Sunday, July 31, 2005
Finished a book today, The Secret by Eva Hoffman. The plot/storyline itself wasnt that great but I guess the main theme was drawing enough to make up for it. The book was about a girl who found out she was a clone of her mother when she was 17. And how her life unfolds thereafter with a large chunk about her life before she found out 'the secret'.
I mean we've all heard about human cloning and how ethical (or not) it is to play God. But I've always thought clones are only physically identical but that wasnt the case in the story. The clone was made out to be identical in almost every way. She even felt her emotions were not really hers but belonging to her mother. Well it's true that they share the exact same chromosomes but I've never thought of human emotions to be connected to the genes. I've always looked at emotion as a separate thing. Something we experience. But I guess if emotion is processed by the brain and they have the 'same' brain, then it might be true on some level that her emotions are not really hers. But still, the experiences they go through are different and experience definitely plays a role in shaping our emotions no?
The story also sort of shed light on a new side of cloning that I havent seen before. Previously I've stood neutral in the matter of cloning, neither supporting not opposing. But I guess after reading this book, it's hard not to step a little closer to the opposition. I have nothing against genetic engineering and research in that field but I maybe playing God isnt such a good idea. Especially when looking from the side of the clone instead of just us humans.
I mean we've all heard about human cloning and how ethical (or not) it is to play God. But I've always thought clones are only physically identical but that wasnt the case in the story. The clone was made out to be identical in almost every way. She even felt her emotions were not really hers but belonging to her mother. Well it's true that they share the exact same chromosomes but I've never thought of human emotions to be connected to the genes. I've always looked at emotion as a separate thing. Something we experience. But I guess if emotion is processed by the brain and they have the 'same' brain, then it might be true on some level that her emotions are not really hers. But still, the experiences they go through are different and experience definitely plays a role in shaping our emotions no?
The story also sort of shed light on a new side of cloning that I havent seen before. Previously I've stood neutral in the matter of cloning, neither supporting not opposing. But I guess after reading this book, it's hard not to step a little closer to the opposition. I have nothing against genetic engineering and research in that field but I maybe playing God isnt such a good idea. Especially when looking from the side of the clone instead of just us humans.
What are dreams supposed to be? Is it part of our conscious thoughts? Or maybe our subconscious at work? Or something more intangible?
I've been having 'weird' dreams every night for the past week. I feel that dreams are a reflection of something (what exactly I do not know yet). Often, I can figure out rationally how I came to have a certain dream. Like bits and pieces of events, objects or conversation that I happen to come across during the day (or week and sometimes time isnt really a factor) might end up somewhere in my dream.
But there are times when I'm really puzzled by my dreams. Like how I often dream of people I have never met before. Or how my dreams are usually set in places I've never been to before. It's like in my dream I'm at home, yet my home is not a place I've lived in before (in real life). Question is have I met these people before sometime during my day to day life but have not consciously perceived their presence? Or are they really made up by me?
Last night's dream gave rise to another question. In one part of the dream, a friend had answered a question (Are you going to run?) with 'Is this the first day you know me?' (or something along that line). Personally I had expected him to run. If I was awake and I was asked to think about it, I would have guessed there was a 80 - 20 % chance of him running. But yet in my dream he stayed. Could it be my subconscious is more perceptive of the personality of my friend? Or was it just me trying to contradict myself? Or maybe it was me trying to change my friend?
Oh well.. I guess it's ok as long as I dont get nightmares (or too emotionally draining dreams, like the ones I had a few days back). Dreams can be fun and often funny even (at least mine are..lol)
I've been having 'weird' dreams every night for the past week. I feel that dreams are a reflection of something (what exactly I do not know yet). Often, I can figure out rationally how I came to have a certain dream. Like bits and pieces of events, objects or conversation that I happen to come across during the day (or week and sometimes time isnt really a factor) might end up somewhere in my dream.
But there are times when I'm really puzzled by my dreams. Like how I often dream of people I have never met before. Or how my dreams are usually set in places I've never been to before. It's like in my dream I'm at home, yet my home is not a place I've lived in before (in real life). Question is have I met these people before sometime during my day to day life but have not consciously perceived their presence? Or are they really made up by me?
