Just went to a hot yoga studio near my house. In fact this is my first hot yoga class. Been hesitant to try one, but luckily I survived the heat lol.

It's quite a new studio and I am impressed by the management! It's a very clean, bright and cozy studio with a cafe. Two towels and a locker keys are given when you enter. Shower rooms with shampoo and shower gels are provided. Water cooler are in place. There are also some seats next to the water cooler. The handsoap are labeled with their logo. Hair dryer, hair straightener, cotton buds and plastic bags for sweaty clothes are provided. What more can I ask for.

In the yoga room, mats are pre-arranged (Manduka mat... quality sia). The towel given to you is to places on top of the mat... to keep the mat clean ...sorta...
There are two teachers (probably sisters) leading the class 7 days a week. They have a very attractive website, with updated class schedule. They even have an app to book classes.
This could be a role model ... if I decide to open a studio myself in the future... heh heh...

多久多久  没有问自己 有什么感受
而不是 麻痹自己 去逞强
就连一句简单的 “how are you" 都变得没有意义
多久了 每一天都过得步步为营 看不见前面的路
多久多久 每天的话题 就是 陌生人的病痛
多久没有用母语 说出自己的心情
多久 只是在接收 facebook 单方面的讯息
喜讯噩讯 八卦新闻 沾不上关系

多久多久没有看到蓝天 没有一口像样的中餐
没有平静的庙宇
没有熟悉的幽默感
没有认识的电视节目

只求有人共享一顿好餐 共感共叹
只求一个好天 一个惊喜的转角

我累了 這单调的城市 让我感觉脱节 我曾熟悉的世界 在这里毫无踪迹
而我缅怀的世界到底是什么 我所谓的家到底是哪里
是那回不去的多伦多， 回得去吗？
还是那让我窒息的岛国？
还是那格外陌生 乱中有序的大城市？

Looking back at the blog links from my blog. Only Kitiya still update her blog up till 2011. 

Most of them are unaccessible lol. But I am going to keep those links here because it was part of my memories, when I first started blogging here in Toronto. 

Once upon a time when we all write blogs ^o^\\\ 

因为放下

我说 我的挣扎结束了 不再自欺欺人了
你说 结束就结束了 你可不要偷偷伤心
因为放下 才记得 什么叫被了解
不想再为了不懂我的人 啜泣伤神 因为他们终究不会懂

Feeling heavy to go back to Glasgow for another year of study.
It's been good, tough.
I must have feel even worse last year, not knowing what to expect in a new place, doing a Master program that I never thought I am capable of. Not knowing anyone.
But this year... it doesn't feel easier. Doesn't feel more supportive. Because I know how shitty is the winter, I know how hard it is to get out of my bed to work sometimes. I know how unmotivated am I to do my dissertation. Losing my peace and energy :(

你用你所有的力气 来追求生命所有的绮丽
却 无法取得专一地让自己 留在一个定点

Despite the study stress and the transition period awkwardness, I appreciate being able to go to gym and focus solely on muscle and anatomy for now. That's definitely something new!

2 weeks into Glasgow.
There's something rigid in my mentality.
Like I am not here to have fun.
Like I am here just for a mission.
And social time feels like a necessity or sometimes a drag instead of just having fun.
Coursework is tough but doesn't have to feel like you have to grit your teeth and get through it.
I think I need to chill and start to live life. 
Start to appreciate... I'm here not because I have to... but just because it is.