hurm...

got an email from the group gp tutor..its a reminder actually..reminding those who will be having the gp visit in the future to arrive 15 minutes early..she said some of the students were late and it isn't really good..
i think she was referring to us. we were 15 minutes late for the gp visit yesterday and we got the email today...i admit it was our fault..we should have go earlier (though i blame the taxi driver for being late as well!!)

this incident had somehow ruined my image as a good student..and the professionalism as a future doctor as well..dah la aritu x gi seminar, which was compulsory..i'm pretty sure that there's some notes in my record in the medical school, regarding the seminar thingie and also being late for gp visit..haih~since darjah 1 smpai la kt IB xpenah ade record..i mean, i do 'fly' during high school and in kms, seludup buku out of library, and lots more (owh..forgive me for these sins)but somehow i manage to get away. record bersih kot spanjang 20taun idup..tanye je la sape2 about me..mesti dorg kate syamin budak baek(hehe..but dont ask my previous roomate and those i'm closed with) but here..things were different..it doesnt go my way..hurm...

i need to work on something to make things right again..but how???what can i do?? i guess nothing...i can't turn back the time to fix all the wrongdoings..but maybe i can reflect back and improve myself..yep..let's see whether i'm gonna be better or not..

Defining Moment...

"any extra handout please!!!"



somebody at the back shouted. yeah..it was a lecture in RB Green Lecture Hall and surprisingly, the handouts werent enough for all the sudents including Khausar and I. most of the students were in their seatsalready. frustrated, those who didnt get the handout went to find their seats, including me. i sat next to qiehah, hoping that somehow handouts will appear magically out of nowhere. as if Allah granting my wish, a chinese girl headed to the front and put two extra handouts on the table. before somebody else took it, i quickly get up and grab the handouts. There were only two handouts, meant for me and khausar.



Out of sudden, before I could walk back to my seats, there was like a roar at the right side of the hall. it was from the two rows behind my seat.

"please, give the handouts to us"

"we need those handouts "

then i spotted Dan in the same row yelling, "Min...Min...", with the 'min give those handout to us, dont give it to others...' expression..yeah..it was kinda naughty expression..huhu

and i was like blinking for a second, a bit hesitated. eventually, i passed the handout to one of them. it was then i realized everybody was looking at me. i quickly sat at the seat, change my mind few seconds later and move up to sit beside khausar to share the handout.

again, before i could stand up, in the middle of the noises, i heard a girl say,

"oh..that's so sweet..."

and one of the girl behind me gave me back my handout. startled, i said it was ok..i can share with khausar. still the whole row of the girls insist me to take the it.

"take it. it's yours if u havent got one."

not wanting to make things more complicated, i took it and sat. the lectures starts few minutes later.

seriously, the incident affected me a lot..i couldn't concentrate on the lecturer throughout the whole 1 hour lecture...kept thinking about what had happened. these are few things that keeps my mind away from the lecturer..huhu..

1. those were Dan's friends...the huha2 type..the naughty kind of guys who loves party.. i was thinking what was their reaction...and i wonder whether Dan is going to tell them about me, his partner...
2. "oh..that's so sweet..." this affected me a lot...it seems like they were kinda impressed seeing someone gave their own handout to others...as if things like that had never ever happened before..
3. i felt a bit happy and relieved to have potrayed a good image of malaysian, NUMed student and the most importantly, as a muslim...it feels good to get a positive impressions form other people...coz i thought the full course student kinda have negative impression on the NUMed student...and i hate it!!

somehow my day has brighten up and that day is totally a defining moment for me..=)

night = sleep ??

it's 4.45 pm here.

and it's already maghrib.

and it's dark outside.
as if it's 9pm in Malaysia.

and isyak will come soon.
at 6.39pm

sigh~

the nights are getting longer.
does that mean that i'm gonna sleep longer??

another sigh~

and tomorrow i have the family visit at 7.30pm
maybe i'll be home around 10pm
which gonna be very late and dark
and i have to pass across the leazes park, alone to get home
which is kinda spooky

more sigh~

should i bring torchlight or a weapon for self defense???

Durham......

i went to Durham today..the place where Harry Potter scene was filmed..

and honestly..it didnt go as much as i expected...

and believe me..its not worth the money i've spent..11 pound melayang begitu sahaje...

so..the moral of the story: plan ahead before u go somewhere!!!

cheese and wine

i didnt come to cheese and wine party /event last nite..cuz....

1. there'll be lots of wine served...
2. cheese isnt my fav food (not to mention some cheeze products here are not halal)
3. it's an englishman 'social event'...u know what i mean..combined with reason no. 1..there'll be lots and lots of mabuk people...

and so..i didnt go. i told my peer parent that i cant make it to the event coz i'm not feeling very well bcoz of the rain or something...(typical alasan but then thank God for the rain even though it juz a bit drizzle...).

and then he replied...

Hey Syamin,

Am sorry to hear you're not feeling well... don't worry about cheese and wine!

If you fancied getting together for a coffee or lunch or something sometime then let me know - it'd be great to meet you!

Tom

and I was like.."ooowwhhhh...sweetnyer..."

he juz want to meet up and help me with anything he could..

and i lied to him...felt guilty for lying...

things

some of the things that happened to me recently:

1. i didnt notice that i have a deep,long scratch on my right hands..yeap..its bleeding but like i said..i didnt notice it..maybe because of the cold weather that makes my pain nerve mulfunction..l
ike last night..i accidentally cut myself while doing the dishes..it was quite deep and blood was pouring continously..yet i didnt feel anything..weird huh?

2. the wind was blowing strongly today...kalah angin kt beach..and at one time..while i was walking to the laundry..there's wind blowing against me..and i was like cant move forward even though i was trying so hard to move my right leg a step ahead..as if the wind put me on stop or something..funy isnt it??

3. the other students(other than malaysian obviously) seems to refuse to take a seat next to us(khausar and i) in the lecture hall..we've been experimenting a few times so that we can have other people to mix with..but then like yesterday it ends upwith only khausar and me on that row..hurmm...maybe we need to change our strategy...any ideas??

4. cant help it but im always very2 sleepy at 9pm...i dont know why...thats the reason i went to bed so early..kinda weird bcoz back in Malaysia, im always person whos gonna switch off the light at night..is it jetlag??i dont know.........