Last night's dream gave rise to another question. In one part of the dream, a friend had answered a question (Are you going to run?) with 'Is this the first day you know me?' (or something along that line). Personally I had expected him to run. If I was awake and I was asked to think about it, I would have guessed there was a 80 - 20 % chance of him running. But yet in my dream he stayed. Could it be my subconscious is more perceptive of the personality of my friend? Or was it just me trying to contradict myself? Or maybe it was me trying to change my friend?
Oh well.. I guess it's ok as long as I dont get nightmares (or too emotionally draining dreams, like the ones I had a few days back). Dreams can be fun and often funny even (at least mine are..lol)
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
And so my physio test is OVER! :) It felt better than the first two tests but then again, I usually end up doing not so well whenever I leave the exam hall feeling the test was good. So I guess I'll just wait til after the results are out before I comment any further.
Is it just me or is a 6" long sub not all that feeling? It wont even last me 4 hrs! That's what happened tonight. Sigh... Ended up going to Tim Horton's with Bertina for late night coffee and snack. It was good though since I didnt have anything else to do anyway. The weather has taken a turn for the better and for that I am thankful. The walk just now was pleasant enough even with the slight drizzle. Cool breeze :)
Read some 'interesting' news today:
1) The possibility of the existance of "Sasquatch aka Big Foot" - it seems there were some residents in some remote (I think) area somewhere in BC who claim to have saw Big Foot running around. So, scientist are going to carry out a DNA test to determine what the creature really was.
2) A man was killed by his cow. Supposedly the man was going to milk the cow and somehow he slipped. He probably held onto some equipments that came crashing down as he fell and that scared to cow, that promptly slipped and fell onto the man. (This is one news I cant quite decide if it's weird/funny/sad. I guess it's probably a mixture of all three)
3) A boy had drowned near the Wasaga Beach. He was only 6 years old I think. It's pretty sad for a young kid to just die like that. He could have his whole life ahead. Now I'm beginning to question if I believe in rebirth. Hmm.. guess that's something for me to think about.
Is it just me or is a 6" long sub not all that feeling? It wont even last me 4 hrs! That's what happened tonight. Sigh... Ended up going to Tim Horton's with Bertina for late night coffee and snack. It was good though since I didnt have anything else to do anyway. The weather has taken a turn for the better and for that I am thankful. The walk just now was pleasant enough even with the slight drizzle. Cool breeze :)
Read some 'interesting' news today:
1) The possibility of the existance of "Sasquatch aka Big Foot" - it seems there were some residents in some remote (I think) area somewhere in BC who claim to have saw Big Foot running around. So, scientist are going to carry out a DNA test to determine what the creature really was.
2) A man was killed by his cow. Supposedly the man was going to milk the cow and somehow he slipped. He probably held onto some equipments that came crashing down as he fell and that scared to cow, that promptly slipped and fell onto the man. (This is one news I cant quite decide if it's weird/funny/sad. I guess it's probably a mixture of all three)
3) A boy had drowned near the Wasaga Beach. He was only 6 years old I think. It's pretty sad for a young kid to just die like that. He could have his whole life ahead. Now I'm beginning to question if I believe in rebirth. Hmm.. guess that's something for me to think about.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Suprised myself by 'finishing' my physio revision this afternoon. SO not my style to finish more than 24 hrs ahead of the test. And I still feel unprepared for it. Sigh...
Went out for dinner with Bertina just now cause 1) I'm lazy to cook 2) I still dont have veg 3) I needed to get out of the house. The food wasnt as good as the last time we went but I think it was good that I did go out. For some reason there were quite alot of people in the restaurant when we got there. I was always under the impression that Mondays are usually less busy since people usually go out for food during the weekends. Oh well..
Came back and watched part of 'Clueless' over some girl talk. Some interesting things are happening. lol Watched "Hitch" after that since I still wasnt in the mood to study physio. The movie wasnt that great but since Will Smith is the lead actor, that kinda makes up for it ;)
Went out for dinner with Bertina just now cause 1) I'm lazy to cook 2) I still dont have veg 3) I needed to get out of the house. The food wasnt as good as the last time we went but I think it was good that I did go out. For some reason there were quite alot of people in the restaurant when we got there. I was always under the impression that Mondays are usually less busy since people usually go out for food during the weekends. Oh well..
