nothing make sense??

these past few weeks...most things doesnt make sense anymore...well at least thru my eyes...

for instance...heavy snow during november...

it is not even one week, but the snow are already at the level of my calf...how crazy that is???

nonetheless..im enjoying it..wanna play with it till im getting sick of it...or get really sick (flu, fever, whatever)

im not sure whether i'll be able to have another winter in my life after this...i hope there is(lets pray hard for this part!!)



another thing that i think is crazy is the fact that im getting a new grandmother this january...yeah..a new grandmother

my sis told me that my grandfather is getting married....i know it sounds crazy

i almost cant believe it at first...but after a while...when i think about it..it does make sense

my grandfather is cool...he can still drive..strong enough to walk and do the housechores....and he is a great cook too...

since i was born till now, he is the master chef when it comes to any kenduri at the kampung(well not kampung actually...it is a modern house in the city of bp)

yep..he cook the best nasi beriyani every eid every year(the best i've ever taste in my whole life...really!) and now i kinda missed it since i didnt go back last summer...

and yeah...my grandfather does not have any illness at all!!

no diabetes, hypertension, osteoarthritis, not even nyanyuk!! and he smokes cigarette though~

the best part is...my granddad still wears jeans and if im not mistaken, he owns a leather jacket!!

hahaha...how cool is that??? his new wife are lucky to have him i suppose...

and there are few other things that doesnt make any sense at all but im too lazy to write more

though it seems crazy to me...to Allah...it is a simple task...He can do anything He want if thats His will...that is how powerful He is..thank you Allah for all this...alhamdulillah~

Leader

Bila sebut pasal pemimpin, kita slalu akan imagine orang yg dipercayai, dihormati, sesorg yg menjaga kebajikan anak2 buahnya and of course, adil(paling penting)
everybody nk seseorg dgn ciri2 di atas utk jd pemimpin diorg
sbb tu la tanggungjawab seorg pemimpin ni besar
even dlm qur'an pn sebut
antara 7 golongan yg mendpt perlindungan Allah ialah pemimpin yg adil

tapi..macam mane pulak dgn pemimpin yg xadil??
of course la pemimpin ni x dihormati apatah lg disayangi..
kadang2 rase nk cekik2, sepak2 je dgn pemimpin cmni(don't do this at home)
maybe boleh tegur and beri nasihat dlu
and klu xmakan saman jugak, baek gulingkan aje
drpd menyakitkan hati kedua2 belah pihak

yep, org mcm ni mmg wujud
ade dlm keliling komuniti kte
ape2 pn, kte kene deal dgn die
hopefully dgn penuh sabar, yet tegas
so that kta x ditindas
and at the same time,
menyedarkan org2 yg xsedar diri tu...

*i'm writing this post as i'm having trouble sleeping. since my brain is deprieved of oxygen, it became too lazy to think in english, thus creating a malay post

marah (part 2)

kenapa kite marah???
sbb manusia ade perasaan..and marah is one of the perasaan that we have. kita akan marah bile something yg x best or yg kite x suka happen and menyakitkan hati kite..

tu intro...seriously, da mls nk post kt blog ni..why??more readers, especially yg dikenali...so xbest la nk kasi you guys bace bnde mrapu2 or lagha...kene la tulis something yg berilmiah sket...or at least something yg ade moral value ke...and to write something like that, i have to think and think and think...

honestly, what's with the previous post??
hurm...ntahla...fikir2 blik..pelik gak cmne ley nek angin smpi cmtu skali...maybe disbbkan stress...stress blaja, stress environment, dan mcm2 lg stress kt sini....probs die kecik je..klu cite pn..mst kene gelak...cuz mmg x msuk akal n agak klaka klu fikir blik..tp dah namenye time tu tga stress, maka terhamburlah sume2 bnde yg ntah pape tu...since i'm a girl, probability utk ungkit-mengungkit tu amat la tinggi...setinggi mount Eyjafjallajoekull itu...

so...the moral of the story???
ntah la.. i didnt think much while writing this...tgok la..language pn cm rojak...but i think marah is something negative, something that can drains off ur energy.and klu x silap syaitan suke tgok anak adam ni marah2...cm cite habil dan qabil tu...yela..bile da marah, kite hilang pertimbangan diri... tend utk maki hamun, mengumpat, mencarut, pukul2, hempas2 barang and doing things yg mmbawa kpd keburukan n dosa..

x best la kn buat sume bnde ntah pape ni...bile marah da reda..cnfm mnyesal...rase diri sndiri cm bodoh je wat sume bnde tu...ape la...lg xbest bile musuh kite(syaitan la..) happy smacam je tgok kite tga marah...so, pasni,(refer dri sndiri) sila la cntrol urself...

