work

after working a few jobs,

I realized I usually am very excited about work the first month of work slowly lose the passion, then I start to become lazy and dread work.

how? why am I like that?
I don't want to go to work or do a job that I do not look forward to. I believe I can make a conscious choice to choose a job I find fun or like to do.

it shouldn't be a chore.

I know in future if I change jobs like that I'll probably never get promotions or pay rise. but I can't help it? I have put up and endured with studying for so many years I don't want to be putting up with something all the time.

maybe for jobs, there is also 'The One'.

maybe my calling is just not here yet.