Came back and watched part of 'Clueless' over some girl talk. Some interesting things are happening. lol Watched "Hitch" after that since I still wasnt in the mood to study physio. The movie wasnt that great but since Will Smith is the lead actor, that kinda makes up for it ;)
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Just watched 'You've Got Mail'. I've watched it before a long long time ago but I pretty much forgot the story. It was ok I guess. Had pizza delivered cause I was too lazy to make dinner and I didn't feel like noodles again. Plus I've ran out of vegetables and I don't see myself going to get groceries anytime before Tuesday. Sigh. Thankfully I still have some apples left. Gonna be low on vitamins for the next couple of days I guess.
Was pretty stressed out over the coming physio test. For some reason I'm more stressed out about this test than the first one (even though that was the neuro and endocrine part). Everyone is saying the second half is easier than the first half but I dont know. Maybe it's cause I did better than I could hope for in the past two tests, so much so that now I want/need to keep it up. But when I thought about it again, I realized it's just a 26 mcq test. It's stupid to be THIS stressed out over it, which is why I ended up watching the movie just now.
I think my ability to taste is coming back. And I dont know if it's just me but everything seem to taste extra salty all of a sudden. Well I guess better that than bland as long as it's not me over-salting my food :p
Had Indian buffet for lunch yesterday. The selection was pretty limited but the food itself was reasonably good. The tandoori chicken was one of the better ones I've had since it wasnt dry at all though I cant say the same for the naan (cause it was abit burnt). Was kinda disappointed they didnt actually serve any curry. They closest they had was 'Butter Chicken' (which was really good.. so that kinda makes up for it a little I guess.) The weird thing is we finished lunch around 2 pm but I was full up until 12. Must have been the oil I guess.
Will dropped by just now after collecting his mail. As he was leaving he told Bertina he hasnt seen her in a long time. It was kinda funny cause Bertina replied "I saw you last week" since he was here last Saturday. It seemed like he really didn't notice it's only been a week. He actually asked me 'was it only last week?' lol
Anyway, I should start 'ploughing' through my physio. Cant wait for Tuesday. Then all this will be over and done with. I wonder with all those people dropping physio, will the average take a sudden jump all of a sudden in this upcoming test. Will I then fall to average? Can only hope for the best.
*Note: I've taken the time to use Caps where they belong in this post because I was procrastinating. Not looking forward to going back to physio but there's only so much I can do.
Was pretty stressed out over the coming physio test. For some reason I'm more stressed out about this test than the first one (even though that was the neuro and endocrine part). Everyone is saying the second half is easier than the first half but I dont know. Maybe it's cause I did better than I could hope for in the past two tests, so much so that now I want/need to keep it up. But when I thought about it again, I realized it's just a 26 mcq test. It's stupid to be THIS stressed out over it, which is why I ended up watching the movie just now.
I think my ability to taste is coming back. And I dont know if it's just me but everything seem to taste extra salty all of a sudden. Well I guess better that than bland as long as it's not me over-salting my food :p
Had Indian buffet for lunch yesterday. The selection was pretty limited but the food itself was reasonably good. The tandoori chicken was one of the better ones I've had since it wasnt dry at all though I cant say the same for the naan (cause it was abit burnt). Was kinda disappointed they didnt actually serve any curry. They closest they had was 'Butter Chicken' (which was really good.. so that kinda makes up for it a little I guess.) The weird thing is we finished lunch around 2 pm but I was full up until 12. Must have been the oil I guess.
Will dropped by just now after collecting his mail. As he was leaving he told Bertina he hasnt seen her in a long time. It was kinda funny cause Bertina replied "I saw you last week" since he was here last Saturday. It seemed like he really didn't notice it's only been a week. He actually asked me 'was it only last week?' lol
Anyway, I should start 'ploughing' through my physio. Cant wait for Tuesday. Then all this will be over and done with. I wonder with all those people dropping physio, will the average take a sudden jump all of a sudden in this upcoming test. Will I then fall to average? Can only hope for the best.
*Note: I've taken the time to use Caps where they belong in this post because I was procrastinating. Not looking forward to going back to physio but there's only so much I can do.