one time~

enough with misery posts (yep...the last few were miserable). reading those again makes me puke 3 times, laugh, cry(dlm hati je), banging my head on the walls, laugh again, and hate myself even more...

ok, i'm getting crazy with this...stop!!!

no. i'm a human, not a crazy frog.

anyway, apologies to those involved....u know who u are...thanx to me, ur life now is more complicated..no, i'm not proud of my actions, though i may won some awards for being such a 'troublemaker'.(hey, i made life more dramatic and interesting ok??).without me, no conflicts will arise..huhu

"thank you friends, for not pulling my hair till it's bald...or kick me into leazes lake.."

those involved (again??), please accept my sincere apology...nver meant it to happen this way...promise u i wont disturb u again...in no time, i'll be invisible(borrowing harry potter's invisibility cloak)...

and thank you for everything..yes..i mean for everything...i know i cant repay it..(unless i'm super duper rich and u accept money as payment)

haih~life is hard...wish it was simple..and i can live it in a lavish style...

wanna be like this, minus the bottle..(bottle coke xpe..although i dont drink coke =p)

no matter sweet a fantasy is, the truth is always ugly..erkk...

oh...last two weeks a friend told me that i am a silent left-handed...meaning i was born to be left-handed but somehow my parents successfully force me to be right handed...

this is the way to figure out whether u are a lefty or not..

this is somehow true coz i remember my mm told me that when i was little(less than 3years old), i use my left hands to grab anything..and they manage to teach me to use and write with my right hands..yay!! ..hooray to them..i know there's nothing stopping my parents from growing up their children the way they wanted them to be..especially mum..hohoho...see, now im in overseas, studying medicine. 4 years back i'd never imagine myself as a doctor...(sissy, dont tell mom about this part ok??)

haha...what i'm trying to say is...we human can change our environment..and make the best out of it...

we made our own destiny

so, dont look back. nothing u can do if u looked back (and time machines never exists!!)..lets face ahead, creating the best for the future...yay!!

ps: currently i'm banned from the kitchen...what should i do??

Denial

finding myself doing unnecessary stuff (with the internet unsurprisingly) with an unfinished assignment lying around tho~..haih~
is this some sort of denial???i dont know either..been stressing out lately
and i cant figure out why...sigh~

these are the stuff i've been doing as an excuse not to face the assignment..

1. writing this post(obviously)
2. facebooking
3. checking the emails 9-10 times
4. read the forums on LSE
5. washing the dishes
6. house hunting
7. facebooking (again?)
8. stalking my partner's fb..
9. watching video clips
10. have i mentioned replying my emails??
11. watch movies
12. playing with things around me..

and the list goes on....

*loves the title of this post...kinda remind me of someone's name....

Durham......

i went to Durham today..the place where Harry Potter scene was filmed..

and honestly..it didnt go as much as i expected...

and believe me..its not worth the money i've spent..11 pound melayang begitu sahaje...

so..the moral of the story: plan ahead before u go somewhere!!!

duh~

pain in the chest..and i dunt know why~

stalker??

haha...i find myself in trouble when my big sis read my blog (as i've said previously, this blog is not supposed to be read by others as it is only pieces of craps here and there). Luckily..i managed to close the tab before she could finish it.haha seb baek previous topic psal book review, so im not that embarassed..hihi..
therefore,,this blog is in danger as few person tried to track it(actually a person has already read this blog and leave few comments..i dunno who the person is but im 99% sure he is a kmb student..am i right??)

ps: to dearest sis..wait till ive gone overseas.when i wont be seeing you for a long long time then u can read this craps.

NUMeds interview

wow..it's been 2 weeks since the interview but i cant get the thing out of my heads. There were like mixed feelings regarding this interview; fun,regret, weird, anxious, the cant-wait-the-result feeling andi dont know..many more!!
well for one thing..the interview session was held in a small room(my toilet is bigger than that!!) and me and the interviewers were sitting like some friends lepaking at the mamaks having some nice little chat(lol..if only thats true). what's more, it was the longest interview that i had in my entire life!! it was like 40 minutes in there..
I cant remember what crap things i've said back then. But one thing that stayed in my head is:
me: well..I don't intend on being doctor forever..after i get my MBBS i'll serve as a doctor for maybe 7-10 years and then i'm planning to do research..be a researcher.(why did i ever said this!!should have keep my mouth shut for good!!)

interviewer: so you're planning to do research..it is such a waste after the long years of study, the hardships you've gone through to become a doctor.but then again..what will other people, the community, and MARA itself would feel if you left the profession?

me: (OMG...i am so DEAD!!)...............