mls nak wat)..haha..seriously few days before exam tuh mls gler nak study...men game je..the same thing happen during the 3 weeks of examination..haha..bukan aku sorg je..dak2 len pn cm2 gak..1 bende yg aku slalu pikir tme tuh..even time tga jwb exam pn terpikir bnde tue gak..

kan bez kalau xyah amek exam...IBO juz amek result predicted je

1. sume student hepi - ye ar..knfm2 sume dpt tinggi..terlebih cnfm sume dapat above 35...dpt fly..yay!!!
2. cikgu2 pn hepi - sape x hepi result student tinggije..name kolej pn naek..pgarah pn suke...
3. pemeriksa paper exam pn bley rilek2..xyah pening2 bce handwriting ktorg yg buruk gler especially paper biz..
4. xyah bazir duet post exam paper kt jepun,geneva,us,mane ntah lagi...huhuhu


dengan cara ni je sume org hepi..it's a win-win situation..kan bez utk sume org


but it's too late..ktorg da pun abes exam..tp junior2 bley la doa jd cmtu...mane tau jd btol2..ade gempa bumi ke..and paper exam ilang..hahaha..