Thursday, July 21, 2005
i cant taste!! :( well not exactly cant but i can barely taste what i'm eating. especially insensitive to salt i think. and im quite certain it's not my sense of smell but my tongue cause i can still smell everything just fine.. but when i put it in my mouth.. it's just bland.. sigh.. looked it up to find a cause. was thinking maybe it's the nutrient deficiency but then again i'm quite sure i've been consuming enough vit B12, iron and zinc lately. this is bad. maybe i should go see a doctor but i'm thinking it might sound a little weird telling a doctor i cant taste. i guess i'll just wait a couple more days and see if it gets better.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
there's a creepy guy working in 7 eleven! sigh.. sometimes i wonder if it's just me being paranoid but when i see him i really get this 'feeling' in my gut.. sigh...maybe i'll have to look for a new place to get milk from now on..
spent the night talking in bertina's room instead of studying for my physio test.. sigh... i'm so horrible.. i know i was supposed to study but yet i wasnt in the mood and took the lazy way out..
finally watched 'Marco'.. i thought it was pretty good.. i sure had a few good laughs.. will be looking forward to kevin's new production this summer.. just hope it doesnt take forever to get to me..
spent the night talking in bertina's room instead of studying for my physio test.. sigh... i'm so horrible.. i know i was supposed to study but yet i wasnt in the mood and took the lazy way out..
finally watched 'Marco'.. i thought it was pretty good.. i sure had a few good laughs.. will be looking forward to kevin's new production this summer.. just hope it doesnt take forever to get to me..
Monday, July 18, 2005
seems like there's more than one good news today.. i finally got back my physio marks.. better than expected! :) i hope this will be the motivation i need to start my revision for the test next week. it seems physio during the summer this year is not as easy as last year because they changed the course coordinator (to valerie watts.. she may be the friendliest and nicest person around.. but her questions are killers) so pretty much she decided to cram all the stuff they do during the actual year into 3 months.. which can be quite a pain (for me and the rest of my coursemates i guess) and now i see people dropping the course left and right.. cause everyone was expecting it to be 'easy' (right!)
did walked around quite abit today to get my supplies. the scary part was my knees were weak when i was walking down the stairs for some unknown reason (at first i suspected it's cause i havent left the house the past 3 days so i'm lacking practice.. but then i remembered on friday when i went to the office to see kim, my walk down the stairs wasnt too pleasant either.. hmm.. maybe i should get my legs checked.. sigh.. i feel so old!lol)
did walked around quite abit today to get my supplies. the scary part was my knees were weak when i was walking down the stairs for some unknown reason (at first i suspected it's cause i havent left the house the past 3 days so i'm lacking practice.. but then i remembered on friday when i went to the office to see kim, my walk down the stairs wasnt too pleasant either.. hmm.. maybe i should get my legs checked.. sigh.. i feel so old!lol)
it's 8.52 am and i just had this déjà vu feeling.. a little weird.. but oh well..
i managed to get all my courses.. wasnt really much of an accomplishment considering i have priority for six out of the eight courses i'm taking and i had an early start time, but still it's one more thing done and out of the way. and i found out most of my classes are in MS! :) there's one crappy lecture in ES and maybe another in MP but the rest (even my lab!) are going to be in MS! woo hoo! the good thing is that i can leave even later and not have to worry about being late.. while the bad is probably the fact that i'll be walking alot less and since walking is about the only 'exercise' i do... sigh.. i hope i wont have to resort to going to the gym..
i managed to get all my courses.. wasnt really much of an accomplishment considering i have priority for six out of the eight courses i'm taking and i had an early start time, but still it's one more thing done and out of the way. and i found out most of my classes are in MS! :) there's one crappy lecture in ES and maybe another in MP but the rest (even my lab!) are going to be in MS! woo hoo! the good thing is that i can leave even later and not have to worry about being late.. while the bad is probably the fact that i'll be walking alot less and since walking is about the only 'exercise' i do... sigh.. i hope i wont have to resort to going to the gym..
Sunday, July 17, 2005
brb... that's a common enough 'phrase' to use.. the first time i encountered it was probably when i played gin a long time ago with some stranger online. it's commonly used as an abbreviation for 'be right back' but there have been times when i think of it as 'bathroom break' (why not? someone might need to take a leak halfway through the game? and yes, i've been told more than once that im 'funny' - funny as in humourous or funny as in weird i dunno... probably a little of both) anyway, as i was saying, brb is not a phrase i use on a regular basis.. mainly because if im just going to the kitchen to grab a glass of water or to get some food, i'll be back in no time. most people wouldnt even know (or have to know) i was away for that little while.. which leads to the next question.. when exactly do you use brb? and how long exactly is 'right back'? long enough for people to notice you're not there but not long enough for them to think you've fallen asleep in front of your pc? 5 mins? 10 mins? 20 mins? 1 hr? i personally think it's a pretty subjective matter.. it's up to the person who says it to define how long exactly 'right back' is.. but if that person is not planning to coming back 'soon enough' (also a subjective matter) why not just kill the conversation with 'i've gotta go do _______ (fill in the blank) and then start the conversation again when you're done with whatever you had to do? or maybe it's just me taking brb too literally.. oh well..
i made honey with pork again today.. and it's as good as the first time.. so it wasnt a fluke! muahaha! now i'm considering adding mushroom (and maybe a little veg) in next time so it wont be all meat.
gotta wake up early tomorrow to register for my courses.. i've look over my timetable and realized that even though i have 5 courses both during the fall and spring term, i'll only have 14 hrs of class in fall but 19 hours in spring! personally i'd rather suffer first then enjoy the lighter load in spring.. (since i have a tendency to slack off as the year progresses) but i guess i dont really have a choice since all my courses only have one lecture section.. but if the anti-calendar is anything to go by, i should be pretty lucky to be taking the courses i'm taking next year.. so *fingers crossed*
i made honey with pork again today.. and it's as good as the first time.. so it wasnt a fluke! muahaha! now i'm considering adding mushroom (and maybe a little veg) in next time so it wont be all meat.
gotta wake up early tomorrow to register for my courses.. i've look over my timetable and realized that even though i have 5 courses both during the fall and spring term, i'll only have 14 hrs of class in fall but 19 hours in spring! personally i'd rather suffer first then enjoy the lighter load in spring.. (since i have a tendency to slack off as the year progresses) but i guess i dont really have a choice since all my courses only have one lecture section.. but if the anti-calendar is anything to go by, i should be pretty lucky to be taking the courses i'm taking next year.. so *fingers crossed*
Saturday, July 16, 2005
i have sixth sense! haha.. an 'unexpected' visitor dropped by.. and my 'predictions' of him getting caught in the rain on his way back really came true.lol and i found out he didnt know how to pronounce my name.. have never thought of my name as hard to pronounce until he choked on the word... haha.. not really offended or anything coz i am very lousy with names myself.. and have on more than one account talked (like really carry out proper conversations) with people whom i have absolutely zero clue about their names (usually because i've forgotten)..
was considering dropping by city hall to check out the Thai massage.. but was just too lazy.. plus the weather didnt help at all.. oh well.. i did ended up having tom yum noodles for dinner.. which is sort of thai-ishy i guess :p
it's supposed to cool down alot more next week.. beginning wednesday! i really cant wait.. considering i have a test on tuesday the week after, the change will hopefully get me out of my lazy mood..
was considering dropping by city hall to check out the Thai massage.. but was just too lazy.. plus the weather didnt help at all.. oh well.. i did ended up having tom yum noodles for dinner.. which is sort of thai-ishy i guess :p
it's supposed to cool down alot more next week.. beginning wednesday! i really cant wait.. considering i have a test on tuesday the week after, the change will hopefully get me out of my lazy mood..
Friday, July 15, 2005
to "assume" makes an ass out of u and me.. it may be an old saying but how true it is.. i need some time out.. i've been hormonal the past couple of days.. feeling tired and easily irritated.. doesnt take much to rub me the wrong way..
im looking forward to this evening.. was thinking of going out in search of some company.. but on second thought, a little solitude will do me good. it's been awhile since i had my "me-time".. if only the temperature is lower, maybe i'll feel less tired and can go out (or stay home) as long as i enjoy myself.. sigh..
i've finally finished reading 'pilgrim'.. felt like it took forever.. even though it's only been a couple of days.. there were interesting questions but overall it wasnt as good as i would have hoped.. i wasnt even really hooked as i would normally be. harry potter will be released midnight tonight.. have been contemplating pre-ordering the past two weeks.. didnt get around to it so i guess i'll just have to wait abit more..
im looking forward to this evening.. was thinking of going out in search of some company.. but on second thought, a little solitude will do me good. it's been awhile since i had my "me-time".. if only the temperature is lower, maybe i'll feel less tired and can go out (or stay home) as long as i enjoy myself.. sigh..
i've finally finished reading 'pilgrim'.. felt like it took forever.. even though it's only been a couple of days.. there were interesting questions but overall it wasnt as good as i would have hoped.. i wasnt even really hooked as i would normally be. harry potter will be released midnight tonight.. have been contemplating pre-ordering the past two weeks.. didnt get around to it so i guess i'll just have to wait abit more..
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
exactly how embarrassing will it be for a person from m'sia to pass out from the heat in canada? honestly, this is one thing i hope i wont find out through personal experience... during my walk this afternoon, it was soooo hot i could really picture myself passing out.. and the bad news.. the weather is going to stay until next week at least... can anyone just tell me how am i supposed to survive?? sigh.. oh what i would give to have a/c now...
finally got my grade for greek myth.. brightened my day! :) this is one course that i took purely out of interest and actually managed to do well enough.. as of now, my worst electives are still history and nutrition (equal)
i'm quite done planning out my timetable. there are quite a few courses i'd like to take but cant due to clashes with my required courses.. sucks..
just got back from dinner in canoe... i think it's the most expensive meal of my life so far.. the food was pretty good.. the appetizer was great (very small portion though) i guess they cant afford to serve up so many scallops and shrimps for the price they are charging :p
also found out that my alcohol resistance is pretty low.. well i've always known that i flush easily (due to lack of acetyldehyde dehydrogenase) but now i found out my tolerance level isnt that high either.. sigh...
finally got my grade for greek myth.. brightened my day! :) this is one course that i took purely out of interest and actually managed to do well enough.. as of now, my worst electives are still history and nutrition (equal)
i'm quite done planning out my timetable. there are quite a few courses i'd like to take but cant due to clashes with my required courses.. sucks..
just got back from dinner in canoe... i think it's the most expensive meal of my life so far.. the food was pretty good.. the appetizer was great (very small portion though) i guess they cant afford to serve up so many scallops and shrimps for the price they are charging :p
also found out that my alcohol resistance is pretty low.. well i've always known that i flush easily (due to lack of acetyldehyde dehydrogenase) but now i found out my tolerance level isnt that high either.. sigh...
Friday, July 08, 2005
physio test is finally over! sucked big time.. especially valerie watt's section.. her questions were killers.. each and everyone of them! :(
finally checked out the sushi buffet today.. after i came back.. variety wise it was pretty good... but quality wise.. meh.. the rice was definitely too wet.. and the avocado was sooo soft if felt like this glob of thing that disintegrates the moment it hits your tongue.. the miso soup was definitely too salty (and i think they added MSG in there coz i was thirsty the rest of the night.. and well right up til now.. the morning after) and we ended up eating sooo much.. we had to go for a walk before we head home..
my 'original' timetable doesnt work anymore coz they changed the time for pharmaceutical chem so that it clashes with one of my required pcl courses.. so i'll have to switch to something else.. at the moment that something else happens to be another physio course.. but since it's a course that requires permission to enrol in, we'll have to see how that goes.. one bad thing about being in toxicology... alot of the courses are already set (i.e i dont really get to choose what i wanna take) and the few subjects that i can choose always always clashes with my fixed timetable.. sigh..
i got a card from rex today.. sweet! :)
as for why im awake now.. at 8 plus in the morning.. i wish i knew.. i'm supposed to be in bed! but i cant seem to sleep.. maybe my circadian clock hasnt been reset yet.. lol (coz i've been waking up early to study physio the past few days)
finally checked out the sushi buffet today.. after i came back.. variety wise it was pretty good... but quality wise.. meh.. the rice was definitely too wet.. and the avocado was sooo soft if felt like this glob of thing that disintegrates the moment it hits your tongue.. the miso soup was definitely too salty (and i think they added MSG in there coz i was thirsty the rest of the night.. and well right up til now.. the morning after) and we ended up eating sooo much.. we had to go for a walk before we head home..
my 'original' timetable doesnt work anymore coz they changed the time for pharmaceutical chem so that it clashes with one of my required pcl courses.. so i'll have to switch to something else.. at the moment that something else happens to be another physio course.. but since it's a course that requires permission to enrol in, we'll have to see how that goes.. one bad thing about being in toxicology... alot of the courses are already set (i.e i dont really get to choose what i wanna take) and the few subjects that i can choose always always clashes with my fixed timetable.. sigh..
i got a card from rex today.. sweet! :)
as for why im awake now.. at 8 plus in the morning.. i wish i knew.. i'm supposed to be in bed! but i cant seem to sleep.. maybe my circadian clock hasnt been reset yet.. lol (coz i've been waking up early to study physio the past few days)
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
sometimes i act so much like a kid... right now i cant stop grinning... feels kinda stupid.. but i cant help it.. my day seems a little brighter already.. but if there's one thing that can sober me up.. it'll be physio.. 12 more lectures to go..
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
so here i am .. in gerstein on a tuesday afternoon.. not cramming for my physio test on thursday but instead updating my blog..
i happened to check my horoscope today and it said i am supposed to be having a fantastic day.. but in so far.. it's been quite crappy. wake up in the morning.. no milk! argh.. then i went to do laundry.. after i put the clothes in the dryer i tried to do abit of physio reading.. not overly successful but i managed to finish half a lecture. went to collect my clothes and discovered they are still wet! some idiot must have opened the dryer or something. and it was almost 12 already.. and i have a class at 1. so either i rush down to collect my clothes before i go to class.. or i can leave it in the dryer til i come home after class (at 8 pm!) decided to be considerate and collect my clothes before class... breeze walked to class.. manage to get there on time... then i realize it's a greek social/cultural/literature course.. not history/politics.. i mean i dont like politics all that much.. but literature? hmm.. not exactly my cup of tea either.
and then there's the amount of reading and books i need to get. it's only a 6 weeks course.. but i have to get like 5 books or something.. sigh.. i dunno if i should take it or just drop it. the lecturer seems a little funny i guess.. but he's not like wow! great or anything.. and then there's still physio that i havent finished. ok.. maybe im thinking a little short term there.. but still, i've actually fulfilled all my distribution requirements.. i dont need to take this course for that.. the reason i'm taking it is prolly coz it's the rare one that fits my schedule for summer... coz darn physio lectures just had to be on tues and thurs 5 - 8.. clashing with just about every other course im interested in. still decided whether to drop or not to drop.. if i drop this i might be able to take another science course during the term.. but the bad thing would be.. i'd have to work with a heavier load during the term too... sigh... how come things never turn out the way we want them to?
another problem is physio.. i cant seem to really sit down and study.. keep getting distracted by stuff.. it's like there's a hundred and one things going on inside my head and im trying to add physio in.. this is soooo bad... i need to do something about it.. but i think part of the reason im not concentrating is coz im stressed out.. i keep telling myself i need to do really well on this test.. and now im just about to blow!
called kx the other night. i was hoping it'll cheer me up a little.. and get me motivated to study.. but that sure didnt happen.. it's one of the rare times when talking to her didnt help... i need to do something about my condition.. and soon.. coz if this goes on.. im so gonna flop my physio.. and that is one thing i definitely dont need right now.
a little bit of time left before tutorial.. i guess i should go grab something to eat.. and hopefully it'll last me til 8.
i happened to check my horoscope today and it said i am supposed to be having a fantastic day.. but in so far.. it's been quite crappy. wake up in the morning.. no milk! argh.. then i went to do laundry.. after i put the clothes in the dryer i tried to do abit of physio reading.. not overly successful but i managed to finish half a lecture. went to collect my clothes and discovered they are still wet! some idiot must have opened the dryer or something. and it was almost 12 already.. and i have a class at 1. so either i rush down to collect my clothes before i go to class.. or i can leave it in the dryer til i come home after class (at 8 pm!) decided to be considerate and collect my clothes before class... breeze walked to class.. manage to get there on time... then i realize it's a greek social/cultural/literature course.. not history/politics.. i mean i dont like politics all that much.. but literature? hmm.. not exactly my cup of tea either.
and then there's the amount of reading and books i need to get. it's only a 6 weeks course.. but i have to get like 5 books or something.. sigh.. i dunno if i should take it or just drop it. the lecturer seems a little funny i guess.. but he's not like wow! great or anything.. and then there's still physio that i havent finished. ok.. maybe im thinking a little short term there.. but still, i've actually fulfilled all my distribution requirements.. i dont need to take this course for that.. the reason i'm taking it is prolly coz it's the rare one that fits my schedule for summer... coz darn physio lectures just had to be on tues and thurs 5 - 8.. clashing with just about every other course im interested in. still decided whether to drop or not to drop.. if i drop this i might be able to take another science course during the term.. but the bad thing would be.. i'd have to work with a heavier load during the term too... sigh... how come things never turn out the way we want them to?
another problem is physio.. i cant seem to really sit down and study.. keep getting distracted by stuff.. it's like there's a hundred and one things going on inside my head and im trying to add physio in.. this is soooo bad... i need to do something about it.. but i think part of the reason im not concentrating is coz im stressed out.. i keep telling myself i need to do really well on this test.. and now im just about to blow!
called kx the other night. i was hoping it'll cheer me up a little.. and get me motivated to study.. but that sure didnt happen.. it's one of the rare times when talking to her didnt help... i need to do something about my condition.. and soon.. coz if this goes on.. im so gonna flop my physio.. and that is one thing i definitely dont need right now.
a little bit of time left before tutorial.. i guess i should go grab something to eat.. and hopefully it'll last me til 8.
Friday, July 01, 2005
i think im going to fall sick soon.. i feel so hot all the time.. inside and out... now really isnt the best time for me to be sick.. especially not with physio midterm coming up next week.
i've been doing a very weird thing lately.. going to the library (gerstein - i keep getting reminded about that embarrassing incident with py last yr. lol)! i've always said im not a library person.. which is quite true.. until i realize i dont actually mind the library when there arent too many ppl walking around/talking.. i've spent the past two days at the library studying.. yesterday in the afternoon and today in the morning.. i've decided afternoon is a better time for me... or maybe it's just coz i didnt get good sleep yesterday.. anyway, i've decided i like that particular seat on the second floor.. so hopefully i'll be able to get it every time i go.. prolly not going to happen though... since it's a pretty strategic seat..
had one of the worse physio lectures today.. the guy was talking on and on... giving tips here and there for the exam.. but still.. i was soooo tempted to leave.. but i didnt.. i think i have that guy (i dunno his name) to thank.. his recorder is still with me.. so i've gotta return it to him the next class (so no excuse to skip the next lecture).. the weirdest part is the guy doesnt even know my name! or at least he never asked me.. personally i dont think i would pass my recorder to someone i dun really know.. but he did.. maybe i looked honest enough :p but he did ask for my number and i dunno what got into me.. i told him i didnt have a hp.. instead of giving him my house number like usual.. but he still left it with me... oh well..
tomorrow's canada day.. havent much plan.. prolly going to get good rest and do more physio reading.. but the libraries are not going to be opened.. which is bad coz it's definitely too hot to study at home.. sigh..
i should prolly go to bed... get more rest and hopefully with enough water and sleep i wont get sick..
i've been doing a very weird thing lately.. going to the library (gerstein - i keep getting reminded about that embarrassing incident with py last yr. lol)! i've always said im not a library person.. which is quite true.. until i realize i dont actually mind the library when there arent too many ppl walking around/talking.. i've spent the past two days at the library studying.. yesterday in the afternoon and today in the morning.. i've decided afternoon is a better time for me... or maybe it's just coz i didnt get good sleep yesterday.. anyway, i've decided i like that particular seat on the second floor.. so hopefully i'll be able to get it every time i go.. prolly not going to happen though... since it's a pretty strategic seat..
had one of the worse physio lectures today.. the guy was talking on and on... giving tips here and there for the exam.. but still.. i was soooo tempted to leave.. but i didnt.. i think i have that guy (i dunno his name) to thank.. his recorder is still with me.. so i've gotta return it to him the next class (so no excuse to skip the next lecture).. the weirdest part is the guy doesnt even know my name! or at least he never asked me.. personally i dont think i would pass my recorder to someone i dun really know.. but he did.. maybe i looked honest enough :p but he did ask for my number and i dunno what got into me.. i told him i didnt have a hp.. instead of giving him my house number like usual.. but he still left it with me... oh well..
tomorrow's canada day.. havent much plan.. prolly going to get good rest and do more physio reading.. but the libraries are not going to be opened.. which is bad coz it's definitely too hot to study at home.. sigh..
i should prolly go to bed... get more rest and hopefully with enough water and sleep i wont get sick..
